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It hasn’t been that long….but, it feels like it!!

This has been a crazy weekend, starting with our winter trip to the zoo. Before you have me committed, let me explain!!! There was a really nice giraffe lady that told us to come in the winter because many of the animals are more active and vocal during the cold months. So…we decided to brave the cold….and it was WORTH it!! Not only did we learn that our (<–yes we’ve staked claim) giraffe has finally become pregnant, but holy crap the animals were relishing the cold weather. The lions were playing…and growling like crazy, the elusive red panda was playing in the snow, oh and we learned the zoo has a Starbucks. It was fantastic! Not to mention…no one goes to the zoo when it’s cold so we practically had the place to ourselves. 🙂 We learned the birds created this beautiful 200lb nest in the atrium, which we’ll be posting pictures of, and when the cold became too much there were plenty of indoor exhibits to warm up in. 🙂 By far, it was one of my favorite trips to the zoo.

Aside from that, we also had my sister’s birthday and birthday party. Talk about chaos….*groan*. Currently, we are working on science fair projects…right before bed time. -.-

I failed slacked on my eating and workout plan. BUT!!! Tomorrow is a new day and we’ll be right on track again. Early morning run down will go as follows: 5am alarm, 15-20 min of yoga, 1mile run, 1st day of Insanity, then of course…..breakfast!!!! Oh..did I forget to mention my brother put Insanity on my phone so we could transfer it to the computer…? I will start it tomorrow, and I’m taking weekly photos that I may or may not post on here. Eff it….we’ve all been there right? By this time next year…the goal is to be the healthiest I’ve ever been in my life! Fit and strong…not skinny fat, not underweight, not starving.

I make it a point to let you know when I screw up as well as when I’m doing well, so that you know you’re not alone. The key idea is to stay positive and never give up. So you ate that extra slice of pizza….evaluate, learn, and keep going!

Hopefully everyone is having a great weekend!!!

–T

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Obviously, when you start working out, after a few sessions YOU can notice progress. Like, when you can wake up in the morning with out exhaustion, or it’s a little easier each time to do those lunges, OR you just feel a million times better all around. Being my third week of training myself…I never thought other people would start noticing differences! D says to me the other day…..your sides are way smaller…..me: REALLY! 😀 Thanks babe…….D: And your stomach….Me: 😀 <–super cheesy grin, no words needed. So I am doing something right after all! Oddly enough, because she seen those small results, it makes me want to push harder! If within three weeks she can really see differences…imagine what I would’ve had if I had done that extra something. 😛 I should’ve taken before and after photos….:( But, I suck. Sorry.

I just had to share my joy!!! 🙂 Now it’s time for my 30 minute interval run….ai-ai-aiyyy.

–T
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For those of you who are trying to lose weight, do you catch yourself running to the  scale often?

…….STOP!!! The cardinal rule is to only weigh in once a week to track progress. When you are working out and building muscle….sometimes those numbers don’t drop like they’re expected too. Do NOT get discouraged…you are gaining muscle weight while you work out. On top of noting your start weight, you should be measuring key areas of your body, along with body fat percentage. With body fat…unless you have a scale that tells you all the fancy stuff, you would need calipers. Or go to a gym and have them do it for you. 😀 If those numbers aren’t changing then…you need to rethink your workouts and eating plan. But, if they are changing and the scale’s not….you’re doing fine!!!

(Here’s an explanation on how to measure your body with a tape measure.)

http://www.livestrong.com/article/267099-how-to-measure-body-parts/

The only reason I bring this up today is because I caught myself hopping on the scale every morning. (Old habits die-hard) As my brain started doing that thing it does….you know over working, thinking too much, becoming paranoid…..I had to reality check myself! I’m not even trying to lose weight! Goals are different for me these days….muscle, strength, flexibility, stamina, health…..not skinny, size zero, sickly, and bony. So trust me when I tell you, I know how easy it can be to slip from reality. You just have to remind yourself of what you’re doing this for!!! Stay positive, write down your goals, and every once in a while reality check yourself! Find someone who will motivate and push you in the right direction.

Things to remember: 1lb of fat takes up more space than 1lb of muscle, but 1lb of muscle weighs more than 1lb of fat.

I believe in you, and so should you 🙂

–T

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We went to D’s work today to have lunch. The kids loved seeing her!!! It really sucks that she’s been working so many nights…..so many missed family dinners. 😦 On the bright side next week she opens allllllll week. I cannot waiiiit for that. I miss family time! There are some major disney dance parties in our future…..I can see it now.

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I love them to pieces!♥

-T

Ps workout went swimmingly today! I kicked my ass…..havent had much time to really blog it but I’m still in it!!! How are youuu doing?

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WOWOWOWOWOW!!

It has been a long time, my sweets. I have been busy, and crazy…..and busy!!! The way time can get away from us is really quite frightening, isn’t it? Currently, I’m stretching out my blogging muscles so I can get down and dirty with some updating! First I should say, Happy New Year, Merry Christmas….or Happy Holidays? What is the socially acceptable terminology these days, because we, over in this household, are out of touch! *Ahem* anyways, before I start going off on a tangent, I hope everyone is having an amazing time with life and all of it’s possibilities. 🙂

Time for some current events, D and I got married in June of last year!! It was an amazing day, everything went perfect…..well, mostly went perfect…after we finally got my dress zipped and to the ceremony (an hour late) theeeeen things went swimmingly. The little munchkins had a blast getting dolled up, which was too stinkin’ cute. Not that I’m biased or anything like that. 🙂 My wife was gorgeous as ever!! I’ll have to do a post full of updated pictures….not this one, maybe the next one.

Let’s see, I started eating healthier, which for me means I’m actually eating. My fridge is loaded with fruits, veggies, soymilk, greek yogurt, homemade fruit water, and whole grain wheats. I wake up I eat a healthy breakfast, I even started busting out some morning yoga to jumpstart my day. Hey, girl, heeeyyy ;). Truthfully, eating healthy has helped me feel better, more energized, less like my stomach is trying to give my backbone a hickey. Ohh yes, and we finally got me off of the caffeine addiction. Don’t get me wrong when I want a cup of coffee I will have one. The only difference now is I keep decaf in the house, and get treated with Starbuck’s once in a while. Who knew that kicking the coffee would help me feel 300% better in the mornings? My alarm goes off, I’m up out of bed, making breakfast, doing some yoga, taking a shower, and out the door in about an hour and a half. No dragging of the feet, or snoozing until I’m going to be late, it’s really a fantastic feeling. Oh, and I don’t need to nap everyday of my life. What a phenomenon….

Now if I could just start pushing myself to work out for strength and endurance, we’d be golden. Whose going to hold me accountable? Anybody? Somebody?

Ok, what else, what else……OH! I started school last fall at a local community college. Graphic design and illustration is my major. I’m rocking that sh–stuff, hehe. This semester is totally crazy because of my three-hour art class each day, but I was smart and scheduled myself down to two days a week instead of five. Last semester I was a little retarded. I’m already two weeks ahead in my computers class, and I’m determined to be finished with my math by the end of next month. Cross your fingers for me…it’s going to be a rough one. Thank god for the wifey because she is on point when it comes to maintaining the household if I have homework. The only time I pause, is for our dinners because they are important. If D has to work at night, I just work around the kid’s school schedule to get it done. We have great teamwork here.

Speaking of the little munchkins, they’re doing pretty well in school also. Their first parent teacher conference was and amazefest. Lee is finally in kindergarten, so they all get to ride the bus together in the mornings…for at least this year. Next year Kole will start…..*gulp*…..MIDDLE SCHOOL!!!!! He’s planning to play on the basketball team. I really hope he sticks to it because I think my grandma’s more excited than he is. We are having a little bit of a problem with Miss Madison the liar, liar pants on fire. She decided after Christmas break that she didn’t have to turn in her homework or study, or do anything she was supposed to. Nevermind, that she completes the homework at home so all she has to do is drop it in the homework tray. (I know, I have no idea….kids, ugh) She was also hiding notes and bad test grades from her teacher in her desk, so that she could throw them away without me ever seeing it. Being the nazi’s we are, she’s grounded from everything for the rest of her natural life….or until she proves she can bring her grades up. Mrs. Z is sending home weekly progress reports that I have to sign, so we can make sure she moves on to the fourth grade. I told you, we’ve had craziness around here. On top of all that, Kole smells like a man, and needs deodorant and man soap…..I am not thrilled. OH and I found a Victoria Secrets magazine in his pillow. So we had the “talk”. Not the sex talk….the “make sure the bathroom door is locked” talk. If only I would’ve video taped this….I could not stop laughing to save my life. Seriously, I had to walk out of the room to compose myself. Fortunately, for him, he is allowed to keep the Vicky C’s magazine because they are clothed, but he is never allowed to have or watch anything porn related. He says he understands, so we’ll see. Teenage years are really wierding me out as a mother. I’m sure there’s more fun interesting facts about the munchkins, but those are the most current developments.

D is blowing CVS management out of the water!! She went back to work for them with her desired amount of pay and a fast track opportunity to store management. She’s basically running the store she’s in now, because the manager is….well, he’s a little….what’s the word….oh, lazy. I’m so proud of her and very excited to see her succeed so quickly. It’ll be nice if she can get a store that’s still relatively close to home when she’s assigned one. The only downfall to this job, is working the night-shift. We all had gotten so used to her being on a set schedule with weekends off, that this is torture. The kids miss her at dinner when she’s gone, and I try so hard to stay alive until she’s off of work. But, we make it work and always, always make time for family nights and date nights. Since we’ve been married, it’s like a whole new world. Never in a million years did I think we would feel any different, but it truly is. Life is great and we are amazing. Not only that, but wifey is going to start some yoga with me…heck yes!!! I’m so excited, the only thing is we have to find a schedule that works for us. I’m usually up at 430-500 on school days, and D’s work schedule is unpredictable. Boo.

Even though today is a sick day for me, I’m trying to find some motivation to work out. I have p90x, brazilian butt lift, insanity (coming soon), zumba, and endless YouTube workouts. I don’t even know if working out is a good idea when sick or not. Yoga still worked for me this morning, even though I’m not remotely energized. Google will know, google knows all. So now that the gist of my life is caught up, I’m going to attempt a butt lift and stretch using my “splits in two weeks stretches, hop in the shower, and head off to a funeral.

Until next time…..(which is hopefully not as long as this last time wheweee!)

-T

 

P.S. Soon enough I’ll be posting yummy recipes, my workouts that I’ve tried, crafts, inspiration and oh so much more!!! ❤

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I’ve been MIA lately….sorry to my stalkers. 🙂

I’m at a weird place in my life right now, a sort of crossroads. I try and try to get over my relationship with D and then I see her…it all comes flooding back to me. Japan’s Tsunami has nothing on this monsoon of emotions. There’s been hope, fighting, lack of hope, more hope, distancing, friendship, and the list goes on. Hashing out all of the issues would be a pointless drag of time. It’s been made clear to me that I’m never going to have what I want, that I’m not a good enough person. On one hand I’m angry and I want to point out all of the things that went wrong for me….you know the one’s that weren’t my fault. However, at the same time I can not justify anything I’ve done out of spite or fear. This may seem like a confusing mess of nonsense…but the point is it makes perfect sense in my head. Deep down I know where I’m right and where I’m wrong….but, that doesn’t give me a sense of peace or even understanding. Sometimes I think if I was willing to put up through everything that was disagreeable then why the heck can’t she??? I’m constantly going back and forth in my head, I beat myself up then I drag out that lock and chain to barricade my heart from feeling anything.

I am supposed to make a decision now…to move on. But, I know I can’t especially with her so involved in my life. I live for the moments that give me hope and I see that look in her eyes again. So if I can’t move on while she’s here and I can’t make the decision to let her go completely where does that leave me? Will it get easier after time with us being friends? Can I bear to see her move on so quickly with other people? Will I ever be able to look at other people? I don’t know, I have no answers for these questions flooding my mind. I know that I’m hurting and there’s no one to help me pick up the pieces. The person I want to talk to about it is her, and I’m sick of fighting.

I seen her yesterday. It was emotional. I cried myself into restless fits of sleep and dreams of agony.

I have empowering moments too….I think about how happy she deserves to be, so I should be ok because that was the only purpose I had in life for the longest time. We are really good friends so a friendship should be good enough. I think about how I deserve to be happy….Right? RIGHT?

It’s a rough road, a rough decision. I’m waiting for the day when it becomes easy to exist. Yeah, I know I won’t hold my breath or anything. It’s nice to dream though. That’s all the good things are is a beautiful dream.

So, I will continue to try to fill my life with meaning, be happy with myself, and try to be content with the way things have been laid out for me. I will continue to love her through it all.

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I’m here at work….my schedule says 8 but I don’t see anyone else. So I’m just awaitin’. I’m starting to wonder if there was a boo boo on my schedule because usually I’m the second person here not the first. Its nice to have that extra moment alone sometimes but, this girl sure could’ve used that extra half hour of sleep.

So, at least I get to write and jam! Last night I wrote a letter to Mr. Insomnia….let me tell you that bastard didn’t listen. He has absolutley no respect for the tired. Next time I will reach to his superiors first. Although, I did get a bit of sleep last night. I don’t remember S coming to pick the baby up. She must’ve come right after I fell asleep because I was wide awake at about 2:30am. Does anyone else have tricks or rituals they do to try and sleep? I pile my blankets and pillows into the living room, flip on the tv, and try to bore myself to sleep. I also….don’t laugh!….have a bear I can’t sleep without. D gave it to me to replace the other one I used….I know, I know, but I can’t get rid of it! It takes me somewhere when my life made sense.

Speaking on that subject…..I’ve started the healing process. Every second gets easier and easier. Yesterday I went and got my nails done, the next step is to get my hair done. 🙂 my sister and I took the baby out for lunch and met up with some family. We had a good time! There are so many things I missed that I didn’t even realize. I was so consumed in my relationship, I forgot about the world. (One could argue D was my world, but I digress) What’s making this easier than normal, is all the things I keep finding out. I never realized how fake things were and how wrong I was…..I never realized how controlled my life was. I’ve met a great group of people and I’m rebuilding some old relationships. I can’t say that I don’t still love D or that our relationship was a waste, because I learned so much from it. I’m finally at the place where I can forgive her and I do. I will always be there for her as a friend but, I’m standing on my own two feet and I’m ok. 🙂

Ok, work time. 

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When I wrote that title I was singing….u know the song….like twister I was boooorn to walk alooone. It about sums up the way I feel this morning.

I had a restless night of sleep. Being at that spot right between sleep and awake all night is not a good rest. As I’m pouring my coffee my hands are shaking……my body says “Woman, go back to bed!” Too bad all of my sick time at work has been used to stay home with my sick kids. The glamorous life of a single parent, we sacrifice more than most know of. The kids are dressed and ready for school while I hide in the bathroom dreading the loooong day I’m going to have. That sounds so cliche. My mother used to tell me a womans best friend is a bathroom with a lock on the door….who knew! I believe her now.

I just had a case of the deja vu! Deja vu always creeps me out…..what does it mean? With all of the hypothesis on it, I don’t have the energy to reflect on it. Nor do I have the time.

I’m thinking I’ll nap at my lunch time ❤

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The pressures of working for corporate are starting to weigh on me. Rules, rules, rules, and do not sway my pretty or you’ll be fired…..and your little dog too! Granted I know the company I work for is one of the largest in the world, maybe that’s what gives them the right to be so damn picky. Its just a little frustrating.
I took a critical thinking course for college, it talks about ideas and how to think outside the box. Well, how do we apply this when I’m told to stay in the box??? A very small box….
Then again I could be complaining for no reason other than I’m tired. Because I am, I’m tired and worn out. My spunk has been put in time out only I don’t remember which corner I stuck that sucker in. Maybe I need a vacation…..a sabbatical….layoff? No not a layoff, but a vacation, yes! I think a good solid month of vacay time could be just what the doctor ordered.
I still look into the work from home programs my job offers. That would be an amazing oppurtunity! Sit in my jamas and work on spreadsheets? I’ll take it! However, I don’t know how to make the change. Like one of the postings is change managment…..wtf is that???
Once again I’m stuck with decisions that are too hard for me to make. Would anyone like to do that for me?

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Normally this would be thrilling for some people. But seeing as I live 30 minutes away from work it just means that I dwaddle in the breakroom for an hour. The way it normally works is we get a half hour for lunch, if we have over time they give us long lunches. Sometimes we get to go home early……which I would prefer of course!

I’m just getting fed up with the job. It’s a fantastic one, don’t get me wrong, its just not really my gig anymore.

What to do, what to do…..

I got some information sent to me about photography classes. Its a pretty lucrative career if you know the right people. I haven’t done anything yet because I have so much on my plate right now! I’m going to school for business, in the army, working full time, and raising four kids. It doesn’t leave much time for another full time gig. Decisions, decisions……lifes full of them!

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