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Posted in Daily struggles, Family, Fitness, Life, tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , on February 17, 2013| Leave a Comment »

It hasn’t been that long….but, it feels like it!!

This has been a crazy weekend, starting with our winter trip to the zoo. Before you have me committed, let me explain!!! There was a really nice giraffe lady that told us to come in the winter because many of the animals are more active and vocal during the cold months. So…we decided to brave the cold….and it was WORTH it!! Not only did we learn that our (<–yes we’ve staked claim) giraffe has finally become pregnant, but holy crap the animals were relishing the cold weather. The lions were playing…and growling like crazy, the elusive red panda was playing in the snow, oh and we learned the zoo has a Starbucks. It was fantastic! Not to mention…no one goes to the zoo when it’s cold so we practically had the place to ourselves. 🙂 We learned the birds created this beautiful 200lb nest in the atrium, which we’ll be posting pictures of, and when the cold became too much there were plenty of indoor exhibits to warm up in. 🙂 By far, it was one of my favorite trips to the zoo.

Aside from that, we also had my sister’s birthday and birthday party. Talk about chaos….*groan*. Currently, we are working on science fair projects…right before bed time. -.-

I failed slacked on my eating and workout plan. BUT!!! Tomorrow is a new day and we’ll be right on track again. Early morning run down will go as follows: 5am alarm, 15-20 min of yoga, 1mile run, 1st day of Insanity, then of course…..breakfast!!!! Oh..did I forget to mention my brother put Insanity on my phone so we could transfer it to the computer…? I will start it tomorrow, and I’m taking weekly photos that I may or may not post on here. Eff it….we’ve all been there right? By this time next year…the goal is to be the healthiest I’ve ever been in my life! Fit and strong…not skinny fat, not underweight, not starving.

I make it a point to let you know when I screw up as well as when I’m doing well, so that you know you’re not alone. The key idea is to stay positive and never give up. So you ate that extra slice of pizza….evaluate, learn, and keep going!

Hopefully everyone is having a great weekend!!!

–T

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My Little Demons :D

Posted in Family, Love, tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , on February 13, 2013| 6 Comments »

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We are missing one child in this shoot, because…..she’s grounded for life. She was doing large amounts of missed homework during this time. But, D takes amazing photos and I had to share some of the babies with you!!

 

–T

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As Promised….Wedding and Engagement Photos :)

Posted in Family, Life, tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , on February 11, 2013| Leave a Comment »

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Of course there’s tons more!! I just didn’t have time to nit pick through them all 🙂

–T

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Progress already!?!?!

Posted in Daily struggles, Fitness, tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , on February 11, 2013| Leave a Comment »

Obviously, when you start working out, after a few sessions YOU can notice progress. Like, when you can wake up in the morning with out exhaustion, or it’s a little easier each time to do those lunges, OR you just feel a million times better all around. Being my third week of training myself…I never thought other people would start noticing differences! D says to me the other day…..your sides are way smaller…..me: REALLY! 😀 Thanks babe…….D: And your stomach….Me: 😀 <–super cheesy grin, no words needed. So I am doing something right after all! Oddly enough, because she seen those small results, it makes me want to push harder! If within three weeks she can really see differences…imagine what I would’ve had if I had done that extra something. 😛 I should’ve taken before and after photos….:( But, I suck. Sorry.

I just had to share my joy!!! 🙂 Now it’s time for my 30 minute interval run….ai-ai-aiyyy.

–T
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Date Day!

Posted in Love, tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , on February 10, 2013| Leave a Comment »

One of the most important things in a relationship is dating! Life can get so busy to the point where romance is neglegted. Trust me I know!! D and I have four kids, she works full time, I go to school full time on top of looking for a job, and I’m working out every single day. (uh…except rest days of course :D) Add in taking care of the house, cooking, and homwork….it’s like the day flies by in an instant. We’ve started having date days as a way to stay connected to eachother and give us a break from life! Oh, you may have noticed I said date “days” instead of date “nights”. Well, that’s because we use a whole free day to spend with eachother!! Yesterday we woke up and got ready to head out….without a real plan. HAHA! We ended up stopping at a couple of stores and shopping for the house. I know you “guys” probably wouldn’t find this entertaining, but we had a blast!! I did cheat a bit and had a skinny vanilla latte……..soooooo delish…….but, we wanted to have a free fun day. D found herself a new pair of work shoes that are to die for. Her other ones had holes straight through the soles! Lol. The best part of the whole day is we finally found a new dishware set that we both completely love. It’s just clear glass, no patterns or anything, and it was on sale. JACKPOT!!! The original plan was to head to dinner….but D cooked for me instead, which turned out way better than any resturaunt. She grilled filet mignon, roasted redskin potatos, and steamed some green beans. She was so cute all day, it was good to laugh with her and just hang out without the concerns of day to day life. Whoever said laughter is the best medicine was on to something BIG! 🙂 It was absolutely my favorite day of the year. We even continues through the night by snugging up to a movie….she’s my favorite person in the whole world. 🙂

I strongly suggest setting date DAYS to stay connected with your significant other. It doesn’t have to be a huge deal, but make it something fun and light.

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Look at that nummy-ness!!! I had more green beans….but I ate them before I remembered to take a picture!

 

What are you doing to keep your realationships strong???

–T.

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Step Off that Scale!!!

Posted in Daily struggles, Fitness, Life, tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , on February 8, 2013| Leave a Comment »

For those of you who are trying to lose weight, do you catch yourself running to the  scale often?

…….STOP!!! The cardinal rule is to only weigh in once a week to track progress. When you are working out and building muscle….sometimes those numbers don’t drop like they’re expected too. Do NOT get discouraged…you are gaining muscle weight while you work out. On top of noting your start weight, you should be measuring key areas of your body, along with body fat percentage. With body fat…unless you have a scale that tells you all the fancy stuff, you would need calipers. Or go to a gym and have them do it for you. 😀 If those numbers aren’t changing then…you need to rethink your workouts and eating plan. But, if they are changing and the scale’s not….you’re doing fine!!!

(Here’s an explanation on how to measure your body with a tape measure.)

http://www.livestrong.com/article/267099-how-to-measure-body-parts/

The only reason I bring this up today is because I caught myself hopping on the scale every morning. (Old habits die-hard) As my brain started doing that thing it does….you know over working, thinking too much, becoming paranoid…..I had to reality check myself! I’m not even trying to lose weight! Goals are different for me these days….muscle, strength, flexibility, stamina, health…..not skinny, size zero, sickly, and bony. So trust me when I tell you, I know how easy it can be to slip from reality. You just have to remind yourself of what you’re doing this for!!! Stay positive, write down your goals, and every once in a while reality check yourself! Find someone who will motivate and push you in the right direction.

Things to remember: 1lb of fat takes up more space than 1lb of muscle, but 1lb of muscle weighs more than 1lb of fat.

I believe in you, and so should you 🙂

–T

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Posted in Daily struggles, Fitness, Life, Uncategorized, tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , on February 6, 2013| Leave a Comment »

I don’t know if that’s the right title for this, but I felt like I should share a little bit of my history with you. Reading my blog, I probably sound like some tree hugging, yoga loving, nutritional nut job….well I am. HAH! But, it hasn’t always been the case. It took a long time for me to get to the emotional place I am at now, and I had a lot of help along the way. My wife was my number one fan and contributor to getting me on a healthy track. She saved me in so many ways, I’m not sure she even realizes it. I’ll try to put this all in a nutshell so you don’t have a 3 page load of nonsense.

In high school/middle school years, I struggled with my body image.( You know those awkward teenage years where things aren’t really growing in to each other, and other things are….well just plain awkward.) Living in a home that placed high value on size “skinny”, I started skipping a few meals here and there. We all know where that leads. Having kids only worsened my self-esteem. I HATED my body and I didn’t have the courage, willpower, drive, or whatever word you want to use, to do something about it.

In 2007, I joined the military. You want to talk about working on fitness….holy cow!!! Oh, and they make you eat in training. Slowly I was feeling better about myself, but not nearly where I should’ve been. (Looking back at pictures, I go holy hell look at that booottyyy!!) Once I got to the part where I could workout and eat whenever I wanted….I stopped…doing both for the most part. I kept running for a while, but it does no good when you’re suffering nutritionally.

Then I met my beautiful, loving, crazy wife. She made me happy….I still struggled with my image and eating, though. By the end of the first year she started realizing I was only eating with her. (oops) I had gotten down to 115-118lbs at 5’3″, with absolutely no muscle strength. I was “skinny fat”. Actually, I looked pretty disgusting. Let me tell you how bad I felt all the time too!!! I was tired, grouchy, lethargic, bored, moody, depressed….I had a hard time focusing at work and balancing my family life. D was a persistent woman though, she was always encouraging me and telling me I was beautiful. We had so many talks about self-esteem, food, and the list goes on. I cannot tell you at what point I decided to believe her, but I did and ohhh boy did I start eating.

I still wasn’t eating healthy, I was just eating….whatever I wanted….everything I wanted!! Because I knew no matter what D would always be there, and I started believing that the only opinion that truly mattered was my own. Both of those things are so very true….but, I started putting on weight…like the bad kind. I got up to almost 140lb, which is by no means heavy or fat! But, when you’re not working out or eating the right kind of foods, the weight is just pure fat. I started to get that feeling again….panic….clothes weren’t fitting, I jiggled, I didn’t have much more energy than before…..then I told myself to shut up. Remember those two things I realized? Yeah, they still applied!!! So I decided to work on my eating habits and my fitness habits….and here we are today. I’m 134.4lbs (give or take), some of my jiggle is more of a bounce now hahaha, and I feel great!!! Every day I get stronger and stronger…..I’m rarely tired or lethargic…..I no longer try to be “skinny” (or twiggy, whatever you wanna call it)….I try to be fit, strong, healthy, a good mama, and a good wife. My family keeps me going, and I should keep going for them! Besides….what would they do with out me ;).

Every person has their own struggles, so don’t get discouraged!!! The only person who can make positive changes in your life is YOU, and you have to want it for the right reasons. 🙂

 

Until next time

-T

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Sunday is the Day of Rest

Posted in Daily struggles, Fitness, tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , on February 3, 2013| 5 Comments »

So you guys know yesterday I woke up praying to not have to work out. Determination shone through and I busted my a** through a one hour workout. How come today, which is supposed to be my rest day, I’m itching for some cardio and strength training? Maybe it’s like a reverse psychology thing….”you can’t work out today” “Psh, watch me”. Just to reaffirm the need for my rest day, I decided to look up a few sites and see what they had to say…LiveStrong says I better bench myself for the day if I want my muscles to repair. UGH! FINE! According to them, you need about 48 hours for muscles to repair…which is why most workouts have you in a different muscle group everyday. Looks like I will be hitting the books and doing some homework for the day. (The wifey will be so proud of me 😀 ) Now, I also learned that light exercise can be ok on a rest day….but, since I have no idea how to “light” exercise, I will be breaking for the whole day.

Tomorrow is a new week, and I’m so very excited because I start my runner’s training. Snow or no snow I will be hitting the pavement with my sister-in-law! Week one is a 20 minute walk each day (mon-fri), doing 4minute intervals of speed walking to 1minute intervals of pace walking. Since I haven’t been a runner in about ohhh, 3 years, I want to make sure I condition my body right. The goal is to be able to run a 5k by June, and a half marathon by August. There’s also a lot of charity walks my sister and I are planning to do. We have the Red Cross Heart Walk, Breast Cancer Awareness walk, and I believe there’s another one somewhere in the middle that I can’t seem to remember……gah! I hate when it’s right there on the tip of your tongue….and you just can’t grab it. LOL!! The point is, when you want to do something you need to set goals for yourself. Don’t blow anything out of the water…like, “in three months I want to ride my bike across the country in 4 days”.  Set one major goal to reach in a reasonable amount of time, and smaller goals that will help you achieve the big kahuna. So, my major goal is to run a half marathon. Smaller goals: Make it through each week without quitting, run a 5k, be able to run for 20 minutes with no stops. <—I can achieve those in a decent amount of time and they will help me get to my half marathon!

OH!!! I almost forgot to share that yesterday I, once again, started not smoking. Well, I’m trying. I’ve done very well!! D has been a major help by kicking my butt every time I whine for a smoke. All together I may have smoked one cigarette yesterday and so far none today. This is a major step in my progress to getting healthy. The only thing I noticed is I get food cravings…dun dun duuuun. I broke down a little yesterday and had a handful of Reese’s Mini’s……but, when I ate them I was like “ew”.  They didn’t even taste that good anymore! 😀 So, I started drinking a ton of water to fill my need for a craving. I find that it’s a lot easier for me to control urges when i have a water bottle on me at all times because sometimes they’re just boredom. When I start fidgeting with my water bottle and drinking it, the urge goes away. It’s like magic, except more useful :D.

How do you control cravings?

Replace old habits with new ones: Every time I want to smoke I’m going to do 50 crunches, leg lifts, or a 1 minute plank. That should help with the ciggy craving and sculpt my abs! 🙂

Now, it’s time for me to do some homework and ….not smoke, or work out, orrrrrrr eat garbage.

 

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Until next time ❤

-T

 

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Posted in Daily struggles, Life, tagged , , , , , , , , on November 13, 2011| 1 Comment »

Sometimes we are given a chance to apologize, whether we are right or we are wrong. Whether there is probable cause, or lack of. It’s not that we are minimizing our feelings or burying our hurt. It’s that sometimes, even though it feels like it’s worth it, it’s not worth the fight. In moments like these, my pride starts threatening control. Building inside of me as I lash out my frustrations. I try my hardest to choke down the venom it spews through me. Sometimes it’s suffocating, other times I’m able to swallow it as easy as drinking water. Then there’s the times where my pride takes a seat on the back burner, offering my heart a chance to take a few swings. How fragile our hearts are, and yet, they can be a most formidable opponent. Fighting with emotion rather than strength.

 

It’s how we move on from this that really counts. Can you hold your head high without any regrets to move forward? For me, there are a few regrets I can think to when I need to remember them. As for recent, I have none. I can honestly stand here and say I do not apologize for my feelings, because they are not inadequate. The apology for my actions is warranted, I give that freely. Hot tempers are hard to settle. This is something I am learning to control, and while I still have quite a way to come, it’s coming. The only chance I have to succeed is looking to where I have erred and improve on my reactions. Which I intend to do every moment of every day. On my own, with help, in a pair….however it may come to pass.

 

Beauty can be found in all things, even in the painful moments. I loved, I love, I will always love. It doesn’t die like they say, not if you really love, it just changes. For it to be lost, you have to hide it or have it ripped from you. Even then, it doesn’t dull, it just becomes bearable. That crushing feeling of loss, seems as much an appendage as arms or legs. Strange to have hanging about, but lost and uncomfortable in its absence.

 

I will always love. I will go on. I will learn.

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Wreckless Hearts

Posted in Daily struggles, Life, tagged , , , , on May 6, 2011| 3 Comments »

Once, I was a girl who knew no bounds. I ravished through the hearts of lions, picking the torment out of my teeth with satisfaction. An unbreakable soul, an untouchable heart hidden deep behind a  sea of green. The gates that bound my heart were immaculate, well maintained, formidable. I was a fortress.

I lavished in my solidarity, fighting for it, thriving on it.

My young were set up on a pedestal, where they were worshipped like the Gods and Goddesses. Protected by me like a tiger protecting her cubs. It was us against Them, and we were winning. Winning what? The War, of course. Against fear, failure, pain, and agony. We climbed to the highest parts of the world, secluding ourselves indefinitely. They kept trying to come, trying to penetrate our fortress….but, they failed, they fell and we rose even higher. We sang our war cries and danced to our song, loving the moments of our success. Nothing could tear us apart. Nothing could break us down.

Then we saw it, a glimmer of hope. She came from our blind side knowing how to get passed our barriers. I was raped of my caution, seduced by desires….thrown from my position. We gave up the pedestal to her, a throne of her own. They cowered in her presence seeking approval and acceptance. I yearned for her fire, her life, her breath. Slowly, the chains binding my heart began to wither, rusting from negligence. Fears forgotten and filled with something bigger….something brighter….something stronger. My soul was reborn with the glow of an Angel’s enlightenment. There was a new kind of warrior in town.

We followed her anywhere.

Softened by comfort, we have forgotten how to survive. Smothered by love, we have forgotten how to live without it. Tricked by unity, we have been betrayed…..

But, we will rise again to the highest ends of the world. We will fight through the pain that has been inflicted.

I have learned a lesson and I’ve learned it well. The ache in my heart will soon dull….it will fade…it will serve as a reminder that there is only us.

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