the things she touched, they healed
the things he touched, they broke
they touched each other and the result:
she touched, they healed
herself, broken
he touched, they broke
her gift not taken
she gives the gift that is needed
he steals what is held most precious
she gave
he took
she lost
he grins
her blood he spilled
his mess, her ill to sweep
the gift he stole can never be returned
no matter, another treasure she will create
for another more worthy, one who will not decimate
she wanders lost within her path
he walks free, sure-footed right to hell
she will be found with open wounds
he can't help but trample on the good
years down the road the wounds will mend
let scars be tales for strength
he will never comprehend
things gained by giving away
are far greater than those lost by taking

Surprise! I woke up at 6:30 AM today with very little trouble. I could have gone back to sleep till my alarm goes off at 7:30 AM but I thought, what the heck, it is very rare that I feel ready to get out of bed in the morning no matter what time, so I'll get up and take a walk. I'm so glad I did!

I put Lyle's jeans and a pair of my jeans, socks, and a shirt in the wash and fed the rabbits before I went outside. I had my phone and lip balm in one pocket and my little camera and tissue (in case I need to blow my nose or wipe something clean) in the other jacket pocket. The sun cast a wonderful, warm glow on everything. The light made everything, especially everything alive, seem even more alive and vibrant. It was as if the whole world was saying, "Good morning!!" I know sunrise is supposed to be one of the desirable times to go on a photo shoot. Actually being outside not long after the sun crested the horizon let me not only see, but feel the effect that photographers lust after. And it felt so good. So good ^_^

I haven't felt this good in a long time. Mood is currently 4.5 but at one point on the walk, I was feeling about an 8.0!! I'm going to enjoy this feeling as long as I can because I know it will go away in an hour or two. That's okay though because by the same token I know the feeling will be back again some time. I don't get to feel good very often so this is an extremely appreciated and precious feeling. This will be a strong motivating factor for me to try this morning walk again tomorrow if I can manage it.

I wore my Monterey Aquarium cap and sunglasses in case my eyes couldn't take the morning sun. Fortunately, I didn't have to wear the sunglasses most of the time. I guess the early morning sun is gentle enough for my eyes unlike the daytime sun. That's another thing I was so grateful for this morning, that I could observe the world directly and see all the colors in their full glory. Although I'm thankful I can be outside and see as long as I wear my sunglasses during the day, I do miss seeing things in their natural colors (not the brown-tinted colors). I don't know what I'd do if I couldn't see colors--I guess I would appreciate shades and tints more ;)!

Anyway, I wanted to record how I'm feeling right now as evidence that I don't feel like crap ALL the time, haha.