
With the ushering of a new year, provides an opportunity to not only reset, but a chance to reflect on the previous 12 months. And I can say that other than the 6 month battle with a potential “Bedbug” infestation, the biggest obstacle I’ve had to contend with is regular, uninterrupted sleep. This is something that has become a rare occurrence in my life. Having had to adapt to evening work at the start of the last year has likely provoked this sporadic sleep pattern that at weekends, does afflict me to the point that I just have to get up at 3 in the morning. And simply languishing in bed, unable to sleep feels like a waste of gaming time to me. And I can tell you, playing Skyrim at such an early hour feels both liberating and wrong. You’re immediately cognisant of the fact that you shouldn’t be playing at such an ungodly hour, particularly while the family, as well as the majority of the country are gaining their much needed slumber. But in your acute state of listlessness you don’t really care.
It’s akin to sneaking down stairs when you were a kid, and watching the television to catch a movie that your parents have strictly forbade you from watching. Something I did on many occasions without my mother’s consent (sorry mum). But there’s something satisfying about playing when you shouldn’t be. Perhaps it’s the clandestine nature of it. The knowledge that it’s optimized time to invest in a hobby that is usually restricted by the whims of others, while everyone else is asleep. I can tell you this for certain, playing a game that depicts such a frigid and dangerous world feels all the more immersive when the natural winter chill is encroaching on your early morning escapades. Tucked up on my new recliner sofa, that’s not a flex by the way, but an extravagance that I deserve considering the year my family and myself have had to endure. Wrapped in a readily available blanket to insulate my weary body. As a blizzard ravages my character, emitting its harsh conditions through the screen to my living room.
I guess that’s the power of suggestion. Or maybe this is the way a game such as Skyrim is meant to be played? Full immersion. Embracing the bitter chill of a pre-sunrise morning. Lighting a candle that emits the lurid fragrance of a brisk mountain side and burnt Troll hair. Or perhaps I need to consult a doctor that can prescribe a strong sedative.


