It is funny how I feel so validated in my feelings and they can be reduced to making me feel like nothing. I am losing the sense of what I feel. Do I agree that I am stupid because now I feel like I am? Or do I hold onto my first fight because I felt right then?
I am hurting because I hurt her. I am hurting because she thinks I control her. I am hurting because I remember what I felt like to be in her shoes and her in mine, when the tables were turned. I am hurting because I still have a lot to talk about with her and she has nothing. I cannot stay up late with her and that is hurting me too. I feel like a terrible gf and I don’t know how to change that.
When did I become this way? I feel like a failure…..
I am the Master of my Fate 
You can only control her if she let’s you. Ditto the hurt.
The problem is I do not think I am being controling but she makes me feel this way. It is a difficult and lonnnng story. Thank you forthe comment.