I said I want
my brother to follow
my lead–
but what does that mean
for me?
At thirteen,
despise the middle ground
bow down to no one
but the tooth fairy
and leave her dust in your tracks?
…
His smile opens
and my heart sings
at the magical essence
of aging make-believe,
family friends that,
at one time,
belonged to you,
proper pieces
of a simple jewelry box–
not the ones that make
my mask
but break it,
“Some people are irreplaceable,”
I say, meaning,
“Only some deserve it,”
and yet others say
days don’t count
when you’re lost in the desert–
when my brother
is just groping for some water.
September 29, 2014