Lately, the news can be pretty stressful with the events that are recently happening. There are natural disasters everywhere, the Nile waters have been reported to have turned red and there are political actions in the USA that's sounding like Bible prophecy coming to pass. There's an urgency in my spirit because these signs are multiplying, it seems, daily. We must stay watchful and vigilant for Christ's return is soon at hand. The church that I've been attending for the last few weeks just started a series on Moses and the first message was entitled, 'Face To Face.' It couldn't have come at a better time. The text is Exodus 33:7-11. Moses set up a tent outside away from the camp and called it the Tabernacle of the congregation (v. 7).The verse states that everyone who sought the LORD went into the tabernacle. When Moses entered, GOD came down as a cloudy pillar and talked to Moses "face to face, as a man speaketh to a friend" (v. 11). That's the relationship with GOD that we all should strive for. When we put GOD first in everything. Get yourself daily and spend time with Him. It's time to keep our lamps filled with oil for the Bridegroom soon cometh.

This is not easy for me to admit, but I feel that it needs to be said because I don't think I'm alone. I usually post on the good things and I post when I'm strong in faith, but there are times when my faith is weak. There are times when I'm focused more on myself and my circumstances than I should be. Lately, it's been this way. Grief is so unpredictable and different for each loss. I lost my mentor when my dad passed away in 2018, but when I lost my husband last January, I lost my best friend and the one person on earth that I could lean on. Lately, my faith has been dwindling because I've been in Limbo. I've lost my focus on the One I should have been fully relying on all along. I want that to change. I want to stop focusing on all the noise around me and start living again. I want to put my focus on where it belongs; on God. That's the only way that my life will make sense again. I'm confessing this because, for one, it's biblical and secondly, perhaps it will help someone else. No matter what it is that one faces, the focus must remain on God. The Bible tells us to "seek first the kingdom of God and all else will be added. No matter the hurt, no matter the problem, if God is still top priority, then it will all fall into place. Stay in prayer, stay in the word and know beyond a shadow of a doubt that God is going to take care of it. Remember that as soon as Peter took his eyes off Jesus when walking on the water, he began to sink. It's imperative that our focus stays on Christ. God bless😇🙌

There's been no power since Helene hit our area, but we came through pretty well unscathed. I can't begin to understand why some didn't suffer much damage while others were devastated, but I do understand that we only need to trust and depend on Him. I feel so blessed, but at the same time, I feel so much sorrow for those who didn't fair so well. All I can say is His ways are higher than ours. To those effected by the hurricane, prayers from South Carolina. 🙏

On other platforms, I have been contacted by men "wanting to know me better." While I'm not opposed to friendships, I'm not looking for romance at this time and I would prefer doing the "getting to know you better" part in person. I honestly don't trust any platforms for finding someone even if I were looking which I'm not. I was married to a wonderful man for 35 years before he died in January of this year. I'm not ready to start building a relationship with anyone right now. I have a lot on my plate with my mom who has health issues and taking care of my son who has special needs. I'm in a place in my life that I'm trying to draw closer to God while also juggling my daily responsibilities that I now have to do without my husband. I also have my own health problems. Please do not feel slighted if I don't answer those "get to know you" messages. I've dealt with too much of that on other social media and that why I signed up for this platform. With that said, I'd like to add that God has been so good to me. This is quite the bumpy journey, but not once in my lowest point have I ever not felt His presence and His comfort. I get emotionally overwhelmed everytime I think of His mercies and all that He's done for me. The mere fact that He gave His only Son to die in our stead is heart wrenchingly beautiful and humbles me to the core. I am nothing without Him. He is my strength, my hope, my everything.

I've been picnicking with the hummingbirds today and they are such a joy to watch. For them to be so tiny, they are fierce. There is one male who guards one of the feeders and chases all the others away. He's fearless. No matter how big the other birds are or whether or not I'm out there, he goes about his life with boldness. We should be that confident and determined when we fight against all those things the devil throws our way. We have an advocate with the Father and we need not fear or be overcome by the trials that cross our paths. God has already won the battle and the only way the devil can get the best of us is if we let him. (Not my picture)

It's been an emotional 2 days. Monday was my husband and my anniversary and yesterday was his birthday. Life certainly has been different since he died last January, but God has carried me at my weakest and has comfoted me and given me joy in spite of the grief. My new favorite shirt reminds me that His mercies are new every morning.

What a beautiful, rainy day that I've been blessed with... I woke up this morning with another opportunity to spend time with family and to work on being better than I was yesterday. Every breath I breathe is a gift. 💝

For God to love a sinner like me... I get so overwhelmed by His mercy and love.