Tag Archives: Control

The Perfect Life

Posted on October 5, 2017 by Suzanne

You’ve created a nice life for yourself. Clean, organized, structured. Everything in its place. The career, the house, the car, the trips. I don’t fit into that tidy little box. I’m a little too… organic. The dirt under my fingernails. … Continue reading →

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I Get It

Posted on September 27, 2016 by Suzanne

I lay on the floor in my living room in front of the balcony door. I will start going away from home to write more. I will say goodbye to my teaching for awhile, in a while, and pursue my … Continue reading →

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My Practice is Nothing

Posted on January 31, 2016 by Suzanne

Doing Nothing is difficult. It feels uncomfortable. But I’m committed to my practice. Sitting back and doing Nothing allows me to see where my tendency to control presents itself. My tendency to jump in, instead of allowing things to unfold … Continue reading →

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Suffering Reduction – No Need for Liposuction

Posted on July 16, 2015 by Suzanne

Letting of of expectations of outcomes reduces suffering. I’m working on this one. Anything to reduce suffering has to be good. Right? I have a current situation in which a previous landlord with mental health issues is suing me. I … Continue reading →

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Dying Today Revised

Posted on March 24, 2015 by Suzanne

Today in meditation I realized that I am dying a little more everyday. I started crying, accepting my own demise. I thought about my mom’s mortality. And how it’s hard for her to accept. I had a better understanding of … Continue reading →

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Control and Swimming in the Sea of Life

Posted on March 10, 2015 by Suzanne

Control is an illusion. We have very little control. There are an infinite number of circumstances that can intersect or intervene with our plans. I don’t know if John Lennon came up with it or not, but I’m going to … Continue reading →