~This Freaks Dwelling~

You know you get those safety emails from your friends right? Well..make sure you heed them! Because I did!

Yesterday..I went to circuit city to get a new printer and video card. It was 3:30 in the afternoon. I was parked near the store and no one was parked next to me. When I got out..right on my driver side was a minivan with TINTED windows. With 3 MEN in it!! It was parked really close to my car. And when I came to my trunk I noticed it had a sliding door and it didnt seem closed. So I hesitated. I thought back to the email the ladies put on the lunch table at work. It says not to get into the driver side in this situation. Cause they can nab you right there. Should I go to the passenger side? But because I HAVE HAD scary experiences before..I said FUCK NO! I did what it recommended and went BACK INSIDE THE STORE!

I was shaking. I explained to the lady about the safety thing and she agreed to have someone walk me out to my car. And yayyy it was a nice muscular burly man who was very happy to escort me to my car. I was going to write the lic plate # down just in case but I didnt have a pen. It could have been nothing, but my instincts said
WARNING.

So ladies PLEASE BE CAREFUL! WATCH YOUR SURROUNDINGS! PUT YOUR SAFETY FIRST. THERE IS SOME FUCKED UP PEOPLE OUT THERE. WE DONT WANT TO HEAR ABOUT YOU ON THE NEWS. Oh and men you too be safe :P

Hugs
Isle

My son called me on Saturday night. We havent spoken in over a week. We had an arguement about me not giving him money. Well he twisted it and made me sound like I was a shitty mother. When not too long ago I was a COOL mom.

He got ARRESTED! He asked if I could pick him up from the police station. I told him I couldnt because I would be spending time with him because I had been drinking. Then he goes on to say he has to pay bail to get out. $500!! I was totally in shock. He had to stay there I said because I didnt have that kind of cash. Plus he got arrested for Reckless Driving!! The same shit hes been getting mad at me for because I wouldnt let him drive my car. He wasnt on my insurance and I need this car for work If he trashed it..Id be fucked!

So hes been in the Oakland County Jail since Sunday I felt confidant Saturday that this would be his rock bottom. The message that hes been fucking up. Because he turned out to be a player. Having everyone drive his ass around. Doing shit for him, instead of trying to find a way to get around by himself. But now on Tuesday I dont know. Im worried about him. I havent slept a wink since that night. He could get raped in there! Im scared for him. No visitation on Mon & Tues. He hasnt called back. They wont tell me a damn thing because hes an adult.

Please pray for him

Margaret Cho adding me as a friend on MySpace :)

Ok! Talk about a freakout! Its early morn. I got up at 5am. Why? I dunno. Roomie was up early and left. Love the small pleasures in life!

But..as I was saying.. went to let the kitty outside..its still dark out..and I went to turn the light on by the back door..and there right at EYE LEVEL..was a FUCKIN HUGE SPIDER!! I shrieked and scared the baby kitty. I grabbed the web it was hangin on and let it down on the basement stairs. What is it with me and spiders? Last month..they were everywhere I turned. *shudders* I wont kill em..but this one was HUGE! Im afraid of the brown recluse. The basement is FULL of egg sacks :( Should just take the vaccum down there and suck everyone of em up!

I couldnt wait to get back to work. Vacation was just a time to SLOTH! I had thought about driving down to florida to see me mum..she wanted me to come in Sept..but I said..MOM..its Hurricain season! That was last year. She barely made it thru Wilma this year! And she JUST got her roof fixed this year from Charlie! *shakes head* She was all alone with her kitty. She went to stay at her friends house which was all brick. They had gone camping in the panhandle. She lives in Sarasota so she juuuuuuuuust missed it. Thank Gawd.

But vacation..I didnt do shit. Roomie and I had talked about maybe going salmon fishing. Ya right. All he wants to do is go out and drink. It gets very old for me. If I drank as much as he did, I'd be dead.

I had not been scheduled for work on Thursday and was to come back on Friday for 4 BIG hours. Im not full time so in the winter the hours are small. But my boss called me on Wed and asked if I wanted to work at Royal Oak for 8 hrs last two days this week and all of next week. yahoo! My bank account will be sooo happy.

Well I finally got smart and got my debts taken care of. I kept telling myself..Vickie how the hell will you ever get outta here if you dont do that?? DUH. Thats my dream..my own home one day. *crosses fingers*

OK Im mad..Second Life had an update and its been fucked ever since!! Which is probably better for me since my ass wont be at the computer. I need to get active. Its not fun bein alone.

Got up early my first day of vacation. And what a great day its been! Sunshine..heat. I decided to make Asian Indian food by scratch today =) I had bought this HUGE head of cauliflower. Needed to cook it up. So I decided to make Aloo Gobhi, and Chicken Tikka Masala.

I love to cook. Ive been baking/cooking for most of my life. Hence..being a chubby child, lol. But roomie was always puttin his nose where it wasnt wanted in the kitchen. So being home all alone..preparing and cooking has been fun! I miss it. (Drinking beer and having Digital Music playing helps alot too!)

Just me and a few pussies =) My 5 cats.

Thought some older lady was going to run me over at the supermarket. I said to her.."You Going To Stop?" I was in the crosswalk fgs!

Mmm nice to start out a fall morning with a Starbucks Pumpkin Spice Latte =) Yummay. Works hours have lessened. Which is ok for me cause I start my vacation thursday night at 5:30!! Wheeeee

Found this new restaurant. Family can go, sports like bar. Three HUGE tv's behind the bar..and get this..the booths have TVs! LOL.. Its a very nice place and the food..while I had only sampled it was good. Im taking my son there for dindin thursday. I went there when I had to ask my roomies friend who's an attorney some advice. My previous apt complex..ie the collection agency is SUEING ME :( I have never been sued in my life!! They say (the apt complex) that I never gave notice. Well I did..and they fuckin lost it or tried to rip me off..a SECOND time. But Im fighiting it..the bastards.

This collection agency tried to nail me a few years ago for something they SAY I did 15 yrs ago! They couldnt prove it. I said..prove it and I will pay up. They couldnt. Plus isnt there a statue of limitations??

But I know for a fact they rec'd my notice. They kept sending me notices left at my door..So sorry you are leaving..if you stay your rent will be..blah blah blah..The apt complex tried to cheat me going in too. Some type of bait/switch. They had a promotion..so much off rent..blah blah..I found an apt I like..it went on THE APPLICATION fgs. So my move in costs came to be almost $300. So I was to move in a month later. Three times they called to verify my move in date and the amt. Which was the correct amount. I had broken up with my ex and there was NO going back *those words came back to bite me in the ass* But TWO DAYS before I was to move in..they called and said..blah blah blah..you move in on saturday and your move in costs are and they gave me an amount OVER $500!! I was like WTF?? This person said..well THOSE apts arent discounted. I freaked. The blonde anorexic bimbo who showed me the apts treated me like I was an idiot. I called everywhere. NO one in charge was available. Convenient huh? Finally I got ahold of that bitch and said you better find me a new fuckin apt today!! So I got a better apt with more windows. But it was two days of HELL.

So if you all ever rent apts or whatever. WALK IN your notice or send Certified mail and get someone to sign for it. Fuckin Bastards.

Ok time to relax..*sips latte*

I dont know whats up with my kid. He goes to Oak Comm College two days a week. He was working at Meyers. Now he quit because he's saying that they promised they wouldnt schedule him on his school days. Now they want him to work them. I dont know what to believe. Now hes going to babysit some girls kid. *shakes head*

Wheee..Nip/Tuck is on tonight. I looked everywhere on the net for the Video for the theme song. No luck. Im going to order the soundtrack. Only 1 place in my area has it. *sigh*

Wow..where have I been?? Ive been away from LJ and alot of other online stuff! I figured I better come and poke my head in, being that I have a PAID acct.

I havent done shit. Im always in Second Life now. Im diggin the 3D. Canceling my 2D chat world. I get more for my buck in SL. Anyone in there? Im Carmilla Mirabeau in there.

Just been ging thru the poor me's. Same ole same ole. Works doing great. Hours are decreasing tho. But fuckin A..vacation starts next friday! Woot!

Im addicted to Nip/Tuck..what a great series! I rented the whole first season from Netflix..now I just got the DVD's for the 2nd season. Gonna be a good weekend..doin nuttin..in the cold with some popcorn and some fuckin MAN WHORE..Christian!

Other than being invited to a work bbq 2 weeks ago..I dont do jack shit. Some life huh? Oh and not having sex sucks cause..If I dont get roto rootered..my rag takes Fuckin Forever! Grrr...

Did I ever say how much I dislike Jennifer Garner? Whats so hot about her? And that JOEY show? Wtf? It sucks. And Im pissed I missed JODIE FOSTER on ELLEN..!! Whaaa..was I insane to miss that show?? I havent been watching..cause..actually its not as good as last season *sigh*

See..didnt miss much..but I did miss you guys =-)

http://www.secondlife.com

Snagged this from traeleann I wouldnt kill her..I would soo DOOOO HER..before she became anorexic!!

What stupid celebrity are you destined to kill? by daydreamer8852
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On	June 26, 2013
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Snagged this from sappybeaver

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is 100%. You are not suited for a monogamous relationship.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

I have to post this. This happened to me last night and Im soo pissed. My coworker invited me to her house to go swimming last weekend. So a few days later SHE canceled. I was dissapointed. But what can you do?

So almost a week goes by and she RE invites me. So I said I dunno. The first tiime I had commented that she lives far away and it isnt worth me to drive home after a nite of drinking. She stated no problem..she has a spare bedroom. So I told her for the reinvite I didnt know. Kinda wanted to stay home its my drinking nite. So then she starts sayin how dissapointed she would be if I didnt come..Blah blah blah.

But I said ok. Went home to get some clothes n stuff. Cause I thought I was stayin the night. So she said..that her hubby wont be home and it will just be US GIRLS(remember that comment)

So I get there..time goes on. I have a few beers. She seems innna hurry. She takes a phone call from her hubby. She comes back and says that she didnt want him to know I was there. I have met her husband a few times so I said..why not? And she says that she wouldnt be able to get some private info from him. And I was like huh???? She wouldnt elaberate.

So we order Pizza and go out the the deck. We start to talk about different issues. And I talked about how I was Bi. And ALSO how that just because I was BI didnt mean I wanted every female around. Yanno? So we talk more then go to the pool.

So we sittin out there enjoyin the view talkin..and she gets a phone call. Shes yakkin for awhile and she says its her husbands neice. And she says..Yes Im here with Vickie..blah blah blah. And Im thinkin..well she dont want her hubby to know Im here but shes tellin his niece??? Im starting to get curious right about that time. Now this is where it gets MIND BLOWING. She starts sayin to her..what? you wanna come over and have a threesum with us??? And I just went to myself..What the FUCK IS GOIN ON HERE????

I work with this person I havent really done anything with her cept go to the local Applebees for a drink or too.

So then she gets off the phone. Im beginin to wonder whats going on when the phone rings AGAIN!! She starts talking blah blah blah. Then she says..You wanna come over? At this point I have no clue who shes talking too.

So she gets off the phone and I say..who was that? And she says thats my Massuse. So now..Im pissed. Cause I dont know what the hell is going on. She had said that she was getting tired. And I said..yer not pooping out on me are you? And she made comments how she goes to bed early..blah blah blah.

So now..its like..Its time to GO! She has made it perfectly clear that she doesnt want me there. Remember the Girls Nite???

Now here is a guy comming over that Ive never met. And her comments to the supposedly Niece about 3sums. I had NEVER EVER said that I wanted to be in a 3sum with this chick. Frankly she is totally not MY TYPE.

I was shaking by this time. Because I hate not being in control. Who knows what this person had planned. All I know is that I wasnt made aware of it!! I thought she was my friend. I just wanted to get the fuck outta there. I told her that I was getting dressed.

So Im ready to leave..and I call my ex..because here I was half in the bag..from drinkin and needing to find my way home..cause at that time I didnt know exactly where I was. I told him to stay by the phone. I was semi freakin out. Then the guy came over. Boy was that fast! I had dressed grabbed my beer and wasnt stayin for a min. He comes in the door and says IsleQween..Im like how the fuck does he know my screenname? My lic plate says IsleQwn..but would you get that from just those letters? I dunno but I didnt want any part of this bullshit. So I told her to walk me out. As we were going out she says..Vickie I worship my husband I wouldnt do anything to harm my marriage or sumptin to that..and I said..I dont give a shit what you do.

Anyhoo I made it home safe. I tried to explain to roomie what had just happened. And it really didnt sink in to him. Now a day later it did. My coworker called me this morning and left a message. And she sent me an email..this is what it said..


Vickie:
It concerns me that you may have gotten the wrong impression about our
get together last night. I only intended to go swimming and drink a
couple of beers. I never intended for it to become a sleep over. I am
not gay or bi. And never intended to have relations with you. I am
married! I will be your friend but that's it. And I really dont know
what "islequeen" stands for. I feel we need to talk so please call me.
Your Friend


Why is it..just because you mention you are bi..that they think you want them? Shes blaming me cause she dumped me to be with a GUY??? So blame me cause Im fuckin BI? What a fuckin bitch. It amazes me. I emailed her back and said if thats the kind of friend you are I dont want you as one. NEVER EVER did I say I wanted her or to have sex with her..that a Sleep over doesnt mean sex. It meant for me not to have to drive home drunk. What the fuck is wrong with people?

*shakes head*

Im just pissed that she wasnt human enough to say..well I wanted to be with him instead of you..now shes blaming me, insuating that I wanted to have sex with her. Its gonna be hard not to push my fist into her face when I get to work on monday..grrr

If anyone reads this..please give me your HONEST thoughts ok? This has upset me to no end

So damn hot here. Made Zucchini pie in the oven and fry daddied the rest with onions and mushrooms. Also found a recipe of deep fried chicken.

But just too damn hot..had to jump in shower. Now Im sitting in front of fan blowing full blast. Yaya..winter will be here soon..I dunno..being female..being older...I get hot all the time..it fuckin SUCKS ASS!!

Vacation is too fuckin far away...gawd!

Missed my mothers bday..AGAIN!! Spent some time in the drugstore getting enlargements for my sons graduation picture for her. Im sorry..but I can only remember mine and my sisters birthday. April Fools and Halloween..the rest? Forgetaboutit!!

I so dont want to go to work tomorrow

Against my better judgement..I went to the Founders Day Festival with my roomie. It was very hot. We started to converse..but I was abruptly was told that I was interrupting his words. He had started to tell his story and it reminded me of something and I was like..oh ya..I ..blah blah blah..but he didnt like that. He said..I do believe I was talking and you interrupted me. Well yes maybe..but did you have to say it like that? I was like WTF?? Isnt a conversation..more than one person communicating??? Cause when he speaks..its like a fuckin PLAY..it takes forever!! Anyway..

I had told him in the begining that maybe it was better if we used two cars. That way..I can leave when I WANTED. Nope.

Things were ok after that for a bit. Then I wanted to go home. He had said earlier that he wanted to go home. I had enough to drink. I didnt want to get pulled over. But things were said..yadda yadda..He was home all day..I had to work..no food..lots of beer..time to go home. Its not that I dont like him. I was trying to hook him up with some chick there. She seemed his type and seemed interested in him. But she got distracted by other people and left.

We left and went walkin to the car. Which was aways because of the parking situation. I asked him for my car keys. He was holding on to them cause I didnt bring a purse. He says..Ill give them when we get to the car. I demanded to have the keys. this is a big thing for me. Because..having MY OWN THINGS is very important to me. Because Im ALWAYS reminded that this is HIS home..

He gave me a hard time..but he gave in.

Many know of this..but its my fuckin journal. My words. I need to VENT

Im a giving..person..who feels every little shit. You talk to me wrong..Im going to feel it. Im not perfect..but I try to be. I dont make enough to financially independent. I know I know..kick my ass for that..

But..I reamed him a new asshole. I try to talk to him in everyday life? But does it work? FUCK NO..so..I get loaded..and it comes out. I expect him to be kind and a fuckin human being!!

I have asked him MANY times not to walk around nekkid in front of me. I pay rent..we are not boyfriend/girlfriend. Does he listen? NO..sure..its his fuckin house..as he points our every day..but I know damn well if he lived with a male roommate..he wouldnt DARE. But..he still does it. I know he does it for a power kick over me. I cant stand to see him nekkid.. Fuckin beer belly..skinny legs and NO DICK. I told him thats why I stay in my room and dont come out..cause he drinks his life away. I cant stand to watchin him. EVERY FUCKIN DAY!! Im so suprised he isnt dead yet. If I kept up with him..I would have been dead long ago.

I have tried to talk to this person..for many years..tell him how I feel..try to move him..see it in any way other than his..

to no avail..I am astounded..and sad..because I feel and I speak my mind..and live life..

but..I gave him hell on the way home..but yanno..it wont work..he doesnt give a shit..I told him thats why hes alone..because hes selfish..he never learned how to share...


And I cried..because I feel..and there is no one out there to hear me...or feel me...

I want to share life..but if its not for me..I can live alone. But..people need to be kind to one another. Not lord things over others. Love one another. I am lost..

So I had alot to drink. I would still say the same things tommorrow.



But..there is no one to listen...

Made this with the help of rotncandy tut posted in icon_tutorial

Feeling better today. Don't enjoy the mornings.

Spent the morning playin with graphics. Took a break..Made homemade Tabbouli..yum..

Roomie and I seem to have a Mediterranean theme with our cooking this week.


Made this for a friend with the help of pocket_icons..in the community icontutorials

Wow..been awhile. Ive just got sooo many online shit to be part of http://www.vzones.com/, Where Im a virtual online Vampire from the Ðark§ider Clan in The Dreamscape World. http://www.theargo.org/ (addicted to the arcade games there) which is a resource page for the vzones. And THE best graphic learning site: http://groups.msn.com/KatKorner/welcome.msnw Alas..LJ seems to come in last. (NO im not tryin to sell ya on those sites. Just the places Ive been for years now. The addiction is GREAT) Plus..Ive been tryin NOT to have a fatass..sitting here in front of my puter. When I get into graphics..I can be here for HOURS..and wonder after..where did the time go?


My son came over last night and we went to see War Of The Worlds. Its was OK. I think they could have picked a different person to play Tom Cruise's part. It just didnt see to work for him. Exciting special effects and stuff. Shit..Whats his name..the father..Dennis Quaid prolly woulda done a better job. Pfft. Also..dont waste yer money on Mr. & Mrs. Smith. We walked out. Well my son WAS sleeping..and I was tired too. Two movies in one night after a fuckin packed work week is enough. Shit..and Angelina didnt even do a HAWT love scence ;(

So..after WEEKS of 80-90 degree weather..BAM!! we get hit with cold weather. Outta nowhere. Least we can turn the air off now.

My son is one lucky ass. Hes goin to New Orleans for a week on the 4th. Hes a member of the Optimist Club and they are having a gathering there next week. My next vacation isnt til near the last week in august. Ugh!

Woohoo! Saturday..my son Peter graduated from HighSchool!! Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

I pretty much raised him all by myself..his abusive father died when he was almost 3yrs old. Its been tough but with the help of his mentor and friend we got him on track.

Anndddddddd..hes enrolled into College!! I just wanna cry. *sniff*

Aint he a sweetie??

Tony Bennett & KD Lang..

This music..soothes my aching soul....


*love never dies*

Wow! Only worked 4 days this week..but we busted our Asses as work!! Amazing..people bitch about how busy it is. But they dont realize, that they ALL decided to come in the same week as everyone else!!! Fuckin Amazing.

But..alas..I like it this way. Im getting MAJOR boocoo bucks next pay. Ive had some decent jobs in my life. I enjoyed most of em. Just a few horrible ones in between. Most of my life has been in banking..now I work for the State Of Michigan..and am DAMN PROUD!!! BOOYAAAA!!

I love waiting on the public..I enjoy helping them meet their needs. I just dont like to sell them anything. Other than that..it rocks.

But the next bullshit..yes.. I know..but guess what? Its my FUCKIN journal.

Something is wrong with Roomie. Hes been tryin to pick a fight at every turn. The drink must finally be fucking with his mind. This guy drinks alot every fuckin day.
And has been since hes been young..hes 51. Hes givin up on Sex.

*Sorry loser*

I would never give it up. He's allowed himself to let little things blow up. Hes a total emotional cripple. And I say that with sadness..cause he cant communicate his feelings. He acts like alittle child.

He becomes bad to get attention. I confronted his ass in the bathroom..and I pushed him..and said..dont fuck with me..you will lose..You cant just say what ever the fuck you want to someone without percussions. Told him to NOT include me in his FUCKIN DRAMA. I just sit in my puter room and be online.. He barges in here an starts shit. Fuck him..*Locks Door* and its the ONLY place in the house with a GoshDARN LOCK..grrr

I vent here..cause I have no other place. I let him know he cant fuck with me..but I ignore him..cause..lowering myself to his level..just makes me like him..and I would kill myself before I become him.

I grew up in an Alcoholic family. I enjoy drinking beer. One or two days a week. How someone allows themselves to drown in it day after day..it FUCKIN AMAZES ME. *shakes head*


Sorry..its not a disease..its a WEAKNESS..lack of control..we CHOOSE..dammit...]

Oh..haha..some good news..MY son is graduating from High School Next Saturday!! Wohoo!!

peter gave roomie an invitation..and guess what? the mother fucker aint goin!..

Can you say...


Laaaahoooooosaaaaaaahhhherrrrrr?????

So..I sit..back..turn on my music..drink a beer..miss my kid and think how great this weeks been at work..sometimes pissy..but Slammin!

Oh..lol..My coworkers and I have come to a conclusion that somethings UP. Cause we cant seem to hold on to anything. We have been dropping things left and right. The Karma is fucked up or something is GOING DOWN..

but yanno what? Its also the time for Gemini's to renew their shit. They have fuckin tilted the Earth's axes and messed up the good of things. Sorry but..they should have never been born. Their sign is a deathwish..I dont hate people..but I have yet to meet a Gemini who was kind and didnt have a split personality!!

Please let me find some way to get the FUCK outta this place!! He's driving me CRAZY!!

Snagged from piwaket




Looks like another glorious day today. Gotta finish up the veggie garden and the flowers. I could barely move last night and this morning. Thank Gawd for Motrin!!

Weeeeee...

Ooo I fergot..


My very first customer of the day..was this GREEK GOD!! LMAO!!

Mmm he came in to renew his license plate tabs..and he works for Ballys!

MY GAWD!! HE WAS FUCKIN BEAUTIFUL!


Dark..Tanned..had this TIGHT black teeshirt..biceps OUT TO HERE<--------------->

A six pack that I just KNOW was under that tight shirt. I was in fuckin HEAVEN.

Fuckin EYE CANDY..


I told him that he really represents Ballys WELL!! HAHAH

I was in fuckin heaven..MMM..

Its pretty sad when your subconcious has better sex than YOU do! grrr..I had this dream (my dreams are haunting. I do believe our dreams are our twins in another world plane)
where I was a mans mistress..in his UNFUCKING believable home. It was a rich persons home. And his wife was in the home. And I was pregnant. The first stage of it. It was fucking BIZZARE. And I didnt even drink or eat before bed. *Go Figure*

But what has stuck with me, even now as I type this..is that I felt wanted and loved. Not sexually, but truely wanted. I cant get over how that makes me feel. Because in my life now..I dont get that. I havent felt that in I dont know how long. I truely cant remember :( But thinking about it..makes me feel good.

Then..dont read this if it would gross you out..







next thing I know..Im having Anal Sex. Which I was REALLY enjoying. The man..I loved in my dream. It felt good. And then...

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The fuckin alarm clock went off!! Grr...

I dont know whats wrong with me..wish my subconsious would meet up with the real me..or..I need to visit my other me on that OTHER plane of existance.

*sigh*

Oh..and I havent even STARTED to drink yet..heh..heh..

Work was FUCKIN SWAMPED! Where the fuck did everyone come from????? Geez..
least my paycheck will tell the tales..

OMG..I am soo pissed. Get this..I FUCKIN PAY RENT..but I can never get any fuckin PRIVACY!!

(the topic is soo stupid)

All last week my roomie had the bathroom to hiself. Got ready on his own time without me havin to ask to get in there.

When Im in there..he never fuckin knocks on the door(which I have REPEATELY ASKED FOR HIM TO DO!!)..he just comes in there..either to take a piss or blow his fuckin nose. And thats usually in the NUDE!! But today Im in the bathroom blowd rying my hair and he comes in..without fuckin knocking..and I said..what are you doing? He says Im goin to wash my hair. I said not until Im done with mine. So he leaves..and Im thinkin WTF!! He does his shit in his own time in his own leasurely manner and Im supposed to just let his fuckin ass in? FUCK THAT..so he came in again to get tissue to blow his nose and I tole him..you had all week and yesterday doin yer shit in yer own time..I didnt bother you once..so Im goin to get ready on MY TIME!!

But it didnt fuckin last..barging in..so I slammed the door into him..fucker knock I say..and he starts bitchin that he needs his brush. Calliing me a CUNT and everything else..!! Grrr..I could fuckin strangle him then and there.

He just assumes that he rules the fuckin roost?? FUCK THAT! Im tired of no respect. Ive asked to setup times for the bathroom But noooooooo..Im soo sick of this stupid shit.

But Im not just goin to sit back and take it. What do you think???

Damn..I dunno whats with me. I am so FUCKING HORNY Usually Im not horny til my monthly..damn..


Guess I'll go to Yahoo Cam..Im isleqween add me..if ya want ;)

woooo..works puters been down..I sneeked online..hehehe..

shit nuttin to do!! Gawd..Im here til 5:30 ;( Grrrr

Ewwwwww...

I just watched a commercial for Saturday Night Live. This weekends host will be Lindsey Lohan. WHAT THE FUCK happened to her???

That poor girl. What Hollywood has done to her mind! First...The BOOBS! Next..Came Bleach Blonde Hair. Now..as I looked at her on TV..she looks like a fuckin SKELETON!! She also made a joke that she hadnt eatten in 6 months! And it looks true! Her arms were like match sticks! Ewww..she looked emanciated!!

Give me my buxon curves..natural big boobs..ANYDAY!!

*shakes head*

I also wanted to bitch this morning about my EX and his unwilling winkie. He says I have NO patience. I said my patience is PAPER FUCKIN THIN MAN!!! Dudes gettin up there. And hes handy and disease free..but the fucker..just cant FUCK!! Sometimes I so wanna be fucked outta my MIND! But does it happen??? FUCK NOOOOO!! Women doo so much..dress this way..have yer hair this way..heels thisss high..and all he hasta do is be able to LAST more than 5 fuckin minutes.

I told him today..when you start making the effort to get yer stingy ass back into the dr's for Viagra..I'll make an effort to give you a PITY FUCK!!

Arrrggggg...sometimes I need it sooo bad. Im sooo tired of waiting!! And camming just leaves me empty.

Sorry..but Im sooo HAPPY..The BackStreet Boys are back in Bidniss!!! Wooot!!


But Kevin..bleh..GROW that hair back babe!!

I try to co-exist (sp ck) with other humans on this earth.

My son was too busy to come visit me on Mothers Day. Even tho he called me the Thursday before to ask to come over. But that was before I cut his money supply off.

I didnt raise him to be greedy. I raised him to be self reliant. All he learned was how to get what he wanted. He didnt learn.

It hurts me to no end. But..he has to live with himself. I just hope he learns soon.

Damn..its getting late..gotta stay outta the Argo.

Stll havent heard from my son in over a week. *sigh* Took away the money he was used to getting. He needs to get a job. Im done handin out the dough. Gonna call school morrow to see if hes ok.

Ok...dammit! I was having sucha HAWT dream!! Angelina Jolie was MY girlfriend..*sigh*

And we started making out. Now Im for sure a bisexual female/borderline lesbian..but Im ashamed to say..Im not up in the making out with female part. But I didnt seem to have a problem with Angelina!! Man..was that HAWT!! Kissing those lips and grinding ourselves on each other..phewwww

*fans self*

Allrighty then! I see SUNSHINE!! woot! TYTYTY! Let it stay!!

Well here it is...4am..on my Birthday!! (43rd) I cant sleep..cause getting older I go to bed earlier. Plus Im excited! At 5:30pm today I start my first week long vacation of the year! Woot!

I havent been on lately cause Ive been depressed about my son being virtually homeless. He called me yesterday and told me he has a place at least til school is out. I let out a BIG sigh of relief!

The weather was FAB at the begining of the week..now its shitty and cold dammit! I so wanted to have Margarita's this eve..but with no sunshine..fuckit! But Ill take a nice cold Labatts..erm a few..and a big fat steak! Mmmmm..

Im here..Im alive..surviving..

Im praying for you Terri..I feel like you are going to see God soon..

*feels like crying*

See..there are some of us..something like this..effects us..personally..even tho..we dont even know these people. Cause..its life..and its Fucking sad..

Because Terri..cant tell us what she wants..and shes going to die soon..how can anyone NOT be affected??

*Looks up Prince's Sign O The Times*

Wow..just watched the movie GIA, with Angelina Jolie. What an incredible love story. And its also a very sad movie. Angelina did a great job playing her. What a sad thing to die of AIDS at the age of 26.

Also watched The Grudge. Thank goodness is was daylight out or I would never get to sleep tonight!!

Woot..Im excited. Im going to out to meet some butch/femme ladies friday nite!! I wish I had a female friend to go with me. I dont know anyone. But Im sure Ill have fun!! I cant wait! I just hate that most lesbian bars are wayyy far away from me ;(

Its almost 11pm and Im STARVING!! This not eatting at night is the WORST! I havent worked out in two days! I think Im getting the flu. My ass should be in BED! I asked my boss if her glands were swollen when she was sick and she said they hurt like hell! I thought SHIT..I must be getting it. I feel like crap. Im tryin to avoid it. I dont want to stress my system out from too much exercise. Im already cutting back so its already stressed out

Bed here I come!!!

I cant fuckin wait for taxtime..I need a new FUCKIN BED!!!

I seriously think Ive given myself delayed whiplash!! My neck is soo sore! I know when I fell on my ass skiing yesterday it whipped back. Guess it takes a day. My glands on my right side is very sore. Please let it be sore muscles and not that nasty flu thats goin around.

Sometimes I get at my puter and my graphics and I spend HOURS here. I just cant seem to tear myself away when I get an idea, specially with the help of my favorite graphic group Kat Korner ;)