Looking forward to that day when my jumbled nerves will indeed find a shore to sail. I can see your smiling eyes exhilarated to be alone with me where we could wonder off to a different world irrelevant to chaos. There is always thrill in being recluse in your presence. I won’t be a vagrant anymore. I ll hop to a place where we two lost entities would find a way to devour the magnetism of beautiful earth whose boundaries lapse to welcome us.

We aren’t meant to be together.
Maybe we were meant for me only
My selfish reasons let you
Stay by my side
You healed me when
Walls around my heart cracked
World around me flourished
Whereas I was left in oblivion
Struck by divine intervention
Of fate.
None grieved my absence
Only your shoulder calmed
the storm inside me.
Grey skies felt colorful
Only when you painted
My mind with colors
illuminating brightside of life.

You don’t need to approach the matters hard way. It is either an easy way or a hard way and if using hard ways surveys your purpose to exhaustion, it is indeed just for a fleeting moment till the recipient counterattack; repulsive to being the object of agression. Even for a maegre nano seconds hold stop that buzzing need to act dominant, you  shall fall in your own trep. No harm will done to your subject of cause but you poor progeny, belittling your self unwarrantedly