This war
Being Fought inside my walls
Tearing me apart
Dividing into different parts
Each part
Claiming being at right front
For the right cause
And amid all that chaos
Am holding on each one's wows
Every side is staking
To present there case being
The only waking
Its delusional
Its confusing
To decipher the right voice
What I am holding onto
What I am tempting on
From this hue
I wanna cry
I wanna be strong
I wanna clarity
I wanna peace
Yet I am stuck
In uncertainty and feeling being plucked
Where i have no control
How to react in such absolve
I am just letting it roll
Awaiting final call
Hope i won't stall
Tag: awakening
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Chaos deep inside
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Insight : Hard to learn but paramount
A life
Living with
Such a turbulent mind
Being a Wanderer forever
In it's unstoppable
Unknown quest
In spree of options and choices
Sometimes it listens to every voice
And then a sudden absolution
Like it always yearns for a state of confusion
Making me to wonder
After every wandering
What! all of that was meant for
As I end up at the very starting point
Again and again.
But slowly and steadily
I got a clue of it's game
Moving me around
In it's silly cyclic frame
I need to stop seeking a company in it
I need to identify the true inner voices
So, to ignore it's disturbing chaos
Hoping to acquire that insight
To save myself from participating
In its intriguing fight
Sanjay Ranout
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Haze of life
Through all broken pieces
All I can see
A face in many segments
Getting much closer to the bits and pieces
Lying everywhere
I can see same face in every segment
Through all these segments and faces
Which face is mine
Which surely can be called
Insignia of my life
With time passing
Fading vision through mirrors
It's getting hazy and lazy
With Mind getting dizzy
Thinking more seems so buzzing
Maybe It will even stop trying
And end up all the striving
And settle to remain in hiding
©Sanjay Ranout
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Insanity
In the war of weapons
To compete the world's impression
Spending millions
For fiery collection
Piling up
The Storehouses of destruction.
When it comes to the justice!
Is it being served for all of the human efforts
Being put for centuries for its upliftment
And here spending chunk of dollars
To destroy and destruct the holders
Jeopardizing it's own existence
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Excitement: should it be wanted? or let it happen whenever!
Diving from the edge of a cliff
Suddenly whole adrenaline lost
My muscles got stiff
Inspired to scale the zenith of aspirations
Filled with zeal and motivation
Awaiting to feel that euraka moment
It just happened and it's over
The very next moment
Seems pretty slower
Now to make that adrenaline
Rush through me Again
Do i need to repeat it again and again
Is it linear or cyclic chain
Where every end has to been started again
Or I am just addicted
For that exciting frame
Where I loose myself
In this adrenaline rain
©Sanjay Ranout
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Introspection – The powerful Habit
Introspection: I call it powerful not only because of its offerings of knowledge about self, but it takes real strength and wisdom to introspect oneself. Most of us are indulged in understanding world , knowing people and then making own perceptions about world and people. But important point to understand here is, what is the basis of that perception we are making up, on what parameters we say something as right or wrong, ugly or beautiful!!! That’s the real question! The answer of which, we should be looking for. What if our own perceptions have unthoughtful basis which we have just adopted as they are generally practiced,, what if we have never tried to even know what we really think about our practiced ways!
Just think!!! Isn’t it a sign of weakness where we don’t try to understand ourselves? OR if we know that our thinking is little different from usual practices , so we chose to ignore it to avoid any criticism for us, OR if we know we are doing something wrong but as nobody noticed it or its not considered wrong usually so we just ignore that inner calling.
Well whether we think our thinking is best or worst without even knowing it, i feel we can be better at appreciating the world if we know, what is the basis our perception !!!
I feel introspection takes courage and then to act upon it take even more of it,,,
What you guys think??
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Dilemma and self!!!
In the aftermath of dopamine shot
Injected when immersed
In following nuisance urges,
It all ended with a dilemma everytime
Is Dopamine the culprit
Or such urges are blameworthy????
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1 more year added to the list
When I was in 20's
I felt it would be great in 30s
And now when I suddenly felt I am 37
I understood there is no heaven
It's all what we think
About whatever happens
And how much we are able to accept!!!
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Him only
All those events
Already happened
And those happening now
Their Direction and control
If not with me
Then where is me!
It's just Him
And him
Who is toying with joystick
Of my life's course.
So if there is no me
Then Why to worry
What's the hurry
For the clouds of uncertainties
Why to loose the sanity
All these issues
I think
Associated with me
Are not actually mine
All the effects and affects
I am not really the one
Who select
As there is no me,
It's just Him and Him
What lies beneath our thoughts! 