If life is so wise!
Why couldn't it teach yet
Or if being so dumb
It awaits for me since forever
To grow up more
Crests and troughs
Uncounted yet insurmountable
Still busy in learning this balancing act
Once a seeker
Is always seeker
Wandering if I could change its course
Yet quite comfortable
Being a wandering soul!!
Category: Life’s Journey
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Who is wise!!
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And end to Start
As this journey nears to its end
I just feel an urge to reflect
Years passed since its advent
Impressions of experiences
Overwhelm me now and then
A gaze so often
Take me back strongly to gone times
Sailing through ebbs and flows
Recurrent high tides
Somehow spiked adrenaline so high
After effects or transformation
Somehow it grew into a habit
Well it might be closing down
But that's how a new journey begins
And till the time life is on
Life shouldn't stop spinning,,,
-Sanjay Ranout
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Ache the ache
Every prick in the heart of ache
Is another way
To vent out the pain
Along with its stain
Giving some ache to the ache
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Those unknown dimensions
In this intoxication of setting myself free
I am lost somehwere in an unknown domension
Being here
Its calm all around, everywhere
And it becomes chaotic
As i turn myself to investigate
Where i am!!!
What a state to be in!!!
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In the Silence of Infinte Talks
A day without Sun
A night without Moon
Like my Life in your absence
A grey cover of the morning
A dark space in the evening
And then sight of an opening
Represent your presence
Amid all of these wanderings
As I acknowledged no separation
Why you counting the miles in between!
When distance is no more significant
Riding through rough roads
Life has been pushing me through
Its been quite a while now
Ragged, patched and survived
Never let my feelings get fagged
Burning and expanding
Under Burgeoning pressure and resistance
Your Desires and yearnings
Kept growing like nuclear fission
After passing tests of own conscious
And acknowledging our amalgamation
Its going to stand its ground
Through out its existence
No explanation no excuses
And no more proofs will be provided
Being strongest voice for itself
Its undeterred
Despite everyone's resistance
It has subsided
In the silence of infinite talks
My heart been talking and listening for years
It will keep on speaking for itself
It will keep on listening to itself
In the silence of infinite talks
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Would I stand?
Like a fallen leaf
Unmindfuly
I floated with wind
Wherever it heads & swung
Yet! ironically I wasn’t among the fallen ones
Filled with undeterred strength and intact spirit
Left nothing but trail of regrets
For not standing my ground
And being blown away by incoming gust
Without taking note of its course and direction
Spent the whole ride in this frustration
Desparately!
Awaiting for the wind to get calm
To ground me once again
A chance to make that decision
And here as I am settling down now
With much lesser strength and vigour
Would I blow away with next incoming gust?
To maintain that superficial sense of moving
To keep Floating unmindfully with its swing
Or will I stand my ground?
And wait for the wave
The one!
Heading towards my desired course
I am watching myself
In this new endeavour,,,,
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Chaos deep inside
This war
Being Fought inside my walls
Tearing me apart
Dividing into different parts
Each part
Claiming being at right front
For the right cause
And amid all that chaos
Am holding on each one's wows
Every side is staking
To present there case being
The only waking
Its delusional
Its confusing
To decipher the right voice
What I am holding onto
What I am tempting on
From this hue
I wanna cry
I wanna be strong
I wanna clarity
I wanna peace
Yet I am stuck
In uncertainty and feeling being plucked
Where i have no control
How to react in such absolve
I am just letting it roll
Awaiting final call
Hope i won't stall
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Submergence
Playing trickster
Up and down
Clouds above
Drenched pavements
Yet ready for another down burst
Sitting alone
With Plugged in buds
A black coffee mug
Still simmering
Evaporating its musk
All of this
With some old time tunes
Amid Floating attention
From Highlights
To forecasts
And momentary stay
In present overcast
Yet kind of Submergence
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Turmoils,,,,
And when the dust has started settling
Arising the excitement of gazing at depths
With some clarity
Someone threw a stone
Leaving everything again unsettled
Frustrated over the murkiness again
Pushed everyone for the tiring wait
Over and again,,,
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Excitement: should it be wanted? or let it happen whenever!
Diving from the edge of a cliff
Suddenly whole adrenaline lost
My muscles got stiff
Inspired to scale the zenith of aspirations
Filled with zeal and motivation
Awaiting to feel that euraka moment
It just happened and it's over
The very next moment
Seems pretty slower
Now to make that adrenaline
Rush through me Again
Do i need to repeat it again and again
Is it linear or cyclic chain
Where every end has to been started again
Or I am just addicted
For that exciting frame
Where I loose myself
In this adrenaline rain
©Sanjay Ranout
What lies beneath our thoughts! 