retention's Journal

Just the same two-step with a li'l twist. (I'm gangsta, baby, ain't nuthin' changed.)

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Update: May 23, 2025:

I'm 44, lost, and broken.


Update: November 19, 2024:

I'm 43 and no longer a student, nor a doctor, nor a licensed anything. I'm at least registered with my 200-hour yoga teacher certification (2017-2018).

I've been living alone since late 2019.

I had brain surgery this year. Many people helped me, and that has been nice.

J and I worked through paperwork to move from separation to divorce. That's still processing, as of today, but it's not like he'll dismiss it or anything. I was (and continue to) hope that our separation would be more of living apart but still being in each others' lives. That seems to be something he would not prefer, because he's stubborn, but I will always continue to hope he'll someday again feel the way about me that I feel about him.

I'm working very hard on many projects, mostly healthcare.

No matter what happens to me in the future - getting my doctorate, getting my PhD, opening the research center, becoming an author, traveling nationally to speak publicly, et cetera - it may have good effects on me and many others, but the shine will be off of everything without J in my life. As he said, "I'll continue on, but I'll merely exist."

My heart hurts every day, and not just due to the craniotomy recovery challenges.

At least Pris, Loki, and Mocha are here with me.

I still miss Brak.

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Update: May 17, 2021:

i'm somehow forty and halfway to being a doctor.

Brak has gone to new adventures, where I cannot follow. (Aug 2018)

I have lost the love of my life. (2019)

I have lost myself.

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Profile Updated August 25, 2013.

30+ - wait, when did that happen? Sandy Eggo. Multi-tasker by day, rockstar by night. Dropped into a beach life from the Pittsburgh area [08.19.01]. Engaged to a primate [03.18.08]; finally got away from the beach and snagged our cute perfect little 1930's house [06.26.09]. Got hitched on [04.23.11] and celebrated ten years (!) of being together [05.28.11]. Added two kittens to the mix, Pris & Loki [12.10.12].

Generally optimistic about life, but continually suffering from wanting to do a million projects at once. Fan of things related to artsy-crafty stuff, cats, being domestic, healthy living, and pretty much everything involving the internet. Except that thing with the cup.

Hit me up on dB Inc. You probably won't regret it.

THUMBS UP: Myself, our house, stuff mentioned above, art, Brak, Jason, the zoo, San Diego, freelance, blogging, photography, music, dancing, sleep, bunching up, WoW, literature, and good eats.

THUMBS DOWN: Irate customers, bad drivers, evil agendas, headaches, viruses, telemarketing, high gas prices, bills, spiders, debt, spoiled people, traffic jams when I'm late for work, SoCal snobs, irrational thought processes, fair-weather friends, and bad grammar.

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By the way, I have claimed:
*Interstate 8 from College Ave. to its western terminus in San Diego, CA
*Interstate 805 from University Ave. to the northern merge with I-5 in San Diego, CA
*the entire length of Interstate 5, from Mexico to Canada
*Rte. 60 in Pennsylvania
Thanks to claim_a_road, you can all start your toll-paying directly to me as of 10/31/03.

::things that make me feel fuzzy inside ::

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