Today I have been given a rare gift, I am home alone for hours on end! Thank you spirit, for giving me this great gift. They left about an hour and a half ago and I figure I have about 3 hours left so I am taking the time while the roofers are not hammering away outside the window to say thank you, I really needed this time to myself. I haven't had much of it at all lately, I think I will get a little bit this week but that's what I thought last week too. The roofers are why I am not with my fam for this family outing. we really didn't expect them to work on the weekend at all but they were here yesterday and they came back today which we didn't expect. So some racket but some alone time, I'll take it gladly.
You see here's the thing... ...Karma really is a bitch and you are most definitely going to get yours... lots of yours!! You are the most self centered person I have ever met, I truly think you are a certifiable Narcissist yes with a capital N. I have had enough of your attitude your behavior and the way you treat me and talk to me.
I will not be your punching bag, you think you can talk to me and treat me like a piece of shit and get away with it. I am here to say fuck off and good riddance. I will not accept being spoken to or treated like that!! It amazes me that you honestly believe, 100 % it seems, that you are more important than other people, that you can disobey the rules because where you have to be is important and of course you are late as always because your time is more important, Yes I have actually heard that statement come out of your mouth. There are others just as bizarre, like women who don't work are worthless, yep you have actually said that one too, you were drunk but isn't that when the truth really comes out.
( Read more...Collapse )Thank you God I am finally and definitely free from that crazy bitch!! For awhile I was seriously thinking I wouldn't ever be able to be free of her but she fucked up big time, Thank God and that made it really easy. It did hurt like hell but I guess it had to to be done so definitively in my life. It has taken me quite a while to get through this but now I see that it is time for me to go within and learn and grow and nurture my whole self! My Intuitive self in particular. I need time to myself now to read and practice and meditate and learn and open up totally yet go within completely!! It is time to open myself up to all the universe has to show me, to offer me. I now know to trust myself and all of my little feelings, let everything come that wants to come. I am open to all experiences that will raise my vibration and open my chakra's I will never second guess myself again. I really hope she gets the help she needs but I doubt she will, she doesn't want to face any of it. Thank you universe, for making it so black and white for me, I really needed that. In the last year I have chopped my so called friend list down to practically nothing, unfortunately there was a lot of his family that went with that, and some of mine too. I am not putting up with any bullshit from anyone anymore, I don't care if they are family, shouldn't they have more compassion and understanding for you if they are your own family and have known you since birth?? Nobody should have to put up with being accused of telling somebody to shut up when they absolutely did not but did have to play the lets interrupt me 3 times in a row while you rip me a new one for being a nice person and helping someone else out, all because you can't even come close to being that kind or having anything that resembles empathy. Don't shit on me because you cant only think of yourself!! I will not let you treat me like that. You are a selfish, self-centered, narcissistic bitch!! Even my mother said so!!
Some times I just don't know, don't know what to write or what to do or what to say. I'd like to know why I continually waste time by literally walking around in circles. Why do I do that?? I don't understand it, then I get so mad at myself that I have wasted all that time. Now I have to figure outs what's for dinner and how to get smoke smell off me. Damn why did I start this again. I really need to go through this room the closet especially.
Its a pretty warm day but a good day, I don't know what to write about, other that I got a few things done today that needed to be done. And it is too damn hot in here
