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Song Lyric Sunday: Magical Medication.

Good morning it’s Sunday March 30, 2025 – and our wonderful host Jim Adams has prompted us to find a Song that mentions doctor, cure, heal, treat or drugs.

Now Jim always describes this week’s prompt in detail so I shall leave it to you to read his post for that.

I have chosen The Drugs Don’t Work by The Verve. I absolutely love this song and I believe it is a very candid song about how after a while drugs ( prescription or other) do not work …your body gets used to them …all they do is make you worse. .. I know from personal experience this is true. I was once addicted to prescription drugs Tramadol and Gabapentin after breaking my back the second time…I went through withdrawal. The drs just wanted to keep me on the them for the rest of my life but I didn’t want to be a Zombie! So with the help of a friendly chemist and a supportive and patient family I went through withdrawal..a long , painful, mentally scary process…I made it and will not take opiod painkillers anymore.

I will not go into what withdrawal was like here but I have documented it here on my blog.

So this song means a lot to me.

The Drugs Don’t Work” is a song by English rock band the Verve. The song was written by Richard Ashcroft and is featured on their third studio album, Urban Hymns. It was released on 1 September 1997 as the second single from the album, debuting at number one on the UK singles chart. The beginning of the video shows the band walking down the street, following on from the end of “Bitter Sweet Symphony“. Lead singer Richard Ashcroft wrote the song in early 1995. He briefly mentioned it in an interview at the time, relating it to his drug usage: “There’s a new track I’ve just written … It goes ‘the drugs don’t work, they just make me worse, and I know I’ll see your face again’. That’s how I’m feeling at the moment. They make me worse, man. But I still take ’em. Out of boredom and frustration you turn to something else to escape.”Ashcroft also performed the song when the band was touring in support of A Northern Soul. The song was eventually recorded for Urban Hymns. The album’s producer, Chris Potter, later referred to it as both the best song and best vocal he had ever recorded.

According to Songfacts.com, the drugs in the song were ones given to Richard Ashcroft’s father:
http://www.songfacts.com/detail.php?id=3344

As always the lyrics are unclear, it is generally believed that composer Richard Ashcroft wrote the song in response to the death of his father. Also it is thought to be influenced by his relationship with his wife. Who knows ? Only Richard Ashcroft.

All this talk of getting old
It’s getting me down, my love
Like a cat in a bag, waiting to drown
This time I’m coming down

And I hope you’re thinking of me
As you lay down on your side
Now the drugs don’t work
They just make you worse but I know I’ll see your face again

Now the drugs don’t work
They just make you worse
But I know I’ll see your face again

But I know I’m on a losing streak
As I pass down by your street
And if you wanna show, then just let me know
And I’ll sing in your ear again

Now the drugs don’t work
They just make you worse
But I know I’ll see your face again

‘Cause baby, oh
If heaven falls, I’m coming too
Just like you said
You leave my life, I’m better off dead

All this talk of getting old
It’s getting me down, my Lord
Like a cat in a bag, waiting to drown
This time I’m coming down

Now the drugs don’t work
They just make you worse but I know I’ll see your face again

‘Cause baby, oh
If heaven falls, I’m coming too
Just like you said
You leave my life, I’m better off dead
But if you wanna show
Then just let me know and I’ll sing in your ear again

Now the drugs don’t work
They just make you worse but I know I’ll see your face again

Yeah, I know I’ll see your face again
Yeah, I know I’ll see your face again
Yeah, I know I’ll see your face again, oh, Lord
Yeah, I know I’ll see your face again, oh, Lord
I’m never coming down now, I’m never coming down
No more, no more, no more, no more, no more
I’m never coming down now, I’m never coming down
No more, no more, no more, no more, no more
I’m never coming down now, I’m never coming down
No more, no more, no more, no more, no more
I’m never coming down now, I’m never coming down
No more, no more, no more, no more, no more
I’m never coming down now, I’m never coming down
No more, no more, no more, no more, no more, no more

Source: Musixmatch

Songwriters: Richard Paul Ashcroft

The Drugs Don’t Work lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Ltd., Kobalt Music Services Ltd Kms

That’s it for today… But I shall just add a funny aside I remember my middle son telling me he and a few friends were off to Manchester to see Richard Ashcroft . I replied, absentmindedly, “Oh! Is he an old school friend” his reply was a stunned silence… Then ..”No mum”

HAPPY SUNDAY EVERYONE 💜💜

Part of Song Lyric Sunday

Break the Jar.

Let your muse out of the jar, and scribble us a poem of precisely 44 words, not counting the title, and using some form of the word jar

Let it Go.

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Never mind Autumn
Winter is here in my heart
Summer never came
My hopes were taken and dashed
Bitterness, not mine, spoiled it.
Words twisted along the way
Feelings were sealed tight in a jar
I smash the vessel .
Slowly poison pours right out.

Word count; 44

In response to; dVerse Quadrille, hosted this week by De Jackson, aka WhimsyGizmo

MMMM Time to say Goodbye.

It’s Monday Morning and time for MMMM Cathy said ”Let’s give Mary from Jingle Jangle Jungle a round of applauds. 👏 She volunteered to be this month’s guest co-hostess. This week’s theme is love or breakup songs! Mary gave us a choice for this week’s theme and while no one likes break ups, especially the romantic type, you might find it interesting to know in 2015, I did a Breaking Up is Hard to Do mini series, part I, II, III, IV which was fun to do. “

So I have chosen fourteen songs all with the twist of break up…some more quirky than others!!

Lets start with two from Sam Ryder, one that really pulls at the heartstrings with all the feelings we have felt during a break up. The title is “All the way over you yet. ”

Followed by “Living without you” a very up beat , get on with life song. I love the use of distortion on Sam’s massive voice as he sings a about living with a recent break up!

This song by Gotye is an absolutely brilliant break up song showing the pain from both sides. Being stonewalled, having possessions argued over …it says it all.

A very acrimonious and vicious break up now great song and fabulous video from James Blunt…Love Under Pressure

Miley Cryus and Wrecking Ball , a great song about pushing a relationship too hard and breaking it in the process then living with the fall out.

Jar of heart by Christina Perri is a really good song about breaking up from an abusive relationship …..such a hard thing to do !

Fleetwood Mac’s Landslide is about the break up of long term relationship when people are getting older and all the deep thinking and pain that brings .

Another song from Fleetwood Mac Go your own way. I believe this one is personal to Stevie Nicks and Lindsey Buckingham.

Fix you by Coldplay Not so much a break up song as a relationship broken by death … But it hopeful.

This beautiful track is sung by Maitre Gims and Sia called I forgive you. The song is about a relationship gone so bad … That it’s a lost cause but that said there is still forgiveness left.

Dance Alone by Kylie and Sia such a great break up song …if you keep dancing it’s not happening…eyes closed fingers in ears LaLaLaLa

Run time by Imogen Heap is another brilliant break up song. The moment you realise that the relationship has run it’s life, it’s sell by date is past. You need to end it now before you end up hating eachother .

As a break up song Forget you by Celo Green is such a great song….it’s supposed to be about the music but I will always see it as the boy who is not quite the look, face does not fit. Has a crush on a girl …long story short she keeps putting him down …then he became famous… suddenly she’s interested.. guess what he’s not 😍😍

Dido and White Flag…. There comes a time in every relationship when you have to accept it’s over…. You have to move on. It’s hard if one of you can accept! Especially after a nasty untidy breakup.

Monday’s Music Moves Me is sponsored by Marie, Cathy, Alana, and Stacy, so be sure and visit them, where you can also find the Linky for the other participants

Happy Monday Boogie On!

#writephoto: Tour Bus.

Hi again this week this episode comes with a warning of adult content. Nothing gratuitous but it’s relative to the story we started last week.

The ambulances had arrived silently and Morgarna was pleased to see that her request for both crews to be female had been respected.
The paramedics approached both of the girls and gently pursuaded them to get into the back of the vehicles, the girls refused to be separated so much to Morgarna’s relief the crews took both girls into the same ambulance.
The police arrived all blues an two but at least no sirens. The paramedics and police had chat and a couple of detectives followed the ambulances back towards the hospital.

Two senior officers approached Morgarna as she walked back toward the house after seeing the girls off.
“You can’t go in there miss, miss, can I have your name…miss!” The younger officer raised his voice, as the other man reached out and touched Morgarna’s arm.
“Excuse me, please”
Morgarna bristled, as she turned around comming face to face with the detectives she fixed them both with her eyes.
Doing so she put everything she had discovered and seen into their minds carefully leaving out exactly how to get down to the tunnel, cells and pit. She would trigger that information in about 24 hrs. Also telling them that she was going downstairs into the tunnels beneath the house and that they did not need to follow her yet.
With a wave of her hand she left them standing outside the house taking in all the information she had given them.
The s.o.c.o. team were busy working through the house, none of them noticed the woman in black pass through their mist and disappear down the stairs to the basement. Sealing doors behind her.

Morgarna entered the cell where the man was still laying prostrate on the cold floor….he was quiet now but he’d obviously been struggling because his wrists were cut and bleeding and the trousers around his ankles too were stained with blood where he’d been fighting against the wires Morgarna had tied him up with.
“Well it stinks in here” she said as she approached him, “Oh! look you’ve messed yourself “
Struggling to turn his head he hissed back, “What do you expect I have been here hours and I am bleeding, release my wrists!”
“Beg” replied Morgarna.
“Who are you, you’ve broken my arm at least…. What are you?”
“I’ve answered that earlier, I’m your worst nightmare.”
Morgarna got her a knife out of her bag and bent down to the evil smelling creep and whispered “The police are upstairs but it’s going to take them at least 24 hours to find you ….so let’s make you comfortable.”
A wicked look crossed her face and her old magic ways filled her mind as she looked upon the pathetic specimen in front of her.
He was shaking now, in pain, cold and exposed he tried to lash out at her but he only hurt himself more. He started to shout abuse at her and spit .
“Now” hissed Morgarna “struggle if you like but you’ll only hurt yourself more” as she lit a cigarette and blew smoke in his eyes she waved the knife at his manhood and smiled…
“Perhaps I could remove those balls… you’re not going to need them in prison are you?….Make as much noise as you like they won’t hear you as you have said to your victims no one can hear you this place is sealed and soundproof. “
Fear engulf the man on the floor as he squirm and closed his eyes and waited for the pain.

Just as Morgan had hold of her prize and the knife poised about to cut the Anomaly appeared!
“No shit, not now.. Really WTF!”
The Anomaly had arrived and Morgarna had to jump she had no option! Making sure she had a good hand full she jumped reluctantly just letting go as she heard him screaming loud enough… leaving him bruised but whole.

Just as Morgan had hold of her prize and the knife poised about to cut the A
Anomaly appeared!
“No shit not now….. Really WTF! “
The Anomaly had arrived and Morgarna had to jump she had no option! Making sure she had a hand full she jumped reluctantly just letting go as she heard him screaming… leaving him bruised but whole.

Morgarna landed with the knife still in hand, back in the lab…
A startled Merlin stepped quickly out of her way and opened his mouth.
“Your bath is ready and we have Chinese on its way babes”
Morgarna flew over and holding Merlin by the throat said “Don’t babes me arsehole ” with a massive shove she sent him flying as she marched off to her bathroom, shouting, no warning, no information no nothing….no F##king more!!!! “
As she reached her bathroom door Gail was there and handed her a triple Bacrdi and coke which Morgarna took as she slammed the door behind her!

The next morning at breakfast, Merlin was very quiet as Morgarna entered the kitchen Gail and Roseanna both looked round to greet her.”Okay I have calmed down a tad and even you’re safe Merlin” adding under her breath “for now”
“We need to debrief now. ” Merlin said in-between mouthfuls of toast.
“Okay” Morgarna replied shooting all the information over to Merlin at such speed his head jerked backwards! He looked her in the eye, a look that said I have limits don’t push me too far!
Roseanna handed Morgarna a plate of pancakes and said “I have visited the girls weekly, two years into the future and even though they still have problems they are coping well. Their families have been amazing. They still remember you Morgarna they call you the black angel, they still see you in their dreams.”
“Really they still see me? and you can travel into the future now with your lucid dreams?”
“Yes Merlin has upgraded me?” Roseanna ended with a smile.
“Hum! ” Morgarna said lighting a cigarette and pouring a coffee. “He would anything so he doesn’t have to do anything to get his hands dirty!”
Merlin opened his mouth to protest, all three women looked at him and he shut up!
“And that shit what’s the story with the perve? “
“Well babes , as you made sure they won’t find him until tomorrow evening he’s in a bad way but he’ll survive. Rosanna has checked in on him twice and he’s a mess just like his captives were but he’ll survive, unlike most of them. There’s a trial and he goes to prison for the rest of his life…. he’ll end up in a mental asylum and meets a sticky end in ten years time. He’ll really suffer Morgarna!”
“How many young girls died at his hands…” Morgarna asked.
“Twenty …” Replied Merlin.
“Why didn’t we go in before Why?”
Merlin poured himself a coffee and said ” We can’t know about things until they show up …. Those are the rules!”

A week later Morgarna took a jump five years into the future, as she landed she found herself in the stairwell of big tour bus in a busy London street. She climbed the stairs and took a seat at the back of the bus.
Further up the bus she saw a large group people… among them she recognised the two girls she had rescued. One was a confident 21year old and the other a beautiful 17 year old. Both girls looked happy and relaxed with their families and if she was not mistaken their partners….
Just then both girls spotted Morgarna sitting at the back of the bus. Morgarna smiled and raised her hand….they both smiled back and mouthed “THANK YOU” Morgarna got up to go as the girls turned back to the group.
As she went down the stairs of the bus she felt her eyes and cheeks were wet…
She wiped her hand across her face…tears … really tears…. She hadn’t cried in eons! And then she jumped.

THIS IS PART OF K.L.CALEY’S #writephoto.Tour Bus.

Ronovan Writes Sijo Wednesday Poetry Challenge #42. Use RECOVER as your inspiration this week.

A broken body holds sway over the mind..making the being irritable and unkind.
The touch of a child, the light of the sun, the kindness of strangers
The scents of nature revives like seasons the road back to health can be long

THIS IS PART OF RONOVANWRITE’S WEEKLY SIJO

Jim Adams Song Lyric Sunday: Carte Blanche

Well it’s Sunday again and time for Jim Adam’s to bring us our prompt for this week. Jim is giving us Carte Blanche this week, here’s what he had to say. “It is User Choice again here on Song Lyric Sunday and this gives you the option to choose whatever you like. We had this before on October 4, 2020, so it has actually been two years and I thought I would bring it back again, because it brings so much variety (not because I am getting lazy). I was thinking that maybe it would be a good idea to make this an annual start of October prompt, please let me know your thoughts on that. So go your own way, or do your own thing, as this is supposed to be all about having fun today.”

So I gave this a lot of thought and I came back as I often do to Imogen Heap. It was here music that was the soundtrack to my learning to walk again after breaking my back , both times! In all honesty I believe her music really helped my recovery.

I have chosen a live version on Imogen playing Just for now, showing how she builds up her music , layering and recording and playing back her sounds before she invented her Me Mu gloves. Below is a video where Imogen explains how her gloves

Ruby is home!

Home from Vetinary Hospital, after a traumatic month of shocks and operations. Fingers crossed cancer cut out, there is a lot of nursing to do but she deserves the best. There is some concern that the skin flap the Surgeons used to close the wound might necrotise but hubby and I will do our best to prevent this. Stitches out in 2/3 weeks.

Ruby says thank you everyone for sending her love and good wishes.💜💜💜