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so much shit has happened this week.
my uncle ended up passing away on october,19th 2005.
it was really hard on me & my family.
it was so unexpected.
i still cant believe hes gone.
but terri has been here for me & my family throughout the WHOLE thing.
she's been at my house since tuesday night.
and stayed until this morning, when i had to go to school.

the wake and service went well.
terri & josh came with me both days.
brittani, sarah and tj came out for the wake.
devin, erika & brian came to the funeral service.
thank you so much to everyone who was here for me<3
it meant so much to me & my family.

i brought my camera because my aunt wanted pictures of my uncle.
it was somewhat creepy, taking pictures of dead person.
but then afterwards we played with the camera.

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friday night after coming home from the funeral service.
terri, devin, josh, me, erika & brian started a game of monoply.
it was fun.
i definitely lost.
i think.
they kept stealing money from me. asscocks.
then my family came home. then they went out to dinner.
leaving my brother & sister.
so we played pictionary.
guys against girls.
guys won.
then we played disney scene it.
me & cj came in second place.
sweet fucking deal.
then once my family came back home.
we headed to josh's.
we drank.
i had a couple shots.
tonya and jenny came.
we smoke a joint.
then we went home.

saturday brian called me & told me shit josh said.
i told terri.
terri became very upset.
swore never to talk to josh again.
i knew that wouldnt happen. especially if i was in the middle.
which i was. hardcore.
josh took me out driving.
terri didnt talk to him, only me & him talked.
awkward.

sunday we went to mcdonalds. then i called josh.
to see if he wanted to drive with me.
we went to his house.
i told them they need to fucking talk.
only took an hour before terri would start talking to him.
but it all worked out in the end.
and it ended up being brians fault.
so fuck that eh?
but now im cold.

tonight i have a date with jessica black.
at tim hortons.
i cant even afford tim hortons right now.
my credit card should be in the mail.
im going to check the mail.

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burr.

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oh shit!! that pretty much sums up my weekend!

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so this weekend i am going to montreal.
im so excited.
im going with terri & josh.
should be fun!

i leave in a couple hours.
im not even packed yet.
clothes are still in the dryer.
i think they are almost done.
hopefully.
i need clothes.
im bringing my whole wardrobe.
and nine pairs of shoes.
me & terri picked them out last night.
theres nine.
we couldnt decide.

ok gotta pack.
bye.

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this weekend was...um..interesting.

first of all brian got us to go camping.
in friggen Darlington.
yeah family park right there.
the park ranger came to see us,
asked us for id.
i said i was drinking orange juice.
it worked.
so then like every twenty minutes a park ranger truck came past our site.
code name: smokey.
ha.
we had like so many tents on our site.
one of them we werent even using.
sarah & tj had one.
jeff & dayna had one.
then terri, josh, me, jay & brittani slept in the other one.
wicked, ye.

so the next morning one of the park rangers came by and asked to talk to the legal aged kids.
aka brian jeff josh jay. but josh & jay were sleeping.
smokey said that we werent allowed to drink because we had minors on the site.
& if we were caught drinking then we would be fined.
fuck that.

me josh terri jeff & dayna made up a big story, to get our money back for the second night.
it worked.
we got everything out.
and we took the deposit for gas money, since we only had one car.
josh had to be the chauffer, with terri's car.
then everything got so complicated.

sarah, tj, jay, me, terri, josh & brittani went to zellers diner for breakfast.
the worst breakfast ive ever eaten in my life.
then we me, terri & brittani chilled at terris, while josh went home to shower.
i had a nice hot shower at terris.
after thinking long and hard of what to do,
we decided to go to dinner @ Kelseys in Ajax.
it was ok.
then we figured it out.
we'd party at josh's, then sleep at brians.
josh didnt want everyone crashing at his house.
the baby was there.

so we partied.
hardcore.
i was doing shots like there was no tomorrow.
i'd puke, then i'd do more shots.
it was awesome.
then blayne came by.
we called for the cab.
but josh was too wasted to wait to get back to brians.
so me terry brittani & josh passed out in joshs basement.
josh almost puked on me.
but didnt.
then we slept.

in the morning, we had to clean everything up.
jeff left a bag of puke on joshs deck.
fucking bastard.
thats just gross.
then we went to brians to get my money and to take down the tent.
jeff and dayna were still sleeping.
so i screamed " WAKE THE FUCK UP" & shoook their tent.
dayna got really pissed off.
hahaha
it was funny.
then we went to mcdonalds to eat.
then brittani got dropped off, then i got dropped off.

now im going to watch a movie & relax.

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why the fuck is he so complicated?
who the hell wouldnt want to go to cancun, mexico?
oh right.
devin.
i asked him if he wanted to go.
and i said id even save enough money to pay for him.
because i know he has his whole school thing to pay for.
i understand.
i figured it would be a nice getaway for a while.
to just hang out, and relax on the beach
IN FUCKING CANCUN.
HE gets mad at ME.
fuck that.
like i just want to spend time with him.
when i told him that hes like,
"we can spend time together here, we dont need to go to cancun for that."
why the fuck not?
we dont spend anytime together.
hes either at school or working.
so he never has time for me.
im surprised hes making effort to see me this weekend for his birthday.
sometimes i feel that just shooting myself would be more easier than trying to figure him out.
you'd think after so long you would know.
but nope.
i just keep learning that he doesnt like doing anything.
nothing i want to do.
its like we're not even alike.
i used to think we were.
but maybe our priorities have changed.
maybe we are growing apart.
maybe we arent meant for each other anymore.
i dont know.
im tired of apologizing after every fight, like its my fault.
im tired of crying over him after every fight.
im just plain fucking tired.
and i dont know what to do about this.
maybe we should take a break or something.
i might be too much for him right now, with his precious schooling and all.
whatever;

he says its my fault that we dont spend alone time.
but i just hate staying at home sometimes.
i love hanging with my friends.
and i dont want to always be at home.
i include devin when i go out.
he doesnt include me with his friends.

tonight i asked him to come over after work.
even if only for a couple hours, since i work early in the morning.
it was like he didnt even want to just because it was a couple of hours.
but like seriously i dont know.
im fucking fed up.
thats it.
im fed up.
fuck it.

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my birthday was definitely a couple days ago.
wahoo to me.
i can buy porn.
my dreams have come true.
yah.

my people took me out to dinner at eastside marios.
i won a free desert.
ill use that someday.
i got my presents.
my bro and sis got me the hilary duff cd.
my mom got me some money so i could get some new clothes!
yay!

then.
brittani, smac, and brian picked me up.
went to brians so he could change.
then off to canadian tire to bug devin.
we waited for him to get off, drove him home to get changed.
off to mccafe!

it was delicious. but it always is.
me and sarah shared a nice cinnamon bun.
holy fuck was it good.
mmm.

after that, we went to burger king.
got these chicken nugget fry things for me and sarah to share.
devin ate most of mine.
he smells.
<3

after that, we dropped off sarah.
then dropped off devin.
we went to mcdonalds after that.
but first we went to tim hortons so brittani could pee.
we saw daniella and her friend.
after that we went to mcdonalds.
zach gave me a free ice cream cone.
and got some food.
i talked to this guy who was cleaning up the garbage.
he wasnt very nice.
stink head.

the next day. my afterbirthday day.
devin came over and gave me my present.
he bought me the oc season 2; kelly clarkson dvd.
i made him watch like 8 episodes of the oc.
before going out to dinner.
we went to montanas.
it was pretty good.
i enjoyed.

ok so im here now.
i watched a couple of episodes of the oc this morning.
because i am that cool.
& im catching up on missed episodes.
so i am ready for season three.

im waiting for britty k to get home.
then we are going shopping. woot.
i ♥ shopping.


ok bye.

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yay, wasaga beach.
it was friggen awesome. again.
sarah,brittani,tonya,brian and me went.
stayed at the same park as we did on prom weekend.
there wasnt as many people there.
but it was still fun.
we planned it out way better this time.

i dont even feel like writing.
so ill definitely update when i get the pictures back.
they are in the photo place now.
ill pick them up tomorrow.
before work hopefully.


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this weekend was hella fun.

[thursday;]
♥ tyler picked me up from where i babysit.
♥ raced brittani to my house so i could change and i forgot my bank card so i needed that. brittani got to my house first, but me & tyler got to the door first. who won? who knows.
♥ tried to get sarah. but she was no where to be found. so we left.
♥ went to swiss chalet. ate chicken. yum.
♥ dropped brittani off at work. me & tyler went on a mission.
to find the mccafe.
♥ drove to toronto. by accident. we couldnt find the mccafe.
♥ got off the highway. and got directions.
♥ finally made it to mccafe.
fell in love<3
♥ i was suppose to go to devins, but ended up coming home to late. [tear]
♥ went to sleep.

[friday;]
[+] brittani came over, because we drove her to work.
[+] we went to walmart, i wanted to look for some stuff for wasaga beach.
[+] huge fucking storm. definitely thought i was going to die. just kidding.
[+] picked up devin.
[+] watched the movie "The Hole".
[+] tyler called me, said we were going to the movies. wanted to see RedEye.
[+] stopped at wendys, cuz brittani & tyler were hungry.
[+] got to amc. lady stopped us, said no movies tonight. the roof had flooded.
[+] tried to find another amc. too far away. it was already like 9 anyways.
[+] found the mccafe, we were looking for the night before.
[+] stopped off at mcdonalds so tyler could talk to shannon.
[+] drove kristina to her friends house. but first she helped me get a pylon. the big black and orange ones. i needed one of those.
[+] got home around oneish. just went to bed.

[saturday;]
♥ woke up around 1:30pm.
♥ drove my brother and sister to a birthday party.
♥ got ready for work.
♥ went to work for 3:30pm, but ate some lunch with my mother who had to wait a little while to pick up my brother and sister.
♥ closed with justin and cheryl[who i wish i could kill] til 10.
♥ went over to harmony[mcdonalds]. talked to angus. picked up brian. drove him home.
♥ had a shower, then brittani & brian picked me up at about 11-11:30pm.
♥ went to the whitby psych. but our way in was blocked so we tried to untie the metal wires.
♥ then brittani called and said she found another way in[she wasnt going in with us]
♥ we got in her way. then as we started to run to a building we heard someone shout. we were like shit. and raced out.
♥ we saw a group of people. brian sat on the window part of the car, hanging out the window. it was the police who were talking to the group of people. it was funny.
♥ we headed down to the lake. almost hitting a cat.
♥ creeper dan and ryan were there. met these people.
♥ some lady was there who definitely fucked on something. she was singing and talking about working on a mushroom farm with lazers. i dont kno she was fucking wierd.
♥ brittani had to get home because she worked in the morning.
♥ we raced dan. he won.
♥ got home about twoish.
♥ went to sleep.

[sunday;]
[+] woke up at 12:30. got ready for work.
[+] went to work for 1:30.
[+] closed with justin and elaine <3. had so much fun.
[+] found a hot guy that worked at walmart. who must be gay. he had style.
[+] got off at 7pm. love closing walmart on sundays. <3
[+] brittani, brian, sarah, terry & josh picked me.
[+] we drove to terrys house. sat outside.
[+] we drove a movie to her neices house.
[+] then drove to the store where they bought these cigars.
[+] went to sarahs house to pick up brittanis car.
[+] we raced them back to terrys house. we won.
[+] i did handstands in the middle of the road.
[+] went to the park to smoke the cigars. it was wierd.
[+] played some form of soccer. me sarah and brian kicked ass.
[+] went back to terrys.
[+] went swimming.
[+] then we went home. tres fun.

thats my weekend.
sweet eh? oh yeah.
and it didnt involve drinking. woah.
wasaga beach t-minus 2 days. fuck eh?

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fuck.
last night was fucking awesome.
definitely went to parkers house,
got smashed with way cool people,
went home,
puked everywhere,
went to sleep,
got up at 6:30am to babysit, practicly still drunk.
was sick all day.
score!

but ye, it was definitely fun.
i went with brittani, sarah m, jay & brian.
also there was peter, tracy, matt.
then skillen showed up.
then zach, justin and megan came. way wicked.

i havent updated in like a year.
pretty much.
right now im cleaning up my mess i made last night.
its gross.
i should call devin back.
and brittani.

i need a shower.
a really hot one.
or a bath.
nah shower.
dude the place i babysit, have the sweetest bathtub.
its so deep and has jets and its amazing.
why cant my house have that?
because i suck. oh yeah.

next week a bunch of us are going back to wasaga beach.
definitely cannot wait.
but i hope i dont get sick. i hate getting sick.

ok i hear the mess calling my name.
i need to clean it up.
its pretty much clean, just have to clean my fan.
god i hate beind sick.
oh well it was fun.

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