MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE
So well, I'm in my hometown now for Christmas holiday :)
One thing is bothering me.
I think that now it's easier for me to get into arguments with my mother. I feel terrible (or maybe I should say it's guilty) because of it. It feels like many things that I think is okay, is not to my mother and vice versa. Our arguments never gone too far into screaming fit for example, but still, I feel bad. Because she's my mother, and maybe it's just the way she loves me.
Today for example, I was watching anime in my laptop at my room. My room has a window that face the front yard. That window is always kept closed, but since my room is not a sound-proof one, so of course some voices would leak outside.
I was watching a serious anime, so I didn't laugh a bit (yesterday I laughed hard when I re-watch some hetalia). My mother came in and said in a low voice, "your father's employees are outside, so please don't laugh too hard. I know you just want to be yourself, but they would think you're weird".
I dunno, maybe I'm just too selfish for my own good, but I felt kind of pissed. My mom always had trouble of my laughing-fit IN OUR HOUSE.
I mean, it's our house!! If we don't feel relaxed or enjoy ourselves here, where else would we be?! And it's not like I'm disturbing anyone anyway. Besides, my laughing-fit would be much louder and harder in my (how would you say "kost" in English...?). My mother just doesn't know that. If she knows, I bet she would say, "You should control yourself. People would think you're strange."
Why is she so worried with what people think?! It's not like I do something wrong. I didn't disturb anyone, I didn't laugh or scream into anyone's ears or something like that. It's weirder that I have to restrain myself in my house when in other place I don't have to.
Okay, maybe I need to build up images for my father? So his employees wouldn't think "Boss' daughter is strange".
I just don't get it.......
And I was pissed, surely. So I kinda lost my composure and replied, "Yes, mom. I haven't laughed any bit since this morning, you don't have to worry." And I think I acted coldly for the next 1 hour after that. *sigh*
Or maybe I'm making things hard for myself. Anyone who reads this, suggestion please?
Change of topic.
The anime I was watching was Bokurano. I finished watching it today, and I felt lump in my throat watching the ending. I managed not to cry (hell, I watched it with my mom and dad in the same room. They would think I'm even weirder for that =___=).
It is a good anime. The art is so simple, yes. But the development of the plot is good, and it's not boring at all.
I was so pissed at government in the anime. They only think of expanding their country's technology, creating a new supposed-to-be-weapon, and making money. While children, 13 years old children who ride the robot, sacrifice their life to save earth, and everyone they hold dearest.
Maybe I'm the one that thinking too childish-ly, but I think it shows us how sometimes children are much better than adults. While adults act all mighty "we are adults. We know the best, we know the most", children think wiser and more mature and more considerate.
Of course not all adults and all children like that. Because just like in the anime there are good adults (the ones who really care) and children-I-really-want-to-squish (the ones who act so full of themselves and making annoying comments), it goes the same in the real world.
Oh, and I read at wikipedia
"Regarding differences between the stories in the manga and in the anime, Hiroyuki Morita, who directed the anime, wrote in his blog that he dislikes the original story and has, in some ways, been making changes to the plot for that reason. He also wrote that, at one point early in the development of the show, he asked manga author Mohiro Kitoh if he could find some way to save the main characters — the kids who must pilot Zearth. He wrote that Kitoh responded that his choice was fine as long as the changes did not involve "magical solutions" to the story. Morita closed out the blog entry with the statement "The director of the anime version of Bokurano hates the original work. Viewers should not expect to see any aspects that they liked about the original manga appearing in the anime. So fans of the manga, please stop watching the anime"."
LOL ?
***SPOILERS!!!!!!!! I WARN YOU!!!!!!!!***
Bokurano wants to show us too, that death is inevitable, you can die anytime. There is no "magic" that would revive the dead.
In this anime, the main characters are 15 children, 14 of them are middle schooler and 1 of them is an elementary schooler. Every single one who pilots the robot, die afterwards.
After they are chosen to be the pilot, they could only spend their day waiting the enemy to appear, which could be anytime. And if they don't fight, their earth would be annihilated. The same goes if they lose the fight.
In the end, 14 of them are contracted, 14 of them died. They died protecting earth, yet because the truth is not revealed to the public, people still think of them as some robot who comes to destroy earth, and thus is a monster. Only the government and military know the truth, and the only one of the 15 that remains alive because she was not contracted.
The 14 children are not brought back to life. They died "normally" for other people. The history records the robot they rode as "a black monster".
Only one girl know the truth, and she continues to live on, passing the story to the families that are left behind. (Sorry if I sound cheesy here. I'm trying not to, to be honest XP).
***SPOILER ENDS XD****
So yeah, maybe this is all for this entry's depressing chit-chat? XD
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