resha04

Damn insomnia..................

resha04 — Thu, 14 Jun 2012 18:47:59 GMT

I have to get up at 6 tomorrow because we'll be picked up at 7.30, and I CAN'T SLEEP!!!
I rolled and rolled and once again, rolled on my bed and even though I really wanted to sleep, I CAN'T!!!!!!! *bawling*
Now it's 2 in the morning and I haven't got any sleep yet, even though I've been in my bed since 11.30 PM.

It's partly my fault though, because I read Umineko no Naku Koro Ni this night (2nd arc finished, whooo), even though I knew the risk. So here I am, Beatrice's creepy face and laugh echoing in my mind nonstop and I CAN'T SLEEP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Screw this damn insomnia.
I'm just gonna surfing 'till my eyes give up and Beatrice decides to fucking leave me alone.
Oh, and I won't get internet connection for the next two weeks anyway.

I'm going to strangle my typography groupmates..... Strangle them for real.....

resha04 — Sun, 20 May 2012 05:51:29 GMT

We have a group typo assignment. The assignment is a final project.
Step 1 : Make a typeface -> Finished
Step 2 : Decide typeface's name and the body copy -> I thought it's decided....
Step 3 : Make the layout sketches -> in progress

My group, my group (yes, I said it twice) consists of a quiet girl with really good drawing skill and ideas, a boy who seems to be carefree and often leaves studio to just wandering around, a cheerful girl whose sketches my friend wanted to rip off to pieces, and another girl who is the type to 1.BBM-ing 2.Taking photos at wrong time and place 3. Talking about blackberry, newest ones, the updates, etc etc 4. Doesn't want to use even one of her brain cells to think 5. Pisses me off.
Well, at first I thought my group isn't really that... bad.
Now, I'm trying not to reconsider.

The thing that pissed me off today is :
I thought we decided the typeface's name (Garden) and bodycopy (flowing, breathing, alive) last Friday.
But when the quiet girl sent me her thumbnail so I can forward it to our tutor, I found out that in her thumbnail, she used "Spring" and not "Garden", and "As the warm breeze passes, a smile will surely grow on your lips" instead of those 3 words. And just yesterday, the carefree boy sent me his thumbnails too, and although he used "Garden" as the typeface name, he used "enjoy the beauty" as the bodycopy.
Yesterday, my patience was still intact and I could let it slip.
Today, my little, small, tiny, precious, bubble of patience, burst. For good...........

Way to go to make me scream like there's no tomorrow, guys. I want to salute you all.

Really, if this keeps up, maybe I'll go crazy

resha04 — Fri, 06 Apr 2012 17:44:07 GMT

The world is crazy.
Really crazy.

I'm in my period and in an emo-and-depressed-period-which-you-don't-know-the-cause.
I produce emo things and think emo. Not to mention angsty.
I yearn for fluffy things!!!!!!!! Anything!!!!!!!!!!! Be it doujin, fanfic, anything!!!!!!!!
Right now my angsty-and-emo-mood is really high and.... I don't know if that's a good thing.

Just now I had a fight with my high-school friend. She hurt me with her words and I hurt her back with mine.
In the end, she was the one who gave the final blow and yeah, as lame as that is, I ended up crying my ass off.
F***...... Totally damn f***.......
I cried and wasted my precious time that can be used to draw or do something else.
I felt silly for crying because of her.
That friend of mine is in a much more depressed state than me.
I can't say her problems here, but for her those are really depressing that she had started to self-harm and had thought of suicide once.
I don't know what to say to her. I tried to console her yesterday but it bear no fruit. I said "don't do that" but she wouldn't listen.
Then just now she said she had expected me to say that. And that was the start of our sharp words fight that ended with me crying lamely.
Meh........
F***........

Then my best friend from high school asked what happened, and after a series of talking and emo-ness and questions, I found out that she's in a depression-state too. She didn't want to tell me why though.

Really........
What is happening to us?
If this does not get better soon, I dunno what'll happen.
Me and my best friend are most likely will be fine.
But I'm worried about my self-harming friend.
..................
Why should I though?
.....................................
I don't want to think too much anymore
I think the only way to solve MY problem is to not let myself think. I have to fill every minute and second with something, be it sketching, drawing, coloring, brain storming for ideas, reading, anything!!!

Only the first day and I'm beat

resha04 — Mon, 13 Feb 2012 14:51:16 GMT

Today is the first day of new semester and just like my title says, I'm beat.

Morning lecture was just pointless in my opinion.

Then in nirmana, we were given task to transform 2D shapes into 3D by cutting, folding, and shaping 2 pieces of paper.
Everyone looked just as clueless/inspiration-less/uninspired (whatever one fits the most) as me. I wasn't very good with my hands, especially if it includes paper. I cut, fold, and put glue messyly (is that even a word?), I felt like I want to cry when I looked at my result, but well, no use thinking too negatively for now. Maybe I just need more practice and especially, more patience.
I've just finished the dummy my teacher's assistant asked for, but I still don't have any idea how to put those 2 pieces together into a piece of "art".
So I think I'll rest now and I hope inspiration will come strike me first thing tomorrow.

Oh, btw,
USxUK 2012 calendar is just AWESOME!!!!!!!

Adults ?

resha04 — Tue, 27 Dec 2011 09:36:38 GMT

MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE

So well, I'm in my hometown now for Christmas holiday :)
One thing is bothering me.
I think that now it's easier for me to get into arguments with my mother. I feel terrible (or maybe I should say it's guilty) because of it. It feels like many things that I think is okay, is not to my mother and vice versa. Our arguments never gone too far into screaming fit for example, but still, I feel bad. Because she's my mother, and maybe it's just the way she loves me.

Today for example, I was watching anime in my laptop at my room. My room has a window that face the front yard. That window is always kept closed, but since my room is not a sound-proof one, so of course some voices would leak outside.
I was watching a serious anime, so I didn't laugh a bit (yesterday I laughed hard when I re-watch some hetalia). My mother came in and said in a low voice, "your father's employees are outside, so please don't laugh too hard. I know you just want to be yourself, but they would think you're weird".
I dunno, maybe I'm just too selfish for my own good, but I felt kind of pissed. My mom always had trouble of my laughing-fit IN OUR HOUSE.
I mean, it's our house!! If we don't feel relaxed or enjoy ourselves here, where else would we be?! And it's not like I'm disturbing anyone anyway. Besides, my laughing-fit would be much louder and harder in my (how would you say "kost" in English...?). My mother just doesn't know that. If she knows, I bet she would say, "You should control yourself. People would think you're strange."
Why is she so worried with what people think?! It's not like I do something wrong. I didn't disturb anyone, I didn't laugh or scream into anyone's ears or something like that. It's weirder that I have to restrain myself in my house when in other place I don't have to.
Okay, maybe I need to build up images for my father? So his employees wouldn't think "Boss' daughter is strange".
I just don't get it.......
And I was pissed, surely. So I kinda lost my composure and replied, "Yes, mom. I haven't laughed any bit since this morning, you don't have to worry." And I think I acted coldly for the next 1 hour after that. *sigh*
Or maybe I'm making things hard for myself. Anyone who reads this, suggestion please?

Change of topic.
The anime I was watching was Bokurano. I finished watching it today, and I felt lump in my throat watching the ending. I managed not to cry (hell, I watched it with my mom and dad in the same room. They would think I'm even weirder for that =___=).
It is a good anime. The art is so simple, yes. But the development of the plot is good, and it's not boring at all.
I was so pissed at government in the anime. They only think of expanding their country's technology, creating a new supposed-to-be-weapon, and making money. While children, 13 years old children who ride the robot, sacrifice their life to save earth, and everyone they hold dearest.
Maybe I'm the one that thinking too childish-ly, but I think it shows us how sometimes children are much better than adults. While adults act all mighty "we are adults. We know the best, we know the most", children think wiser and more mature and more considerate.
Of course not all adults and all children like that. Because just like in the anime there are good adults (the ones who really care) and children-I-really-want-to-squish (the ones who act so full of themselves and making annoying comments), it goes the same in the real world.
Oh, and I read at wikipedia
"Regarding differences between the stories in the manga and in the anime, Hiroyuki Morita, who directed the anime, wrote in his blog that he dislikes the original story and has, in some ways, been making changes to the plot for that reason. He also wrote that, at one point early in the development of the show, he asked manga author Mohiro Kitoh if he could find some way to save the main characters — the kids who must pilot Zearth. He wrote that Kitoh responded that his choice was fine as long as the changes did not involve "magical solutions" to the story. Morita closed out the blog entry with the statement "The director of the anime version of Bokurano hates the original work. Viewers should not expect to see any aspects that they liked about the original manga appearing in the anime. So fans of the manga, please stop watching the anime"."
LOL ?

***SPOILERS!!!!!!!! I WARN YOU!!!!!!!!***

Bokurano wants to show us too, that death is inevitable, you can die anytime. There is no "magic" that would revive the dead.
In this anime, the main characters are 15 children, 14 of them are middle schooler and 1 of them is an elementary schooler. Every single one who pilots the robot, die afterwards.
After they are chosen to be the pilot, they could only spend their day waiting the enemy to appear, which could be anytime. And if they don't fight, their earth would be annihilated. The same goes if they lose the fight.
In the end, 14 of them are contracted, 14 of them died. They died protecting earth, yet because the truth is not revealed to the public, people still think of them as some robot who comes to destroy earth, and thus is a monster. Only the government and military know the truth, and the only one of the 15 that remains alive because she was not contracted.
The 14 children are not brought back to life. They died "normally" for other people. The history records the robot they rode as "a black monster".
Only one girl know the truth, and she continues to live on, passing the story to the families that are left behind. (Sorry if I sound cheesy here. I'm trying not to, to be honest XP).

***SPOILER ENDS XD****

So yeah, maybe this is all for this entry's depressing chit-chat? XD

So many change of mood, and typography

resha04 — Sat, 12 Nov 2011 15:02:07 GMT

This week, I kinda went into so many moods.

I finished watching Hetaoni till part 17 1/2 this tuesday and I was like "So saaaaaadddddd!!!!!!! OTL"
Hetaoni really really is sad..........
T__________________T
*listening to Break of Dawn and Saying Goodbye*
I'm waiting for part 17 2/2, hoping that it wouldn't go discontinued like Romaheta.

(drastic change of mood)
Yesterday, I laughed like crazy watching Moyashimon. It's just too funny!!!! LOOOLLLLLLLL

Then today, me and my friend searched information for batik at internet and we were like "WHY ISN'T THERE ANY DECENT INFORMATION ABOUT BATIK OUT HERE?!" *went crazy (me)*
So ironic that most of Indonesian websites about batik are commercial sites. We rarely found sites that supplied information about the philosophy of batik or the kinds.
But finally we finished, successfully!!!!!!! *victory music plays*

Oh, and the relation between the search of batik and typography is, we are given task for final project before final examination. The task is to create a new typeface based on Indonesia culture. OTL
Well, I don't want to torture myself with the too-much-thoughts on it, so I'll take it easy, but focus.

Sorry this journal is just full of rants XP

Uumm.... Hi

resha04 — Wed, 12 Oct 2011 13:36:38 GMT

Uumm... Hi. :)

I've often heard about live journal, but I'd never thought that I would finally made one.
The cause is... my friend :D
(Oh my, why am I sound so lame here trying to make a journal *cover face with hands*)

It all started when I got to college and my friend introduced me to Hetalia. She's a big fan of it. A BIG fan.
And it's contagious. So I started to become a fan too XD
That was the first reason I made a live journal account, so I can keep track with Hetalia (is it just me or does it sound lame...? o////o)
So ummmm, my friend, if you read this, feel free to laugh me out *embarassed smile*

Okay, now I have to continue my renaissance assignment *slap myself*
So, bye :)