Really, if this keeps up, maybe I'll go crazy
The world is crazy.
Really crazy.
I'm in my period and in an emo-and-depressed-period-which-you-don't-k
I produce emo things and think emo. Not to mention angsty.
I yearn for fluffy things!!!!!!!! Anything!!!!!!!!!!! Be it doujin, fanfic, anything!!!!!!!!
Right now my angsty-and-emo-mood is really high and.... I don't know if that's a good thing.
Just now I had a fight with my high-school friend. She hurt me with her words and I hurt her back with mine.
In the end, she was the one who gave the final blow and yeah, as lame as that is, I ended up crying my ass off.
F***...... Totally damn f***.......
I cried and wasted my precious time that can be used to draw or do something else.
I felt silly for crying because of her.
That friend of mine is in a much more depressed state than me.
I can't say her problems here, but for her those are really depressing that she had started to self-harm and had thought of suicide once.
I don't know what to say to her. I tried to console her yesterday but it bear no fruit. I said "don't do that" but she wouldn't listen.
Then just now she said she had expected me to say that. And that was the start of our sharp words fight that ended with me crying lamely.
Meh........
F***........
Then my best friend from high school asked what happened, and after a series of talking and emo-ness and questions, I found out that she's in a depression-state too. She didn't want to tell me why though.
Really........
What is happening to us?
If this does not get better soon, I dunno what'll happen.
Me and my best friend are most likely will be fine.
But I'm worried about my self-harming friend.
..................
Why should I though?
.....................................
I don't want to think too much anymore
I think the only way to solve MY problem is to not let myself think. I have to fill every minute and second with something, be it sketching, drawing, coloring, brain storming for ideas, reading, anything!!!
Really crazy.
I'm in my period and in an emo-and-depressed-period-which-you-don't-k
I produce emo things and think emo. Not to mention angsty.
I yearn for fluffy things!!!!!!!! Anything!!!!!!!!!!! Be it doujin, fanfic, anything!!!!!!!!
Right now my angsty-and-emo-mood is really high and.... I don't know if that's a good thing.
Just now I had a fight with my high-school friend. She hurt me with her words and I hurt her back with mine.
In the end, she was the one who gave the final blow and yeah, as lame as that is, I ended up crying my ass off.
F***...... Totally damn f***.......
I cried and wasted my precious time that can be used to draw or do something else.
I felt silly for crying because of her.
That friend of mine is in a much more depressed state than me.
I can't say her problems here, but for her those are really depressing that she had started to self-harm and had thought of suicide once.
I don't know what to say to her. I tried to console her yesterday but it bear no fruit. I said "don't do that" but she wouldn't listen.
Then just now she said she had expected me to say that. And that was the start of our sharp words fight that ended with me crying lamely.
Meh........
F***........
Then my best friend from high school asked what happened, and after a series of talking and emo-ness and questions, I found out that she's in a depression-state too. She didn't want to tell me why though.
Really........
What is happening to us?
If this does not get better soon, I dunno what'll happen.
Me and my best friend are most likely will be fine.
But I'm worried about my self-harming friend.
..................
Why should I though?
.....................................
I don't want to think too much anymore
I think the only way to solve MY problem is to not let myself think. I have to fill every minute and second with something, be it sketching, drawing, coloring, brain storming for ideas, reading, anything!!!