Burnout

It’s inevitable in this world that we’re forced to inhabit. No one is immune to it, as everyone faces the pressures that create it. However, it effects everyone differently, to varying degrees, and at different times in life. It will affect most of us more than once in our lifetimes, and the way in which we cope with it will also depend on such factors as our age, our mental and physical health, what kind of family or friendship support networks we have (if any), and our spiritual strengths.

I think it’s finally struck me, for the first time in decades, at least to any recognizable extent. I am no longer possessed of the energy that has enabled me to be productive in the past, either professionally or personally. I find it increasingly difficult to get out of bed in the morning, to make myself move forward to deal with life’s daily requirements. Everything is now a chore, an obstacle, an annoyance, a time waster, or some combination of all of these. People seem more burdensome than they’ve ever been in the past, their every interaction with me on any level a demand for my time or resources, but offering nothing of value to me in return. Along with this has developed a weary, very unhealthy cynicism that has led me to coin a new acronym that expresses the attitude I’m feeling towards growing numbers of people in my life: FY2FOS (“F*** You, You’re Full of Shit!”). It’s getting ugly, folks.

I don’t like this burned out me at all. He’s a sick man who has run out of fuel and doesn’t know where to get any in his current condition. He doesn’t even pray like he knows he needs to because he can’t bring himself to start a conversation with God as long as he’s stricken with his current attitude. I can’t put my finger on its origin, but asking God for His help when I’m at a low point has always been for me the same kind of painful experience that an ugly man has when he tries to talk to a beautiful woman. Maybe I’ve absorbed to an extreme the message most men absorb in their formative years, that asking for help is both unmanly and laying an inexcusable burden on others who already have their own troubles to contend with. Of course it’s absurd to feel this way about the Creator who made you and who makes it clear that He is your refuge and your strength, but there it is. It’s also symptomatic of a trust issue that is indicative of nothing good and that needs to be resolved before any further spiritual healing can take place. The question is how to start the conversation. It should be a simple matter for anyone who claims faith in Christ, but it’s not. Obviously something is broken.

More unsettling is that people are noticing the change. My boss last week Zoom-called me after a meeting to ask me if everything is okay. I told him I’m just a bit more tired than usual after some minor surgery that I just had and that I just need to rest up a bit. He has been begging me to take time off, but of course I’m trying to save as much of my vacation time as possible for this summer when my wife and I are reunited. This boss is one of the best I’ve worked for in the past 25 years, a man who really cares about his team and knows how vulnerable we all are to burnout. My wife has also noticed that I’m not myself, but I’m certainly not going to burden her with the current me. If anything, I want burned out me GONE by the time we’re reunited. She’s the only earthly reason I’ve held up as well as I have so far. Tomorrow is our wedding anniversary and I want it to be a beautiful occasion.

Perhaps this is the Enemy’s desperate final assault, an attempt to monkey-wrench my marital reunion before it happens. That threat alone provides motivation enough to fight on, but I just need the strength to do it, to carry on the battle. I’m exhausted, but I know I can’t give up yet.

So please accept my apologies for the paucity of output and the lack of quality in what little there has been. I just need to somehow get out of this current emotional and spiritual swamp. Any prayer you can spare would be greatly appreciated as well.

Thanks, and God bless you.

He Is Risen!


Jesus saith unto her, Woman, why weepest thou? whom seekest thou? She, supposing him to be the gardener, saith unto him, Sir, if thou have borne him hence, tell me where thou hast laid him, and I will take him away. Jesus saith unto her, Mary. She turned herself, and saith unto him, Rabboni; which is to say, Master. Jesus saith unto her, Touch me not; for I am not yet ascended to my Father: but go to my brethren, and say unto them, I ascend unto my Father, and your Father; and to my God, and your God. Mary Magdalene came and told the disciples that she had seen the Lord, and that he had spoken these things unto her.

John 20: 15-18 (KJV)

A Happy and Blessed Easter to all of my brothers and sisters in Christ.

rAItardation

I just asked Brave’s LeoAI the following question:

Would a Georgian from Atlanta understand a Georgian from Tblisi?

LeoAI’s response:

A Georgian from Atlanta would generally understand a Georgian from Tbilisi, as both speak the same national language, Georgian, which is mutually intelligible across its various dialects. 

However, there are nuances to consider:

  • Dialect Differences: The Georgian language has at least 18 dialects, with Standard Georgian largely based on the Kartlian dialect spoken in Tbilisi.  While most dialects are mutually intelligible, regional accents and specific vocabulary can differ.
  • Language Environment: The Georgian community in Atlanta (the U.S. state) primarily consists of immigrants from the Republic of Georgia (Tbilisi, Batumi, etc.) or their descendants, meaning they typically speak the same standard form of Georgian as those in Tbilisi. 
  • Language Shift: In the diaspora, some younger generations may be more fluent in English and use Georgian less frequently, potentially affecting their fluency compared to native speakers in Tbilisi. 
  • Historical Context: The connection between the two places is strong due to sister city programs and cultural exchanges established in the 1980s, which have helped maintain linguistic and cultural ties. 

In summary, while dialectal variations exist, the shared standard language ensures that a Georgian from Atlanta and a Georgian from Tbilisi can communicate effectively, provided both retain their language skills in a Georgian-speaking environment. 

I don’t think even a “facedesk” would suffice here. I know this probably doesn’t shock any of my frequent flyers, but I just can’t but help be amazed at how poorly coded the logic filters are in these GenAI modules. It’s also a stark indicator of AI’s inability to detect nuances in idiom and meaning. I also doubt that any of the other players in the AI game (e.g., Anthropic, ChatGPT, Claude, etc.) would have handled the question any better. Combine this poor filtering with the lack of both knowledge and critical thinking skills on the part of end users of these apps, and we’re looking at drowning in an endless tsunami of digital garbage slop for the foreseeable future.

I’m going retain this example as evidence in support of my position the next time someone asks me why I don’t worship like a lemming at the altar of “digital ‘intelligence’.”

What If They’re All In On It?

Paul Craig Roberts has been expressing for several years in his regularly published essays great frustration over the failure of the world’s major powers to restrain the wanton criminality of the United States government on the world stage. In particular, he is perplexed at the apparent inability or unwillingness of China or Russia to stand up to U.S. military and economic aggression, even though either country, and certainly both as a united front, could very much limit the U.S.’s ability to be the global bully. He has long attributed the seeming impotence and irresoluteness of Vladimir Putin, in particular, to naivete or delusion, in particular the delusion that Washington will act in good faith toward Russia. In the ongoing Iran War debacle, Dr. Roberts has also accused Chinese President Xi Xin Ping of similar shortcomings, expressing great disappointment at Chinese seemingly craven and cowardly refusal to take a firmer stand in support of Tehran. This, to Roberts, is incomprehensible, given the economic leverage China holds over the U.S. In short, he cannot explain the nearly complete capitulation to the U.S. by most of the world, even though the Global American Empire (what some of us call the GAE) is in a state of visible collapse and can no longer project power the way it once could.

Here is something that Roberts and others in a similar state of confusion over current global events don’t appear to be considering, at least not in writing: what if the various conflicts that we see in play all around the world right now, including the newly launched debacle against Iran, are carefully scripted theater, perhaps decades in the planning prior to execution? What if each national leader is working toward a goal set by, or pursuing a reward from the Globalist cabal that is the power source of so many of the world’s governments? What if these hidden goals and rewards not only have nothing whatsoever to do with the peoples and wellbeing of the world’s nations, but are in fact inimical to their interests, serving only the welfare and power of the leadership class? What if each nation and its political class, each national leader, had a carefully choreographed role to play in a grand game that would guarantee them their reward if successful? What if what seem like unprovoked and completely illogical wars were carefully gamed, notionally rehearsed, and planned by all sides involved well in advance, even if they appeared to catch the world off guard? What if what seemed like a terrible loss for one nation in a conflict with another nation (or nations) and its citizens was actually a major gain for its national leadership, a gain not obvious to anyone, especially not that nation’s suffering citizens? What if we, the billions of unwashed, benighted serfs in every country of the world, at the mercy of controlled sources for our knowledge of world events, have been played like a cheap violin for decades?

I have absolutely zero hard proof, or even circumstantial evidence that this is what has been happening. It’s just another conspiracy theory, one of thousands, if not hundreds of thousands in circulation, created by people starving for the truth in a world overflowing with deceptive bullshit, the coating of which is now falling off in thick sheets. The “official” explanation, the narrative, no longer makes any sense to any critically thinking person, for any aspect of existence. So why do I believe that every war is theater and that every victor and victim an actor?

For starters, we need to ask ourselves: Why are some nations that are obviously capable of not only defending themselves against, but doing serious damage to the GAE not only not resisting it and its depredations, but are kowtowing to Washington, always to their own detriment? I’m looking especially hard at YOU, Russia and China. Neither one of you individually have any reason to fear the GAE militarily anymore, and if you were to ally with each other and foster solid political and ECONOMIC relations with America’s current allies as respectful equals, you could put an end to America’s global bullying entirely through diplomatic, economic, and military unity.

But these nations don’t resist. Instead, they and their people suffer in humiliation, letting the schoolyard bully stomp all over them, even when he is now at his weakest, and they know that he is at at his weakest, able to be knocked down and knocked out with a sufficiently concentrated punch while sustaining minimal, if any damage to themselves. Worse still, other, weaker nations that have made the unfortunate choice to look to Russia and China for some degree of protection against the GAE’s non-stop bullying find that their “agreements” and “treaties” aren’t worth the paper they’re written on. Syria, Libya, and now Iran have found that out the hard way (Venezuela, I will grant you, is too far away from either Russia or China to enable those nations to effectively project power. The Chavistas were morons if they seriously thought they could count on the Russian Spetznats or Red Army troops for protection).

So why have Russia’s Vladimir Putin and China’s Xi Xin Ping both been so willfully blind to and tolerant of Washington’s ceaseless lies and deceit? Allow me to channel Dr. Roberts here and ask why both leaders have continued to insist on engaging in diplomatic fuckery with successive U.S. presidential administrations when all of them, without exception, have acted in bad faith? Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, maybe I’m a slow learner. But fool me repeatedly? I deserve to get my nose ground into the dirt, especially if I know better.

So what of any benefit are Putin and Xi getting out of playing the impotent cuck to Washington’s rapist? What are their governments getting out of it, since they haven’t removed either leader from power? Some people have theorized that both Putin and Xi are playing the long game with Washington, knowing that the U.S. government is under the complete control of (((the Tribe))) and its rogue paraiah homeland in the Levant. They are waiting, the theory goes, for the U.S., currently under the reign of puppet god-emperor Donald the First, to back itself into a corner from which it cannot extricate itself – something that Trump appears to be doing flawlessly with the war on Iran right now. Once he has wedged America into that corner, having done his semitic masters’ bidding, Russia and China, probably through their proxy Iran, will move in for the kill. As to the question of whether that move would provoke global nuclear war, there is an emerging theory, probably based on a good deal of truth leaked by insiders fed up with the status quo, that the U.S. has far fewer functional nuclear weapons in its arsenal than it claims to have, that much of the U.S. nuclear weapons stockpile is aging, in a poor state of maintenance, and is no longer battle ready, or even useable. This would not surprise me, given the deterioration of the U.S. military’s readiness and the corruption of its acquisition systems over the last few decades, a major contributor to its overall decline. But would the second and third most powerful nations in the world make that kind of risky gamble, especially at the cost of their own credibility as leaders capable of standing up to the GAE? I find the idea difficult to entertain seriously.

And what about countries like Iran? Iran is, to use an old folk expression, in the catbird seat right now. It has effectively closed off the Strait of Hormuz to commercial shipping. Its Houthi allies in Yemen could extend the damage that this is doing by simultaneously closing the Bab el Mandab Strait leading in the Red Sea, effectively shutting down commercial shipping and thus blockading trade to and from the Middle East. Simply stated, Iran now has the power to wreak havoc on global commerce that could plunge the entire world into another Great Depression. To put rudely, it has America’s balls (and Europe’s as well) in a vise that it can easily tighten. Couple all of this with NATO’s refusal to get involved as a force multiplier for U.S. military power, and Iran is in complete control. So why don’t they put an end to the war RIGHT NOW while they have the chance? A successful strike on Israel’s nuclear weapons facilities in the Negev Desert is easily within their capability (as is laying waste to all of Israel through conventional weaponry), a move which would essentially guarantee them victory. And yet they make no such move, instead continuing to allow Israel to conduct airstrikes against their infrastructure and civilian population centers. There is certainly no need for them to create additional martyrs to justify their war of self-defense. The U.S. and Israel handed them that justication on a silver latter, gift wrapped in fine paper, on the first day of their unprovoked attacks on Iran.

There are dozens of other questions that I could ask, and am sure other observers already are asking, about why the world is waging these unnecessary wars, nations prolonging their agony when they could easily subdue and defeat their enemies, especially their common enemy, the GAE (and its Israeli sidekick). So the question remains: cui bono? Who among national leaders gains anything positive from these wars, even when they and their people needlessly suffer? Within the U.S. and Western Europe the only logical answer to this question is 1) the Military-Industrial-Security Complex, and 2) global Jewry, to the extent that there is ultimately any real difference between the two. No one else has any stake in endless war, economic ruin, and societal destruction, so what are these forces offering the world’s leaders that incentivizes them to wage war at what should be a detriment to their own interests?

Or is “incentivize” the right word to use here? Is perhaps “blackmail” a more accurate one? But over what are they being collectively blackmailed that would threaten their positions? What would be so horrible, so scandalously unforgivable that revelation of it would depose them from power, or worse? Depravity, corruption, and wholesale murder are old and tired practices of tyrants. There is little, if anything left in the catalog of despicable actions of tyrants that would tip things over the edge.

So to summarize this long-winded monologue, I have no idea what could be prompting the world’s leaders to act in such a uniform way against what appears outwardly to be their own best interests. Perhaps the “global Jewry” angle needs to be explored in greater depth later on. Maybe its toxic influence has spread far wider and far deeper than we imagine possible. Whatever the cause, the official explanations of the status quo no longer convince any thinking, observant person. I hope and pray that others more informed and seasoned than I am will offer plausible explanations.

War With Iran

Words fail me. I truly am at a loss for them. The Stupid just gets bigger and bigger and goes deeper and deeper. I don’t think the Orange Moron truly grasps what he’s done this time, or how serving as Israel’s cadamite is going to completely destroy his own country. I would say “God help us,” but I’m no longer convinced that we as a nation deserve God’s help. It’s much more likely that we’re going to see the real heat of His judgment upon us.

Here’s Scott Ritter being interviewed by Judge Andrew Napolitano. Listen to Scott’s words. He’s 100 percent correct. If anything, he might be a bit over-optimistic. The bottom line is that we’re screwed.

I Can Absolutely Envision This Happening

Yes, I believe this is something a Western woman would absolutely do on Judgment Day. I know, we are told in Scripture that the presence of God will be so awe-striking and terrifying that we will be reduced to silence. I don’t doubt for a second that this is true, but it’s going to take an amount and level of awe-striking and terrifying that is incomprehensible to the living human mind in order to shut up and humble a Western woman.

The Chain Is Broken, The Bank Account No Longer Violated!

As of last week, after ten long, costly, humiliating years I am a debt-free man. Debt-free as in no longer owing alimony to the ex-wife. Never has anything other than a newborn baby or a check for six figures felt as precious in my hands as the judge-signed and seal-approved petition to stop spousal support that arrived in the mail on Friday from the Office of the Clerk of the Superior Court. I thought about lighting up the remaining cigar I’ve been keeping in my mini humidor since December (one of a pair that was a Christmas gift from a friend; I enjoy a good quality cigar two or three times a year on special occasions, one of my only remaining vices), but think I’ll defer that celebration until I see my first FULL paycheck again for the first time in a decade.

God has been good so far this year, and this is but the latest of His blessings. I can now spend more money on the woman who has been a true wife to me.

Teaching Your Toddler Son To Be A Simp

I stumbled upon the following Vagintine’s Day video on YouTube that apparently has everyone gushing and teary-eyed. A young father has his son of about four or five set up a Vagintine’s Day dinner date with his mother in the family’s living room, complete with dress up, flowers, sparkling water, and a gourmet dinner. While I suppose that Dad is intending to teach his little son what love for his mother means, and also how to respect women (at least in the manner that our gynocentric society expects), what I see him doing is conditioning the boy to be the begging simp that far too many men are today, showering women with attention and flattery predicated on the idea that estrogen and XX chromosomes means that they automatically merit such attention, regardless of whether or not their behavior and demeanor towards men makes them deserving of it.

Dad is also setting his son up for getting his heart stomped upon and shredded by inculcating in him the obviously false and discredited belief that the majority of women appreciate men who treat them with dignity and respect. He is going to learn the hard and very painful way that women despise such men, that women like his mommy are a minority so tiny that they are statistically non-existent. This brings me to another point: Dad is also setting up his son for a false hope, the expectation that he will find a woman to marry some day who will be “just like mom.” Tragically, deluded blue-pill simps like this little boy’s father almost never see the reality of the world their sons live in, a world devoid of women like the ones they (think they) married, but that is instead full of predatory, promiscuous female vampires who, if any one of them deigns to give this man’s son any attention, will probably wind up destroying his life. Rather than teaching his son awareness of the world as it is, Dad is conditioning him to become a victim of it.

Finally, there’s the whole “Valentine’s Day date with Mommy” thing. Does anyone else find that to be more than a little bit creepy and Oedipal?

So watch the video and tell me what you think. Is this an adorable act of a boy’s love for his mother (which of course all of the commenters believe it absolutely is, especially [of course] the female commenters), or is it a boy being conditioned for failure and heartbreak by his blue pill father? Maybe I’m just a jaded, cynical asshole in my old age, but I really feel sorry for this little boy. Maybe after a decade when he’s a teenager he’ll watch this video and cringe, having already gotten a taste of what girls his age (“larval women”) are like. In any case, let’s just hope and pray that there are no other misguided fathers out there repeating this experiment.

Venezuela Update

A few of you, my readers, have requested a follow-up to my post of just over a month ago about the U.S. government’s incursion into Venezuela and the arrest of President Nicolas Maduro (“Mierduro” to me and others who despise Marxist tyranny). I thank you all for your inquiries into the safety and wellbeing of my wife and family there, and I’m happy to report that in general all is well. My wife did come down with a serious case of bronchitis a couple of weeks ago that resulted in a trip to the clinic and some emergency antibiotics treatments, but she’s over the worst of it now (she’s had bronchitis attacks before, so it wasn’t a new experience). It did have her flat on her back for a couple of weeks, which upset her because it prevented her from supervising the renovation work on our two apartments that we want completed as soon as possible so that she can get them rented out before she leaves to come home. What has her more upset than her bronchitis attack is the accident her mother suffered last week in which she fell and broke her left arm at the shoulder, as well as cut her face above her right eye. My MiL has been in declining health over the last few years, which is one reason why my wife is anxious to get her out to the Island for a long visit before my wife goes home. That was supposed to happen this month as soon as commercial air traffic resumes within Venezuelan airspace, but we’re wondering if the injuries might delay the trip. Mama turns 80 next month, so she’s not getting any younger. I would really like to see Mama, my SiL, and my wife’s two little nephews permanently relocate to the Island so that we can have the family altogether in one place. I’m not sure if Mama will agree to that, however, as her entire family (my wife’s maternal aunts, uncles, and cousins) are all on the mainland. I still think that a move to the Island will do her and my SiL and her sons a universe of good, given that their hometown on the mainland is not a nice city, is rife with crime and poverty, and will slowly drain what little life she has left out of my MiL. Still, it’s ultimately Mama’s decision where she wants to stay and we will respect whatever decision she makes.

As for Venezuela in general, my wife says that things are steadily improving. Although Delcy Rodriguez, Mierduro’s vice president, is still acting president, she knows that she’s on razor-thin ice, both with the Trump Administration and, more importantly, the Venezuelan people. The citizens of Caracas are circulating a petition to rename one of the city’s major thoroughfares “Avenida Donald Trump,” and I suspect that other cities throughout the country will do the same. Trump truly is a liberating hero, according to my wife. He is, for the time being, a national hero almost up there with Simon de Bolivar himself. The more I reflect on it, the more of a shortsighted idiot Mierduro was for making himself so unpopular as to make Trump seem almost god-like by comparison.  

So things are slowly regaining a sense of normality in Venezuela after almost thirty years of dysfunction and nightmare. I did see that Trump has announced that regular commercial passenger flights between the U.S. (Miami, specifically) and Venezuela will resume in March. If they do, there is a possibility that I’ll fly down there, spend a couple of months (mixing vacation with work), and then we will return home together, our goal once at home being plans to return to the Island as semi-permanent residents. We’ll see. The future is still too unpredictable to make plans in anything other than wet sand.

So that’s the news from down south for now. I’ll be sure to provide additional future updates as things change. Thanks again to all of you who have prayed for us and wished us well. Neither has gone unnoticed or been in vain!

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