In no particular order, the five most frequent subjects in my head...


1. Music (of various sorts)

2. Love / Friendship / Family

3.  Childhood / Teenagerness

4. Various trauma associated with my PTSD.

5. Characters / writing.

Going to try again to start writing more often in my journal. I really need to get myself back into the habit of writing in this daily or weekly. Well, here's what's been going on anyhow...

I've been on Weight Watchers about two months now, and I've lost a total of 21.7 pounds. I'm starting to try and do more active things - walking, plus-sized yoga, and I'm going to start riding my bike again now that the weather is warmer. I also have a plan- I would like to see all the NJ state parks this spring/summer. I have a book with them listed in them, where you can collect a little sticker from each. It'd also be nice to combine it with geocaching, which I've been meaning to try. If any of my NJ friends want to go with us to a state park sometime, let me know!

My PTSD has been kind of bothering me a lot lately. The nervousness /anxiety is increasing. They've upped the dosage on my meds (heh-- triple what they were when I first started taking them), but I'm still having a lot of stress reactions. Other things too. But I've been trying to fight it down and do what I need to do regardless. It's just not very comfortable at times. My doctor suggested I get a hobby - something I can enjoy at regular intervals that gets me out of the house by myself, that's a positive kind of activity. I have been checking around but so far haven't found anything that fits the bill. I might try taking a writing class, or a craft class, or even doing some poetry again.

I watched a documentary on the Dust Bowl that makes me want to write something involving that era. Not directly, like set in that time period - but from the point of view of someone who grew up like that as their childhood / young adulthood. The close proximity of the 'Dirty Thirties' and WWII era makes me consider that, writing someone who is in the war who came up out of those circumstances. It's also noteworthy that from that era to the sixties even is only a span of thirty years. So someone could've grown up in the Dust Bowl, enlisted in the second world war (maybe even Korea) and be an adult in the turbulent sixties. What kind of mentality would that person have, having experienced three very different eras.Come to think of it, the person could be an older person still alive now- and wow what an amazing span of life that would be. How much our world has changed since the 1930s. It'd be a lot of research though, and I'd have to have some overall plot or purpose to it. Could be interesting someday, though. Maybe as an RP character, or just a little writing project.

Finally finished huge character surveys in p1dreamer and lastbastian 's journals in preparation for NaNo. If you haven't already, you might want to friend them and/or the community tequila_sunset if you want to read along with my NaNo project.

The summary can be found in the community.

In the characters journals, I'll be posting any character development exercises and such in first person. The novel itself is a third person, however. After michael_malone's short story series, I think I burned myself out on first person. Editing them is such a pain! Still not done that. Likely will have to finish after November.

Oh, if you haven't already, check out the three tons of GURPS books we're auctioning this week.

http://search.ebay.com/_W0QQsassZsomenameaus

Buy a book, save us from some clutter and help fund our lives! =)

Rock on, now I must sleep so that I'm not totally dead for Philly tomorrow. Yay adventures with new friends!

I'm answering for characters both past and present

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Yes, a half-orc female paladin... raised by the orcish side. I always come up with the weird ones.

If you're not into roleplaying, feel free to skip all this...

If you are, read on...

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Got another mail in need of my Form Mail answers. Things have been so much easier since I made a standard answers file. This one was yet another "How do I put pictures on my webpage?". I mean.. come on. Yes, sadly.. I answer this question at least twice a week.

Dad went to the doctor today.. I'm still not sure how that went. He's in the living room (my brother Joe took him). I'm sort of avoiding it. It's Monday. Today is my day to have Chinese and be happy. I want to be happy for a while and not think about all that. It's selfish, I know, but I need that...

I like my new character, Jean-Claude. I've been working on his background, and thinking a lot about the character class I'm planning on building around his little 'clan' group, the Nochami.

I need to write an article, and get Ry to do the graphic for the comic. Yes.. this would be good. I also need to eat my Chinese food, relax, and have fun this 'weekend' (our weekend).

"She checks out Mozart while she does tae-bo" - People do some really wacky shit on drugs.' - Kara on that Drops of Jupiter song.

"You cheat at kitten poker" - Buffy to Spike on this week's Buffy the Vampire Slayer.

Smedley in drag (which has been an ongoing amusement since I wrote that story and Ry made it into a dressup flash game, heeh)

Mike and Fred, who always amuse me. Heh.


Listening to lots of music has been good too.

A couple of newbies wandered in to the inn tonight, who sort of restored my faith (albeit mostly temporarily) in new people. They politely asked questions and listened to the answers and roleplayed fairly well for beginers. If only every night was like that!

I really liked tonight's episode of Buffy- lots of nice Spike scenes. Spike is the main reason I watch Buffy, I think (even though the show is otherwise fairly entertaining, Spike just rules). I think it's because he reminds me a lot of characters that I have made- the mannerisms and the whole attitude. Plus, he has funky hair. That's always a plus.

My dad is going on VACATION. I know my other post meantions this, but hey. Here it is again. NO DAD! Heh, yeah, I know.. I'm 30some years old, and I live with my 'rents because they're in their seventies and it's cool to do the family thing while we've all still got time to spend together, and we should all be happy to be a family but shit. He's an asshole sometimes. I hate to put it that way, but it's true. It's most likely not even his fault because he's manic depressive, but he's like the poster child for the Denis Leary Asshole song.

I don't want to go to the doctor tomorrow- mostly because the last time I was there, people prodded me too much and it made me cranky. I also don't want to go to the children's school dinner tomorrow night- mostly because they expect us to wear something red white and blue and bring a dessert to share. I'm wearing a red sweater and blue pants and digging up a bag of animal cookies from the cabinet. They can deal.

I'm pretty happy though, all things considered. Kara drew this most excellent picture of Smedley (complete with his mismatched man juppies and his crossdressing fire faerie costume), Franco and Vlad. It's an illustration, more or less, from the series I've got running in the Times called Harry Halloween. I'm going to try sending it in when she paints it, and see if they'll add it to the two illustrations that Ry and Lindy whipped up for me (also both very cute- but both those are of Harry, so hey- ) for the final part.

For some reason, this phrase and what followed it made Aus laugh hysterically for a long time tonight. He's giggling right now. Far from the depressing RPlands of yesterday, tonight's playing was lighthearted and fun.

Funny how things turn around.

Yet, it had those "touching" moments.


I'm not sure though who's side to take in the whole Lou/X affair- they're both my characters, after all. Poor Lou was scared sheeetless when Gene pulled a gun on him last night, but X is so touched about how loving Gene is .

(Lou) Threatening to blow someone's head off if they mess with your girlfriend is -not- romantic.

(X) Awww, yes it is.

Shut up, voices in my head. Time to sleep now.

Woo-hooo, third night of continuation on this advenutre. Must mean we've played over ten hours of it, hehe. This is the most killer adventure.

Incidentally, my character, Dakhyra, rocks. Just in case there was any doubt.