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	Single. Unowned. If You can't meet up for star bucks or the like on any give day...dont waste your or my time. Greetings, It would seem Y/you are reading this primarily because Y/you're curious. Y/you may Y/yourself...will she make a good slave, slut, servant, property, piece ,daddy's girl, lover, friend, confidant, sister, etc. I am certain that there is nothing I in this small text box that would adequately quench Y/your curiosity or answerY/your questions. If Y/you truly desire to know me, satisfy Y/your curiosities and answer Y/your questions, i implore Y/you to go on a journey with me. Read my profile, follow my journals, heck! Message me and ask questions and engage me in conversation. Make that investment and the returns will be great. Will it take time, yes. Will it take effort, yes. Will it take patience, yes. But i would not ask something of Y/you that I myself would not do. The inverse of this is that if i am not worth Y/your time, effort, and patience, then i leave Y/you here with best wishes on Y/your journey. Notables: No pics here, but available upon LEGITIMATE request. I do not chat here. So please do not put me in the position to reject Y/your request. I am a life and a human FIRST. Respect me or Y/you don't exist in my world. I will NOT submit to You blindly, ignorantly, just because of Your orientation as a Dom/Master.

Ok....its been awhile for sure!!!!

I think it's time to clarify something. I am not interested in casual encounters. Nor do I have any desire to be intimately involved with another's husband, no matter if she approves or not has an awareness or not. I am marriage minded seeking the same. I have two children. They are my priority. I will not compromise their well being nor mine to attend to another's whims.

Uggghhh! You've got to be kidding me, right!!!??? :P

Just sitting here thinking how much I HATE Father's Day.... That is not to say I feel deserving men do not deserve recognition, quiet the contrary. For those that have children, either biologically or relationally, that they care and provide for, support and encourage, guide and discipline, laugh and cry with...I so admire, appreciate, and applaud You! :) But for those men that think they are entitled to recognition on this day, simply because they were able to ejaculate and impregnate someone, well...I hope your penis shrivels up and falls off; as you are contributing to the ills of society. And of course this can be applied to Mothers' Day and those mothers that think they deserve recognition just because they were able to carry to term. And for those of us filling both roles to the best of our ability...May God bless you in the days, weeks, months and years ahead. May His grace cover You and His mercy comfort you. Much luv ~ tiffany Afterthought....just realized the hate and contempt I have for this day originates from unforgiveness in my heart toward my father and the father of my children..... What an epiphany...considering I thought I had forgiven each of them. Just goes to show some things are a continuos work in progress and exercise in humility and submission.

Random thought: Before you underestimate me, consider how much you don't know about me, then consider if it is worth the calculated risk...

Things to remember.... No one can MAKE me feel any particular way. My worth is not found in another but in Christ alone. I am priceless in the eyes of my Savior. I am not alone, ever, for my Father in Heaven is always with me. He is always present. He knows my pain and each tear I cry...He will restore me and bring beauty from the ashes...as gold purified thru the flames.

Rethinking embracing my submissive side...it hurts too much :(

Wow!!! It's been awhile since my last entry. I had stopped frequenting this site so much as I had hoped I had met someone that would make this site and my profile here nothing but a vague distant memory. Turns out that was NOT the case though. ( I will touch on that experience later in a journal entry all it's own). Moving on, in recent days passed, since this became apparent to me; I have been on here more frequently, even more than I would like to admit. However, in the last few days there has been a developement that I am very please to share. I am under (real time) consideration by a wonderful Dom. I am so looking forward to seeing where this goes. I am hopeful that he will be the reason for me to take this profile down permanently...or at least change the purpose and tone of my profile. I hope in days, weeks, months, years ( yes....even years) to come that if I remain on this site it will be on a joint profile where I can share our love, experiences and journey together. With that said...a Dom contacted me yesterday. Upon telling him I couldn't entertain the topics which he wanted to discuss due to my commitment to another; his response was, "Wow! You waste no time!" Now...me in my quick wittedness.. Replied back, "Yep - others waste my time for me. So there is no need for me to waste my time as well." In reality though, that comment did make me step back to evaluate my actions. It is not my intention to troll and jump from Dom to Dom. I am very monogamous in nature, loyal, and comitteded. And in reality while my initial response was quick witted, it is filled with truth. While I am exploring possibilities with someone, they are my priority. I will not look for or seek or entertain similar interaction with any other. Now, once they prove to me that they are not deserving of that, I DO move on. There is no reason for me to cry and carry on and mope for days/weeks, whatever, at a time over something I have no control over. Why waste my time when someone else already has? With each Dom that proves he is not deserving of what I offer, my stance on abstinence is solidified. I have been abstinent for over 5 years now and plan to remain that way until it is evident that I've found the Master I, alone, will serve the rest of my days. This safe guards my heart and allows me to not waste my time after someone else has. Hope this gives insight and understanding of my behaviors. Much Luv! :)

Think I'm going to change my orientation from submissive to Dominant that way I can be the administrator rather than the subject of mind games thinly veiled as "tests"..... FYI... I cannot change my orientation from sub to Dom any more than I can change my need for oxygen. The comment is out of frustration with some Doms/Masters that I've encountered so far here.

A Fleeting moment of weakness comes, opportunity presents itself, things work out as they should, only confirming that the moment of weakness was indeed just that and nothing more....

Random thought: I've got a bangin' backside. If only skinny girls is your thing....you are so missing out! =P

Imagination takes flight on wings of hope and then soars like an eagle - author: me.

Now I'm enjoying lunch at a local restaurant. Taking my time eating...relaxing...decided to try and find something interesting to write about... First thing that comes to mind...I have a server, heavy with child. I don't know if I'm old fashioned, but I feel like I should be the one catering to her. Not the other way around. I just feel society has lost sight of things that matter and the universal human priorites list just got flipped upside down some where along the way...I am certain what I am about to say will not sit well with some (and if this doesn't sit well with you - I guarantee we won't click - so don't even bother).... Women should be treasured and cherished. that's just the way I see it. Well...enough for now. Until later. =)

Took the day off for mental health purposes. =P Taking care of some personal business matters to make use of the time. It's been a few days since my last journal entry so thought as I am sitting here waiting might as well post something new. The question is....what to write about... Nothing pressing immediately comes to mind.....

Decisions made are liberating when they are the right one.

Thinking I may have written in too much detail on my last journal entry. If any one as an opinion please share. Thinking about re-writing it.

Well...I still feel like writing. So next topic from list... Unveiling of the dark garden: When I realized I liked more than vanilla: My nature has always been to be submissive to the one I am committed to. I never realized there was much more to it until playtime with a boyfriend a few years back. He was into D/s but it only came out little by little over time. And the taste I got while with him left me craving more. And so my journey began, learning and exploring little by little....leading me here: to this place and time and your presence. This BF introduced me to vibes. I was like 31 yo and had never experienced a vibe. He took me out and we picked one together. It was a petite passion massager with a tiny rabbit. Sooo cute! Then he took me home and proceeded to instruct me how to use it. I was very reluctant to it. He started with it on my stomach familiarizing me with the sensations of the various settings and slowly worked his way down to where he really wanted it. I was sooo nervous and tense. He raised my skirt. He first let me feel it outside against my panties. I was still very nervous and reluctant. So he insisted and proceeded to move my panties to the side. He was not happy with that so he slipped my panties off giving him full access. He parted me fully exposing my pink tenderness and placed the vibe against my clit. Moved it back and forth a bit and then began to slowly penetrate me with it deeper and deeper alternating between my clit and penetration and the various settings....I was so nervous and tense though I couldn't really enjoy it. I couldn't climax. He had to leave. Once he left, I continued with what he started and by myself...it was only a matter of minutes before I climaxed. And then again and again. I will never be without a vibe again! Don't know how I reached 30 without one! .....more to come.....

Considering I choose not to write about what I would really like to write about right now out of respect for Another....I will write on a topic from my list in a prior journal entry. Self Description: This will be helpful for those that need some kind of visual since I'm not able to post pics. Height: 5'8" Weight: 60 lbs overweight at this time Frame: large Current Sizes: 40D, women's 18 Hair Color: black with red highlights Hair Style: angled bob/straight/fine Eye Color: brown Skin: fair complexion Tattoos: 1 upper left chest, small Piercings: 2 each ear, no others Mani/pedi: French Eyebrows: Arched/waxed Makeup: Don't wear it. Style/clothing: casual/business casual/ modest Note: Actively working on weight loss with primary doctor. Look for other posts with updates on that. Often get compliments on my facial features, rear, skin, hair and voice. If I left out any details, feel free to pm me and ask. =)

Random thoughts: You can sell hot shit if you package and market it the right way. Everyone has an agenda...if they tell you otherwise they are lying. The question is how palletable their agenda is to your tastes...

Highly aggravated with a certain individual right now. Few things to note: There is a difference between being dominant and domineering. Until you pay my bills don't make demands on my time. Arrogance is not becoming. Infact it is one of the most disfiguring elements of a being. Don't call me a game player when you are the one trying to get me to submit when I have a Master and I've made it clear I only submit to one. I am a force in vanilla life if I have to be. Respect and recognize. Good Day, Tiffany P.S. Note my name is capitalized for a reason in this post for the same reason the "you's" are not. >.<

Yet more mystery and uncertainty...and not in a good sense. Think it's time to follow my gut feelings on this....as much as I may not want to...='(

Hmmm....what's interesting and on this girl's mind this evening...? Don't really feel like getting into anything deep at this point. So I shall just make a list of topics for future postings: Self description Unveiling of the dark garden 1st experience Beauty from ashes by the Grace of God Over four years!? The Ideal Airing my grievances. Sufficient for now. If there is something specific Y/you would like to see this girl write about feel free to message her Y/your request. =) Hugs, kisses and sweet dream wishes my friends! =)

Well....this girl is content for now. She shall obey and bring honor to her Master. She shall begin minding her training as well. Though this girl has to admit, until some things are proven beyond a shadow of a doubt she cannot give herself fully over to Him emotionally or physically. There is already a connection though. When he pulls this girl by her hair close to Him and growls in her ear, " Who do you belong to?" the answer is primordily instinctive. You Master. As he kissed this girl last night, He grasped her neck. When she did not struggle but reveled in his grasp, it was evident. This girl is Yours Master. .

Wondering if it is possible to love someone into loving you back....

Not so sure right now.....things could change tomorrow.... I have concerns. They need to be addressed. They need to be addressed directly. I will not tolerate being put off, vagueness, or pacifying answers and tactics, or empty promises. I am very intelligent, was gifted with analytical prowess, and eyes wide open. I am a sub not a slave, therefore I will use these gifts as intended. If I walk away less than satisfied in the least I will request release.

Wonder what happens when a girl gets bored... And.... You can only use a certain punishment for so long before it looses it's effectiveness and instills apathy....just saying....

this girl's Master just finished rocking her world for the last 16 hours even without any type of sex.... OMG!!!!

So tired. Crazy work day. Started at 9 this morning and finished after 7 tonight. Please Forgive me for not replying back to any messages at this point. I will catch up and reply back - just not tonight. I hope each and everyone of you have a wonderful evening. =) Hugs!!!!! =)