It was when I joined an organisation couple of years ago. It’s not a bad organisation per se, it is just how I feel when I joined a certain community in which I don’t feel I belong. I really felt out of place. What’s the reason?
First of all, the organisation are joined by people that I would consider quite religious and rightous. I feel out of place. I would not consider myself religious and I can be quite liberal in a sense, moderately. Whenever I’m there, I can’t be myself in a way. I felt restricted and it impacted my work quality.
Moreover, I can’t quite shake my anxiety while working there. They are good people, it is just my body is resisting so much being there. Never regretted my decision to leave. I’m more at peace somewhere else and that’s what matter the most.
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I have good news! My favorite artist, Su San has released her first album WHERE THE SUN CAN’T FIND US! It is available on major music streaming platforms like Spotify, Apple Music, YouTube music and more.
I’ve featured Su San a couple of times here on her new songs and EP. Moreover, her music dominated my Spotify Wrapped in 2023. You can read all about it here. Being the Top 0.001% listeners really fires me up.
Su San is a KL-based artist and she is uplifting the dark-pop genre in music. Personally for me, her music is definitely enchanting with mesmerising mixed of sounds. Paired with her captivating vocal really feels like I’m bewitched to keep on listening to her.
In this new album, there are nine tracks listed below;
UNDER MILK WOOD
ONCE UPON ANOTHER TIME
DIANNE/BETTY
BAD DREAM
IN MY HEAD
SUMMER’S CORPSE BREATH
CRUEL
RUNAWAY
THE SUN
My personal favorite would be CRUEL, IN MY HEAD, and BAD DREAM. I’ve been listening to her songs whenever I’m hiking. It gives a really dark ambience but enjoyable at the same time.
Now, I would like to invite you together to listen to her new album. You can listen to WHERE THE SUN CAN’T FIND US below:
It is hillarious to look back, At the steps I have taken, To see the distance, To feel the memories, Like breathing air, Slow beating heart, Breeze between the fingers, Where terror lies beneath the calmness, The scream, the tears, The constant agony, Over the things, That I can never touch, Or change ever again.
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I was surprised! I was shocked! But it was not grief or sadness, That run through my mind, It was happiness, It was proud, It was a sense of love,
When you said you are dating someone, When you showed effort for someone, When your face lights up when you talked about someone, You look exactly like a woman in love,
To love doesn’t mean to have, And I’ve learned that before, My love for you is support and blessing, I am happy even if it’s not me.
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Hey friends and readers! How are you? It is August and Malaysia will be celebrating its Independence Day or known as National Day on the 31st August every year. This year, Malaysian will be celebrating the 67th National Day! By now, it’s customary for me to write something about my beloved country. Before that, if you want to read what I wrote about last year, please click here.
The theme this year is Malaysia MADANI: Jiwa Merdeka. Malaysia MADANI is an acronym, in English it would be SCRIPT that stands for sustainability, care and compassion, respect, innovation, prosperity and trust. Jiwa Merdeka means Independent Soul or Free Soul. How do we truly embody this theme?
There will be two part for this post, the first one is how I would relate to the theme this year and the second part would be about how disappointed I am about the current situation from a normal citizen perspective on Malaysia’s current situation.
How do I embody Jiwa Merdeka?
What does it mean by having Jiwa Merdeka? What does merdeka mean to me? Of course, I can’t relate on the struggle and hardship during the times of colonization and occupation that happened in this land. Of course, it’s hard for me to understand the fight for independence made by our forefathers.
I believe that it’s the role that we play in bringing the country ahead is important. I think I said the same every year, it’s about embracing the diversity and uniqueness of Malaysia. Since I started hiking, I met with different people and made new friends. Being surrounded by different souls from different cultural background somewhat made me feel the ideal Malaysia. It widen my views and perspective as a Malaysian.
By embracing this diversity and uniqueness, I believe we are embodying the Jiwa Merdeka because that’s what we should be celebrating. Of course, this is just from a sociology point. When we truly celebrate it, there will be more unity and love between us and when we reach to that point, we all going to love Malaysia as a whole.
I really want to see that where I can go to the street and ask anyone if they love Malaysia or not. They will say ‘Yes, I love Malaysia!’ but not because of the food or sports. They will say they love Malaysia because it’s worth living here! They feel kindness and love for each other and are proud to be here.
What’s going on in Malaysia right now?
If you’re not reading the newspaper, especially in the politics section, you’re fine. But for someone who keeps on reading the news and stuff. It’s totally ridiculous! I feel sick reading about some politicians acting as the agent of discord and disharmony.
How so? If you read the news, it’s mostly about sensitive topics like the 3R (religion, royalty, religion), slanders, lack of accountability and to summarize, disgusting. For me, politics should focus on good governance of the country. In fact, I mentioned about the same issue last year, now Malaysia has a weak opposition! I need an opposition that can stand toe to toe with the government. I find that the opposition lacks character, leadership and decisiveness.
The more I talk about it, the more I find it rather appalling with the whole situation. I don’t want to continue further.
As a summary, I’m happy to live in Malaysia and experienced the wholesomeness of Malaysia. I wish more people would understand how it feels. I wish more Malaysians understand that moving ahead is more understanding and unity.
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If someone asked me this question a couple of years back, I would most likely say none. I actually hated myself so much back then. But now, I don’t really hate myself that much. Nowadays I feel that no one else can stand by my side as much as myself. For now.
Going through certain phases and transitions, I learned a lot about myself. So, my favorite thing about myself is to have this strong resilience. To have self-awareness and always giving myself the chance helps me to keep on going. Even in the most difficult times, I’m still giving myself the patience and chances to power through. In a way, that’s how much I love myself.
Now, I want to give the same to others. To show them strength and give them support because I know there are others like me. Not all of them have the support system to help them go through the toughest challenges in their life. I want to help them to be aware that they have the biggest supporter they need, it’s themselves.
Yes, you read it right. The biggest supporter of your life is yourself because when you were going through so many challenges in your life, the closest one to you was yourself.
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