Going through life is a really one-of-a-kind experience. Regardless of who you are, your experience in life, your thought process, your challenges, and your solutions, are truly unique to your own. Have you ever thought about it? How your struggle made you the person you’ve become.
Well, I did. For the past couple of years, I’ve gone through something that I’ve never thought about. For example, how when I started to work and all I can think of is just to work myself until I retire. Somehow, I can’t do it. Something inside me grew stronger, I was looking for passion instead of living every day without one.
Then, I was exploring my passion. That’s how I started this blog. I like it, I enjoy it but what’s next? I remember thinking about doing a job that involves my passion, writing. I did. Even though it is not as much as I think it would be, I got into corporate, and again, I’m drained away from my passion.
The passion that got me the job burned me out. The passion that brought me to this path guided me to learn different skill sets. Yet, that passion didn’t get stronger and left me to deal with my inner demon, my mental health. And I’m on this path of healing, a long journey that I realized that it is not about the destination, but experience going through it.
I did something that I have never thought I would. Leaving my comfort zone and working for not even the minimum wage. It helps. I’m not even close to the lifestyle I used to have but I’m happier. The 10 years old me, wouldn’t have thought that I would feel happy and content making pizzas every day. That was the chillest and most fulfilling six months of my life. What happened to my passion? Occupied with my long working hours.
Life gave me another chance. I was offered a full-time position. It aligned with my passion and I took the opportunity. It was the peak of my career, personally. Enjoyable work, great colleagues, paid handsomely, and all just so good. It was worth all the things I have to go through. Until, Covid happened.
While I managed to transition well, living great but not mentally during the lockdowns. Fast forward, after working on smaller projects, short-term projects, I started to prefer this style of work. Looking things back, I decided to focus on short-term work and find part-time. In the meantime, finding my passion, purpose and live the life that I want.
I only started to think about it more this year, and so far it leads me to Mind Gardening with Arts Program by A Lusher Mind. In a way, they inspired me to think about my creative side and something about what I want to do. After some time of consideration and research, I embarked on the journey to become a life coach. That’s where I found Transformation Academy. I’ll share more about them in another post.
Life has led me here, now. I don’t want to return to full-time employment. I have a part-time job, a couple of training to complete, and some projects to work on so I can earn other than my part-time. I’m also having therapy too. I believe no matter how small the steps I’ve taken, it is still progress. So, be proud of it, and let’s move forward together.
Have you watched the movie Soul from Disney Pixar?
I watched the movie today after I had a conversation with my therapist about life purpose. I’ve been sharing the topic of life purpose recently as well. If you missed it, you can read it here.
The movie Soul was released in the year 2020 and about Joe, a middle-school band teacher whose life hasn’t quite gone the way he expected. His true passion is jazz — and he’s good. But when he travels to another realm to help someone find their passion, he soon discovers what it means to have soul. Thanks to IMDB for the short synopsis.
One subject that I want to talk about is finding the spark that leads to your life purpose. From the movie, Joe has been trying to play his music and believes that is what he meant to do in his life. Later, he met with 22, an unborn soul that needed to find the spark to complete her requirements to be born. I’m not going to tell you any further about the movie so consider, no spoilers ahead.
So, my therapist was listening to me earlier and I was talking about how I’m looking for my life purpose so I can keep on going in life. It’s also a way to keep myself motivated. Until I realized what has worked for me, it’s not about that one big reason or purpose. It can be about the smaller things too. The small short-term purposes to keep me going and going. It works for me at least. Then, she recommended the movie, Soul.
I wasted no time because after the session ended, I immediately looked for the movie and watched it. I cried during a scene of the movie. Overall, the movie is heartwarming, feel-good, and made me think about the things I said during the therapy.
Spend your precious hours doing what will bring out the real you. The brilliant passionate you, that’s ready to contribute to something meaningful into this world.
Joe Gardner
I believe everyone has their own life purpose in life that keeps them going regardless if it is related to the thing, they are passionate about or tied to their responsibilities. Some find purpose in academic, work, relationship, family and any reason that gives them their fuel to keep moving forward. Coming from someone who is diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder (MDD) to have a life purpose would keep me wanting to stay.
However, in my case, I am recovering and feel so much better now. There are bad days but why focus my thoughts and energy there? To heal is also my purpose. It may sound small compared to other people out there. But hey, why do I want to compare myself with others? We walked different paths from each other.
What about you? Do you know what your life purpose is? Are you still searching?
I would recommend you to watch the movie too. It at least lifts up my spirit and helps me to enjoy this journey of finding my life purpose. I hope it helps you too.
It has been a couple of months since my last session of the Mind Gardening With Arts Program by A Lusher Mind ended. My creative side is doing better and I feel much more in touch with my creativity. In case you missed it, I did share a little bit about my last session. You can read it here.
The reason I joined the program is that I’ve been stuck in the creativity department and want to elevate it. I was tired of seeing myself write depressive poems. I need to at least tend my mind and that is why I joined the Mind Gardening With Arts Program by A Lusher Mind.
I also shared more in a previous post. If you missed it, you can read it here.
It has been a couple of months and I still find myself using the tools shared during the program. I’ve been checking in with my own mind through journals,. If I feel stuck and dry I’d just grab my brush and paint something. It doesn’t even matter if it’s beautiful or not. I’m enjoying the process.
To be connected with my own mind and thoughts through arts, sound, and words helped to elevate my creativity. Sometimes I feel that writer’s block is actually our mind letting us know to take a break and try engaging in a different type of process from our usual way. Probably, our brain needs some refreshment like taking care of a garden inside our mind.
I did remember one of the questions that was asked to me by them during the final session.
“How would you imagine your mind garden now?”
At that time, my mind garden was filled with sprouts of weeds and probably small flowers too. Now? I think the garden is thriving with some daisies and sunflowers, and the bed is covered with clovers. It’s flourishing for sure. I’ve been watering the garden with words in my notes, with letters to myself, with the colors in my head, with the song in my mind, and singing all the songs that stuck in my head for weeks.
I don’t think I’ve ever thought I can nurture this creative side of mine in such a way. I feel thankful for the program. I’m also thankful to A Lusher Mind for the opportunity and guidance in my creative journey.
If you are feeling the same way as I did, feeling lost in your creative pursuit, unmotivated to do your crafts or you really need something fresh to engage your creative side, I highly recommend the Mind Gardening With Arts Program by A Lusher Mind. You can find out the programs they have on their website here.
Wherever I go, Wherever I am, Your shadow comes along, Haunting me, Whispering, The words I want to hear, The words I want to believe, Even when I’m stepping out, One leg out the door, I got pulled back in, Stay inside, To wait and believe.
Write Ally! Write! 