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Marseille
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I was feeling the need for a new city between Lyon and Paris. Decent tickets and some scenes from an old old movie led me to Marseille.

Just as soon as I exited the train station this was the view. Phone snaps don’t do it justice!


Lyon
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Ah France. So easily you bring me to my senses.

Like one of those images you’ve seen everywhere except for in person.

Another fountain surrounded by beautiful buildings. The perfect spot to catch my breath and reset my attitude.

One off experience at a restaurant and I was ready to take a train back to Spain or Portugal or any non French border town. 😂 Truth is I’ve made little effort to truly learn French and this is France. On one hand I get the expectation that folks at least make an effort. Which o do, yet on the other a little tolerance for poor accent would go a long way. Yet overall it was about being laughed at, which is different than when someone laughs with you.


Portugal
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Porto! Street art. Obidos old tile with a bit of age showing. Gnarled trees moving into spring With the thick stone wall of old city Obidos showing in the back ground.


Tuesday in Porto
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An artist with an environmental bent is doing these in and around Portugal. I’ve seen his stuff here and in Lisbon. A small image doesn’t do the work justice. Rhonda Spain is one of those places I read about as a child via National Geographic and have loved for years tho I’d not been there till this year. Last two images are of the Alhambra in Spain. Really beautiful old place with amazing touches everywhere.


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An island I’d never heard of just became one of my favorite spots on the planet so far.

The following images are taken on Procida off the coast of Naples.

My travels continue tho a family illness is calling me home. Probably prior to my being absolutely ready, yet I have enough sense to be grateful for what I have and the times and travels I’ve enjoyed thus far.

They have allowed me to do some work on myself and clear some of my demons. The next bit will be putting some of said learnings into play on a practical scale. A day to day scale.


lemons
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A new love of mine. I had no idea treat fresh lemons tasted so different. I’ve taken to hot lemon water in the morning and these lemons are so fresh I found myself eating the pith. And looking forward to it daily.


Push and Pull. Running towards or running from.
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Turns out soul searching is an ongoing scene.

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Post cards from the road.
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A Monday in January finds me back in Denver for about a week. Then off to Spain.

The weekend has been spent with friends who are really chosen family.

Awkward continues to be my super power and I’m working with that. Rolling with it and allowing it all to unfold as it will.

The image below Is a still life from Saturday night. Dinner with loved ones involved 5 humans one four legged family member, four bottles of bubbles, and 4 bottles of red wine.

A lovely evening even if the day after was a little slow starting out.


Imaginary Dragons, or Shadow Boxing and the ego.
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Younger brother cousin, same father and out mothers are sisters.

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Ultimate Host and Imogen and Millie.
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Dom does his thing on a gorgeous relatively jet lag minor day.

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Five o clock in the morning.
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Random image of a window I saw this morning. Walking with the Beast in Phoenix AZ.

The days are full. She and I are having some time to ourselves. Moment by moment she’s change. One minute an old soul with wisdom in her eyes, the next a child full of wonder or insecurity. The two emotions jockey for position.

Now in the early hours something’s woken me and I think about the days past and those yet to come. The rain is falling gently outside. Making me grateful for shelter and the simple things.

Tomorrow we pack up the Tacoma and head north towards Nevada. We’ll take out time getting there.


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You know those authors that use time as a tool to keep you guessing?

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Santa Fe the shed.
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Sometimes it feels like nothing ever changes. Then in a flash it’s a decade later.

I’m a Contemplative navel gazing bastard at the best of times. At times like these even more so!


Yeeha! Back in LJ land.
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Holy Shite. What a rush the past three months have been.

San Diego was an amazing weekend. Good friends and an experience I’ll never forget.

Back to Denver after that then a quick, slightly hectic winding down of my affairs there.

Went back to the salt mine with a completely different frame of mind. My work attitude was completely different knowing I was on the way out on my terms.

I did my damndest to get the folks ready for a new manager without actually telling them until I’d given notice.

Over the past year or two work had gotten a bit unpredictable. Starting with an interesting review the previous November. After 15 years you get a plastic number 15 with your name engraved on it! No bonus. No raise. No extra week of vacation. Just some plastic and a little 20 page book talking about what an amazing company you work for. The look on my managers face as he watched me open it and start laughing was priceless. I went home that very night. Had a bottle of my best stashed red wine and bought a one way ticket for August.

I then put things in play to get debt free and put my condo on the market.

This story is just starting but I’m calling that part one.
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8 weeks
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Ok, I think I’m back in.

I seem to have issues with this format for some reason.

I was able to get in a couple months ago then continued to get error loading messages for weeks and weeks.

I’ve deleted and reloaded so maybe it’s working now ?

I’ll use this as a test post to see.
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Monday
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Getting a feel for this after so much time away. Thanks for the folks who said hello yesterday.

Visiting a friend in San Diego and struggling with this humidity. Wow.

Also planning a trip to Australia. This will be a first for me.

Flying into Sydney then New Zealand possibly? Pointers welcome.


A Sunday in September
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And just like that, 30 months have passed.

Where it goes I’m not sure.

Woke up in San Diego this morning in my buddies house.

So many changes over the past months. Not even sure where to start.

Im still in Denver. Still at the same company some 15 years later.

El has moved on and no longer lives with me. We continue to be close and that is a great source of love and meaning in my life. I learned that empty nest is a very real thing.

Overall I’m well and still seeking meaning in the day to day.

Who all is still on here?

Cheers
Connor

21 a celebration
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Meanwhile back at the ranch.

El's birthday was an event. I held a very small cocktail party for her, here at my place. 7 total, then from here directly to the Cabaret Le Sensual. A 2.5 hour burlesque show held at the Oriental Theater. Something different and memorable to celebrate her passage from young lady to lady.

The evening was fun and I enjoyed seeing her enjoy herself. It had an odd bittersweet tang to it tho. I feel her moving on and tho that's a parents job and it's certainly been a labor of love, it's got me all kinds of emotional.

Last year we had some seriously tough times and I learned how to be compassionate to myself so that I could be compassionate with her, even when her behavior was pretty awful. Through those experiences I see her through a different lens.

I've also found some work balance, which I learned the hard way last year, by losing all balance and allowing work to consume me.

These days I find it easier to be appreciative of the good, the bad, and even to have appreciation for the ugly.

Life is nothing if not a wild wild ride.

El is finishing her AA next semester then will move on to take attend University at Metro, still here in Denver, same campus even. One of her classes this semester has been Women's Studies. For which she attended a showing of the Vagina Monologues. Her class did a skit prior to the Monologues and it was kind of a trip to see her on stage in front of over 100 people. It flashed me back to when she was in a play as a child on stage for a spring festival. Then she was a shy little thing, now she's coming into her own and has learned to love herself. I teared up watching her have fun with some spotlight as I sat with all the emotion of this long strange journey we've been on.

Cheers to one and all.

holy shite batman.
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Well hell. It seems much has changed here in LJ land and I no longer know how to download and post an image.

We'll see if I figure it out soon enough.

Week is winding down and so am I. I'm house sitting for friends this weekend while my condo's bathrooms get a little upgrade.

Ciao for now.

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The beast and the bear. A study in plaid.

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