I feel like all I do anymore is go to work and study.
I should probably get a more normal sleep schedule.
In two years I'll be a legit lawyer. That's scary shit. I don't want to grow up.

But I won't need con law...and I won't need the rules of evidence memorized.
Oh well, I'll forget it all after the bar.

Time for finals. Time for stress. Time for my temper to start to get the best of me.

I don't know how I feel about anything - any time I've been thinking of anything other than finals, I start to feel guilty about not studying. I really need to do well this semester so that I can get my scholarship back. I don't even care about the future job things, I have a job and my boss likes me so I can hopefully find a job when I graduate. I just worry that what I do at work isn't good enough, especially with the memo I've been writing. It's something I've done before, but not in this context. I know the courts aren't as strict as professors.

Looking at wedding/bridemaid dresses for Susanne's wedding is more fun than studying. Really it is.

I think I'm going to start posting writing on here, it's not like anyone reads it anyway lol ---

Started this tonight, but I prob won't finish it

Woke up this morning
Got in a fight with fate
I didn't have a chance
Knew I'd lost either way
Then I had to decide

Did I want to close my eyes
Drown in my thoughts and dreams
Let tears fall down my face
Or look you in the eyes again

It's been two years since I last posted an entry and it's funny because I'm not even the same person that I was when I wrote that last entry.
Of course I still love WNEC and DC, but law school has changed my perspectives on a lot of things.

My future has been planned out since I was 12 and that has not changed - I want to work at a small firm as a family lawyer, probably on Long Island. There's something about this place that you only understand if you live here. I wish I could explain it, but words don't do LI justice.

My life is just as plagued with petty boy issues as ever, though the recent one confuses me beyond belief.

I'm gonna try to write in here as often as possible, though a lot of entries can be full privacy. we'll see.

I love that place, I felt so at home this weekend that I am going to chronicle the entire trip here in my livejournal. Actually, I will start with Friday.

Friday morning I got up for work, but I didn't have to actually go so I went back to bed. I got up and got everything together then decided to grab breakfast where I met up with a bunch of kids from my floor (and Sam who I guess is still a 3rd floor kid in my head). Then I got on the metro and bus to head to BWI to come home! I got home around 2:30 and relaxed downstairs for a while before Ana came over to watch Instant Star. She didn't stay long because I needed to get up early to head to WNEC.

Now for the WNEC visit:
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Life is good.

And I might live in Evergreen next year.

No matter what happens in another situation tonight, I'll be fine.

Amazing.

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So I have another job at school as a desk rep. Pretty much I get $7/hr to sit at a desk in the middle of the night. It'll cut my sleep time, but I might be able to get some work done while sitting there too.

This week was alright, everything reminded me of the fight ended friendship, but I know I'll be okay...and hell, I'll use fewer texts. I haven't really done all that much that I can think of.
There was a lot of early morning class and sleep...I do remember sleep. I need more of that.
I have to work on my research so I'm going to do that tonight. I know, it's Saturday and I'm doing research - but it's due on Tuesday and I have a midterm on Wednesday and class stuff all week. Tomorrow I have a meeting at 1 and I don't know how long that's gonna last. Then I might be working my first shift at 11pm which will be nice because I'll get money the week I get back from Spring Break.

I'm so excited for Spring Break, not because I don't love it here (I do except for a few things/people) but because it's starting with like 5 hours at home then AWA with Ana then WNEC where I'll get to see all my favorites who miss me as much as I miss them.

I went to the White House this morning, I thought it was great because it was like a museum since you can only go to the rooms that aren't being used. It was worth the wait, I thought, even though security fucked up the list.

this should've been a great weekend. I went to the zoo which was amazing. Ana's here. Everything is good. But no, my weekend was ruined by someone. Stupid jerk. I hate you.

It's been 4 days, but the reason I haven't updated is that I really haven't had much to say.

I've been in a scary good mood for a while and I like it - there are only a few things getting me down, but I've learned to avoid that.
I've gotten hooked on a tv show that's been off the air for a while, but is coming back this summer. It's called My Boys and it's on TBS. It makes me miss WNEC less because I can live vicariously through the characters lol. It's not really WNEC that I miss, it's the people. I miss having something to do all the time only because I feel useless in all of this down time, but I've been filling it with the life I never had there. Unfortunately being here might screw me over for some important things at WNEC, but I'll find out.
It amuses me that some people here think they know me but probably couldn't tell me a single thing about myself. Also, the people who think that I'm going to tell them things, when I really tell them nothing...and will continue to tell them nothing or side stories instead of the truth of what's on my mind. I just wonder how long it's going to be until they get the point.

I have to leave for my internship in about 15 minutes, hopefully I'll get a good amount of courtroom time today, but the judge probably doesn't have too many cases. After I get back, I should be going to main campus with Kaitlyn for a little as long as she's feeling better.

My trip to WNEC is planned - it's gonna be so much fun, I'm excited.

The Whore's gonna be here for a little on Sunday which is also quite happy-making (she'll be the only one to understand that phrase).

Saturday will be the zooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo. I'm so five and I love it.