the farthest thing from your everything

study, study, study

truebluegemini — Fri, 04 Dec 2009 02:55:03 GMT

I feel like all I do anymore is go to work and study.
I should probably get a more normal sleep schedule.
In two years I'll be a legit lawyer. That's scary shit. I don't want to grow up.

But I won't need con law...and I won't need the rules of evidence memorized.
Oh well, I'll forget it all after the bar.

finals

truebluegemini — Tue, 01 Dec 2009 02:17:37 GMT

Time for finals. Time for stress. Time for my temper to start to get the best of me.

I don't know how I feel about anything - any time I've been thinking of anything other than finals, I start to feel guilty about not studying. I really need to do well this semester so that I can get my scholarship back. I don't even care about the future job things, I have a job and my boss likes me so I can hopefully find a job when I graduate. I just worry that what I do at work isn't good enough, especially with the memo I've been writing. It's something I've done before, but not in this context. I know the courts aren't as strict as professors.

Looking at wedding/bridemaid dresses for Susanne's wedding is more fun than studying. Really it is.

I think I'm going to start posting writing on here, it's not like anyone reads it anyway lol ---

Started this tonight, but I prob won't finish it

Woke up this morning
Got in a fight with fate
I didn't have a chance
Knew I'd lost either way
Then I had to decide

Did I want to close my eyes
Drown in my thoughts and dreams
Let tears fall down my face
Or look you in the eyes again

over 2 years.

truebluegemini — Sun, 17 May 2009 17:46:05 GMT

It's been two years since I last posted an entry and it's funny because I'm not even the same person that I was when I wrote that last entry.
Of course I still love WNEC and DC, but law school has changed my perspectives on a lot of things.

My future has been planned out since I was 12 and that has not changed - I want to work at a small firm as a family lawyer, probably on Long Island. There's something about this place that you only understand if you live here. I wish I could explain it, but words don't do LI justice.

My life is just as plagued with petty boy issues as ever, though the recent one confuses me beyond belief.

I'm gonna try to write in here as often as possible, though a lot of entries can be full privacy. we'll see.

WNEC visit

truebluegemini — Tue, 13 Mar 2007 23:40:12 GMT

I love that place, I felt so at home this weekend that I am going to chronicle the entire trip here in my livejournal. Actually, I will start with Friday.

Friday morning I got up for work, but I didn't have to actually go so I went back to bed. I got up and got everything together then decided to grab breakfast where I met up with a bunch of kids from my floor (and Sam who I guess is still a 3rd floor kid in my head). Then I got on the metro and bus to head to BWI to come home! I got home around 2:30 and relaxed downstairs for a while before Ana came over to watch Instant Star. She didn't stay long because I needed to get up early to head to WNEC.

Now for the WNEC visit:

When I got to Bridgeport on the ferry, I saw Susanne, JD, and Anthony waiting for me (and apparently Susanne was singing My Heart Will Go On and she tried to take a picture of me, but I put Taboo over my face. The car ride was fun and we then went to Applebees. Matty and Garrett got lost so they didn't arrive at Apps until after Ben, Mark, Katy, and Meredith left. They also had Jess, Ashley, and Ashley's brother with them. We stayed at lunch until about 2:30 then went to the liquor store and back to WNEC. Breen met me in her room and we did arts and crafts aka made door tags for all of the CW RAs. We hung out there for a while then went over to Dan's room around 5:30 and went out to dinner with Jon around 6:30 to Rubys. After dinner, we stopped at Stop and Shop for movies/drink mixers. I went back to Breen's room and mixed my drinks then she went to LaRiv/Hamden and I headed down to Gateway. Originally I was going to go to Amanda's first, but I stopped over at the guys' and hung out with Tanner/played Wii. Next stop was Amanda's where JD and Nick met up with me and while I was there I drank a good amount very fast. Once the boys joined me, we went over to see Kar for a bit then to Laura's where I also saw Mer and Katy again. When we left there, I went to see Nick's baby turtles then they walked my drunk ass back up to Commonwealth. I was going to go to Jeremy's room when I found Mike in the hall. I ended up going to his room when Jeremy didn't answer his door then we hung out there for a while where Jeremy joined us then did a round and Mike went out so I went back to Breen's. Around 3am, Jeremy kicked my ass at MarioKart then I headed to bed.
Sunday I woke up pretty early and Breen and I just relaxed in her room while I waited for Anthony to wake up so I could give him my ID. During this time I also decided that I was going to stay an extra day because of the Westerner Staff Dinner...because I'm on the staff lol. Anyway, we watched movies while Breen studied and stuff then we met up with Dan for dinner. After dinner, we went to Dan's for a bit before the CAB movie We Are Marshall where I got to see the CAB kids again. After the movie, I went down to the guys' to play Taboo where Susanne joined me. It was so much fun though I was a little shocked when Chris said he would have stuck around for the weekend if he knew I was coming...weird. Joe was also there to play -- it was a pretty fair game, so we accepted defeat. Chris also gave me Grey Goose so when I got back to CW I was a little drunk but there was no one to entertain me (I probably should have stayed down there) I went online and talked to people until I sobered up.
Monday, I woke up with Breen and met up with Laura for breakfast and Jeremy ended up joining us, so it was like old times lol. Then I went to Baick's office and Dawson's office then stopped by the Office of Freshmen and Transfer Students for a bit before meeting Jon to get the copy of the Westerner to copyedit. From there I went to student activities to see Johanna and Mary Lou for a bit before lunch then after lunch I went back to SA until Jo was off work. Then I editted the paper and brought it to the office before just hanging out in Breen's room. I went to the Westerner Staff Meeting then the Dinner at Texas Roadhouse. When I got back on campus, I went to the guys' place and got to see Neal and meet his gf before getting Laura and heading to La Riv to watch...She's the Man (of course). After the movie, I borrowed The Departed from Jeremy to fall asleep too...now I really want to watch the movie.
This morning, Susanne and Anthony took me back to the Ferry and Ana picked me up in Bridgeport.

Life is good.

And I might live in Evergreen next year.

No matter what happens in another situation tonight, I'll be fine.

Amazing.

HA!

truebluegemini — Tue, 06 Mar 2007 04:21:50 GMT

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truebluegemini — Tue, 06 Mar 2007 04:01:41 GMT

Advanced Big 30 Personality Test Results

Sociability	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	51%
Aggressiveness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Assertiveness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	82%
Activity Level	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	77%
Excitement-Seeking	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	62%
Enthusiasm	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	60%
Extroversion	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	64%
Trust	\|\|\|\|\|\|	18%
Morality	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Altruism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Cooperation	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	51%
Modesty	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	79%
Sympathy	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	59%
Accommodation	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	51%
Confidence	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	29%
Neatness	\|\|\|	3%
Dutifulness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	45%
Achievement	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	78%
Self-Discipline	\|\|\|	9%
Cautiousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Orderliness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	34%
Anxiety	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	67%
Volatility	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	91%
Depression	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	74%
Self-Consciousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	69%
Impulsiveness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	84%
Vulnerability	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	78%
Emotional Stability	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	23%
Imagination	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	62%
Artistic Interests	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	38%
Introspection	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	72%
Adventurousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	87%
Intellect	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	62%
Liberalism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	91%
Openmindedness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	68%

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Aggressiveness	56%	mild mannered, uncompetitive	predatory, domineering
Assertiveness	82%	introverted, loner	controlling, aggressive
Activity Level	77%	relaxed, laid back	vigorous, high energy
Excitement-Seeking	62%	sedate, restrained	adventurous, wild
Enthusiasm	60%	somber, pessimistic	cheerful, optimistic
Trust	18%	suspicious of others	trusting of others
Submissiveness	50%	rebellious, lawless	dutiful, obedient, compliant
Altruism	50%	selfish, cold, austere	helpful, selfless, indulgent
Cooperation	51%	argumentitive, confrontational	conflict averse, meek
Modesty	79%	arrogant, self-satisfied	humble, unassuming, doormat
Sympathy	59%	callous, heartless	empathetic, warm
Confidence	29%	not confident in work	confident in work, egoistic
Neatness	3%	disorganized, messy	planner, clean, anal
Dutifulness	45%	dishonest, derelict	honest, rule abiding, proper
Achievement	78%	lazy, unmotivated	driven, goal oriented
Self-Discipline	9%	procrastinator	responsible, efficient
Cautiousness	43%	spontaneous, daring, reckless	careful, controlled, safe
Anxiety	67%	relaxed, fearless	fearful, worrier
Volatility	91%	calm, cool	touchy, tempermental
Depression	74%	content, balanced	emotional, self hating
Self-Consciousness	69%	confident, assured	low self esteem, shy
Impulsiveness	84%	high self control	low self control
Vulnerability	78%	resilient, unphased	confused, helpless
Imagination	62%	practical, realistic	dreamer, unrealistic
Artistic Interests	38%	artistic indifference	art, nature, beauty lover
Introspection	72%	not self reflective	self searching
Adventurousness	87%	conventional, safe	spontaneous, bold
Intellect	62%	instinctive, non-analytical	intellectual, analytical
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your job's a joke, you're broke.

truebluegemini — Sun, 04 Mar 2007 00:04:47 GMT

So I have another job at school as a desk rep. Pretty much I get $7/hr to sit at a desk in the middle of the night. It'll cut my sleep time, but I might be able to get some work done while sitting there too.

This week was alright, everything reminded me of the ~~fight~~ ended friendship, but I know I'll be okay...and hell, I'll use fewer texts. I haven't really done all that much that I can think of.
There was a lot of early morning class and sleep...I do remember sleep. I need more of that.
I have to work on my research so I'm going to do that tonight. I know, it's Saturday and I'm doing research - but it's due on Tuesday and I have a midterm on Wednesday and class stuff all week. Tomorrow I have a meeting at 1 and I don't know how long that's gonna last. Then I might be working my first shift at 11pm which will be nice because I'll get money the week I get back from Spring Break.

I'm so excited for Spring Break, not because I don't love it here (I do except for a few things/people) but because it's starting with like 5 hours at home then AWA with Ana then WNEC where I'll get to see all my favorites who miss me as much as I miss them.

I went to the White House this morning, I thought it was great because it was like a museum since you can only go to the rooms that aren't being used. It was worth the wait, I thought, even though security fucked up the list.

truebluegemini — Mon, 26 Feb 2007 04:08:59 GMT

this should've been a great weekend. I went to the zoo which was amazing. Ana's here. Everything is good. But no, my weekend was ruined by someone. Stupid jerk. I hate you.

I don't believe in love and I put it to the wall I can taste the sweetness there

truebluegemini — Thu, 22 Feb 2007 13:03:06 GMT

It's been 4 days, but the reason I haven't updated is that I really haven't had much to say.

I've been in a scary good mood for a while and I like it - there are only a few things getting me down, but I've learned to avoid that.
I've gotten hooked on a tv show that's been off the air for a while, but is coming back this summer. It's called My Boys and it's on TBS. It makes me miss WNEC less because I can live vicariously through the characters lol. It's not really WNEC that I miss, it's the people. I miss having something to do all the time only because I feel useless in all of this down time, but I've been filling it with the life I never had there. Unfortunately being here might screw me over for some important things at WNEC, but I'll find out.
It amuses me that some people here think they know me but probably couldn't tell me a single thing about myself. Also, the people who think that I'm going to tell them things, when I really tell them nothing...and will continue to tell them nothing or side stories instead of the truth of what's on my mind. I just wonder how long it's going to be until they get the point.

I have to leave for my internship in about 15 minutes, hopefully I'll get a good amount of courtroom time today, but the judge probably doesn't have too many cases. After I get back, I should be going to main campus with Kaitlyn for a little as long as she's feeling better.

My trip to WNEC is planned - it's gonna be so much fun, I'm excited.

The Whore's gonna be here for a little on Sunday which is also quite happy-making (she'll be the only one to understand that phrase).

Saturday will be the zooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo. I'm so five and I love it.

best thing ever

truebluegemini — Wed, 21 Feb 2007 21:37:01 GMT

You Are 68% NYC

You are probably a real New Yorker, though there's a good chance you really live on Long Island.

How NYC Are You?

Museumness

truebluegemini — Sat, 17 Feb 2007 22:02:59 GMT

I love the American Indian Museum, it made me happy. I haven't been feeling to great physically and emotionally (though I'm quite sure that one stemmed from the other). Eh, whatever. I don't know what's made me so apathetic about everything, but I'm getting there. I'm also realizing why I don't hang out with too many girls at WNEC. I like guys better, I'm more myself. I get aggravated with girls very, very easily. end rant.

I wrote down a quote off the wall at the museum: All histories have a history themselves, and one is incomplete without the other. History promises to explain why things are and how they came to be this way. It teases us by suggesting that if we only possessed the secret knowledge, the hidden insight, or the relevant lessons drawn from yesterdays events, we could perhaps master the present. A history is always about who is telling the stories, who the storyteller is speaking to, and how both understand their present circumstances.

I love history.

past few days

truebluegemini — Thu, 15 Feb 2007 23:50:02 GMT

It's been a pretty boring week. There was class and speakers and hanging out. Last night for anti Valentines' Day, Lauren and I got some pizza and watched Talladega Nights. My mind's going crazy, yet again.

I don't know what to do. I haven't felt like this in a long time, but I know it's going to turn out like it always did before. Why do I let people control my mind? I'm happy with everything right now - even the things that aggravate me aren't too bad. My life is good, but I want one thing and as always it's something I can never have. Then someone else makes me feel like shit, thanks "friend" about something completely different. Eh, whatever - c'est la vie?

I want to go to a museum, but I don't know which one. I want to think about history and learn history. Maybe I'll see if I can find someone to go to the Native American History Museum...I don't know. I have tomorrow to make plans for Saturday. Tomorrow night is for drinking with the greatest people.

My WNEC and home friends are important to me, but I definitely think the people here are going to stay in my life somehow. Wow, I'm corny.

truebluegemini — Mon, 12 Feb 2007 05:26:17 GMT

this is my way of getting better...detailed day to day descriptions.

This weekend was amazing.

Friday night we went to Lauren's litte hideaway room on the 4th floor of Congressional, it was Lauren, me, Megan, Kaitlyn, Andrew, Scott, and Nick came a little later. Oleg and Maggie also stopped in, but they didn't stay. It was so much fun - we just hung out and enjoyed each other's company. It was a good time. Amanda had to stay on the phone with me at the end of the night though - I might've made a lot of phone calls.
Saturday during the day I went to Fossil Fest at the Museum of Natural History with Shayna, Nick, Shayna's roommate, and Ryan. We enjoyed ourselves and the fossils and the fake animals. At one point Nick and I lost the rest of them, but we met back up again. Afterwards we went out to dinner then came back to campus. I was going to go to Hawk and Dove with some kids from my floor, but we changed our minds at the cover charge and watched 90s Nickelodeon instead and made fun of it and our childhoods...did anyone know that Are You Afraid of the Dark had sexual undertones? I got pulled into a party at one point which was interesting, then I watched D2 and crashed.
Today I had a coffee/lunch date with Kaitlyn, those things are our sanity. We also went to the library and I actually did research when I got back until dinner. After dinner, I started the WASSA bulletin board then went to the Cheesecake Factory with Victoria for her birthday. It was a great time :-D

I love Washington, D.C.

i'm back to lj world

truebluegemini — Sun, 11 Feb 2007 21:16:56 GMT

It's been quite a while since my last update, and it seems like this is how every entry starts.

I've been in DC for one month now and it's been absolutely amazing. There are some parts that I could really do without (such as the whining, judging, and comments on my choice of clothing) but I've met some people that I already know I'm not going to want to leave at the end of the semester. The part that sucks the most is unlike WNEC where everyone's pretty much from the New England area, here they're from all over the place from San Diego to PA to Minnesota. I've been to a bunch of the Smithsonians and class is unlike anything I've ever had before.
I'm interning at the District Court and loving it even with the boring clerical work (it's a clerk's office). I've seen some trials in family court and I know that it's what I want to do with the rest of my life.
Everyone here talks a lot about taking a year or two off before going to law school, but one semester will be enough for me. I'm going to get my bartending license either this summer or in December and that's going to be where I hopefully get some good money to put away for life in law school. It's costing me a lot of money to be here, but luckily my professor never ordered the books so I didn't have to spend money on them. When I get back to WNEC life is going to be weird, but it's a semester.
Compared to one year ago, I'm so incredibly happy. Someone once told me that if I found a boy it would make me happier, but all I needed was a change of scenery and some amazing people. My crush from WNEC is still in my head, but whatever.
I miss the WNEC kids and the girls from home, but I knew I would. I wish they could meet the amazing people here and see everything that this city has to offer.

I've also been working on my research project...and by working on it I mean Kaitlyn and I went to the library today and got books to make us feel better about being slackers on this project. Washington Semester, in the words of my RA, should be called Washington Siesta. It's a good break. There is some work, but barely any class and a lot of interesting speakers from congresspeople to someone from the Library of Congress, and more.

I hope to keep this lj updated. Leave comments if you still read it.

so much for updating

truebluegemini — Mon, 20 Nov 2006 17:30:21 GMT

It's been less than 2 months since my last post lol.

I've posted stuff on myspace and facebook, just nothing in here. I don't know what to say.

The month of October sucked a lot -- I spread myself out too thin and didn't know my limit of where I had to stop. I ended up driving myself so far down that I spent a week literally shaking because I was stressed and confused and emotional and girly.

Of course there's a crush and it's just like all the rest. Everyone but me thinks that he should know and I don't. I'm leaving in 51 days so there's no point in doing much of anything related to him. I'm not going to be back for over 8 months and I'm sure that there will be someone in DC that will take his place. I tend to fall for someone pretty much anywhere that I go, and I'll fall just as hard. People say that this guy would be good for me and he probably would - but I don't know...

I'm done with CAB. Well...almost done, just today's general board, the general board dinner, and I think one exec board meeting where I pass my binder to Karla. Even though my events have been over, this will still be a good stress reliever. CAB provided me with way too much stress, but at least I got to become close to some great people...and people who drive my absolutely crazy.

I think I get driven crazy too easily. Maybe. I don't know.

I don't know anything.

scary

truebluegemini — Wed, 11 Oct 2006 04:31:54 GMT

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back together

truebluegemini — Sun, 01 Oct 2006 06:25:36 GMT

I think I'm putting my life back together.

I'm talking regularly to all of the people who I've been closest to in the past couple of years and things are good. I have my boys back and I'm one of the guys again. I'm happy in general even though stress gets me down.
Things are good.

I'm excited about Washington and I'm geting closer to the kids that I'm going with.

There are a lot of stressors, but I'm not letting them get to me.

I do miss the girls from home though...a lot.

truebluegemini — Thu, 21 Sep 2006 22:46:00 GMT

I said I was going to get better about updating, but I haven't.

Things have been good -- stressful, but good nonetheless.

Boy issues - that's what happens to me for liking someone with a girlfriend. But that's what distractions are for?

I pretty much just quit the Westerner.

Something came over me tonight and I just feel like crap...mentally. I don't know, I'll be better later?

I can't wait 111 days to go to DC.

This semester's going to take forever. Next semester will be amazing in Washington DC. Then it's my last semester at WNEC. My schedule for that semester is made for me too; I'm almost ready for law school. This summer I have to take an LSAT course.

What if I fail in law school?

weekend

truebluegemini — Mon, 11 Sep 2006 02:30:30 GMT

I didn't do much on Friday -- after a while watched a movie with Meredith and Jillian then passed out.

Saturday I cleaned, went grocery shopping, and made dinner for Amanda, Laura, Meredith, and me and Susanne was over. Spent the rest of the night hanging out with Susanne and roaming and stuff. It was fun times :)

Today I cleaned more, fought with the printer in the library, did homework, and was tired and lazy.

I kinda suck, don't I?

the rain last night sucked, but it was funny when Susanne screamed.

love it :)

truebluegemini — Fri, 08 Sep 2006 00:20:46 GMT

You Are a Liberal for Life

You've got a bleeding heart - and you're proud of it.

For you, liberal means being compassionate, pro-government, and anti-business.

You believe in equality for every person, and you consider yourself universally empathetic.

Helping others is not just political for you ... it's very personal too.

What's Your Political Persuasion?

laziness

truebluegemini — Thu, 07 Sep 2006 03:19:11 GMT

Wow ... I've added to my laziness. Maybe I'm just tired but I don't know -- before I was trying to outline a paper and instead I read the student code of conduct. Who actually reads the code of conduct?

So I'm happy I didn't get RA because I've seen it go to people's heads and on top of that I'm already lacking in free time and stressed over other stuff. I have an article to write for the Westerner and a geography paper to write and tomorrow Baick's gonna give out another paper.

I want to write more -- mostly on the novel...I've been scrapping ideas on paper.

I'm tired.

I'm confused.

I don't know much of anything anymore.

I hate boys, by the way.

I'm going to DC as long as I get accepted no matter what anyone says.

I'm going to resurrect this.

truebluegemini — Tue, 05 Sep 2006 19:10:55 GMT

First I go like 2 months now this is over 3...

summer was summer. That's all I really have to say about it. It started out with an amazing 3 days camping with the girls at Watch Hill which is definitely going to be an annual tradition for the rest of our lives!
The rest of the summer I spent at AAA in the overly air conditioned office dealing with old, crazy people most of the time. The people who work there were pretty fun though -- most of the time. When I wasn't working, I was typically with Ana, Erin, and Rachie either watching movies, old school Nickelodeon, or seeing A World Away and the Rivalry.

I've been back at school for 2 weeks now and it's the longest I've been away from people since May lol and it's hard! I miss them ... sometimes. I've had a lot of fun though. I spent like 4 days straight with Breen for her birthday. Both weekends I got drunk with JD, Devon, Leanne, and an assortment of Nick, Nate, Meredith, and Megan. There's also been lots of PIC^3 time, quite a bit of CAB shit, and drama in my head. Luckily it's not real drama, just me thinking too much - but when don't I do that.

As long as I get accepted, I'm definitely going to DC next semester which should be fun? I'm hoping at least.

Right now I'm just living this semester hoping for the best. We'll see what happens.

2 months of updates

truebluegemini — Sat, 20 May 2006 06:24:07 GMT

So the semester ended a while ago and it's been 2 months since I've updated. I've reflected on the semester so many times and thought of everything that I could have done differently. Wondering constantly if it would have made a difference, but as it's always said hindsight is 20/20. I'm going to make next year better and get rid of the sophomore slump that I fell further into. Sophomore year is proven to be the worst - so it's only uphill from here. I should be more comfortable whereever I live next year so I will be happier in that way. I don't know anymore...I need to stop thinking about it. I need to stop dwelling on the past because that will only hold me down in the future.
I guess insomnia at 2 in the morning makes me prophetic? Possibly just pathetic.

One big thing this semester that came back is my hatred for being doubted. I want to scream to people not to doubt me, but then again when they do I flourish. I do my best when no one things that I'm going to succeed at all. Sure, I have my almost blow ups along the way - but I still pull through in the end. I get my strength from other people's negative opinions of me.

Last Friday I went to the bowling alley...yeah, I know I shouldn't because every time it's the same. I remembered every reason why I quit and dropped that part of my life. I watched as people let their lives be dictated by little mistakes, how that one game meant the world. People were beating themselves up over mistakes the same way I am over my grades for the semester. But my grades, they determine my future and law school and something important. Bkac hwen I bowled it was fun not life and that's why I can never got aback to it. It was never my life - my grades determine my life...and I ruined those this semester.

Since I've been home I've of course spent a lot of time with Ana and Erin, I also spent a night with Rach and Rin. Next week is camping with Aly, Rachie, Rin, and Mander and I am beyond excited for that. 3 days on the beach with 4 of my favorite girls is going to be amazing :)

There was one night this semester where nothing went wrong though - Mer's birthday...there were in and out like 10 people in Amanda and my room that night but it was fun. The worst event of the night was Meredith's beaded necklace breaking. Everything else was great, I even woke up happy the next morning after not going to sleep until after 4:30.

I have a job for the summer, I'll be working probably 40 hours a week, but the paychecks will be quite nice. I'm pretty excited for that! I might not have too much free time, then Friday nights I'll be working at bowling tournaments for some pocket cash.

A World Away has been playing a lot of shows, so tomorrow night I'll be seeing them for the second time in the under 2 weeks I've been home then possibly twice next weekend and maybe one other time the weekend after that. Maybe they'll play my birthday weekend too.

Overall, things are looking up. I'm happy to be home - or happy to be away from WNEC for a little. As much as I love it there, I needed a break...I needed to get away.

So, here's my update after 2 months...there will probably be more this summer.

maybe I do believe in dream interpretations...

truebluegemini — Sun, 02 Apr 2006 23:05:44 GMT

To dream of a car accident, symbolizes your emotional state. You may be harboring deep anxieties and fears. Are you "driving" yourself too hard? This dream may tell you to slow down before you hit disaster. You need to rethink or re-plan your course of actions and set yourself on a better path.</font>

The itunes survey

truebluegemini — Tue, 21 Mar 2006 21:19:11 GMT

1. What's my mood like right now?
"It's My Life" - Bon Jovi

2. How's tomorrow going to be for me?
"I Want You Back" - NSYNC (wow, this actually almost fits mentally)

3. What kind of person am I?
"The Bitch Song"- Bowling for Soup lmao, that's awesome

4. Am I loved?
"If You Believe" - The Wiz

5. How can I achieve my highest potential?
"Out the Window" - Bowling for Soup

6. What should I do with my life?
"Be The One" - Jeff Timmons

7. Is everything really going to be alright in the end?
"Iris" - Goo Goo Dolls

8. What is my best quality?
"The Stranger" - Billy Joel

9. How does my sex life look?
"La Vie Boheme" - RENT (lol)

10. What's the meaning of life?
"Almost" - BFS

11. What do people think of me?
"Because of You" - 98 Degrees

12. Would I make a good catch?
"Two Coins" - Dispatch

13. How crazy am I?
"Kryptonite" - 3 Doors Down

14. Will I have a good life in general?
"All I Really Want" - Alanis

15. Can [ ] ever really love me?
"American Pie" - Don McLean

16. Can me and [ ] ever be more than friends?
"Where You Lead" - Carole King

17. What's going to happen to me this week?
"That's What I Get" - NIN

18. Where will I be a year from now?
"Sunday Morning" - No Doubt

19. What is your biggest wish?
"Sticks and Stones" - Aly and AJ

20. What is the love of my life doing at this very moment?
"Walk Away" - Kelly Clarkson

21. How will I die?
"Not the Doctor" - Alanis

22. What will happen after I die?
"Hands" - Jewel

23. How do my friends feel about me?
"The Remedy" - Jason Mraz

that was fun.