When somebody wants to dispute something that I say about the history of science or the history of mathematics on social media and can’t actually refute it with facts, they often resort to a comment like the one that is the title of this post. It is of course factually correct; I am just some guy with a blog and I’m even prepared to admit that the only real formal qualifications that I have are a very ancient set of very ropey A-levels. I’m quite happy to admit that I am to a large extent an autodidact but I do have quite a large amount of formal academic training acquired over the years. A lot of what I am now going to relate is already known to regular readers of this blog but I think it is worth repeating for any new readers who have joined since I last exposed the details of my somewhat unorthodox life journey.
I read my first book on the history of mathematics at about the age of five, Lancelot Hogben’s Man Must Measure, which I assume had belonged to my brother, who was six years older than me. I was a very precocious child and skipped not one but two grades in primary school and was still the most intelligent child in the class. I spent three years in the highest grade and at the end was teaching myself from the teacher’s books whilst the teacher taught the rest of the class. There was, however, a small problem, I couldn’t spell, with eleven I couldn’t even spell my own surname, and the proverbial drunken spider that had fallen into an ink well was a calligraphy master in comparison to me. Much value was attributed to spelling and good handwriting in my primary school and so I suffered, “with your intelligence!” I of course suffered from a learning disability , two in fact, but I didn’t know that at the time and in fact only discovered it when I was already over fifty years old but more of that later.
By now I was avidly reading of all the articles on numbers, number systems and mathematics in the Children’s Brittanica, a copy of which we had at home. But despite having sailed through my eleven plus and an emergency appendectomy all within twelve hours, I basically gave up on the school system because of my writing difficulties. As I have related in an earlier post, my mother died when I was fifteen and I ended up spending my fifth form and first year sixth as a boarder in the grammar school where I had previously been a day boy. At the end of my fifth year my boarding house master asked me if I would be returning next year. I replied that depends on the O-level examiners. He replied that in that case he didn’t expect to see me. He was more than somewhat surprised when I got by far and away the best O-level results of any of the fifth form boarders.
I now entered the first year sixth and was confronted with a new school headmaster, who played the role of the new broom that sweeps clean. I, shambling along in my usual couldn’t care less style, soon landed in his study. He asked me what I wished to study at university and I replied history. I had been deeply in love with history since I taught myself to read at three. He naturally then asked, why I was studying science A-levels to which I replied, because that’s what I’m good at. He then suggested that I could study archaeology with science A-levels. I wasn’t particularly keen on the idea, my father was an archaeologist, but I ended up going on my first excavation in the Easter holidays. I really enjoyed it and went on a much bigger and longer excavation in the summer holidays. The University of Cardiff excavation of the Roman fort at Usk in South Wales. I had in the meantime been expelled from my boarding school.
I was now living in London, before being expelled during the school holidays and after full time. Sometime around then my father gave me his copy of Eric Temple Bell’s Men of Mathematics, a very inspiring book but historically highly inaccurate. I spent many years correcting in my head Bell’s historical errors. However, at the time I simply became addicted to the history of mathematics, lock, stock and barrel. Over the following years I would seek out and acquire books on the history of mathematics and later the history of science as well. Out of those early autodidact years I still have my copies of Carl B Boyer’s A History of Mathematics, Morris Kline’s Mathematical Thought from Ancient toModern Times, Arthur Koestler’s The Sleepwalkers, and Jacob Bronowski’s The Ascent of Man.
Back to the chronological narrative. I spent my A-level year at the then notorious Holland Park Comprehensive, the flagship of the Labour Government’s comprehensive education policy. I spent that school year smoking vast quantities of cannabis, going to amazing rock concerts in the nights and dropping acid about once a week. Come on, it was the schoolyear 69/70 and Holland Park-Ladbroke Grove was the centre of the British counterculture in the 1960s and on into the 1970s. It is not a surprise that my A-level results were, to put it mildly, bad. It’s a fucking miracle that I got any A–levels at all.
I still managed to get a place to study archaeology at University College Cardiff, in those days one of the leading universities for the subject. I had spent another summer digging at Usk before the A-level results came out and a lecturer recommended my selection for a place based on having got to know me on those excavation, I think it was more likely that he wanted to make an impression on my father, who was much further up the greasy pole than he was so, indirect nepotism.
I studied archaeology, metallurgy and mathematics. I quite enjoyed the metallurgy but found the mathematics, which in that first year didn’t go beyond what I had already learnt at school, boring. I was stimulated by the archaeology but had immense problems with the essays because of my writing problems. However, all in all I decided it was not where I wanted to be and dropped out at the end of the year.
Over the next decade I continued to teach myself the histories of mathematics and science. In 1976 I lived for a time in Malmø in southern Sweden and in the well-stocked public library discovered both Stephen Körner’s The Philosophy of Mathematics and Karl Popper’s Conjectures and Refutations as a result of which I added the philosophies of mathematics and science to my private curriculum. Shortly after I returned to the UK an assistant in a small book shop, who knew my somewhat specialised taste in reading matter, drew my attention to Imre Lakatos’ Proofs and Refutations, which as I’ve documented elsewhere was possibly the most influential book in my life.
Throughout the 1970s I did numerous things to pay the rent and buy groceries. For several years I spent the summers working as a field archaeologist and at one point for a whole year. Working on archaeology sites you learn an awful lot about the mechanisms of history. I also spent a lot of time time working as a sound and light technician in theatre, and as a set designer and constructer. I worked concerts as a stagehand and a ticket controller. I did a stint as an industrial painter in the docks. If somebody offers you work cleaning out the diesel tanks in the keel of a ship, so that welding repairs can be carried out, politely decline and walk away fast. I did the obligatory six months working in Cardiff’s nineteenth century East Moors steel works. I worked in the quality control for the ancient coke ovens, taking coal samples before they came into the ovens. The top of a nineteenth century coke ovens at three o’clock on a summer’s night is like something out of Dante’s Inferno, belching sulphurous fumes and sheets of flame. My final occupation before finally leaving Cardiff was renovating second-hand electric stoves for resale. It says something about the economic state of the UK in the 70s that it was a roaring trade.
In 1980 I moved to Germany. When people ask why I answer quite honestly, “I went on holiday and never went back again!” I’ve already documented the events leading up to this move so, I won’t repeat myself here. I couldn’t speak the language so, I went to evening classes to learn it. It was too slow for my taste and I asked if there was anything faster and got told there was a German as a foreign language course in Erlangen at the local university. I inquired and it turned out that I would have to register as a student to be able to do the German as a foreign language course. I had always intended to return to university so, I did. The German high school system closes with a high school certificate, (Das Abitur), which qualifies the holder to study anything at university. My science A-levels only counted as a restricted high school certificate so, I registered to study mathematics.
After one year of the German as a foreign language course, I took and passed the final exam and could begin my mathematics degree. In those days the first degree at a German university was a master’s complete with thesis, which was expected to take four to five years but many students took longer. In mathematics it was called a diploma and I registered with philosophy as my subsidiary. As already related elsewhere, my philosophy professor was a historian of logic and mathematics and from the very beginning I followed an intensive history and philosophy of science course of studies with a set of excellent teachers. The maths department had absolutely no interest in the history of the discipline so, after two and a half years I changed from mathematics to a master’s in philosophy. In order to do so I required at least one humanities A-level so, I took German A-level courtesy of the British Institute in München. I took English philology and history as my subsidiaries.
By then, I had already been working for some time as one of the researchers in a major research project into the external history of formal logic. I now seriously devoted as much time as possible to the study of the history and philosophy of science. However, I was a mature student without a grant or parental support so, I was also working long hours to pay the rent and buy the groceries. I won’t list all the things I did to earn money but I did quite a lot of work as a stage hand for a large concert promoter. In the end I ended up working as the evening manager of a youth and cultural centre, with about three thousand guests in its various activities on a Friday or Saturday night. I also worked there as a concert sound a lighting technician. In my “spare time” my hobby was running the jazz club in the centre.
Not surprisingly, I was by now suffering from some fairly serious mental illnesses including a full blown alcoholism. After a total of ten years at the university, I had acquired all the course credits I needed to graduate MA and had written about two thirds of my master’s thesis and a very detailed annotated outline for my doctoral thesis! The planned doctoral thesis was originally going to be my master’s thesis but had got too large and so I took one section out of it as a master’s thesis. As I have documented elsewhere, not surprisingly the wheels fell off and instead of graduating I took a time out in the local loony bin, going through withdrawal and trying to get my mental state back onto an even keel.
When I came out of the clinic it was obvious that I needed to reduce the stress in my life and as it was clear that as a forty year old graduate I would never get a job in the history of science, which are as rare as hen’s teeth for anybody, I dropped out of university for the second time in my life. It is often said that alcoholism is a symptom of an underlying phycological disturbance and that was certainly the problem in my case. In fact, within a year, I was back in the loony bin with clinical depression. I regularly attended the AA for several years and also had extensive out-patient psychotherapy but I still wasn’t really getting at the root problem.
However, after a time I started regularly attending my professor’s weekly research seminar in which graduate students and lecturers presented their actual research to public scrutiny. These weekly sittings had originally been part of the research project in which I had worked for years. In those days we often had guest lecturers and I got to meet and converse during the meals following the lectures with some of the world’s leading historian of mathematics and logic, including Ivor Grattan-Guiness, Martin Davis, and Joe Dauben. At the ICHS conference in Hamburg in 1989, I got to chaperone, the then ancient but still incredibly sharp, legendary historian of mathematics, Dirk Struik (1894–2000), who was the keynote speaker in our section of the conference. As well as reconnecting with my professor, if only as a guest, I also began to hold public lectures on the histories of science and mathematics, mostly in Nürnberg. I also became an active member of a group of historians of astronomy in Nürnberg. Later I became an active member of the Simon Marius Society. I also began my legendary history of astronomy tours of Nürnberg, which, in the meantime, have been enjoyed by quite a large number of professional historians of science.
I still had not come to terms with my inability to write. I could hold lectures on a myriad of topics without notes, which I know from feedback are very good but faced with a blank page I became hopelessly cramped. As I have noted elsewhere, I finally discovered at about the age of fifty that I have high grade AD(H)D and suffer from dysgraphia. I knew that some of my symptoms were indicative of dyslexia but I had no problems in reading. I had had my nose buried in a comic, magazine, newspaper, or book since I taught myself to read at the age of three. Dysgraphia is a disturbance of the part of the brain that controls writing! The solution turned out to be quite simple I don’t write, I hold a lecture in my head and write it down as I go along, hence my narrative style.
Seventeen years ago, I started this blog to teach myself to write. It was an uphill struggle but the fact that I’m still hear seem to indicate that I succeeded. I have also over the years accumulated a small but growing number of real dead tree academic papers! My work has found favour with a surprisingly large number of the world’s leading historians of science. A fact that I find mildly embarrassing. Over the years I have been asked to fact check texts written by quite a few of those historians and surprisingly given my life long struggles with the written word, I am employed as a copy editor by historians writing in English, who are not native speakers.
Yes, I’m just some guy with a blog, but I hope it is by now clear that that blog is written from a very solid and very real background as a historian of science, even though I never managed to get any formal qualifications along the way. I also research my blog posts carefully, mostly in the circa one thousand academic volumes of the personal research library that line the walls of my apartment. What I don’t already have at home I borrow from the university library.

























































