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my highway

[Nov. 17th, 2004|06:03 pm]

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takeyourshot Highway

Family Farm	9
Paintown	18
TravelWorld	55
County Jail	115
Dumpsville	334
Please Drive Carefully

Where are you on the highway of life?

From Go-Quiz.com

OK, family farm, that BETTER not mean a farm full of kids. NO. But looks like I will be travelling and spending time in jail, so I guess it balances out.

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just stuff	[Nov. 17th, 2004\|03:56 pm] takeyourshot
The weeks been interesting so far. I've had lots of work to do, but Monday night took a few hours break because some friends needed some cheering up. Drank some vodka, played some cards, said unhappy things about upsetting people...nice break from papers and such. Busy bee work on Tuesday, don't remember what I did, except for going to Walmart! Then I went back to Walmart today and bought this little black cowboy hat for the party at AXE on Friday. I'm really looking forward to it, so many of my friends will be there, the guys in the fraternity are awesome, theres going to be a band playing 70s, 80s, and 90s music, and the theme is "Save a horse ride a cowboy"! The party is going to be a lot of fun. Then whenever I am able to get up on Saturday morning, I am driving back home to see family friends who are visiting from Florida and stayin with us. Since I'm giving up my room, I have to stay at my grandparent's house, but it is just for a night so it shouldnt be too bad. Sunday I am driving back to school...and leaving again on Tuesday afternoon. But its alright, I love driving anyway. Thanksgiving is at my house this year...no fun. Maybe I'll play sick so I won't have to do anything. I think the holiday is really dumb. Really, why do we celebrate Thanksgiving? Just because some colonists and some Indians decided to be friends for a day? Well look what that got the Indians! Nothing good! Some argue it is a religious thiing, thanking god for everything, but I'm not a god person so that doesn't satisfy me. Others argue we celebrate it for the sales after Thanksgiving, and I like that argument best, lol! I don't know what I am going to do about a JOB this winter break. I need SOMETHING to do to keep me busy. If I can't find a job I might just re-teach myself Spanish, because I'm very afraid of Spanish 202 next semester! We'll see how it goes... Tonight I am going to the AST open house. I really love some of the girls in that sorority, but I still don't know if I would really want to be part of a sorority...there are a lot of things that I don't like about it. We'll see how it goes...
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perfect didnt seem so perfect...	[Nov. 14th, 2004\|01:01 pm] takeyourshot
Good weekend. Thursday night I got a little tipsy before class registration - oopsies. Haha, it was fun though, and I got the classes that I need. Next year I'll be taking American Lit III, Gender and Communication, Renaissance Topographies, Spanish 202, and Intro to Anthropology. Pretty good stuff, except 4 classes on T/R, 3 of which are back to back, one a night class. Lookin forward to next semester, yes yes. Friday night I randomnly went over to Stubbs and hung out with Lynn and Caroline. Good times - can't wait to see those pics! OMG I can't believe we did that! Ahh to be a college kid... drinkin games are fun...we ran out of mixers though and nearly out of liquor so we started makin our calls, but instead of gettin alcohol we got a ride to Sydney. Dawn came over for awhile, we hung out with her and some of my fave AXE boys. Rob had a dead squirrel or something in his freezer...like the meat and bones or something, I don't even want to know! We all just hung out, I think I had a little beer. Rob drove us home in his truck, Lynn was almost sitting on top of the gears I think, because I remember it was such a big deal whenever he had to change gears. I sat on Caroline's lap - ooh yay, lol. I think I went home then and thats all I remember. Oooh Mary Ellen dyed Clarissa's hair - it looks awesome! My wonderful redheads... Mary Ellen and Clarissa left for Williamsburg Sat. morning, but I went to the Sydney football game with Dawn, Caroline, Lynn, and their friend Megan. One of the cops was mean to me and I didn't like him much. So I picked up Dawn from the AXE house and we went to the game, spent like 20 minutes looking for everyone else, and after we had walked around half the campus (well not really..) we found them. It was FREEZING!!! But I had a good time. Only watched 1/2 the game because at 1/2 time we went to their friend Nate's room and he served us hot chocolate - whatta nice guy. And it was so warm and nice we didnt even leave til the 3rd quarter was over...and then I left to meet Clarissa and Mary Ellen in Williamsburg. Maybe this is weird to some people, but I absolutely love driving (at least when I am comfortable with where I am going), I love the open road and my music and just getting lost in myself and moving, speeding and going wayyy too slow. Its when I have my best thoughts, the most hopeful and honest. I even have negative, brutal thoughts, but they aren't as bad somehow... OK no one is going to understand this.. But I love it anyway. Someway, somehow, I was able to find them (Clarissa and Mary Ellen) and we got ready in this fancy hotel bathroom. We walked to this Tavern and were lead upstairs by this woman in colonial dress (everyone who worked there was dressed colonial style), introduced to our waiter, Charles, had napkins tied around our necks, and were given menus...it looked quite good, except for the blaring price : $37.50 PER ADULT. Besides drinks and appetizers, that was the ONLY option. Mary Ellen told Charles we basically didnt expect that to be the only option...and we had to order appetizers - a fruit and cheese platter, and a colonial sampler - salad leaves, crab balls, these delicious carrot balls, fried oysters, duck gumbo?, some weird ham biscuit....it was defintely an experience! Charles was SOOOO nice though - we got free bread and shrimp and salad and sparkling cider and dessert. It was defintely an experience we won't forget...had to go to Subway afterwards to fill everyones tummy! I ended up throwing mine out though...not talented enough to drive and eat a meatball sub at the same time. Drive back was more of the same - I gotta do that more often!!! Got back to campus and called Dawn from the parking lot- she and Caroline convinced me to come to HSC. I thought we were just going to hang out in this guys room from earlier today, that was the kind of thing that I was in the mood for - but when I got there they told me to meet them at this party at one of the frats. It was really loud and dark and not a lot of people, broken glass all over the floor and everyone was drunk and I wasn't, I didn't really feel like stayin, so I left. I could have easily gotten drunk really quickly and been fine but I wanted to drive home that night. It was okay though, it was a great day. Going home next Saturday I think. Maybe skip my Mon/Tues classes and stay, maybe not? We'll see. Leave comments and tell me how your weekend went!
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nothin much	[Nov. 10th, 2004\|09:22 pm] takeyourshot
Ahhh I'm such a dumbass. Stupid stupid girl - never learn my lesson. Most of you who know me probably know what I am talking about. Don't let me be stupid anymore! Thanks :-) You know, I really like U2. They rock. Figuratively and literally. Uhm I just realized I don't have anything to say right now. Except some people suck and sometimes my life sucks. And the unknown direction in which it is heading sucks too. Thanks, life. Its like this process that I am always trying to fix, but most of the time I seem to head back in the same place. Like trying to overcome my shyness - yeah I am so much better than before, but a lot of the time I still feel really alone and its especially hard when I do or say something that for me takes a lot of guts...and I get shot down or I feel dumb about it...hard to explain. But sometimes I feel like I haven't gotten anywhere. Like I'm still shy around some guys for some reason, I have almost no guy friends, I don't know why. Its weird, I just don't interact with them that much. Hmmm yea.... well I'm off to do whatever
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November...!	[Nov. 9th, 2004\|07:46 pm] takeyourshot
November already! WHAT!? We go home next month. For a full month! Doesn't seem real. Anyway, there is some sort of construction going on with my building, and I think they mow the lawn EVERY single morning, bright and early. So even though I didn't have my frist morning class this morning, I still woke up. Oh well, I still like lying awake and daydreaming. Been having lots of those lately! Its hard to pay attention in class sometimes, my mind just goes off, and I don't even realize it for awhile. Three of my class periods are cancelled this week because the professors in the COMM department are going to Chicago for a conference. Yay! My only class on Thursday is weight training at 12:30. I want to go out and DO something Wednesday. I dunno...Maybe more Hump Night festivities! I can't go out Thursday night because of registration for classes...boo...but if I get the schedule that I want, I will only have 1 class MW, 3 TR, and NONE on Fridays, as long as I can get into this online class I want to take. We'll see how it goes!!! My mom has been freaking out when we go 2 days without talking to each other. Its awful. Last Friday I got 3 phone calls from mom and dad, and Saturday morning I got 1. My dumb cell won't pick up signal in my room, so I didnt even know that I had mesages til late saturday afternoon. I was a little peeved that they kept calling and calling... I just don't feel close to my family like that...I dont feel like i NEED to call them every day... And when I do talk to my mom, it feels like she is always judging me, everything i say, and she asks so many questions its like talking to an investigator. Thats why I don't tell her when I go out to a party or I have a crush on a guy or if I've had a bad day. Why do we have to talk talk talk??? I was talking to a friend tonight about boy problems and emotions and such, and we've decided life would be much easier if we (girls) didn't have all these wild emotions running rampant all the fucking time...like if we could just be like guys, and say "whatever" or realize theres nothing to be done and stop worrying. And stop overanalyzing! If I ever have kids, I would want a boy. I would never wish being a girl on anyone, especially a child of mine. But back to the subject: I feel like I get SO emotional, and mostly it is unneccessary. I can get upset over the smallest things and I know its dumb and I want it to go away, but its still there. Especially before and during my period. What did I do in my past life to deserve to be a woman? On another note, I got my President's List award thingy on my door today! :-) My 2nd one. Hopefully I will get one next semester, too. Oh something else good, my suite is going to Lynchburg on Saturday night to go out to a nice dinner. :-) That should be fun. I don't think that the 4 of us have ever gone out and done something together. Yay for friends!
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Saturday Night	[Nov. 7th, 2004\|07:58 pm] takeyourshot
Being that I didn't stop feeling sick til 8 or 9 at night on Friday, I volunteered to be DD Saturday night. I didn't want to feel sick again, and the thought of blacking out really scared me. I don't want to NOT remember...anyway, Carolyn, Elisabeth, and I met up with Dawn (who was soo drunk. so fabulously drunk) and headed back over to HSC again. Made a few DD runs to Longwood for Margaret, had a good time with her. Fun night, many awesome people, good times, blurry pictures, only mistake was going to Huddle House at 3:30 in the morning. Watched some TV and then crashed at 5 AM with the hot guy from Thursday night, left later that morning. I hung out with Dawn at her work for awhile, went to dinner with her. Thats basically all that I care to tell about the past 24 hours. On a side note, I'm really sick of this happy/sad, crazy/serious, smile/frown dialectic shit going on in my emotions/actions. I'm ready to have something really positive happen... sick of this shit and defintely sick of this semester. I am not sure that I know what makes me happy anymore. This bullshit sucks, I hate being 19. I just want to fast forward to 10 years from now and be happily married and in a career and enjoying myself. Ahh crap whatever. Something else I've noticed is my loss of appetite lately. For some reason I can't eat as much as I used to. I'm not complaining, but it is odd. This has been going on for about a week now. Very strange. I don't know whats going on anymore.
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Drunk Thursday	[Nov. 5th, 2004\|04:14 pm] takeyourshot
Oh my GOD I must have drank so much last night. Ok, me, Dawn, and Lynn went to Sydney to see those guys. I had one Smirnoff Twisted before I went, and then we got there at about 11. We were having such a good time, but I didn't realize how strong my vodka was (100 proof) and how much I was pouring into my drink. Later on in the night I ended up blacking out - I don't remember the period starting with eating Tostida chips to when I woke up, in a strange room on a couch. I don't like this not remembering thing, so I'm going to try to watch my liquor from now on. But today....I have such a hangover. Its 4pm and I still feel like shit. Defintely can't go out tonight. But I did have fun - slip n slide on the kitchen floor? Oh yes, Oh yes. Not to mention that guy, very nice indeed. But for now I am going to shower in the hopes that I can live again.
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Hump Night!	[Nov. 4th, 2004\|01:34 pm] takeyourshot
Yesterday was Wednesday, which is HUMP DAY! So I went over to Kristin's room for a little drinking and being with pals, and Napoleon Dynamite. I'd never seen the film before, it was a little strange, but entertaining. We ordered pizza, but I wouldn't have even wanted any if I weren't drinking. But when I get a few in me I can't seem to stop myself...I had a blast. Not too much later, some Hampden-Sydney guys came over, and I thought one of em was really hot so I was talking to him a bit...Oh jeez I just remember something about Eva pushing me into his lap. Thanks, Eva! haha. Everyone left about 3:30, including me. They were all very nice guys, so I think Dawn and I are going over there tonight. Yay for Thursday nights and no Friday classes! and alcohol of course.
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thursday

[Oct. 28th, 2004|07:46 pm]

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Yeah, just accidently deleted this whole entry...starting from scratch...

People suck. Bitches, wimps, cowards, drama queens.....they all are on my last nerves. It makes me sick, or, in Stef's words, it makes me ill. I miss her so much, and I am really looking forward to seeing her on Saturday. She's an awesome girl.

I got a 144/150 = 96 on my Mass Media Theory and Effects Midterm! I was sooo happy about it. In fact, it made my day. That is, until something else upset me, but lets not talk about things like that right now. Asshole. Ahem. But thats what happens when some people suck at life. In other news, Ashlee Simpson is a horrible musician and entertainer. Sure, her fake stuff sounds good. But you know she lip-synched to more than SNL, I mean, come on people. Dont be naieve. All I can say is ewww.

We're in the second half of the semester, and I still have not received any of my grades for my my Interpersonal Communication class. NONE. Handed in 2 papers, a midterm, a quiz, and 2 in class assignments. Thats 6 grades, with another one I am handing in on Tuesday. What gives? Hopefully this will be the last assignment since he is obviously so far behind in grading them...I dont think a person should have to wait more than 2 weeks for ANY grade. I got my cholesterol test back. I have high cholesterol. Oops. Well I'm trying to eat better now so that should help, and I am exercising. Not sure what else to do about that.

Yeah, I went to the study lounge in the library (the nice big one with lots of space and chairs and couches), and this couple were in there, being all sweet and cuddly and kissy and "baby i love you" kind of CRAP, and I just wanted to ask them to leave. I mean, I should have, but I didn't. That was similar to the reason why I left my room to study in the lounge, and it pissed me off that a couple would use that as if it were their private space. I've seen that there before, not sure if it were the same couple or not. I appreciate that people are happy, and I would love to be one of those happy people, but have some respect for the singles out there who are NOT loved by someone and want to STUDY in the damn library studylounge (its intended purpose, no less). Next time maybe I will sit on the same couch as them and see if they leave.

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Weight, School, thats about it

[Oct. 27th, 2004|05:16 pm]

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So yeah, I've realized that I need to lose more weight this year (thanks to birth control I think I gained 5-8 pounds), and we were talking about weight management/loss in fitness today - it seems like in order to LOSE weight, I have to eat more meals (but small ones), in order to increase my metabolism. Thats kind of hard at school, considering I only get 2 meals at the d-hall per day and about $10 per week in the cafe. It means buyng lots of groceries and then prep time. Don't like that much. SO I think I am just going to try to eat healthy and keep going to weight class, and see if anything happens. I need to decrease in calories to lose weight....but when you eat less calories your metabolism slows down... Eh, whatever. But I do feel a new love coming on for salads and wheat bread, bacon-less omeletes, OJ, and fat-free milk. Hooray. The only thing I can't figure out is how to make up for the calories from alcohol and drunk Dominoes dialing. But I HAVE figured out Chinese - Chinese calories don't count because chinese people are small anyway. (Its my logic, let me have it!)

Liking this no-English thing. Honestly I didn't have piles of work for that class, but now I do feel like I have some actual free time (gasp). I actually 1/2 watched a movie last night. I don't think I've watched a movie this semester, at least in full. Working my ass off, man. I go through these phases where I am like...this shit doesn't really matter, I'd rather just go out and have fun. But then the next day or a few days later, I think about it and I know that I am proud that I work hard and am on the President's List and that I am 18 credits ahead. Thats something thats important to me, even if other people...don't approve. I hate when I hear little comments that people make. It's my life and I will live it the way I want, so keep your opinions to yourself, thank you very much. But yeah, I can't really see myself going half-way. If I am going to devote time to something at all, it is all the way, or at least as much attention and energy I can give to it. What's the point at making a half-hearted attempt on a paper? I did that the other night and I kind of regret it. I know I could have done much much better but I was sooo tired, didn't have the time for the proper research....yeah yeah, learned my lesson.

Tummy's hungry again, I ate 4 hours ago, whats the deal? Better go to dhall before all the lettuce is gone....;-)

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