small thoughts
i just had the realization that mid-2010s lolita is now as old as 90s lolita/proto-lolita was when i first got into lolita fashion..........
2026-03-26
i fuckin love spring, finally i can actually dress cool instead of coping under 17 layers of sweater and tights...........
balmung/UNIF/90s vintage/courreges/GROUNDS
2026-03-26
i spent the afternoon digging and sorting grubs, mostly my cyclommatus metallifer, there's so many that i literally ran out of my hello kitty label tape tagging their containers lol. then after i finished sorting and putting away all 27 (!!!!) of them, i found even more in my other cyclommatus terrarium..... suffering from success............
2026-03-23
i'm woefully behind on updating a ton of shit on here bc it's spring and i just want to go on walks and not be at home
howeverrrr i started a gardening journal to hopefully help me adjust to the super different climate/seasons here. i didn't do too well with plants last summer/fall, and figure it'll help me to have calendar and notes to keep track of what to do when. i'm rly happy with the idea to use these business card pockets to keep the label stakes. i just left them in the pots before, but i think it looks kinda tacky and stupid.
ps sorry to anyone who is disappointed by my ugly handwriting and lack of cutesy decorative bullet journal lmao. i am 10000% not a decorative journal girlypop (or a particularly girly girl personality at all), despite my outward aesthetic
2026-03-15
eheheghegebh i'm proud of this little modification i made to my new hem scallop skirt
it sagged kinda uggo in the back bc i'm right at the minimum waist measurement, so i made this little buttonhole to knot a loop in the elastic. fixed it for me without having to do any more work than a snip and some hand finishing, and if i decide to sell it someday, it can still go back to the original size or even smaller depending on what the next person needs. yippee
2026-02-27
happy pokemon day/30th pokemon anniversary from thirty three bandai 1999 pokemon friends ledyba plushes
2026-02-20
i spent all evening organizing my hair accessories, including pinning together all the matching hair combs. i haven't really been happy with my hair accessory storage in this big drawer + one smaller drawer, but i'm a lot happier with it for now.
2026-02-17
mail from 2003 today hehehgh
i forgot to take a pic of the camisole hanging up before throwing it in the wash so u get my scrungly try on pic, sorry. i love the glitter logo sm.......
2026-02-14
still on my sigma crochet grindset....... made myself a hair acc for a coord i'm wearing tomorrow. me and my husband didn't do anything special for valentines day, sincer we're planning to go to the yokohama srawberry festival tomorrow instead.
really looking forward to it (๑´>᎑<)
2026-02-12
scored an early 00s missoni cardigan for 3000 yen at bookoff today because my mission to dress like a slutty italian stepmom is blessed by god..........
2026-02-09
i'm working on a little project, first time crocheting in like a year, and it feels really good ٩(ˊᗜˋ*)و ♡ this is the beginning of a lolita headdress i'm working on.
2026-01-31
dang i love repairing stuff.... i got this 2005 velveteen babydoll off wunderwelt for cheap(ish) because it was massively bleach stained, and did my best to fix her
it's not perfect, but i think i at least got it to where it's not noticeable when worn unless u already knew it had been bleached and repaired prior
2026-01-28
yesterday was my birthday.. it was a weird day tbh, but we did celebrate a bit. i'm trying to get back to doing normal life things after living the past week and a half in a blur of worry for my cat...
2026-01-26
duckmouse was diagnosed with lymphoma yesterday... we opted for palliative care, as chemo wouldn't have cured him and i don't wanna put him through a ton of medical appointments and strong side effects in what time he has left. he started palliative meds yesterday, and has been running around and begging for food like his spoiled old self.
this cat has been my best friend for over a third of my life.
however long we have left, i wanna make it the best i possibly can for him.... ߹𖥦߹
2026-01-12
antique bouquet was almost ankle length on me so i shortened it........ as somebody who rarely does more lolita sewing/alterations than mending here and there, i feel so powerful rn....................
there's a ton of fabric left over, i wanna make super dollfie clothes with it (i will likely never get around to this lol)
2026-01-07
baby bug baby baby baby bug, my papua stag beetles have successfully made little guys and i'm v happy about it. also today is my 1 year anniversary for moving to japan
2026-01-04
yippee i burned so many minidiscs today
2025-12-31
survived a japanese grocery store on new years eve, i am truly gods strongest soldier
also i saw some little girl sitting in the child seat of a car punch her dad in the dick while throwing a tantrum............ sorry random dad but that's one of the funniest things i've seen in a long time
anyway happy new year everybody, hope 2026 is good for u all
2025-12-10
i got a new phone recently, not a lot of cute cases available for it, so i've been making my own with drop stickers and UV resin heehehgh
2025-11-21
the state of the doll hobby is insane rn, i need the tiktok/ig clout tourists GONE (´ཀ`」 ∠)_
(for ref i got a 2 doll set of this exact same model, one with outfit, one without, for 7250JPY almost 2 years ago)
2025-11-16
scored an authentic vivienne westwood necklace off mercari for 950 yen because the seller accidentally left a zero off the price and i had a coupon..........
2025-11-16
i don't usually post my face on here but i got some new tinted moisturizer and i like it sooo much better than the bbcream/powder combo i have to use in summer. i've found it's a lot easier to get a good skintone match here vs when i lived in the us. (*˘︶˘*)
2025-11-13
apparently the neocities transphobes have escaped containment again so i guess i gotta say this...... if that's you, i do not want you in my readership.
with peace and love i cannot imagine having a life so empty that you have time to be Mad Online about strangers' genitals. rather not have people like that in my life or around me thanks
2025-11-02
i found FIVE cutsews in my closet that i forgot i had??? i had moved them over to the sell tab on my inventory spreadsheet, deleted them off my wardrobe page here, and just........... forgot to sell them lmao
i decided to keep 2 of them and sell the other 3, thanks past me for the surprise cutsews and money lmao
also i was walking back home from lunch and saw mt fuji today, lived here for nearly a year and had no idea it's visible from the next neighborhood over on clear days rip
2025-10-30
i'm not dead i've just been caught up playing pokemon, dealing with a broken tooth, and then recovering from a root canal lol _:(´ཀ`」∠):_
i haven't been wearing lolita much since the weather turned cold bc i have like almost zero transitional-warmth items!! like i don't have much between open knits and short sleeves and that faux fur coat i bought kinda recently. today i've been sewing buttons into the sleeves of a lot of my cutsews so i can slap detachable blouse sleeves into them.
2025-10-22
found a photo of one of my early attempts at lolita haha, this would be circa 2003-2004. i wish i still had those shoes (੭ ˊ^ˋ)੭
sorry for the lack of updates, btw. i was sick for the week before last, spent last week catching up on chores, and will hopefully knock out some site stuff this week. curreently planning on updating a lot of my wardrobe photos, as well as i still need to write up bunnoichi.
2025-10-19
today's my dad's 80th birthday and ig i'm probably supposed to feel smth about that.. but as with everything related to my blood relatives, i feel vaguely weird about it at best
surprised he didn't drink himself to death by now, so ig i'm glad i probably inherited some longevity genes at least lol
2025-10-11
trans girl × weirdo cis girl friendship is one of the most powerful forces on earth i feel
yes this is about my personal life/friendships but also i have been listening to a lot of slayyyter and ayesha erotica lately
2025-10-10
yippee winter casual clothes got, mostly rly cheap off mercari
i was 100000% not prepared for winter when i came here in january, had to layer up 2-3 longsleeve tops at a time and was still cold..
2025-10-05
forensic artist rendering of a tourist i saw in tokyo today whose outfit gave me -80 HP damage
(this is also a lil mean sorry) (i am mean)
the sneakers are forgivable bc tourism here means walking a lot but the rest........... help..
2025-09-25
listen.................. it's a lil mean but i said what i said
2025-09-10
my husband started his first job here in japan this week. seems easy enough, just putting flyers in pre-approved mailboxes down in yokohama. everything i've read on yahoo chiebukuro is that this type of job is pretty low-stress if you like exercise, and pays decently well for what it is. his VA disability compensation pays our monthly bills just fine here, but this job will give him more of a budget for his hobbies. i'm happy for him, he's been applying a lot and getting stressed out by all the rejections.
i'm happy for myself too; i've been enjoying having him around during the day, but i also enjoy having time to myself at home or on outings. there's something peaceful about having my own home routine or wandering anonymously out in the city, as long as i have someone coming home to me/to come home to.
i helped him get up for work this morning, saw him off, and did some household chores for the first hour of the day. feels nice („ᵕᴗᵕ„) for the last year and a half to two years before moving here, he was working erratic, long, mostly night shifts, and we hardly ever saw each other. it suuucked. this should be a good balance of time together and time apart. also i get more time with our cat daryl, who's more friendly when he isn't home. she lowkey hates everyone but me and other cats lol.
i went out to the pet shop by myself on his first day the other day, and a few old ladies in yokohama and closer to my house wanted to chat with me. one of them asked me where i'm from, and when i said the US, she started telling me about all the american music she loves-- elvis, the carpenters, the rolling stones (who i think are actually british? idk), and michael jackson. i told her that i like the carpenters too, and peter paul and mary, and that i was jealous that my dad got to see bob dylan live way back in the day. when the train arrived, she patted me on the shoulder and said bye now, take care! またね、気をつけて！
i know the "expat" community says they find it annoying, but i really enjoy making small talk with strangers (as long as they're not creepy haha). those pleasant, low-stakes interactions make me feel safe and comfortable in the community here.
2025-09-07
trying to find a specific solid AP headbow on lolibrary...........
2025-09-02
i'm still horribly stressed out, and i got heat sickness when i was in taiwan recently ૮(𖦹﹏𖦹;)ა but i got bored today and wanted to go look at bugs, and ended up bringing two new little buddies home. i also found a cosmetics store in a department store near the same station that sells flower knows cosmetics. i picked up a new palette and highlighter while there. when i got home, the ap headband i had recently ordered was delivered.
after setting up my new bugs' house, i went to rearrange the bug cases and found that there's at least one grub crawling around in my rhino beetle enclosure! i've been really sad about my female beetle passing away, but i'm looking forward to raising her kiddos. i hope i can do a good job to honor her memory.
2025-08-24
been struggling with stress and deep sadness lately tbh. my favorite bug passed away, and i recently had some conflict with my one remaining family member, which always throws me off for a while. but i feel like i'm finally struggling my way out of that rut.
i went to AP yokohama tonight and got some cute accessories to cheer myself up.
when i got back, pinsir, my japanese saw stag beetle, was posing in a really cool way on the bark piece in his and yoshiko's enclosure. i've never actually seen him climbing it like that before. that cheered me up even more than the AP trip °ʚ(*´꒳`*)ɞ°
2025-08-21
i'm so stressed out lately!! but i bought a bug from hokkaido on mercari, as one does....
2025-08-18
as impressed as i was with the graphics and worldbuilding at first, monster hunter wilds has been a bit of a disappointment. there's zero challenge, not enough monsters, and not enough armor and weapons to grind for. i suspect they're relying too heavily on title updates and events.. it's almost like they released 30% of a game and they're breadcrumbing the rest.
i'm 58 hours in, about to face the final flagship monster, and have only died twice in the entire game. i don't feel like i've played a monster hunter game, i feel like i've watched a very beautifully animated miniseries about some people who happen to live in the monster hunter setting.
2025-08-12
i'm going back to university soon, after dropping out like 20 years ago (and a single semester attempt in 2017)
feels very very weird tbh, but at least this time, i'm finally in the position to pursue smth i'm actually interested in
going for entomology btw..... cannot wait to go to bug school............. go my scarabs 𓆣𓆣𓆣𓆣𓆣𓆣
2025-08-11
someone in a comm server asked me abt replicas in response to my secondhand shopping guide.. my honest opinion is that if you claim to love lolita fashion, it's crass and short-sighted to then turn around and support companies that do nothing but profit from ripping off the designers who actually contribute to the fashion. there's rly no valid excuse anymore, between secondhand shopping and the fact that there's now accessible indie designers worldwide, catering to every possible size and budget.
but i'm not rly gonna preach or argue abt it at this point, like anyone who's still supporting art theft from small designers for personal reasons is huffing so much copium that logic isn't gonna get through lol ┐(´ー｀)┌