Wait Here by Lucy Nelson
I added Wait Here by Australian author Lucy Nelson to my list of books to look out for after seeing Kim’s and Kate’s reviews (see below for links), both of which I’ll read thoroughly now I’ve read this collection of short stories about childless women for myself.
I found something to think about in each of the stories, but have concentrated my review on the stories I particularly resonated with.
Chances Are, We Were High as Kites was about two elderly twins in poor health making decisions about the end of their lives. Childless, they had no guilt about needing to continue living for their children, nor did they have to face the burden or obligation of relying on children for their ongoing and increasing care. They had friends and people they loved dearly in their lives, and a freedom that women who do have children can never have. The question of whether either woman had ever wanted to be a mother was never asked since motherhood or the lack of didn’t define them – it simply didn’t matter. The blurb on the book’s cover was particularly apt for this story; ‘These women will never be mothers. It’s nothing. It’s everything.’ For the two women at this stage of their lives, motherhood was nothing.
The narrator of Ariel. Marvin. I Don’t Want a Boyfriend was a woman who named her possessions, including her car. I get it. I’ve always named my cars, too. My first was Beau, my second was Lachlan, then came Hermoine, Grace and Henry Ford. The current car is known as The FG. The narrator and her workmate’s friendship was cemented after he told her that his car was named Ariel. They had a lot in common, but their friendship almost disintegrated when she discovered that he was a single father – not because he was a single father, but because he hadn’t told her. The friendship survived after an honest conversation where the narrator told him she didn’t want to be anything more than friends. He hadn’t wanted more either, but voicing her feelings made the narrator realise that she didn’t ever want any relationship to ever be more than a friendship.
Father Figure was the story of a woman sharing a house with her sister and young neice, Fia. The narrator was more than an aunt, but less than a mother, a story in which I found much to interest me having brought up a child who was not my biologically my own – in my situation I’ve been more than an aunt, but less than a mother. In Father Figure, Fia’s mother was a single mother and the narrator had moved in to help out two years ago, but as time passed the narrator, although she occasionally resented losing her freedom to take on the responsibility of Fia, also recognised with some sadness that if her sister ever began another relationship then her own role as the other parental figure would eventually be assumed by the new partner. The narrator also worried that Fia didn’t have any men of importance in her life.
The final story, I Am Five, I Am Twelve, I Am Twenty, began with a five-year old narrator feeling disappointed that the doll she had just been given was not a baby doll. When she turned six she pretended her dog was a baby and at eight, she realised sadly that she was now considered to be too old for dolls. At twelve she learned about reproduction; specifically, that she had eggs that might one day become babies. At sixteen, the narrator was aware that her peers were having sex, at seventeen, she and her boyfriend made an unsuccessful attempt themselves. At 23, she had an abortion after falling pregnant with the right fellow at the wrong time. When the narrator’s sister was unable to fall pregnant, the narrator offered her eggs but after much consideration her sister decided that she didn’t want children. At 28, the narrator met a man she wanted to have children with, but he didn’t want children and at 31, she loved another man so much that she was still subduing her desire to have children because he didn’t want them, either. At 34, she and a gay couple had discussions about her being a surrogate mother for them, which never went further than trying to work out how their model family might look. At 37, she asked a friend if he would father a baby for her but he declined, and so it continued. Sometimes falling pregnant at a young age by mistake is the best way.
I’m always interested in stories about women that focus on childlessness/and or motherhood, so this collection leaned into that interest perfectly. Each story had different scenarios and circumstances, and although several of the narrator’s voices were overly similar, most were distinct and their emotions only applied to them and their particular journey. I’d recommend other readers space out the stories to get the most from them.
I can’t finish without saying how much I love the cover art, Wild and Defenceless by Iranian-Australian artist, Anahita Amouzegar, who is based in Melbourne. I thought the cover suited the collection of stories in Wait Here perfectly.
The writing was wonderful, subtle, sensitive, and most impressively, judgement-free. I’ll definitely read Lucy Nelson’s future fiction.







































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