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  • Avec ma solitude

    Georges Moustaki, “Ma solitude” (1970)

    Non, je ne suis jamais seul
    avec ma solitude…

    I. Belgium

    The first and only presentation I’ve ever given in a foreign language was on solitude. Specifically, it was for an assignment in my C1 Dutch class in the fall of 2023, when we were tasked with designing a solution to a Belgian—or at the very least, Flemish—problem. (This assignment, which took on the unfortunate title of “Make Belgium Great Again,” had nothing to do with the far more entertaining phenomenon of Belgian solutions.) After a few days of wracking my brains and spitballing with my Belgian colleagues in the office, I designed a pilot program called Belgeleiden: a pun on the Dutch verb begeleiden, “to supervise,” and the demonym Belg for “Belgian.”

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    May 7, 2024
    America, Belgium, contact, friendship, Ghent, gratitude, homecoming, isolation, loneliness, New Jersey, solitude

  • Song for the Birds of New Jersey

    What I missed most
    were the birds:

    the toneless chatter of
    house sparrows
    flocking in unison;

    the blue jay crying
    from atop its perch
    on behalf of
    the neighborhood watch;

    the flash and tsweet
    of a cardinal's carrot-red beak
    and mahogany wing
    in the pine branches;

    the balletic flight
    of goldfinches
    atop dusk-lit fields
    of needling thistles;

    the house wren's song
    streaming
    stut ter ing
    like my mo ther's sew ing ma chine;

    red-winged
    blackbirds
    roaming through
    thick marsh reeds
    for shelter.

    Like a living anthology I'd left
    behind as I crossed the Atlantic, the
    bird songs of New Jersey became
    my library abroad:

    homespun verses
    ringing in moments where
    European silence reigned—

    clarion call
    for homecoming
    echoing in the cold wind
    as the crash of
    North Sea waves
    at Oostende
    dragged me
    miles
    back toward
    the opposite shore—

    choruses trilled
    in
    flight
    recorded
    in
    woods
    and
    fields
    and
    wetlands
    away from
    home—

    wings whistling
    like flicks of
    nature's paintbrush
    dancing
    across
    her miraculous canvas—

    sweet hymns of consolation
    sung
    for one who sought the strains of
    home.
    May 6, 2024
    Atlantic, birds, birdsong, blue jay, cardinal, goldfinch, house wren, nature, New Jersey, Poetry, red-winged blackbird, robin, solitude

  • Personal Statement (I)

    William Hogarth, The Distrest Poet (c. 1736).

    I am writing to apply for a Postdoctoral Research Fellowship in the Department of Literary Studies at Ghent University. My primary research area is eighteenth-century British literature and culture, with additional specializations in poetry, poetics, and the history of literary criticism. … In what follows, I will provide an overview of my dissertation, and an outline of my research plans for the 2020-23 fellowship period.

    Long before I drafted these sentences for the application that would bring me to Belgium, I harbored feelings of self-doubt over becoming a ‘researcher’ at all. I was taught English literature (what everyone in the US abbreviates to “English” without a second thought) for most of my life, and I was taught to love it. The more classes I took as an undergraduate at Rutgers, the more I discovered I was ‘good at it’: good enough, that is, to abandon my greater self-doubt at ever becoming a professional chemist and commit to concocting mechanisms and explanatory schemes for texts instead. By the time I passed my Ph.D. qualifying exams in English at Penn, I knew I could master the codes that came with the degree. Articles. Conference presentations. Questions at conference presentations. Small talk at receptions. Large talk over dinner conversations.

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    May 5, 2024
    academia, chemistry, English literature, interpretation, literature, lyric, personal statement, Ph.D., Poetry, postdoc, professionalism, research

  • Sonnet

    Main. Van Monckhoven. Cherryhill. Osage.
    Street names I read on envelopes received
    (Plain and manila) record where, with age,
    Fleet footsteps trod on concrete pavement cleaved,

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    May 4, 2024
    Ghent, home, memory, New Jersey, Philadelphia, places, Poetry

  • Art Nouveau

    At the Maison Hannon, for G. C.

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    May 3, 2024
    architecture, art, Belgium, Brussels, Dante, Inferno, Italian, language, Poetry

  • Oranges

    I never expected to love oranges the way I did in Belgium. Not because they were any different from the oranges I’d eaten in America. Not because they were ever in short supply, despite not being native to the Low Countries. And certainly not because they were the only fruit I ate away from home. (Shoutout to the many other fruits I cooked and baked with—pears, apples, strawberries, mangoes, and especially pineapples—plus the others I craved, like peaches.) Rather, by just a few too many overlapping circumstances to be called “coincidence,” oranges ended up populating my days, nights, and even my imagination.

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    May 2, 2024
    Belgium, colleagues, communion, food, friends, friendship, loss, memory, oranges

  • Field Notes: Highland Park

    Donaldson Park, in Highland Park, NJ.

    Light wind and seventy-five degree weather. Whipped-cream clouds and powder-blue skies. Sea of willows, maples, oaks, and birches bedecked in verdant leaves. Dry grass and wet mud underfoot. The placidity of the Raritan and the dull roar of traffic on Route 1. Tall marshy reeds and short wooden guardrails. Thwacking tennis balls and teenaged jump shots. Chorus of red-winged blackbirds and robins and house sparrows and starlings and COME ONNNN MICHELLLEEE from the softball field. Shafts of late afternoon sunlight on graying cracked asphalt.

    Central Jersey in mid-spring. Same as it ever was.

    May 1, 2024
    birds, birdsong, Field Notes, Highland Park, nature, New Jersey, park, spring

  • CV

    Education
    hours of navigating new york
    with dad as our index fingers
    traced commutes on subway maps

    saturday morning chinese lessons
    interrupting episodes of pokémon
    and yu-gi-oh! and jackie chan adventures

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    May 1, 2024
    America, Belgium, childhood, colleagues, food, friends, friendship, Ghent, Hong Kong, memory, New York, nostalgia, school

  • Atlantic Sound

    The sea is restless. Waves of caramel-colored surf
    Crash against the wind-swept shore where white gulls
    Peck at broken shells. But the scraps are not enough

    To satiate their hunger, and so they soar
    On rising currents astride the cold spring gusts.
    Harbingers of a storm? Or perhaps nothing more

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    May 1, 2024
    Atlantic, contact, New Jersey, Poetry, sea, seagulls, surf, wind

  • Pork Bone Soup

    I ate well in Belgium. From mosselen met friet to stoofvlees, from dame blanches to pain au chocolat, I savored (and in some cases, cooked for myself) as many beloved dishes as I could, finding ways to map the country’s astonishing variety of cuisines onto my own tongue. Just as importantly, I learned to love eating not simply for eating’s sake, but also for the ample opportunities it gave me to share laughter, wisdom, and the occasional hare-brained schemes over long, languid meals with the best of company.

    Still, if there was any one dish I missed—one that I never managed to bring across the Atlantic—it was pork bone soup.

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    April 30, 2024
    cuisine, culture, food, home, memory, nostalgia

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