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this 'n that

so, tell me is it right?
to feel like we're only getting smaller
and if we were
to find the feeling
but i'm only treading water
we've made a few mistakes,
it's not worth it to say
'cause we are the only ones, we will get up
and we are aware,
'cause we've been through it,
and we are the only ones,
we will carry each other on our own.

March 2013

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11 March 2013 @ 02:33 am

by your voice in the dark

i always have the hardest time going to bed at a decent time on Sundays. i'm not sure why, though it probably has something to do with me sleeping in too late this morning.

what can i say, i love to sleep but i hate to GO to sleep. i'm a weird one.

i just reread a couple of my old fics (like the two that i actually like) and it made me want to write something.

i keep having thinky thoughts about Kurt's head space this season on Glee, regarding him and Blaine, but i never really manage to put anything down before another episode airs and RIB joss me. mainly its about their break up and how i felt that though Blaine's actions were unacceptable, the way the events unfolded left the blame heavy on Blaine's side when Kurt's actions were by no means conducive to a healthy relationship. which is funny because i am a Kurt stan slightly more than a Blaine stan.

sigh. i keep watching Glee and keep hoping to feel as excited about it as i did during season 2 and its just not happening. i could care less about 85% of the plot lines and i'm not even as excited about the songs as i once was.

thankfully Grimm has started back up again (FINALLY) and i am totes excited there!!! Monroe was so amazing in this last episode, i cant even express how much i loved him. totes ready for friday ALREADY!

lyrical stylings: The Ocean - Mae

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07 March 2013 @ 10:42 pm

has it really been that long?

what the fuck. its been more than a year since i posted???? how is that true?

craziness!!!!

in other news i fell asleep tonight before i could watch Glee, which is utterly ridiculous since i was super looking forward to this episode.

i blame fox since the episode was on at 9:30 and not 9pm! i was totally awake at 9pm.

now i will have to go downstairs and hope my dvr caught it! *crosses fingers*

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17 February 2012 @ 11:05 pm

SIGH.

So they just confirmed that there won't be a Glee Live tour this year. And I have LOTS OF FEELINGS.

I am torn. On one hand I am SO sad because I was absolutely going to go and I wanted to see Chris and Darren! They were so GOOD last year, and I REALLY wanted to go again.

But on the other hand I remember how exhausted they all seemed after 40 shows and like 3 weeks of rest total between the end of season 2, the tour and the beginning of season 3. So I feel like the cast deserves this time to breathe etc. And hey, maybe Darren will head back to Broadway, with this kind of break.

Like I said, FEELINGS.

In other news Chris just tweeted with a link to his movie's new teaser. Struck By Lightning looks SO good. I am so PROUD. He wrote and starred in the movie.

You know what else looked good? CHRIS. HOT DAMN boy, you look so much better when you aren't playing Kurt, which is kind of mind boggling, because it's not like Kurt is unattractive!

But anyway I guess I'm just glad I managed to see Glee Live last year, despite all the crazy that it took.

(Yes we are going to totes ignore the fact that I haven't posted again for 6 months. Oops?)

emotional barometer:

aggravated

aggravated

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17 August 2011 @ 02:11 pm

:(

I just got emailed this from my HSA provider.

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23 June 2011 @ 01:28 am

when i climb the stair and turn the key....

So, in a flight of fancy, last week one of my best friends and I decided to drive the 6-7 hours down to good ole NYC (because yes NYS IS that big and we do live forever away from the City) and see the second to last Glee Live show in the States.

We bought our tickets 4 days beforehand and I begged for someone to cover me at work on Saturday and then OFF WE WENT.

And it was AMAZING. I love Glee to pretty much an embarrassing degree and I have become such a fangirl over this show it is not even funny. And even though a lot of the time (MOST OF) it pisses me off, I still usually end up loving the music.

Also, I have become ridiculously in love with Chris Colfer so you know, there's that too. (HE WAS FABULOUS)

ANYWAY. Even though it is you know, frowned upon, I did take some videos and here is one of my favorite ones. We had rather lovely seats if I do say so myself (we are both too short to really WANT floor seats unless its front row), and had a lovely view of both stages.

This vid is not public so please don't share it with too many people, Fox has been pretty strict about it and they won't hesitate to have it yanked off and maybe get my youtube account deleted.

If you have been following the show at all, then when I say that this is the Kurt/Blaine + Brittany skit you will know what I mean right away. And if not, well then you should watch it and then come back and ask if you still have questions!!! ;D

Oh I suppose I should warn you, I screamed a couple of times and it is kind of loud, so just be aware and keep your headphones off. :D My camera has got a pretty good microphone so, while Kurt and Blaine sound perfect, I am far too loud in comparison.

I have a bunch more videos but I'm not sure if I'm gonna upload them to youtube, so if anyone is interested let me know!

emotional barometer: happy

happy

happy

lyrical stylings: Glee Cast - One Less Bell to Answer/ A House is not a Home

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21 May 2011 @ 01:58 am

and i tread a troubled track.

Glee as always, the longer I listen to most of your covers the more I like them, even if I wasn't all that impressed to start with. (SEE: The entire Rumours track list)

WTF am I gonna do over the summer with no new glee music???? (Besides cry about not getting to see the Glee Live Tour???)

In other news, thank you SPN for being FUCKING AMAZING HOMG. Still trying to process to be honest.

SHOW ITS BEEN 6 YEARS AND I STILL LOVE YOU.

Totes my longest relationship to date.

Oh gods that's pathetic in so many ways, I can't even SAY.

And I still have to go to work tomorrow. Bleh, I hate working every Saturday SO FUCKING MUCH OMG.

lyrical stylings: Glee Cast - Back to Black

emotional barometer:

thoughtful

thoughtful

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15 May 2011 @ 02:04 am

but i don't really like my flow.

Sometimes I forget how much music will get to me. A lot of the time I just enjoy it at its most basic level, like how I think the general population enjoys it. And then there's times where a certain song will sneak up and sucker punch me and I'll be in tears and morose for the rest of the day.

Yeah IDK where that came from, I'm just listening to my most played list on iTunes and so many of them depress me and lift me up at the same time.

Good music makes you feel it. Hell, even bad music makes you feel it if the lyrics hit you just right.

I don't know what I'd do without music. I remember when I was in high school, I was the only one of my friends who chose being blind rather than deaf, during a game of would you rather. I think I could get by not seeing. But not being able to listen to music...I'm not sure I could? Obvs both are horrible and its ridiculously morbid to consider, but hey we were teenagers, what do you expect.

But anyway, random thoughts are random. I think this has something to do with why I enjoy Glee so much. Even when it pisses me off. (Okay, music, and Kurt; those are why I love Glee)

emotional barometer:

discontent

discontent

lyrical stylings: OneRepublic - Secrets

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04 March 2011 @ 07:12 am

i fell through the cracks at the end of our street

Oh hai March!!!! Thank you for finally getting here.

I tend to go into lock-down/hermit mode from Mid December up until March every year without fail. I think its a combination of the time of the year, depression and the fact that most shows are on hiatus. So I just kind of fade away from fandom and people, and then all of a sudden I notice it 3 months later and I'm like, WTF why did I do that???

But I've since been feeling like having some human interaction again I hope that it is done for the year

I'm finally caught up on all my shows but Chuck. IDK why, perhaps because it airs on Mondays, but I seem to watch the first 2-3 eps of the season and then I miss it the WHOLE rest of the year. No joke I haven't seen more than two this season. Fun side is that it'll be great to mainline. Bad side, it will involve lots of downloads.

In other news, White Collar ATE MY BRAIN. Matt Bomer is the prettiest man EVER. And I love so much the dynamic he and Tim Dekay have as Neal and Peter. HEARTS. I'm kind of ridiculously upset that we only have one more episode this season. I DON'T WANNA WAIT TIL JULY!

And finally, if you are thinking that you're going to Wincon this year (and YOU SHOULD BE!), please try and register as early as possible!!!! :D

lyrical stylings: Susan Enan - Bring on the Wonder

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03 January 2011 @ 04:08 am

and cue random:

I really fucking miss John Sheppard, Rodney McKay and Ronon Dex.

Just throwing that out there.

sigh.

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10 December 2010 @ 09:26 pm

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24 November 2010 @ 01:09 am

and i've always lived like this, keeping a comfortable distance.

So I was wandering around the Internets looking at pre Black Friday Deals
(YAY, Guys I found Glee S1 for 19.99 and HP 1-6 on Blu-Ray for 39.99)

And I'm not sure how I ended up here, but this is ADORABLE:

Huh, I don't think I've ever seen an interview of Jake Gyllenhaal's before. I've only ever seen him performing.
BUT. He is ADORABLE and funny and there needs to be MORE of him in my life!!!

"It's acting Dave. You've gotta commit to every moment."

"...Both people have to take their clothes off Dave..."

He's mocking him and IT IS SPECTACULAR.

I love how he doesn't even seem to care about his foot in mouth moment. I bet he thinks it was awesome. :D

emotional barometer: geeky

geeky

geeky

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21 November 2010 @ 10:52 pm

pimp!!

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21 November 2010 @ 01:02 am

you took my breath but i survived.

It's been about 2 years and three days since I had my car accident. I'd been kind of paying attention to the date (AHAHAH not even realizing that it was the night we were driving to the HP premiere), and then I totes forgot and missed it.

Ah well, it's not like I was gonna do much other than say, heh, glad that's even further behind me. Still have the car that I had to get after the accident, still like it, so I'm doing okay.

Now I'm just waiting for my insurance company to forget it. :/

I updated to the latest iTunes and I hate it, fyi.

Yesterday I had the day off because I went to an HP7 midnight premiere and I FORGOT it was Friday. Thus I went to bed early and FORGOT SPN. It felt blasphemous. :(

In other news I was thinking about an lj name change. I have a small urge to do this, but it's pretty vague right now. Last time I changed was 2006.

Bonus if you've been around long enough to remember that name! (No cookie for looking it up)

Anyone got any good Sweet Potato recipes? We don't normally make it for our Thanksgiving (too far north) but I'm in the mood for it.

I'm looking @ you

wendy.

emotional barometer:

discontent

discontent

lyrical stylings: Glee Cast - No Air

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19 November 2010 @ 03:24 am

"...I feel...holey...."

emotional barometer: cynical

cynical

cynical

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12 November 2010 @ 09:13 pm

spn thoughts on the fly!

lyrical stylings: SPN Ep: All Dogs Go to Heaven

emotional barometer: geeky

geeky

geeky

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12 November 2010 @ 03:46 am

take that Nina Garcia!

What's this? Heidi saying screw you??? I thought that's what that was!!

Although I feel like there is agreement with Michael's comment of its too much, since the sleeves were nixed. I bet if Mondo had done this for the finale he would have kicked the pants off of Gretchen....

Lol not that he DIDN'T anyway, but you know what I mean!

lyrical stylings: Glee Cast - Teenage Dream

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05 November 2010 @ 11:11 pm

and i just keep thinking, that i never mean it to be like this.

Someone come and chat with me about those fucking hot Winchester bros.

emotional barometer: sad

sad

SADFACED.

lyrical stylings: Taking Back Sunday - Head Club

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03 November 2010 @ 04:09 pm

well i've been to war with my mind.

I had the weirdest dream about being driven to visit someone, and during the course of the drive this guy I know who's a tattoo artist was giving me a tattoo in the middle of my back. In a moving vehicle.

And then when I was done and I got there, every so often I would feel this vibrating sensation COMING from the tattoo. And I was like, OMG GUYS, what is that? And my friends are like, oh its just the high metal content in the ink picking up radio signals and the like! And I'm like, weird, but OKAY!

And then I woke up to find that I was sleeping on top of my phone, right in that exact position of my dream tattoo.

Discomfort of sleeping on phone = Sensation of getting tattoo.
Phone vibrating with a text message = Sensation of RADIO waves being collected by tattoo on my back.

Thanks brain, for making up THAT weird explanation!

Why my brain went with getting a tattoo, IDK. Is that a sign that I subconsciously want one?

emotional barometer: confused

confused

bzuh??

lyrical stylings: The Classic Crime - Gravedigging

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29 October 2010 @ 09:16 pm

and stream of spn thoughts, go:

beware of spoilers for ep and next weeks teaser:

lyrical stylings: SPN Ep: You Can't Handle the Truth

emotional barometer: worried

worried

worried

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28 October 2010 @ 11:00 pm

oh i s--actually no i dont see what you did there.

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28 October 2010 @ 08:26 pm

and i can't pretend like it makes much sense, when it doesn't.

I saw the Entertainment Weekly cover with Chris Evans as Captain America. And he looks awesome.

But my very very first thought was that should have been Jensen :[

(Seriously if you can't look at this and see Jensen there instead, prettier, then omg get off my flist!;D)

In other news my ipod is missing and I am NOT happy about it. Just because I was thinking about an itouch doesn't mean I wanted to LOSE my pretty little Booth...

LE SIGH.

On the bright side the PR Season Finale is tonight!!

emotional barometer: moody

moody

moody

lyrical stylings: The Classic Crime - Salt in the Snow

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26 October 2010 @ 11:32 pm

3-2-1: we go live.

Do you ever get lost in a link cycle while surfing? You know, you're reading an article and its got a link somewhere else that you're interested in, but you're not done with this article/page so you open a new tab, and then there are more on that page, and even more once you get to that second tab and suddenly it's 3 hours later and you've just watched some footage of a sea lion eating an octopus and you didn't accomplish one damn thing that you meant to, and now you have to get off the computer! (Holy shit is that really only 2 sentences?? My post needs its own beta apparently...)

I do this every so often and I find it tends to happen at two sites most consistently (and then one of those more than the other).

Without a doubt the most common one for me is Wiki. No joke, one day I spent at least 6 hours in a treacherous spiral of link clicking! And the craziest (saddest) thing is that what I end up reading is never ever what I started out at Wiki for! This particular day I can't remember how I got there, but at one point I had no less than 10 tabs open regarding different ships that sped across the ocean in the late 1800s and early 1900s (you bet the Titanic was one of those). Interesting, but at the end of it I was like, BZUH? How did I even GET HERE?

I bring it up only because I just spent an hour and a half or so at National Geographic's website, doing the same damn thing (and I LOVED it, I read about mummies and pyramids and octopi and volcanoes and new species and space etc...).
That's the other site that sucks me in NO MATTER what. If I follow a link there, you can bet within 2 minutes I'll have at least 5 other tabs that sprung from it like spider plant babies.

The moral of this story is to never follow a link from

drvsilla because that's how the whole link death spiral began tonight.

;D

*EYES*

eliza_jane I C U! *g* what happened there?

It has been a week since I returned from

wincon (lol I had to remember that the hashtag is not needed for LJ) and I am in STILL in withdrawal and its even WORSE than before. *MISSES EVERYONE*

emotional barometer: chipper

chipper

chipper

lyrical stylings: Fall Out Boy - Tiffany Blews

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24 October 2010 @ 12:16 am

he broke his own heart and i watched, as he tried to reassemble it.

*points to icon*

I miss that Sam. I know a lot has happened. I know he's not gonna be that Sam again (I feel like I'm channeling Dean here...), but I MISS HIM.

*pouts*

In other news, I'm gonna just continue to post like it hasn't been months and months and months since I've been around.

Wincon has a way of kickstarting you!

Yes, I'm looking @ you

drvsilla.

I wanted to actually talk about RL and shit, but I have a headache from the 2/3 of a bottle of wine I had tonight, so I think I'll just wander off to bed and try again tomorrow!

emotional barometer: morose

morose

morose

lyrical stylings: Glee Cast - The Only Exception

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22 October 2010 @ 08:22 pm

show i dont even know what to DO with you.

Spoilers obvs...

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05 February 2010 @ 04:08 am

how about a round of applause.

oh SHOW.

lyrical stylings: Glee Cast - Take a Bow

emotional barometer: jubilant

jubilant

gleeeeful

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03 February 2010 @ 03:03 am

every word is a symphony.

Yay for random posting! I'm gonna skip right over the last 3 months or so since my last post (and even longer since one with had real content) and jump in headfirst like this is a recent convo I'm just picking up the thread of again. ;)

I just felt the need to share the last few Cd's I imported into iTunes because I thought it kind of commented on my LIFE.

Nsync- Self Titled
Backstreet Boys - Unbreakable
Backstreet Boys - Self Titled
98 Degrees - 98 Degrees and Rising

I felt that these were albums that I was missing in my iTunes library, clearly.

Yeah. I dont even KNOW okay? I just suddenly had the urge to listen to Sailing off of Nsync's first album and it just SNOWBALLED. I was all, hey how come I don't have BSB's first album in here either? Hey how come I never imported their newest cd? HEY, how come I have 98 Degrees' Revelation in here but not their first album??? These were important questions!

And now I'm kind of listening to all the old stuff.

It's interesting how my music taste has evolved to include music that's pretty different than this bubbly pop, but at the same time, I haven't moved so far that I don't still love this.

The day I don't sing along to a BSB or Nsync old school song is a SAD DAY INDEED.

The best part is that I'm totes not even embarrassed by it anymore cuz it's like, part of my CHILDHOOD. I get to just handwave it!

*beamshine*

lyrical stylings: Nsync - I Need Love

emotional barometer:

nostalgic

nostalgic

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04 October 2009 @ 05:09 pm

3 days w00t!

okay, so who else is heading out this week to Wincon?

ROLL CALL!

emotional barometer: excited

excited

excited

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26 August 2009 @ 04:35 pm

you're a thief and a witch but i love you to death.

So I read this in my email today and had a nice little giggle fest over it:

SUPERNATURAL VANCOUVER:
SCHEDULE OF EVENTS NOW SET! COME ON DOWN FOR THE FUN!

But that's not the funny part...

This was:

8:15 am to 9:45 am (time subject to change) Sunday Morning Breakfast and Charity Silent Auction with special guests Jensen Ackles, Jared Padalecki and Jim Beaver.

HEE. They have to WARN for the boys being late. Cuz they don't know how to use alarm clocks or simple shit like that (you know that warning ain't for Jim).

*hearts*

New season!!! So close!!! ♥♥

lyrical stylings: Angels & Airwaves - Do It For Me Now

emotional barometer: bouncy

bouncy

bouncy

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29 June 2009 @ 03:47 am

let it be enough to reach the truth that lies.

OW.

so my mom got this "game" for the wii. called wii active. and yesterday i did one of the thirty minute programs or whatever.

and today my legs are DEAD. i mean seriously, there was at least 3 sets of lunges and 3 of squats plus a WHOLE other slew of things and OH MY GOD. i can barely walk. and it wasn't even that i couldn't handle it at the time or that i thought it was too much. i know i stretched and warmed up/cooled down properly and everything.

but oh how my legs protesting. seriously, i can MOVE but it fucking hurts.

i am actually cringing at the thought of work tomorrow. i have to stand up and sit down ALL DAY.

*CRIES*

in other news i saw transformers 2 on wednesday in imax and loved it. :D and today i saw the proposal, which was hysterical, much more so than i expected.

i am excited for the upcoming public enemies. and hp&hbp. and ice age 3. :D

i like summer movies.

emotional barometer: sore

sore

sore

lyrical stylings: Linkin Park - New Divide

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24 June 2009 @ 03:05 am

cuz this is see you later; i'm not into goodbyes.

im pretty sure i hear bats squeaking and flapping their wings outside my window. o.o

its kind of disconcerting, i have to say. and im not all that afraid of bats.

emotional barometer: tired

tired

tired

lyrical stylings: Every Avenue - Think of You Later (Empty Room)

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18 June 2009 @ 03:57 am

the way you smile shines the heavens above me.

im almost positive that im going to at some point lose a lung after one of these coughs. *demonstrates*

ick. my room is so filled with kleenex, its not even funny. they multiply faster than tribbles.

in other news, the spn/rps big bangs are being posted and my brain is filled with SQUEE. keep the j2 coming! (i am still kind of shying from wincest if only because i cant handle any more HURT from those boys)

i should try to sleep. perhaps my cough won't wait me up this time.

(hahaha you don't believe that either, do you?)

emotional barometer: sick

sick

sick

lyrical stylings: The Used - With Me Tonight

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26 May 2009 @ 01:03 am

i'll be here, fighting forever.

from

meredevachon
Name your 10 absolutely favorite couples (het/slash/canon/fanon) and ask people to see what trends they notice about your couples. Try to pick different fandoms:

Sam/Dean (SPN)
Jensen/Jared (CWRPS)
John/Rodney (SGA)
Kirk/McCoy (ST:XI)
Remus/Sirius (HP)
Hodgins/Angela (Bones)
Ron/Hermione (HP)
Zoe/Wash (FF)
Nick/Greg (CSI)
Spike/Xander (BtvS)

i actually had a hard time with this, in respects to picking different fandoms (had to put both hp couples in there). i think part of the problem is that i have a few fandoms where i have no pairings. like house. i dont ship anyone on house. and heroes. same deal, not that ive watched it much lately.

it feels like i left a big one out. *ponders* oh well.

and clearly i am not a movie person. its all teevee right now. star trek is clearly the anomaly that just happened to eat my brain.

lyrical stylings: Breaking Benjamin - Unknown Soldier

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22 May 2009 @ 09:09 pm

i may throw up on you.

signs that my life is now beholden to star trek and its fandom for the known future (or the summer at the very least):

- staying up all night reading fic/rewatching movie/making icons/searching for pictures. when i say all night i do indeed mean that i see the sun rise and then have to go to work. yeah i dont even KNOW.

- drawing the little federation symbol (and spock's face) all over post-it notes at work.

- pondering whether or not i should write the Sulu fic thats been buzzing in my brain. (EVEN THOUGH IM ALL ABOUT MCCOY!) no seriously. SULU. IDEK!

- trying to find ways to bring up star trek at work without looking like one of THOSE PEOPLE (hasn't really worked sadly). this goes hand in hand with convincing people to GO SEE THE MOVIE. (this is both for people who like TOS and are unsure of the movie, and people who never watched any Star Trek and won't go cuz its 'not their thing.')

- dreaming about ST. i cant remember it, but i have this VIBE that i did indeed have a ST dream. it actually irks me that i cant remember it.

- trying to drag my friends into the fandom. erin for one, is having a hard time since she was majorly into TOS, et al. this does not prevent me from squeeing at her often and trying to ply her with amusing fic.

- randomly at work, my brain will just throw at me, "IDK, my BFF Jim?" which is a humorous icon floating around. but its STUCK in my brain. on repeat!

so yeah. theres probably more but i dont really need to embarrass myself any further.

...okay one more.

I HAVE MCCOY INSIDE MY HEAD ALL THE TIME. no seriously, i keep hearing him! its not even NEW stuff! its just his movie lines, over and over! if he were telling me about all the times he's wanted to knock some sense into Kirk or like PORN, that would be something else. but NO i just keep hearing him tell Kirk that hes a DOCTOR, he's BUSY.

*FACEPALM* DAMN YOU KARL URBAN.

i need someone to squee at in real time and none of the friends i regularly chat with are into it. (seriously, i would love to chat with anyone on googlechat at this point!!!!!)

i know, my life, it is so hard.

*returns to icons and fic trolling*

emotional barometer: crazy

crazy

crazy

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18 May 2009 @ 05:07 am

GIP

i blame my lack of sleep this weekend entirely on star trek and star trek fanfics.

and the prettiness that is kirk mccoy and spock. seriously, how did they not make the universe explode with that much pretty in one place?

emotional barometer:

indescribable

indescribable

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17 May 2009 @ 05:57 am

MY GOD MAN!

so. apparently star trek is interested in taking over my life from spn and sga. its putting forth a good campaign.

kirk/mccoy stories are EXTREMELY persuasive for example.

as is the prettiness of the movie. and all the actors in it.

okay.... so mccoy himself is almost enough. he's just so AWESOME.

so yeah. anyone else got new!star trek fic? *looks at

ethrosdemon * i think i see some over there! *wanders that way*

in other news spn killed me, resurrected me and then killed me a few more times for good measure.

as of yet i have no real thoughts other than, THANK FUCKING GOD YOU'RE NOT SUICIDAL KRIPKE! and also, FOUR MONTHS?? *dies*

lyrical stylings: the birds tweeting out my window.

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08 May 2009 @ 04:03 am

the broken levee.

I have a lot of speculation under the cut, so don't look if you think I'm good at guessing the ending? LOL. No actual spoilers I suppose.

emotional barometer: crushed

crushed

crushed

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01 May 2009 @ 05:16 am

i guess i was wrong now one more time.

OMG show, way to rip my heart out in in one fell swoop.

so yeah. how long do i have to wait? and why is kripke determined to shred my heart and make a milkshake out of it?????

emotional barometer: frustrated

frustrated

OH BOYS.

lyrical stylings: lifehouse - sick cycle carousel

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23 April 2009 @ 10:54 pm

between how it is and how it should be.

once upon a time there were two brothers who would do anything for each other.

this is not that show ~~anymore~~.

lyrical stylings: Switchfoot - Dare You To Move

emotional barometer: sad

sad

SADFACED.

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23 April 2009 @ 09:42 pm

kripke you are an evil genius.

*bows*

lyrical stylings: the end of Jump the Shark.

emotional barometer:

impressed

impressed

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16 April 2009 @ 03:54 am

and it burns a hole, through everyone that feels it.

Victory arms! \o/ It's taken me a while, but I finally have gotten ALL of my spn icons re-uploaded! I haven't reposted them, but they are at least reloaded.

Now my icons are living at Photobucket! There's something like 40 icons per page and a total of 54 pages and counting. Though I don't think the last page has the full 40...

I didn't mention it on here but my sub-domain that a friend had given me died this past year (Jan? Feb? I'm not sure) and I haven't been able to get in touch with her. This equals MANY broken links.

But I never realized how MANY icons 2100 or so is until you have to upload them all at ONCE. It's a CHORE.

My next project? New posts so that if people go to my old iconposts they can find the icons! Le sigh.

And I suppose the project after that is to upload the icons that AREN'T SPN. There aren't as many, but there's a fair few.

BLEH.

In other news, I can't wait for WINCON. hee. there's nothing like 100 or so fangirls in one giant sleepover.

emotional barometer: mellow

mellow

mellow

lyrical stylings: The Used - Blue & Yellow

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02 April 2009 @ 01:07 am

every now and again sometimes i get lost in the wind of a dream.

okay, so it's very unlikely that i would ever go to one of these Creation Cons (Salute to SPN) - simply because its a hell of a lot of money to spend, i would need someone to go with me, and i'd have to also get a plane & hotel room (please see, hell of a lot of money). so no matter how much i love jensen and jared im sure its a pipe dream. but uh, just for my curiosity....

please explain the PREFERRED/SILVER WEEKEND PKG, those of you who are going/have been??? is it like, a bunch of things rolled into one?

(yes okay this past weekend has made me want to see them in person! it wont happen, but i can dream!)

emotional barometer: pensive

pensive

pensive

lyrical stylings: Mae - Anything

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20 March 2009 @ 06:05 am

and if i only could, make a deal with god.

after this episode, i feel as broken as dean.

BUT! you should read this, by

poor_choices. its a look into sam's head before during and after 4.16, what he's thinking, why he's doing what he's doing. and its the first thing in a long while that's made me not angry at sam. and i've been angry with him this whole season. ~~and it makes me feel like maybe i'm angry with sam more because jared's not selling it for me, than what theyre doing with him.~~ which feels like its own kind of blasphemy to say.

ANYWAY. read the fic.

lyrical stylings: Placebo - Running Up that Hill

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19 March 2009 @ 04:59 am

[fic] - let's pack our bags and leave

title: let's pack our bags and leave
author:

quietdiscerning
pairing: none (gen)
rating: PG
word count: 337
warnings: coda to 4.15, Death Takes a Holiday, so spoilers for that episode.
A/N: This is just a tiny piece that got stuck in my head and wouldn't leave. I wanted to post it before 4.16 aired and I get Kripke'd or something.

This is unbeta'd btw, so if you catch something, please let me know.

Tags: dean, fics, gen, sam, supernatural, tv

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16 March 2009 @ 04:33 am

and our cheeks, can brush.

i think im literally UNABLE to go to bed at a decent time on sundays. what the fuck. at least i wont be driving to work.

so the last episode was amazing and i loved tessa and dean, and sammy even though he keeps ripping out my heart and stomping on it.

JUST KILL ME AND GET IT OVER WITH KRIPKE. GOD.

(the sam in my icon is sad, AND THATS HOW I FEEL)

and i just saw a promo for 4.16 that literally made me WHIMPER and sniffle.

BOYS.

in other, more awesome news, I GET TO SEE

poisontaster and

mona1347 and a bunch of other peeps at the end of the month. w00t. as i told pt, its like a mini Wincon, EARLY! \o/

and also,

a vid rec!
if you want to feel good about spn again, go here and watch an awesome vid by

meltingconfetti about how MFEO jensen and jared are. (okay so its less about spn and more rps, but dude, there is no sunshine in spnland anymore...)

Tags: supernatural, tv

lyrical stylings: hellogoodbye - here (in your arms)

emotional barometer:

depressed

depressed

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21 February 2009 @ 02:19 pm

the message that you sent that night, falls to bittersweet.

saturday afternoon meme? why not.

- Describe me in one word... just one single word. Positive or negative.

- Leave your word in a comment before looking at what words others have used.

- Then copy and paste the meme to your journal to find out how people will describe you when limited to one word.

this shit is hard yo.

other hard things? waiting for a new episode of spn...jared's cock when he's near jensen...etc etc...

lyrical stylings: Nine Days - Wanna Be

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17 February 2009 @ 03:23 am

Vid Rec [Fell Into a Rabbit Hole]

Fell Into a Rabbit Hole by

meltingconfetti, spoilers for all aired episodes including 4x14, Sex & Violence.

So I do this thing where I fail at talking about SPN, only because they make me FLAIL so much that I can't get any words out. Especially this season, with the boys at such odds.

But this vid, by

meltingconfetti, is like all my HURTY and obsessed feelings all rolled into a vid only better and gorgeous and just, ITS SO GOOD OMG. It made me cry, but you know, the best of things tend to do that.

This is what my commented to her said:

this was gorgeous. and heartbreaking. it depicted, far better than the show itself, the chasm thats opening up between the boys and how much its hurting them and how unstoppable it seems.

it was hard to watch in the best of ways and DAMN you made me all sad and teary. stupid show. STUPID BOYS.

I hate how the boys are right now, but this vid is so amazingly good that it almost seems worth it.

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05 February 2009 @ 10:38 pm

so what do you do? oh yeah i wait tables too.

some days you have to wonder what the hell kind of kool-aide the writers are drinking. seriously.

love the results. TO DEATH. but seriously. fanfic come to LIFE.

Tags: supernatural, tv

lyrical stylings: Dandy Warhols - Bohemian Like You

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02 February 2009 @ 02:43 am

woops, missed it all! - -Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays & Happy New Year

*peeks around corner*

So you know. We got a wii for christmas. And it kind of ate my brain, in that I spent much of my not at work time playing it. And then I got re-obsessed with SGA (as you do) around the time of the last couple of episodes so that's where I am now. Meaning I'm not so much keeping up with LJ so much as reading as much SGA fic as I can. MISS YOU SHOW.

And then of course, there's the trying to get to bed at a decent time so I don't crash another car. :)

Life Updates!

- Crashed car (not hurt)
- Bought newish car (2006)
- Put up new Layout (I can't actually remember when I did this.)
- Bought myself coach purse, in purple. (I SPLURGED, do not JUDGE ME)
- Sent out holiday cards. (Cuz I procrastinated to much to make them xmas cards, hell they might not have made it for new years)
- Got Wii for xmas (played Mario Kart like a FIEND)
- Got Sims2 Castaway and Harry Potter OotP for Wii. (SPENT WAY TOO MUCH TIME WAVING THE WII-MOTE AROUND USELESSLY, IMO)
- Became addicted to watching 2.5 (never get home in time to see all 3) NCIS episodes every weeknight. (thanks SO MUCH USA Network)
- Got a whole dollar raise! \o/
- Fucked up my debit card, leading to me having NO ACCESS TO MY MONEY! (ATM branches too far away! No one likes checks!)

The end.

I know, my life, it is so exciting.

There was also the pretty decent time I had with Yolande and Kristy for NYE. It was like a high school reunion, but fun, and there was also the extremely funny experience of watching a friend of my let his little sister tattoo him. (No, she didn't have prior experience)

And now currently I'm sifting though the peeps whom I 'track' on LJ. Since I tend to avoid my flist any more (LAZY) I track people through email so I keep up with their lives. Theoretically. Today I noticed I had like 993 messages unread and probably 200 more undeleted. So I thought I should get on that.

I swear I didn't MEAN to ignore everyone for 5 weeks. Oops? Anyway now I'm down to 600 and I will continue tomorrow. (It is kind of tempting to do that whole delete all thing. I am resisting though.)

♥♥♥♥♥

emotional barometer:

quixotic

quixotic

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14 December 2008 @ 06:44 pm

oh baby you're a classic, like a little black dress.

Snagged from

apocalypsos

This is the list of the top 100 grossing movies of all time. Bold what you've seen.

lyrical stylings: Fall Out Boy - Tiffany Blews

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12 December 2008 @ 11:33 pm

HARTH.

Happy Birthday Erin!!!!!!

Check out your lj hon, I WAS ALL STEALTHY!

poisontaster

If you want me to adjust it, say the word you know I will!

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