It seems I live in front of my computer or at a computer. At work I'm always in front of one and once I get home I am either gaming or watching youtube/twitch/Netflix. I hardly ever watch TV, well unless The Apprentice is on.

I want to do something creative.

I want to create something.

I can't draw for shit and I can't sculpt, although I really want to, at least attempt, that garage kit I got of Gally (Alita) from Gunnam (Battle Angel Alita).

It will most likely turn out horrible but I guess you gotta start somewhere right?

I just feel a little useless if I am honest. And I have realised I just can't sit in front of this computer for the rest of my life.

I want to write but I can't seem to get it out of my head.

I long to write more fanfiction of Valen Shadowbreath from Neverwinter Nights Hordes of Underdark and my original character Ashura. Those two mean the world to me, especially the relationship I formed between them. And Ashura has such a rich and sad background, the same with Valen as told in Hordes of Underdark.

I guess I have to muddle through and force myself to do more. It's very taxing because I procrastinate way too much.

Ugh!

neverwinter

It's just like any other week. Nothing new. Nothing different. Just the same old same old. Every year it seems a certain day doesn't feel important as it used to be, and anyways that certain day actually feels like any other day, just with the knowledge that you are one year older. One year closer to Death's door, or really embrace.

Watched 'Super Size Me' today, really interesting and fascinating. Poor guy. Just poor guy... Also watched 'Hero' on Sunday, which was extremely nice, the amount of colours used was lovely. Watched the second episode of 'Bleach', I must make a few avatars with some screen captures, it's quite funny at most points.

Yep that's it. Just another night, day, week, whatever.

>^-^< mew!

I'm gonna stab my brain if this stupid headache don't fuck off. Watched two new films tonight. The Terminal and an anime called Tokyo Godfathers. Both pretty good, though Tokyo Godfathers was better and much funnier. O look six days until I start Uni... again. Gah!! Still haven’t filled in my LEA form, lately I feel extremely tired and these headaches in the evening doesn’t really help my motivation.

Well back to Cella Dor, things are coming to an end, which means a lot of emotion and thinking of a good way to put things across so I don’t bore anyone to death… or disgrace Cella with the finale…

>^-^< mew!

*yawns*

I watched I, Robot not long ago, basically I thought it was going to be crap but I was wrong. It was good; however looking back on it, it just seems to be just like any other action film with parts that made it more than just another action film.
I'll have to say though, Sonny rocks!!! And Will Smith was quite funny as he can be in most of his films. There were things that were related to The Matrix and Ghost in the Shell, but I have it on good authority that this film was based on a book. Must be a fascinating read then.

So Chronicles of Riddick tomorrow, and I will watch it even if I have to drag my brother to the PC (if he isn’t there already). I must admit it; I’m not completely looking forward to seeing this film; it looked good only because I saw the first few minutes of the beginning. It’s just Vin Diesel O.o; I mean VIN DIESEL!!

Anyways I shouldn’t really judge a film but its actors...

>^-^< mew!

Well part of my inspiration is returning, only a small amount mind you but nonetheless it's an improvement ^_^ My dad got this letter from a relative today, there was an article inside about our family's surname, I was reading through and it seems that our name was a Dynasty or something meaning that I could well be royalty, but I highly doubt it. Still that thought perked me up ^__^

Still feeling, well not depressed, but something else. I know exactly what it is and it's not getting me down in fact it's making me alright and then... actually I will stop it's something I need to deal with and no amount of journaling is going to help so Me0w!

I watched Kill Bill yesterday, very good. I enjoyed the anime scene very much, I was capturing some of the images to use for an LJ layout but it feel through like you wouldn't of believed.

>^-^< mew!