:: feeling tookish: for reasons that don't need exploring at this juncture
where the boys go with boys and the girls with girls
10:23 pm September 8th, 2014
[state of the journal]
I'm using this space again, but just friends-locked. If I know you, drop a comment here & we'll work it out. If I don't know you, I don't think you'd give a shit what's posted here anyway. Peep me on Twitter (letterboxed) or Tumblr (wicked-jaws).
[still not dead. king. either one. still alive *and* not king.]
man, i was totally going to do that 30 day stuff-about-you meme but... i didn't. blah blah blah. maybe later. maybe not, because holy crap there are a lot of things i a) don't want to think about b) don't want to talk about. of course, that might take it down to a Meme of Manageable Size.
purplkandigrrrl requested the thumbs-up cap from doctor who, but since i had taken. um. 44 from "utopia" & the trailer for "the sound of drums", let's have a mini picspam.
i just spent a ridiculous (no, seriously) amount of money on lush products that i won't get for another three months. but they brought back old favorites. like slammer, which is the next best thing to back for breakfast. and if i am going to spend too much money, the rest of you should be tempted too.
shinyredtype suggested: how awesome shinyredtype is! ;)
she thinks if she winks i will not do it, but she is wrong because omg she is so awesome and everyone should know it. i mean, there are obviously awesome things about her, like that she does roller derby & takes aerials classes & knits & participated in the brooklyn amazing race & introduced me to gogol bordello (okay, not literally) & works with & for non-profits & tries to keep al gore from crying. then there are less obvious things like how she is hilarious and smart and is in a lot of ways totally different from me and yet we get along ridiculously well & she always understands the state of my spoons. which is a rare gift indeed.
eflatmajor says: upcoming knitting projects. like, with linkage. and BOYS!
* once i finish samus (what? it'll happen!) i'm doing serrano in an apple green.
i can't believe the timing. we had a self-defense class last night and this morning when i came into work a cop was here talking to our director. not that any of it will help against -them-. they don't care if you break their nose or yell. they just keep coming.
i've been reading through everything this morning. i can't believe i was so oblivious on the way up to work. it must have been bumper-to-bumper insanity on the way south. i should have questioned why northbound 5 was so damn open, but you know, i'm spacing out, drinking my coffee, listening to harry potter. i really need to start listening to the damn radio in the morning. i thought it was weird downtown.
i think it's better to be here, though. i'm not alone. we recently restocked our emergency food, so we can hold for a long time. the only real advantage to my apartment is it's on the third floor. here we're on the main level and have floor-to-ceiling windows, but we're moving everything down to the basement. we can barricade in pretty good there. i'm staying up here as long as possible, though, because i won't have internet down there. just my phone.
i hope our first aid kits will be enough. i wonder how many people will come -here-. i always thought in case of apocalypse i would be a victim. i guess now we'll see. i hope you all are well. i hope i see you on the other side.
in other news, i think i have decided to get a queen bee bag [kyoto trucker in sage w/ plum. pretty! AND AREN'T YOU PROUD OF ME FOR NOT BUYING BLUE??], because i want something a little smaller & slightly more professional than my laptop messenger bag, and oh my giddy aunt. the markup at fireworks nearly made me fall over. i mean, i'd get it direct from buyolympia regardless, but seriously. it was crazy shit.
...uh-oh. now i am poking around buyolympia. they have the back issues of wholphin. do you realize what this means? I COULD OWN "THE DELICIOUS". be still my heart. clearly it is time for me to get off of the internet & watch "doctor who". meep!
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in other news, i read vox nova because sometimes it's interesting (like recent posts on the danger of conflating religion & patriotism) and because sometimes it pisses me off, which is fun. i'm not gonna lie.
like tonight, in a post about high school kids & minimum wage:
The only thing I'm really convinced of is the social teaching that free men are entitled to a living wage that can support a family living frugaly [sic] and allow them to put a portion aside. I don't believe that there is seperate [sic] living wage for single people and couples with children. I believe that the living wage is the calculation involving the couple with children. If single folk make more than they should, I'm comfortable with what previous generations did: have a slight bit of a look of scorn at the old single person for not bothering to grow up or become a religious. That is all for another post however.
i mean, i joke about not being a grownup. but i -am-, by several markers. i am 29, i completed two degrees, i have a more-or-less managerial position in the field of social work, i pay my bills & taxes, and feed, clothe, and shelter myself with no outside means of support, and with remaining income to moderately pursue my interests, including a little travel. which is pretty much exactly what i wanted out of life, INCLUDING THE NO DAMN KIDS. (we've talked about how i have never wanted kids, right? how i was actually going to be a nun at one point because i hadn't learned about sex yet & i figured that was the only way to guarantee that i wouldn't be "blessed" with children? good.)
apparently, though, i am deserving of scorn. man, i can't -wait- for that post. stay tuned. when are we opening the atheist nunnery & circus, again? because that's the only way -i'm- becoming a religious.
clearly this blogger missed the memo about being called to singleness. not that i think i am, really, it's just no one will have me. NOT THE POINT. still not with the wanting kids. why can't -that- be a mature decision?
(don't you love how i blow right past the 'having more money' and get all full of angst about the scorn? I KNOW YOU ALL ARE JUDGING ME. DON'T LIE.)
this meme mutated overnight, but this particular iteration is jubilancy's fault:
Name one character from any fandom I DO NOT know and I will give you three facts about them from my personal canon.
(or as many facts as i can come up with considering that i do not know the canon.)
((or if you're really lucky, i'll write a haiku. HA.))
for fandom ideas, you could look at when i discussed fandoms i know nothing about post one & post two. this is also a pretty good indicator of how entertaining i may or may not be. heh.
i first saw this poem in breathe_poetry, which is a freakin' awesome community, and i found it again when i was going through del.ico.us today.
And I'm Sorry You're Being Such a Pain
Mom, I'm sorry the city is covered with trash. That's a great idea: they should hire the people on welfare to clean up the streets. I'm sorry you saw that woman's dog go the bathroom on the sidewalk, and she just left the mess. Sorry my apartment has such high rent. Sorry my window shades are not what you had in mind. I apologize for having so many wet dish towels hanging up in the kitchen. I know my favorite TV show is not up to your standards. Sad to say, my cat is smaller than yours. I am sorry. You're right: I really should clean the underside of the piece of rubber that fits in the sink drain.
--Jessy Randall
.: feeling: thoughtful .: listening: the new world .: filing: signposts:poetry
today is poem in your pocket day in new york, part of national poetry month. people have been posting poetry all month (which is awesome), but i pretty much only remember to do it on this day.
this year i am -still- not posting "marginalia". instead, i'm going with ee cummings. i spent two weeks last year looking for poems for art_geek & archie's wedding. in the end i sent them five or so, and they picked this one, my favorite, which i read at the ceremony. and so i put it in here to keep.
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i carry your heart with me (i carry it in my heart) i am never without it (anywhere i go you go, my dear; and whatever is done by only me is your doing, my darling) i fear no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet) i want no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true) and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant and whatever a sun will always sing is you
here is the deepest secret nobody knows (here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows higher than soul can hope or mind can hide) and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart
i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)
--e.e. cummings
.: feeling: touched .: listening: "murder for the money" --morphine
.: filing: signposts:poetry
when talcotts got the buffy comic, he raised the question of older, middle-aged etc potentials ... if they lost their potential or if they too were now slayers. i famously have a huge desire for older-lady fic, and these ideas combined to made me explode with glee. just imagine!
1) sister pete. aside from the obvious awesomeness of a puerto rican slayer/nun, would she keep her job? what would that do, for example, to her dynamic with keller? how would it affect her vocation? also, this raises the question as to who could be a vamp in oz. i'm voting for ryan. possibly just because that would be hot.
2) ruth fisher. it would do her a world of good to have that kind of power. also, she's in the perfect location -- just think of how many vamps might be coming through there! and i'm pretty entertained thinking about how her kids would react.
3) emily gilmore, i rather suspect, has been a slayer all along. it's one of those things that you just don't discuss (obviously), but it must be done. these things have to be taken care of, and the less said about it the better.
4) i considered anna conroy, but i still think i want her to be a watcher. because she would be -awesome-, especially as luna's. but how hilarious would ellen fanshaw be? it would take her a while to come 'round to her calling, i think. hee.
5) carmela soprano, who reminds me of ruth fisher, actually, in that it would give her some much-needed power over her own life. or, really, enhance the strength she doesn't know she has. and can you imagine how that would make tony's head explode? as if the poor guy doesn't have enough issues already.
6) then, you know, we could move on to younger women, yet generally considered outside the age range for slayers. like maybe frannie vecchio. or! hope! which would raise an issue, because obviously curtis is a vampire. that's -really- why he a) doesn't leave the house and b) goes through so many roommates. you only -think- they've left. or OMG! annie cartwright! oh man that would be so awesome.
...this is what it's like inside my head, guys. and that's without coffee.
zomg i am in a vid! well, sort of. well, my name is. well, my username is. it is the same thing i am famous on the intarwebs!
i didn't get the "us" vid, but this one made me collapse with the giggles. and also, since i didn't say it before, thanks to all of you who left love for me in the meme. i didn't get a chance to leave -anyone- love, as it filled up so fast, but i think that is a good sort of problem to have.
barkley & musesfool, thanks for the vid & the meme, and the rest of you who make fandom and livejournal a groovy place to be? i big pink line you as well. n'aww.
sick
distressed
busy
rawther useless
a little strange
thinky & dumb
silly
aggravated
thoughtful
touched
happy
slightly nuts
DYING OF THE LAUGHING
n'awww
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