maltrayfox

Well here we are finally gogt the courage up to do it, this lj will be ending as of today and new one starting.

I guess the last few years have not been kind to me or my family. I mean it's not exactly been a laugh a miniute and all. Anyways that's that I guess, you can't undo history only change what lays ahead.

So here we are an end to what was, I don't think I regreat anything in this LJ, it's the truth and bare faced truth. Some might not like it but as someone once said: you can't please everyone.

To explain the post before this, I've been rather down of late mostly because of X-mass coming and such. It's not a good time for me anymore I'm not going to say I hate it, but the sooner it's over the better if you ask me.

I mean the last few years have not been good, an uncle, family friend, my dad, my aunt, all in months of each other.

So all in all it's been an unpleasent set of circumstances if you ask me, X-mass just reminds me off all the family members we've lost it's not a lot of fun.

To thine own self be true William Shakespeare said this. I guess I have to wake up to my true self, some might not like it and I really don't care anymore.

"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind" - Dr. Seuss

I guess I need to be who I am, I can't say I've done much that would be considered 'male' lets face it I hated everything and still do things that most 'males' like to do, fighting, sports and such shit.

*laughs* I was much happier with a doll or a book :P

As I have said before in myself I'm more female than male. I have to admit that to myself from the start and go from there. Whatever life holds I hope the weight isn't to hard to handle.

I can only hope the friends that have linked me will do the same for my new LJ, you can find it at:

melinaswiftwind

How true this is.....

Amanda Knox, and Raffaele Sollecito got exactly what they deserve, I hope they both serve their full sentance. Between you and me I'd leave em both to rot.

That's my two cents

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Right that's it that's the real finished one so Nyah

You know for a long time I have been thinking about this. I'm not sure who I am or if I ever will be, why becaue of the way I feel at times.

I was born male but have the feelings and wants of a female, come might call me a 'sissy' and you know what I don't care. I really don't care any more, I want to be wheever or whoever I am.

My relgion I believe in but I think parts are wrong to my view and that of my heart.

I'm stuck living with my remaining parent in a town, that if there was a center of fun and happiness it would be on the outter limits.

Fuck sometimes I wonder if my life isn't an episode of the Outter Limits after all.

Nature must have been taking the piss with me or something.....Everyone around me is finding someone and me...fuck.

If I turn out like Martain X and his sister next door I am going to shoot myself, or get someone else to do it, it would be a mercy killing. I mean the both of them must be in their 70's easy and neither has married or such cos their parents kept a very tight rein on them both.

Telling you it would be a mercy killing.......

I know someone you will say move, I just can't afford that my income is not as good as I would like.

Soooooooo now what.... I am so depressed

"Is this all that I am? Is there nothing more?"

Why can't I find anyone....I mean I'd love a Mistress

But today mesame, Poirot will produce a murder who's viciousness he stands in awe....

There was no accident of gas in Mann Street. No no no a letter recievied today from scotland yard contained expert forensic evidence confirming my suspisions, there was only the premeditated explosion of a bomb, a device built and operated by you, David Hunter engineer and road builder. How depraved, how evil does a man have to be to cause the slaughter of so many innocent people, for the concelment of a single murder.

I'm not raciest but its true
You call me:
"redneck"
"Hillbilly"
"Slaker"
"Cracker"
"Honkey"
"Whitey"
"Gringo"
"Sage"
and you think it's OK.

But when I call you:
jungle bunny
spear chucker
coon
wet back
jiggaboo
porch monkey
sand nigger
rag head
towelhead
Camel Jockey
Gook
Spook
NIGGER
KIKE
slant eyes
or Chink
you call me a racist.


--You have the United Negro College Fund.
--You have Martin Luther King Day.
--You have Black History Month.
--You have Cesar Chavez Day.
--You have Yom Hashoah
--You have Ma'uled Al-Nabi
--You have the NAACP.
--You have BET.


--If we had WET(white entertainment television) ...we'd be racist.
--If we had a White Pride Day... you would call us racist.
--If we had white history month... we'd be racist.
--If we had an organization for only whites to "advance" our lives... we'd be racist.
--If we had a college fund that only gave white students scholarships...you know we'd be racist.
--In the Million Man March, you believed that you were marching for your race and rights. If we marched for our race and rights...you would call us racist.
--Did you know that some high school students decided to make a club for only the white students because the other ethnicities had them. they all got sent to court for being racist but the african-american, Latino, and Asia clubs were not even questioned.
--You are proud to be black, brown, yellow and orange, and you're not afraid to announce it. But when we announce our white pride, you call us racists.


I am white and I am proud.
But, you call me a racist.
Why is it that only whites can be racists?
Now watch, I'll be racist for reposting this....

So what? no-one will re-post this for fear of being called racist

If you agree with this then repost saying "I'm not a RACIST but it's true."

well I've started my new toryline after all, I am now writing under the name of Chakat Goldmane

I've never claimed another's love
And when I give, I give my all
A mortal soul, I've suffered much
I do not heed resentment's call
For vengeance just perpetuates
The inner pain of sorrow's taste
The "me" inside stands sentinel
The path I walk is not a waste