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Fabulous Friday: Crazy Random Happenstance

When I was referred to the rheumatologist in April, the first available appointment for our only in-network rheumatologist was in December.

Ah, the joys of closed-network insurance plans.

So I found one out of network, and was able to get into him in June.

Last Friday, I received a call that made my heart jump for joy (pretty sure that’s almost literal–I definitely felt something do somersaults).  “Ms. Ray,” one of the sweetest voices I’ve ever heard said, “how lucky do you feel?”

“Oh, honey,” I said in my best Southern drawl, “I have never felt so lucky.” 

“What are you doing Monday morning?”

“Anything you want me to.”

I had called to be put on the cancellation list and had been warned that there was “about 100” on it, but I assured them I could be there in an hour if they called.  My appointment, which was originally scheduled for 7 December, was now on Monday, October  5.

When the doctor came in, she knew my chart. She asked a few pointed questions and made a decision. “We’re going to get you off the steroids.  We’re going to try this. Many of my patients have seen a significant difference in 2-3 weeks.”

I’ve been on steroids since April, and, every time I’ve tried to come down on the dose, I’ve been incapacitated.

This was something new.

I told her that I had been tested and found to not metabolize folic acid properly, and had been given a pill to counteract it by someone who was not a rheumatologist. “Does that make a difference?” I asked her, after having been dismissed by the other rheumatologist.

“I’ll research it and have a nurse call you back.”

I walked out of there feeling respected and listened to and hopeful.

Hope’s a powerful, powerful thing.

Her nurse called me back within 2 hours of my leaving my office. This is unheard of in my experience. She had instructions for changing the methotrexate and changing the folic acid.

And that night, after I gave myself my first injection (a comedy best left for another time), I felt powerful.

And here it is, Friday, and I feel fabulous.

This may not be the answer, but at least it’s a new one. She had seen that the “old way” wasn’t working, hadn’t been working, and said that the time for waiting was over.

It’s time to forge new paths.

It’s been a rough week, overall. But damn if it’s not the start of something new.

Yes, indeedy. Fabulous Friday, indeed.

 

 

Adventures in Writing

I’m a visual person to a degree: I like things in the proverbial black and white. I like exactness, and tracking progress with precision. I like facts and figures. I like, for example, knowing that at the beginning of March, I will have increased my personal net worth by 10%, thanks to my still-in-progress budgeting and tracking system. Perhaps 10.2% or 10.3%. I do like precision.  Which is to say, I’m still in the negative thanks to a mortgage, but less so.

I’ve surpassed 9k words in the novel, perhaps a paltry number when measured against the total of a true novel, but I look to be on track to meet 10k or even 11k words this weekend, and I’m a bit proud of that. It’s progress. Not bad for someone so lacking discipline as myself, with a full-time job and attempting to contract with a possible client for web content.

With the exception of a single successful NaNoWriMo, (which was horrid in execution), the only time I’ve ever written this much on a single project was for my senior thesis.

Which reminds me, I should pull that out. I enjoyed the end result of it. I had a catchy title, I’m sure (I’ve always been fond of not-too-straight forward titles), and it focused on the power exchange information transference.  What is private versus what is secret. How they’re handled. Motivation for keeping and sharing secret and private information.

I do enjoying examining power exchanges: who benefits, who suffers.

I read once that everything is about sex, except sex. Sex is about power. I disagree: I think everything is about power.

But I digress.

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