Hello Brethren,
I hope you are all well.

Please share some encouragement and spiritual motivation my way.

Lately, I have been feeling overwhelmed, unmotivated, and deeply exhausted, tired of life, family, work, and everything around me. I find myself grumpy and angry over nothing and everything. Honestly, I feel like I hate everything right now.

I don’t want to keep this to myself because the enemy keeps throwing fiery arrows to water down my faith. And we know that faith comes by hearing, and hearing by the Word of God.

Please share your kind thoughts

I thank God for the gift of life, the gift of salvation, and the grace He has given me to walk in His ways. Since I became born again in November 2020, I made a deliberate decision not to date casually, but to wait for the right man God has destined for me. I have been single since then, and though at first I wasn’t sure about marriage, I have, over time, started believing God for it. Since last year, I’ve been intentionally praying about marriage, trusting Him for His perfect will in my life.

This morning I woke up to a bad call that really disoriented my day. I felt weak, unmotivated, and even had to leave work early. When I got home, I couldn’t even bring myself to pray. I was simply sad and drained. Eventually, I took a nap and it was in that sleep that I had a dream.

In the dream, I was pregnant, but not married. I was keeping the baby, but I knew very well that I had messed up. In reality, I am a minister at my church. I teach teenagers, and one of the core values of our ministry is holiness inside and out. As a child of God, I know I have no business engaging in sex outside marriage.
In the dream, I was painfully aware of this truth. I knew such a situation would bring reproach not only to me but to God’s kingdom.

When I woke up, the weight of the dream hit me hard. I broke down in tears and cried out: “Holy Spirit, please help me. Do not let me embarrass You. Do not let me bring shame to Your kingdom. Everyone knows I am born again, and I do not want to misrepresent Your name. Please help me live to glorify You, not to dishonor You. I long for marriage, and I long for children, but let it all come in Your perfect order, at the right time, and within the covenant of marriage.”

That was my honest prayer. The dream reminded me how deeply I desire to walk uprightly before God, and how much I long to bring Him glory in every area of my life, including marriage and family. I don’t want to do anything that would cause embarrassment to the kingdom of God.

So, even in your waiting, hold onto him. The world offers attractive alternatives but the end of it all is destruction.

One of the best vows i have listened to….
Dear Daddy, may mine be as beautiful….

Good morning, Saints.
Praise the Lord.
Praise Jesus.

This morning I came across the testimony of a young couple who had been believing God for years for the fruit of the womb. In the midst of their waiting, they faced pressure, criticism, judgment, and the heavy expectations of both family and society. Of course, they took it to the prayer altar but it made me reflect on something, sometimes the very things we are trusting God for can slowly take His place in our hearts, becoming idols in our pursuit.

This is so relatable to our Christian walk. Many times, we pray and believe God for something, and because He is a loving Father, He is preparing us for it. Maybe it’s not yet time, or maybe He is still shaping our character so that when we receive it, we won’t waste it. But if we’re not careful, in the waiting, our desire can consume us until it’s all we think about; morning, afternoon, and night. It becomes the main topic of our prayers, the center of our thoughts, and eventually, the focus of our worship.

When that happens, our pursuit of God becomes shaky. Outwardly we may look like we’re praying and worshiping, but in truth, our hearts are more focused on the gift than the Giver. Yet God does not look at the outward appearance. He looks at the heart (1 Samuel 16:7) and searches it (Jeremiah 17:10) and he can immediately tell that our Hearts are from him (Isaiah 29:13).
If the thing we are praying for takes priority over Him, it has become an idol.

Jesus reminds us in Matthew 6:33: “Seek first the kingdom of God, and all these things will be added unto you.” That is the true key to receiving everything we desire. I’ll be honest, it’s not easy. We are human, and the flesh often pulls us in other directions.

I remember a time when I desperately prayed for a car. For four years, it was all I talked to God about. The more I prayed, the more it seemed to slip away. It had become an idol. Years have passed, and though I still desire it, I’ve learned that whether I have it or not, God is still God enthroned above the mighty cherubim, as Isaiah 37:16 declares.

Beloved, let us be cautious that what we are praying for is pursued in faith and love for God, not as an idol that replaces Him.

just sadness

Penny for My Thoughts…

I came across a reel earlier, a woman was sharing her story, and it hit deep.
She said her life had been full of waiting.

She waited 5 years to gain admission into university. Then another 4 years before she even started dating. Then another 2 years before the man she was dating finally married her.

But in it all, she said something so profound, “The waiting was good for me. God was packaging something permanent.”

Whew. That stayed with me. It reminded me of this truth: not everything should come quickly. Because sometimes, the things that come too fast, also crash too fast. Quick fixes aren’t always lasting foundations.

Yes, there are exceptions some people get the “quick-quick” blessings and sustain them for years. But for many, what comes too easy often goes too easy.

Okay, this is just me thinking out loud. I’m waiting. And while I wait, one thing I’ve promised myself is this:
I will not allow myself to be pressurized.

Yes, pressure can be useful, it shakes us out of comfort zones and sparks growth. But there are also moments where we must draw the line and say, “Not everything requires pressure.” Especially when it comes to life decisions like marriage.

This is for my sisters out there. Society is a master at guilt-tripping.
“You’re getting old.”
“Your biological clock is ticking.”
“There’s no time.” Blah, blah, blah.You have heard it all and seen it.

But listen, when you let that noise get into your spirit, you might end up leaping from the frying pan straight into the fire, simply because you’re trying to follow what people say or live by the timelines society sets.

If you’ve met the right person and there’s peace, amazing. But if not, don’t be pressurized. We’ve seen people get married at 50. Some have had children at 70. Lol, Sounds crazy, maybe but sometimes that’s God’s divine story and where there’s His peace, there’s purpose.

I’ve seen people rush into things, only to end up in the most painful, heartbreaking situations. So again I say, don’t let anyone pressurize you.

And above all: PRAY.
Don’t let your waiting season be careless or empty. Don’t wait without direction. Don’t just hang in there for the sake of it. Let God be in your waiting. Let Him guide you. Let your season be purposeful, full of communion with Him.

Because when you go on a self-imposed wait, without God’s direction, you risk missing the very seasons He’s prepared for your good.

Just my thoughts.
You may agree or not.
But they’re mine.

Got home from church and, while scrolling through social media, I came across a video that really struck me. It reminded me of a profound truth, not all men are bad. There are still men out there; God-fearing, grounded, and intentional, who understand their God-given roles as husbands and fathers.

One thing the man said that deeply resonated with me was about keeping a distance with those who dont respect his wife and marriage, he also talked about those men who neglect their families and children. He bodly asserts that they don’t belong in his inner circle.

This spoke volumes about the kind of people we allow close to us. A man who honors his wife understands that the people he keeps close must also honor what he honors. Because if they don’t, their attitudes, counsel, and influence can subtly (or overtly) affect his own household. Now that’s wisdom.

It reminded me of something I meditating about some months back: “The people in your inner circle can either build or break what God is doing in your life.” And this was echoed again in today’s teaching as we studied “lasciviciousness” as a work of the flesh in Galatians 5:19. We looked at the story of Amnon and Tamar in 2 Samuel 13.

Amnon had toxic, lustful desires. But perhaps, just maybe, he could have overcome them, had it not been for the counsel of his friend Jonadab. Jonadab advised him to fake an illness, manipulate his father David, and set a trap to get Tamar alone. What followed was a tragedy. Poor Tamar was violated, and eventually, Amnon was killed by Absalom.

One wrong friend. One poisonous voice. And Tamar and Amnon’s entire future was destroyed.

So, your inner circle is sacred. They either protect your destiny or poison it.
They either align you with God’s purpose or derail you from it.

Be intentional.
Be vigilant.
Be prayerful.

Let your circle be filled with people who respect your values, honor what you honor and help you walk in God’s purpose.

Because at the end of the day, who you allow close can shape what your life becomes.