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[Sep. 1st, 2011|12:29 pm]
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Crossposted from my own journal. I think this is relevant to this community :)
I've always been a bit of a contrary babyfur. Diapers aren't really my thing, my character is never diapered, I've commissioned people to draw me and then had to remind them repeatedly that no, I'm not diapered. I break the stereotype. Really though, I'm more of a kidfur, a littlefur, call it what you will. My character age is more akin to 11 than 1. But, I have a multifaceted watersports fetish, and diaper use is indeed one of those facets. More kink than anything else; ironically diaper use barely relates to my babyfur side at all. So, the overlap is incidental but not displeasing, but I've just never been into diapers all that much.
From peeing myself on purpose, for fun, for kinks, from about the age of 10, diapers were a late arrival in my 20s. The icing on the cake, if you will, and in some ways they actually made things less fun. Less naughty, less messy, too tidy. But, they are something different, and they've grown on me a little. And sometimes it's nice to save the laundry bill. Lately though, maybe over the past 6 months, I've had a real resurgence of interest in the whole thing. I'm not really sure why, but I blame it on a few crinklebutts coming to stay, getting an opportunity to pad out with them, and just getting that little nudge, that little spark of curiosity, to have another go. It comes and goes, but then a crinklebutt comes to stay again, and wham, I'm off again.
I think one of the turning points was at Confuzzled this year near Easter. I went along to a very fine little diaperbutt room party, where padding was practically thrown at me, in large quantities (I leave it to her to come forward if she likes :). Now I had some of my own, but had never really got on too well with it ( http://www.beaucaremedical.co.uk/incontinence-products/male-incontinence-products/abri-form-medium-x-plus-3-x-14--42-per-case/402 ). This new stuff... I forget the brand, it was less absorbent (maybe 2.4 litres), but 2 whole sizes larger. Too big, for sure, but even so, a much better fit. On paper, the diapers I had, should have fitted me okay. In reality it seems my best size is about one higher (and I will be ordering some soon :D ).
So, these new ones obtained at Confuzzled, too big but a much better fit, worked a hell of a lot better. I like to flood, somewhat, and I've always been plagued by leaking problems. Trying to flood less, but never really felt confident in my diaper use, because there was often leaks anyway. My old diapers barely had any overlap at the side panels. My new ones have a whole ton of overlap. That and the larger size just made them seem to work perfectly. So long as I took a bit of care about which way I was pointing, I could leak, flood, go all day, and they just never seemed to leak. That gave me a lot more confidence to use them, and also set me a bit of a kinky challenge to see if I can overload their capacity (I havn't yet succeeded ;_; ).
The other turning point was in getting myself a really good, huge waterproof bedsheet for my huge Ikea bed (it can easily sleep 3), and using it as a safety net. My aim being to sleep diapered, to wet while in bed and in the night if I so desired, and to not change till morning. Could never relax about it before, because of the worry of leaking. Just made the whole experience rather tense. But now... While I have no great aspiration to wet while asleep in bed (though that'd be amazing, it seems a very dangerous path to tread), I've now rather enjoyed the experience of brief slumber interruption, followed by wetting, followed by more sleep. And I still struggle a bit with relaxing well enough to wet easily in bed, but I'm getting there. And it's been great. There hardly has been any leakage, so it's really built my confidence up. Only real problem is, it's such a thrill to me, I've had trouble going to sleep after :P
So, with these various things that have built my confidence, these experiences I've enjoyed more, these better fitting diapers, these crinklebutt visitors... I've found my diaper use recently to have greatly escalated. To the point where sometimes I'll go upstairs, stand between my bedroom and bathroom, and think 'Hmm... Go to the bathroom or put a diaper on now?' There was one time just last week, and I suppose I should write about these more... On a long car journey, stopped on the motorway services. Changed my mind, and instead of going in, parked up in a very secluded corner, put on a diaper, continued on my way. So... I need to buy some more, now :D |
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