Ok so, I am gonna follow suit with all the other furs who seem to use LiveJournal and make all my posts only viewable to friends. If you wanna read this stuff, just give me a friend request and I will add you to my list.

So its definitly time for another update. Since my last post, i've been to 2 furmeets where i meet some awsome people and made a few new friends. So x-mas is coming upon us and i still need to do some more gift shopping(eeks!). Thankfully i'm almost done though.

So fall semester has come and gone...yea, i'll be doing some retakes, nuff said. I've also decided that after this next semester i'm going to start paying for it myself, so that way i can go at my pace insteads of the parents pace. Also i can take whatever classes i want. I'm not sure what i want to major in anymore so i'm going to broaden the types of classes i'm taking and try to find something that really clicks. Something i keep having to remind myself is that graduating isn't a race. I'd rather go to college for 6-7yrs and get a job i love, then go for 4yrs and hate my job. Though next semester is first working on improving some grades.

I'm also going to attempt to get in the disney college program for fall semester 09, and audition to be a performer. If i can't get a part as a performer its no big deal, i'll just work a normal job, but it'd be amazing if i can get the job.

So during this past semester i started talking to this fur named woofy who lives in lansing(yay, some one near me), and hes a sweet heart. Its one of my highlights of the day to talk to him. We've yet to meet in RL (damn our shyness) but we're supposed to go on a date real soon(possably the weekend of the 20th). To be honest though the age difference kinda bugged me at first but i think i'm over it. Its not a huge gap, i'm 21 and hes 18, so its only 3 yrs but still. either way, i sure hope hes the one i've been looking for.

Though at the same time its something i kinda dread. I'm Rycher's pet, and he seems to be really happy when i'm with him, but if i was ever get a mate, i'd have to let Rycher know i can't be his pet anymore. I'm fine with people having open relationships, but its definitly not for me. When that day comes and i have to tell him i can't be his pet, i know hes going to be really sad, and i really don't want to dissapoint him. I keep telling him though that, even though i wont always be his pet, we'll always be friends, which is 100% true. I'm just going to feel like an a-hole when i do.

Well, thats all the updating i'm going to do at the moment. I'm going to go for a jog(start training for my triathlons)

So time for another update- I ended up getting my hair fixed, well technically my friend did since she paid for it. Basically what they did was dyed it back to brown like it was before then added highlights, except this time it was correctly and looks amazing. Looks alot better then i was expecting. Also, last Friday, my friend and I went to both Meijer and Walmart with me in my fursuit. Though only people at the Meijers at the time were employees who i knew(i work there btw), other then that it was dead. Then we went to Walmart where there were alot more people, and everyone loved it. My friend and I had such a blast aswell, so much that he wants us to do it again except go to the mall, and go during the day instead of after 9. Well, thats it for now and i need to g2g bed. adios

So it seems for whatever reason, I've been forgetting to update this. But like i always say, and will again in the future many more times, I'm going to try to keep this updated more often now. HAHA, i don't know if its a good thing or bad thing when you have to remind yourself to get online to update your journal.

So school has started awhile ago, and i've already been really slacking off. For some reason its really difficult for me to motivate myself to get any work done. Though 2 of my classes are extremely fun, current issues in business and intro to business. Work is the same as always, it pays the bills so i can't complain.

Now onto a more personal update: I don't remember if this has been said yet(i don't think it has) but I'm no longer considering myself bi anymore. I'm now looking for a relationship with just guys, though only a very few (in RL) know about it so far. Also I've finally got myself a fursuit, and I'm so excited. I won it through a bid on furbid, and its amazing, it almost fits amazingly perfect. The only thing that doesn't fit right are the arms, they're a tad too long, so i'm going to see about getting them shortened a tad. Other then that, i've been trying to get used walking around in one, its really difficult with the lack of vision. That and i've been trying to decide what to dress him up with, i'm going to at least have him wear a shirt to make sure the zipper can't be seen. Also the head's mouth is open so i'm going to see about getting a plush fish that i can 'eat'.

I'm not sure what else to put, my friends and i tried to do highlights in my hair the other night and it ended up with all of my top hair getting bleached, so some are saying i look bald from a distance, and another person keeps saying i look like a skunk. I'm sure how i'm going to fix it yet, but my friend said she'd help me since it was kinda her fault for messing up my hair. lol, though i didn't really have a problem with it except that my lisence is up for renewal this month (turning 21 in Nov.) meaning a new photo and i want the pic to be a really good one.

 so this week, i already presumed was going to be crazy but it just got a little more, and right from the start of the week. so when i woke up Sun. i had the worst soar throat, headache, and runny nose. Of course its also on the day i'm working an 8 1/2hr shift (i'm a cashier). when your sick, being a cashier is the last thing you wanna do.

Luckly the next day (mon) all i had was the coughs and a tiny soar throat. Well, that night around 12:30 i get a call from my sister. Shes in the hospital and needs me to bring her our blue cross shields card. So without even bothering to wake up our dad, i rushed there. Since she talked to me on the phone, i know it couldn't be too bad. Well, apparently she was at a friends house and she started to bleed... ALOT, and it didn't stop for awhile. It turns out that she had a cist (spelling?) and it exploded. Shes doing much better now, though still in some pain.

Now for the rest of week, tomorrow (wed) i'm planning to go clothes shopping then clubbing w/ my neighbor and a friend. Then on thurs, i've got a party to go to for another friend who just returned from a 10week vacation (it was actually a 'study abroad' thing). On fri. i'm going clubbing again with another group of friends, and then the next morning (sat) i've got a family reunion. yesh i'm exhausted and tired just thinking of whats ahead of me.

So I've found myself yet another female problem. I guess I should first mention a few things about my sexuality. I am bisexual, i feel love knows no gender. The only reason I say I'm not gay is because I've only had real feelings for another are with girls, not to say there haven't been a few crushes on some guys here and there. And actually I'm trying to find myself a guy this time around.

Well, a friend of mine named Stacey (renamed for obvious reasons), is 19 and married. We both work together, and for the first year we only interacted while at work. A few weeks ago, another friend of mine decided to have her join our group of friends who hang out several times a week. At first we thought she was just clingy, like many girls are, but after while we found out she has a thing for me. So much that at one point, she asked my friends if it would be weird if she got a divorce and started to date one of the guys in the group (i wasn't there at the time). It became finalized when a week ago we were playing truth or dare. So in hopes it would scare her away, i told here something only one other friend of mine knows about me. I told her that i wasn't a virgin, but I've never had sex with a woman. At this point i don't care if she tells other people, but so far she hasn't.

So after that night, i thought it was all said and done with, but I just found out its not. She STILL has the hots for me. It wouldn't be so hard if she had such low self-esteem. She would ask me if she wasn't married, would i date her. i would never comment or say probably not. Her response would always be something like, 'Its because I'm fat, isn't it' or 'Is it because you think I'm ugly?'

    i just received my copy of 'dog's days of summer' today.  its magnificent, the art work, the story, i love it all. the only thing i might have liked to see more of was more action(if you catch my drift), but thats ok, i'd rather they work more on a good story then good  porn
btw- heres the link to the comic     http://www.dogsdaysofsummer.com/

so a few weeks ago a friend of mine was trying to think of date ideas for his first GF, and i just keep coming up with ideas. well, one of them he really liked except he wanted it to be at my place. the date idea was to have him make dinner, have a candle light dinner for 2 by water of some sort, and then finish off with going for a swim under the stars. well i so happen to have a pool, so he wanted it at my place, and have another friend along with me be the servers(we bring out food, drinks, ect.). i must say it went awsome. we had romantic music in the backround, and had the table by our pond which has a waterfall and big kai fish. me and the other server were all dressed up and we even made menus that were laminated.

after tonight i realized something, I'm in great need of a boyfriend. While walking with a friend tonight all i wanted to do was put my arms around someone, and to be hold. basically i felt very clingy. to all those single furries, i'd love to find a guy who will hold me, cuddle with me, and yet can be just as active as me. most importantly, find a guy who doesn't mind taking it slow (the reason last relationship ended)

i took this really interesting personalitiy test the other day at http://www.animalinyou.com/survey.asp
Basically you answer a few questions, the best part is that theres no 'whats your favorite color' questions. The questions ask you things like about your size(skinny, big, in-between, ect.), your agression, intelligence, predictability,ect. i took this test and i found i match almost perfectly well with what it says. anyone who actually reads this needs to check this out. heres what i got for my results:

Otter
Genera and species: Amblonyx cinerea
Collective Term: A prank of otters Description
Otters are petite, engaging creatures overflowing with positive energy. Intelligent and bright, they are also popular and eminently lovable and displaying the highly developed social skills that typify the small carnivores. So, otters mix easily with a wide range of animal personalities.

Lazy? Let's just say easily distracted. For life has so many diversions for the otter, that whether it's playing a computer game, reading a book, or doing a crossword puzzle, it's impossible to predict how it will fill it's day. But when an otter gets focused on a problem, it's keen intelligence rises to the challenge and it will not give up until the nut is cracked. Otters feel entitled to the good things in life and a general sense of well being gives them the confidence to not have to save for the future. A lover who wants to impress an otter should know that otters love to eat out and have a predictable penchant for sushi.

Although intelligent and witty, otters have a tendency to suffer from self-doubt, and fear of failure can prevent them from living up to their true potential. Still, they are a great problem solvers, with the ability to spend endless hours on abstract or practical challenges. As workers, they are dedicated and capable and always eager for a chance to prove themselves. Their determination makes them valuable employees and although they often feel that their contributions are undervalued, they would rather accept lower pay than risk confrontations in their workplace. Although they are fine motivators, they avoid taking leadership roles, performing better in group situations with their social skills coming in handy when counseling coworkers through their problems. Their dexterous hands are useful in a wide range of careers, and they're ideally suited for work in engineering, advertising, and design.

As lovers, otters are tenacious and have remarkably vital libidos. Unafraid of expressing their needs, they have little tolerance for selfish people and are attracted those creative enough to fulfill their sexual appetites. Among the aquatic animals, the lusty dolphin provides endless fun while the terrestrial fox proves to be a challenging and sexy companion. In a relationship, the otter will willingly stray into dangerous waters, betting that its instincts will see it though. But, for the most part it prefers the familiar shallows of a predictable association with the semi-aquatic beaver or sea lion.

There is no question that the otter is going to have children. Lots of them. And this otherwise carefree individual will surprise you with its strict and disciplined approach to child raising.
Otters are certainly not shy. Their highly advanced communication skills explain why friends flock to it for advice and why ex-lovers find it so hard to let it go. But sometimes it seems that relating to an otter is a one-way street; for otters hate criticism. It's not that they don't believe there's room for improvement -- it's just that they tend to confuse criticism with rejection. Friends must step lightly lest they wound the otter's self-image, for this is the surest way to dissuade the otter from further communication.

Careers and Hobbies
Engineering- Pro Sport
Medical- Design
Computers- Mathematics

Surfing the Web- Swimming
Cuddling- Reading

Famous Otters
Leonardo DiCaprio, Meg Ryan, Jennifer Aniston, Goldi Hawn.