Catch Me a Catch - multifandom hotel (I don't run this)
piney_ghost
C'est La Vie RPG - WWII occupied Paris 1941 (insane journal (I run this)
boulanger - Marie Chabert, elderly baker with Resistance ties
germansoldier - Anton von Reiker, a Nazi private with an English mother
heil_hans - Hans Ernst Varner, secretly gay Nazi Sturmbannfuhrer-SS
oh-nurse - Joséphine Renaud, hospital nurse with healing powers
viveka - Viveka Reinhart , secretly Jewish Nazi officer's wife
D & D Jolurstad (I don't run this)
brother_julius - Brother Julius , cleric of Melora
Omega - post apocalyptic 2008 (insane journal) (I don't run this)
callmekieran - Kieran Dare / Adam Carole, strung out teen survivor
lost_ghost - Ghost from Lost Souls
Shooting Stars - supernatural fame, fortune, and glory (live journal) (I run this)
ellen_harvey Ellen Harvey , assistant to the director
mi_malone - Michael Malone, tv theme song and soundtracker
vavarner Valentine Varner, 19 year old aspiring actor
sunnydaleosi - AU Buffyverse 1998 (live journal) (I run this)
ambria_hanover Ambria Hanover, half-fae initiative sniper
boldly_brave George 'Juice' Davis - spastic gay teenage boy. Boyfriend of Kyle, manager of Spontaneous Neck Ruptures. Judge Juicy on tv. Owns hairless cat named Senor Paco.
clem Clem - Sherpei demon , instructor of demonology at the Academy - kitten poker player.
em_grace Grace Emmerson, college student (computer forensics) and technopagan
cowboy_chrismc Chris McCaine, college grad student and older brother of Kayla
faustina_au Faustina, F'ela'ar demon, lunar aligned magical being
jonathan_troika Jonathan Levinson, short kid with a magic bone. Boyfriend of Catherine. Has demon monkey named Han Simian.
kayla_mc Kayla McCaine, potential slayer , sister of Chris and girlfriend of Gil
kit_bothwell Kit Bothwell, Servator (formerly to India) and warlock. Has dog named Mariposa. Cousin named Lizzie. Co-owner of Sunset Club.
lchars Emily Bishop - psychologist. Girlfriend of Victor Czajak, mother of Kai.
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lchars Jacques Renior (Jack Reynolds) - pseudo-French OSI researcher
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lchars Kai Bishop - Emily's son, a 15 year old teen boy
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lchars Lucia Rossi - italian witch, girlfriend of Bilbo Baggins.
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lchars Tanya Oake-Reider, news reporter for channel 13. Wife of Dave.
lizzie_bothwell Lizzie Bothwell, Kit's teenage cousin. Firestarter, romantically entangled with Warren.
maid_marion Prudence True, former old-fashioned 'Amish-ish' girl with powers of psychometry.
moody_angel Ming Xi, reincarnated Boxer rebellion era slayer, currently a potential. Girlfriend of Michael Czajak, cousin of Mari.
oakstrong Alexander Daniels, reluctant prophet. Busboy at The Stake House.
sanguinestars Laili Tse-Pryce, langsuyar vampire. Has owl (pontiac) named Amir. Wife of Wesley. Works at zoo.
santerian Yansa Delacroix, OSI counselor working on Michael's case. Wife of Gregory.
servatrix Rachel Lee, Servator to Cynthia. Mother of Reba, adoptive mother of Cassie.
tamaratalk Tamara Kennedy De Marco - initiative girl, sister of Tony, girlfriend of Gerald, ex girlfriend of William. Artist, college student.
vladamir Vladamir von Teshov, acid spitting vampire. Boyfriend of Franco. Working for COSMO.
xo_mari_xo Shanyuan Mari, cousin of Ming from China. Part time clerk at the Magic Box. Part time bartender at the Sunset.
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Homeless Journals:
Journals that I used before with characters in 'em from games that died and other such things. But hey, good for recycling next time I need a character.
andrewkin
ambria_falorn
amy_be_good
belloq
boldy_brave
carrie_ade
celia_avani
charlie_millman
david_ade
devon_leeds
duderino_abides
elsawise
eugene_fairbank
extra_salvation
firey_faith (insane journal)
jo_millman
johnn_deacon
hidden_glory
lucian_grey
luke_deacon
mark_deacon
mary_deacon
matthew_deacon
matty_be_good
orville_deacon
piney_devil
piney_papa
lost_piners
sallah
sonyacat
storm_giles
tamara_czajak
totallybambi
willie_scott
wumanfu
C'est La Vie RPG - WWII occupied Paris 1941 (insane journal (I run this)
boulanger - Marie Chabert, elderly baker with Resistance ties
germansoldier - Anton von Reiker, a Nazi private with an English mother
heil_hans - Hans Ernst Varner, secretly gay Nazi Sturmbannfuhrer-SS
oh-nurse - Joséphine Renaud, hospital nurse with healing powers
viveka - Viveka Reinhart , secretly Jewish Nazi officer's wife
D & D Jolurstad (I don't run this)
Omega - post apocalyptic 2008 (insane journal) (I don't run this)
callmekieran - Kieran Dare / Adam Carole, strung out teen survivor
lost_ghost - Ghost from Lost Souls
Shooting Stars - supernatural fame, fortune, and glory (live journal) (I run this)
sunnydaleosi - AU Buffyverse 1998 (live journal) (I run this)*
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Homeless Journals:
Journals that I used before with characters in 'em from games that died and other such things. But hey, good for recycling next time I need a character.
carrie_ade
david_ade
firey_faith (insane journal)
- Current Mood:
accomplished
Venus
The songwriting isn't going as well as I'd hoped. It's so important, I don't want to mess it up. Trouble says he'll help me with it tomorrow, which is groovy. I got Saken to talk about his feelings a bit- so hopeuflly, I can use some of that stuff. I want this to be awesome.
Crimson
I should have asked Luka to stay with me. She didn't come back today. Man, I could have scored. Accident looks hot dressed medieval.
Janet
Well, I've been fixing up the books and trying to get things together for the band. Hopefully, they apreciate it, and will someday accept me as 'one of the gang'.
Lucinda
Rock musicians are rather amsuing to watch, even when they aren't playing.
The songwriting isn't going as well as I'd hoped. It's so important, I don't want to mess it up. Trouble says he'll help me with it tomorrow, which is groovy. I got Saken to talk about his feelings a bit- so hopeuflly, I can use some of that stuff. I want this to be awesome.
Crimson
I should have asked Luka to stay with me. She didn't come back today. Man, I could have scored. Accident looks hot dressed medieval.
Janet
Well, I've been fixing up the books and trying to get things together for the band. Hopefully, they apreciate it, and will someday accept me as 'one of the gang'.
Lucinda
Rock musicians are rather amsuing to watch, even when they aren't playing.
Cristabol
Delia (that somewhat scary fox lady) came to visit me and Toni. She said a lot of scary things, like if she was gay she'd pour herself all over me like hot fudge on a sundae. That was pretty creepy. But then we went downstairs and she bought us drinks and played the guitar, and me and Toni got to dance, which was really nice. I still can't believe I'm really all that pretty....
Venus
Well, life is complicated. I'm finally getting things together with Saken... if he keeps on the straight and narrow, that is. I don't think I could take going out with him if he's going to be doing the whole drug and drink thing for the rest of his natural life. Found out I probably could have had a pretty damn decent relationship with Trouble,too. We've got shit in common, and we don't drive each other crazy. But hey, that's better for friends than love anyhow. We wrote some killer songs the other night. Crimson and Saken had their first day of rehab today... they got tea for the cravings, and pamphlets to read when they're feeling down. Heh.
Crimson
I hate rehab. It sucks. I want dust. I need to score some chicks, at least... or maybe I should just try to hang with Accident and Trouble more. They're groovy. I still can't believe I kissed Trouble once. Oy.
Nikal
Caleb, m'kala, took me to meet his Ileciar mother the other day. She was wary of me first, but then she seemed to welcome me as the being Caleb loves. She meantioned that we should marry. I am giddy with excitment over this prospect, but still, a bit troubled by my past. I must find a way to feel better about things.
Delia (that somewhat scary fox lady) came to visit me and Toni. She said a lot of scary things, like if she was gay she'd pour herself all over me like hot fudge on a sundae. That was pretty creepy. But then we went downstairs and she bought us drinks and played the guitar, and me and Toni got to dance, which was really nice. I still can't believe I'm really all that pretty....
Venus
Well, life is complicated. I'm finally getting things together with Saken... if he keeps on the straight and narrow, that is. I don't think I could take going out with him if he's going to be doing the whole drug and drink thing for the rest of his natural life. Found out I probably could have had a pretty damn decent relationship with Trouble,too. We've got shit in common, and we don't drive each other crazy. But hey, that's better for friends than love anyhow. We wrote some killer songs the other night. Crimson and Saken had their first day of rehab today... they got tea for the cravings, and pamphlets to read when they're feeling down. Heh.
Crimson
I hate rehab. It sucks. I want dust. I need to score some chicks, at least... or maybe I should just try to hang with Accident and Trouble more. They're groovy. I still can't believe I kissed Trouble once. Oy.
Nikal
Caleb, m'kala, took me to meet his Ileciar mother the other day. She was wary of me first, but then she seemed to welcome me as the being Caleb loves. She meantioned that we should marry. I am giddy with excitment over this prospect, but still, a bit troubled by my past. I must find a way to feel better about things.
Nikal
I have come to this place and delievered my message, yet my period of rest is unrestful. Caleb is here- that Caleb, the one that I didn't kill. The one for whom my back is scarred. He believes I am a good person. Stubbornly, insistantly, and wholeheartedly. I almost wish to believe along with him, but I cannot. I pray only that tonight, I will not dream. I must repeat that to myself, as a mantra, before I sleep to ward them away... for the memories come in dreams, and tonight, I seek solace in not remembering.
Elanna
I'm rather enjoying our vacation here. We're having a bit of intregue, a bit of mystery... a bit of watching angstful godsfolk...
Teri
At least Rett doesn't need to diet- he can still fly.
Martin
Luke and I are having a lot of fun in this strange elven land. Trading for interesting things. I even had a drink the other night, followed by a wonderful, long, slow, dance with my love. Ah, so nice.
Cristabol
I've been having so much fun with Toni. He even colored pictures with me. He's a lot calmer now...
I have come to this place and delievered my message, yet my period of rest is unrestful. Caleb is here- that Caleb, the one that I didn't kill. The one for whom my back is scarred. He believes I am a good person. Stubbornly, insistantly, and wholeheartedly. I almost wish to believe along with him, but I cannot. I pray only that tonight, I will not dream. I must repeat that to myself, as a mantra, before I sleep to ward them away... for the memories come in dreams, and tonight, I seek solace in not remembering.
Elanna
I'm rather enjoying our vacation here. We're having a bit of intregue, a bit of mystery... a bit of watching angstful godsfolk...
Teri
At least Rett doesn't need to diet- he can still fly.
Martin
Luke and I are having a lot of fun in this strange elven land. Trading for interesting things. I even had a drink the other night, followed by a wonderful, long, slow, dance with my love. Ah, so nice.
Cristabol
I've been having so much fun with Toni. He even colored pictures with me. He's a lot calmer now...
Martin
Luke had a much better day today, though for some reason, he seemed to be rather upset when I was telling him about Dingo, and the house. He asked if Dingo'd ever been to the house- which of course he has, many times- then got all upset when I answered. He even asked if I loved Dingo (I think Mrs. Dingo would have minded that a lot, hehe), and got all sad about the fact I had a special nickname for him, and that he'd been to the house so now it couldn't be our special place because he'd be the stranger there. Then when I asked if he wanted me to sell the house if we ever do get back to Earth, and buy a new house, just for us, he seemed to calm down.... then asked me to describe more of the house. Very perplexing. We are making progress though. Today he showed me all the stuff he keeps inside his backpack.. mostly stuff from me, his wallet, clean underwear, an empty vodka bottle (tsk) and a pack of cigs (tsk). He lit up a cig, quick as you please, and had it in his mouth before I could stop him. Well, I told him to put it out, because smoking is bad for him, and plus, it would make our room stink. Kiddo just said he could smoke it by the window and I gave him the look, and said "if that's really what you want to do". He grumbled a bit, but put it out, and let me throw them away. He asked why I didn't want him to smoke and drink, and I said because I love him, and I will look out for his body, even if he won't.. He seemed very happy with that, and bounded off to the bathroom to brush his teeth. I'm very proud of him. Of course, I can't help but get the slight feeling that perhaps he likes to test me, to make sure that I will catch him at his bad behaviours and admonish him for them. I think he still needs plenty of reassurance that I love him, no matter what. I don't mind giving that to him in the slightest, and find the whole business rather endearing. He's adorable.
Cristabol
I like taking care of the horses. They seem to like me alot, especiallty Charger and Princess. They're special horses that can talk telepathically... it's really nifty. They tell me where I should brush and scratch them. Sune lets me ride Princess- she's really gentle and nice. I like to ride her all over the innyard. Sune is really cool- I hope I can get to be his friend. He's the nicest person I've ever met. Dante's pretty nice, too, but he likes to hug and kiss and cuddle Sune a lot, so I don't want to get in the way by talking to him too much. I'm sure he'd rather be with his boyfriend than talking to me, anyhow.
Toni's my friend, too. I'd invite him out to the stables to see the pretty horses, but he says animals don't like him much. A dog even bit him the other day. I think it's because he's a vampire. He doesn't scare me much now, anymore. Only when he makes the fangy face. Toni used to be a 'stand up comic' before he was a vampire. I said maybe the inn would let him be one there, cause they have this stage, and no one's ever using it. So he's been practicing his routine with me (that's what you call it when a stand up comic guy tells jokes and says weird stuff on stage, Toni says). He even does impressions! He did a funny impression of the guy who owns the inn, Oswald- but it included lots of cursing, so it made me blush a little). I said a curse the other day though- when Toni said that pizza kicks ass. I thought that was funny, so I repeated it. It feels sort of good to say bad words without someone smacking you for it. I might try saying it again sometime. Maybe.
Ophelia
Space... the place I'm going with Ter. I can't believe I'm going up there... all the way up there.. in just a few short days. I've been trying to spend as much time as possible with Papa and Dad before I go. That wanderkin lady is going to make something so I can still talk to Papa while I'm up there. I'm going to miss him so much though! I wasn't going to go at all, but he pointed out that it was a unique opertunity to get to explore the Nexus. Ter makes me really happy... but I can't help but worry about what would happen if he gets the opertunity to go back to his world. I wouldn't want to leave my Papa and Dad and Mama forever to go to some strange planet. But then I'd never see Terrence again... the thought is just too sad, so I'd best not think about it at all. I'm just going to try and enjoy the adventure of space.
Luke had a much better day today, though for some reason, he seemed to be rather upset when I was telling him about Dingo, and the house. He asked if Dingo'd ever been to the house- which of course he has, many times- then got all upset when I answered. He even asked if I loved Dingo (I think Mrs. Dingo would have minded that a lot, hehe), and got all sad about the fact I had a special nickname for him, and that he'd been to the house so now it couldn't be our special place because he'd be the stranger there. Then when I asked if he wanted me to sell the house if we ever do get back to Earth, and buy a new house, just for us, he seemed to calm down.... then asked me to describe more of the house. Very perplexing. We are making progress though. Today he showed me all the stuff he keeps inside his backpack.. mostly stuff from me, his wallet, clean underwear, an empty vodka bottle (tsk) and a pack of cigs (tsk). He lit up a cig, quick as you please, and had it in his mouth before I could stop him. Well, I told him to put it out, because smoking is bad for him, and plus, it would make our room stink. Kiddo just said he could smoke it by the window and I gave him the look, and said "if that's really what you want to do". He grumbled a bit, but put it out, and let me throw them away. He asked why I didn't want him to smoke and drink, and I said because I love him, and I will look out for his body, even if he won't.. He seemed very happy with that, and bounded off to the bathroom to brush his teeth. I'm very proud of him. Of course, I can't help but get the slight feeling that perhaps he likes to test me, to make sure that I will catch him at his bad behaviours and admonish him for them. I think he still needs plenty of reassurance that I love him, no matter what. I don't mind giving that to him in the slightest, and find the whole business rather endearing. He's adorable.
Cristabol
I like taking care of the horses. They seem to like me alot, especiallty Charger and Princess. They're special horses that can talk telepathically... it's really nifty. They tell me where I should brush and scratch them. Sune lets me ride Princess- she's really gentle and nice. I like to ride her all over the innyard. Sune is really cool- I hope I can get to be his friend. He's the nicest person I've ever met. Dante's pretty nice, too, but he likes to hug and kiss and cuddle Sune a lot, so I don't want to get in the way by talking to him too much. I'm sure he'd rather be with his boyfriend than talking to me, anyhow.
Toni's my friend, too. I'd invite him out to the stables to see the pretty horses, but he says animals don't like him much. A dog even bit him the other day. I think it's because he's a vampire. He doesn't scare me much now, anymore. Only when he makes the fangy face. Toni used to be a 'stand up comic' before he was a vampire. I said maybe the inn would let him be one there, cause they have this stage, and no one's ever using it. So he's been practicing his routine with me (that's what you call it when a stand up comic guy tells jokes and says weird stuff on stage, Toni says). He even does impressions! He did a funny impression of the guy who owns the inn, Oswald- but it included lots of cursing, so it made me blush a little). I said a curse the other day though- when Toni said that pizza kicks ass. I thought that was funny, so I repeated it. It feels sort of good to say bad words without someone smacking you for it. I might try saying it again sometime. Maybe.
Ophelia
Space... the place I'm going with Ter. I can't believe I'm going up there... all the way up there.. in just a few short days. I've been trying to spend as much time as possible with Papa and Dad before I go. That wanderkin lady is going to make something so I can still talk to Papa while I'm up there. I'm going to miss him so much though! I wasn't going to go at all, but he pointed out that it was a unique opertunity to get to explore the Nexus. Ter makes me really happy... but I can't help but worry about what would happen if he gets the opertunity to go back to his world. I wouldn't want to leave my Papa and Dad and Mama forever to go to some strange planet. But then I'd never see Terrence again... the thought is just too sad, so I'd best not think about it at all. I'm just going to try and enjoy the adventure of space.
Martin
I do suspect that my poor Luke shall be frigthened of zombies for quite some time to come. I cannot say as if I blame him, though in truth, I fear nothing. Everything is either trivial, and will either be survived, or not. After all, that's why I have resurection insurance for me and my Luke. Terrence seems to have aquired a girflriend (surprisingly, not Rina) while we were out. I will endevor to speak to him about it at first opertunity, being rather curious. She seems like a pretty girl though, from the quick glance I got. Hopefully, she's not going to drive him nuts. Luke was so worried about his skin... it got injured along with him by that zombie. I think, to a certain extent, he feels as human as I do... I wonder how it is, that I can feel more human than my actual heritage at times... perhaps the human suit has become more symboitic than we'd thought.
Julian
So the killers at the circus have been found... I don't want to go back, though, unless the circus will stay here. I rather enjoy our little house, and our little family. Still, I know Ansel misses performing and I don't want him to be sad. Tonight we put on our costumes, just for each other, and did a little bit of ... private performance. That was very, very nice....
Grace
Hortense's blind date didnt' work out at all. He even ran away from home, poor guy. We went and found him, though. I hope that he knows we want him to stay, even though Lysander wants the bed all to ourselves. Lysander won a stuffed animal for me, and bought me another one, at the circus. In the middle of investigating the evil killings, he stopped to get me presents. That made my heart so achy with love. I really, really adore him.
Ophelia
Papa and Dad are so... frisky. They've always got their tongues in each other's mouths! It's very cute, in a disturbing kind of way. My blind date didn't really work out- but I met this wonderful guy named Terrence. I made him a giant cookie, and showed him a bit about magic. He's going to take me out on a date tomorrow night- I'm so excited, I can't wait! He's from another world... I hope I he doesn't go back there soon. I'd miss him.
Dante
Sune is incredibly sexy when he's kicking arse in battle. As gentle as he is, he can be very fiierce when something is threatening us. Daron did good in combat, too, though he kept trying to escape having to go. A vampire surrendered, and now we've got to try and figure out his problems....
Cristabol
So... I wanted to go to the circus. It was nice... I had candy spun on this cone, and rode on an elephant, and had a sparkly balloon. I went to see the sideshow, and this nice lady that could bend herself into funny shapes wanted to take me out in the woods and show me her 'special performance'. Next thing you know, this big green thing and a demon lady are attacking us. So I got caught and tied up... and this vampire was going to eat me...then these guys showed up and there was a big scary fight, and they untied me. And I got to feeling sorry for the vampire, cause he hadn't eaten for four days, so I said he could bite me. I screamed and cried, because it was scary, but I screamed and cried when Pavis did scary things to me too, and he seemed to like that and so did the vampire... so I guess it was good, because I was helping. The vampire's name is Toni.. he taught me how to say a word in Spanish. Gracias. I think he said it means 'thank you'. I gave Toni some of my healing salve and some gold, and I'm going to share a room with him. Then this fortune lady came, and she was really pretty and had wings. She told me things about me that I don't know how she knew, and said I shouldn't try to find Pavis in Toni, cause he wasn't going to do that. I'm confused about everything, and I'm still feeling alone... and damnit, I lost my balloon.
I do suspect that my poor Luke shall be frigthened of zombies for quite some time to come. I cannot say as if I blame him, though in truth, I fear nothing. Everything is either trivial, and will either be survived, or not. After all, that's why I have resurection insurance for me and my Luke. Terrence seems to have aquired a girflriend (surprisingly, not Rina) while we were out. I will endevor to speak to him about it at first opertunity, being rather curious. She seems like a pretty girl though, from the quick glance I got. Hopefully, she's not going to drive him nuts. Luke was so worried about his skin... it got injured along with him by that zombie. I think, to a certain extent, he feels as human as I do... I wonder how it is, that I can feel more human than my actual heritage at times... perhaps the human suit has become more symboitic than we'd thought.
Julian
So the killers at the circus have been found... I don't want to go back, though, unless the circus will stay here. I rather enjoy our little house, and our little family. Still, I know Ansel misses performing and I don't want him to be sad. Tonight we put on our costumes, just for each other, and did a little bit of ... private performance. That was very, very nice....
Grace
Hortense's blind date didnt' work out at all. He even ran away from home, poor guy. We went and found him, though. I hope that he knows we want him to stay, even though Lysander wants the bed all to ourselves. Lysander won a stuffed animal for me, and bought me another one, at the circus. In the middle of investigating the evil killings, he stopped to get me presents. That made my heart so achy with love. I really, really adore him.
Ophelia
Papa and Dad are so... frisky. They've always got their tongues in each other's mouths! It's very cute, in a disturbing kind of way. My blind date didn't really work out- but I met this wonderful guy named Terrence. I made him a giant cookie, and showed him a bit about magic. He's going to take me out on a date tomorrow night- I'm so excited, I can't wait! He's from another world... I hope I he doesn't go back there soon. I'd miss him.
Dante
Sune is incredibly sexy when he's kicking arse in battle. As gentle as he is, he can be very fiierce when something is threatening us. Daron did good in combat, too, though he kept trying to escape having to go. A vampire surrendered, and now we've got to try and figure out his problems....
Cristabol
So... I wanted to go to the circus. It was nice... I had candy spun on this cone, and rode on an elephant, and had a sparkly balloon. I went to see the sideshow, and this nice lady that could bend herself into funny shapes wanted to take me out in the woods and show me her 'special performance'. Next thing you know, this big green thing and a demon lady are attacking us. So I got caught and tied up... and this vampire was going to eat me...then these guys showed up and there was a big scary fight, and they untied me. And I got to feeling sorry for the vampire, cause he hadn't eaten for four days, so I said he could bite me. I screamed and cried, because it was scary, but I screamed and cried when Pavis did scary things to me too, and he seemed to like that and so did the vampire... so I guess it was good, because I was helping. The vampire's name is Toni.. he taught me how to say a word in Spanish. Gracias. I think he said it means 'thank you'. I gave Toni some of my healing salve and some gold, and I'm going to share a room with him. Then this fortune lady came, and she was really pretty and had wings. She told me things about me that I don't know how she knew, and said I shouldn't try to find Pavis in Toni, cause he wasn't going to do that. I'm confused about everything, and I'm still feeling alone... and damnit, I lost my balloon.
Martin
Yesterday, Luke and I made love for the first time. And the second, and the third and the... well, we did it a lot throughout the day. I have never felt anything so incredible. I've never felt so alive, so complete. And this morning, I woke up with him lying in my arms, with his head on my shoulder, nestled in and smiling in his sleep. I don't know how it is that I can love him more and more every day, but I do. I need him so much, and love him so completely. It's hard to imagine how I ever lived without him. Two other things about yesterday- he ordered milk with dinner, and let me hold him while we were dancing. Ah, heaven.
Dude
I'm free! Woo-hoo! Yeah! Finally, I found an opertunity to escape from my hellish imprisonment! I'm free! I went to visit my friends last night, and then I went out drinking and whoring- just because I can! Then I slept... alone, blissfully, alone. No clinging, whining "hold me"- just me, in the middle of the bed, sprawled out from one end to the other. Ah, this is the life. I just hope she doesn't hunt me down and stake me. That'd be a real bummer of an ending to my freedom.
Grace
Lysander is so happy that we have a room to ourselves. I can't help but feel sad for poor Hortense, though. He looked so sad and lonely when I tucked him in on the couch. We need to find him a girlfriend of his very own.
Julian
I used to be the most important person in Ansel's life.. but that changed yesterday. He met his daughter for the first time. Now I'm 'equally important'. Pretty soon I'll be 'less important' then 'not important at all'. I thought nothing would ever change how he felt about me. I feel so betrayed... yet, I understand, somewhat. I mean, she is his daughter, and she's a nice girl and all... I just want my Ansel all to myself. I know, it's selfish. I just have to learn how to share... I'm really trying to.
Ophelia
I finally get to be with my father! I'm so happy. I've missed having him all my life. There's so many questions I want to ask him, and so many things I want to do with him. But his lover is a bit jealous of me... I feel really bad about that. I hope he feels better soon. It's weird to think of my father loving a guy, but he's a nice guy, and I think we'll all get along and be a family. I hope...
Yesterday, Luke and I made love for the first time. And the second, and the third and the... well, we did it a lot throughout the day. I have never felt anything so incredible. I've never felt so alive, so complete. And this morning, I woke up with him lying in my arms, with his head on my shoulder, nestled in and smiling in his sleep. I don't know how it is that I can love him more and more every day, but I do. I need him so much, and love him so completely. It's hard to imagine how I ever lived without him. Two other things about yesterday- he ordered milk with dinner, and let me hold him while we were dancing. Ah, heaven.
Dude
I'm free! Woo-hoo! Yeah! Finally, I found an opertunity to escape from my hellish imprisonment! I'm free! I went to visit my friends last night, and then I went out drinking and whoring- just because I can! Then I slept... alone, blissfully, alone. No clinging, whining "hold me"- just me, in the middle of the bed, sprawled out from one end to the other. Ah, this is the life. I just hope she doesn't hunt me down and stake me. That'd be a real bummer of an ending to my freedom.
Grace
Lysander is so happy that we have a room to ourselves. I can't help but feel sad for poor Hortense, though. He looked so sad and lonely when I tucked him in on the couch. We need to find him a girlfriend of his very own.
Julian
I used to be the most important person in Ansel's life.. but that changed yesterday. He met his daughter for the first time. Now I'm 'equally important'. Pretty soon I'll be 'less important' then 'not important at all'. I thought nothing would ever change how he felt about me. I feel so betrayed... yet, I understand, somewhat. I mean, she is his daughter, and she's a nice girl and all... I just want my Ansel all to myself. I know, it's selfish. I just have to learn how to share... I'm really trying to.
Ophelia
I finally get to be with my father! I'm so happy. I've missed having him all my life. There's so many questions I want to ask him, and so many things I want to do with him. But his lover is a bit jealous of me... I feel really bad about that. I hope he feels better soon. It's weird to think of my father loving a guy, but he's a nice guy, and I think we'll all get along and be a family. I hope...
Martin
When I was a child, the world was a very small place, consisting only of three and a half rooms of space in a small, grey containment. There was nothing but harshness- sharp corners, sharp words, and heavy hands. There was a terrible sameness about life, day in and day out, and I sunk so far within myself that I developed the ability to sense things. At least, this is the nearest I can come up with to an explaination for what have been termed extrodinary powers. It bought me a way out of that place, and a way into the schools that educated me and taught me about the greater world. Everything lay open before me- the paths to power, the paths to riches, the paths to a larger containment, of terrible sameness, of three and a half rooms of larger proprortion now, but the same walls and structures holding me in. So I rebelled. I was cold, and empty, and aching inside- dead, or beyond death, perhaps.
I took, instead of a track in government, my leave of things and became outside the system, yet needed by it. I became a traveler, a procurer, a pretender... I learned to laugh about my life, and to enjoy the places and things I saw. I learned that the universe was constantly expanding, and that I could expand with it- broaden my horizons, embrace each day like there was no tomorrow, and if there was a tomorrow, I'd embrace it too. It was during my travels that I first met Luke, and helped him out of that certain situation.. he reminded me very much of myself, how I was, struggling against himself.
I watched him, on my trips, hoping he would get over this. I have discovered that he will not, without help. I am trying to offer him that help, but it is hard, because he has such a hatred built up inside of him. He is very resentful of my efforts, thusfar. This is a bit difficult.. more so than I'd imagined. But hopefully, it will turn out well. I have a great deal of affection for Luke- I want for him to turn out right. I suppose this is partially because I wish someone had been there for me to help me turn my life around...
Either that, or it's because he laughs at my sock puppets. Hm, have to stop writing now- Terrence is dragging Rina out to talk to me. She wants to ask me about.. .somethiing or another. Huh.
When I was a child, the world was a very small place, consisting only of three and a half rooms of space in a small, grey containment. There was nothing but harshness- sharp corners, sharp words, and heavy hands. There was a terrible sameness about life, day in and day out, and I sunk so far within myself that I developed the ability to sense things. At least, this is the nearest I can come up with to an explaination for what have been termed extrodinary powers. It bought me a way out of that place, and a way into the schools that educated me and taught me about the greater world. Everything lay open before me- the paths to power, the paths to riches, the paths to a larger containment, of terrible sameness, of three and a half rooms of larger proprortion now, but the same walls and structures holding me in. So I rebelled. I was cold, and empty, and aching inside- dead, or beyond death, perhaps.
I took, instead of a track in government, my leave of things and became outside the system, yet needed by it. I became a traveler, a procurer, a pretender... I learned to laugh about my life, and to enjoy the places and things I saw. I learned that the universe was constantly expanding, and that I could expand with it- broaden my horizons, embrace each day like there was no tomorrow, and if there was a tomorrow, I'd embrace it too. It was during my travels that I first met Luke, and helped him out of that certain situation.. he reminded me very much of myself, how I was, struggling against himself.
I watched him, on my trips, hoping he would get over this. I have discovered that he will not, without help. I am trying to offer him that help, but it is hard, because he has such a hatred built up inside of him. He is very resentful of my efforts, thusfar. This is a bit difficult.. more so than I'd imagined. But hopefully, it will turn out well. I have a great deal of affection for Luke- I want for him to turn out right. I suppose this is partially because I wish someone had been there for me to help me turn my life around...
Either that, or it's because he laughs at my sock puppets. Hm, have to stop writing now- Terrence is dragging Rina out to talk to me. She wants to ask me about.. .somethiing or another. Huh.
Will
I don't know what happened... I felt like something inside of me snapped. I didn't want to exist anymore. I kept thinking about what Novan said... about how I shouldn't exist. I just wanted to make it end. Finn laughed at me... the only friend I have... my best friend.. .the only single person or thing or anything that I love. It hurt so bad... it was like it took all the other hurt and made it so heavy, I couldn't bear it. So I took Finn's pocket knife... and I slashed it across my wrists. I don't know why I did it... I just knew that blood keeps people alive, and if I lost mine, I wouldn't be anymore, and Finn could be with Mekista so he'd be alright, and no one else cared... and then there was pain... and lots of blood. So much blood, and I felt weak.. and tired... so I laid back and watched myelf bleed. But then Finn was there, through the haze... I felt his arms around me, and heard him calling my name. He pressed sheets to my wrists, and stopped the blood flowing... and he was crying. Novan healed me, I think.. and said something that made Finn angry, and left... I had to drink something yucky that made me feel better, though... and Finn held me, which made me feel lots better inside. It made some of the empty go away, though some of it's still there. He made me promise I'd tell him next time, instead of doing this...so I will. Novan came back and apologized, and told me to yell and talk about what made me upset... so I yelled alot. It made my throat hurt, but it kind of felt good to talk about what was bothering me.
Rico
I can't believe Will tried to kill himself. Shawna pointed out that maybe our problems stem from the fact that we're actually normal. I think she has a point there. We're a lot more sane than those around us, after all. So we just have to find saner friends, or stop worrying about it. I guess we'll just stop worrying, eh?
Max
Agh.. girls braiding your beard... mgh. What a night! At least I didn't get all made up like Nef. Pandora's a real sweetheart, she reminds me of my wife when we were young. Such a spirited little thing. Too bad I'm an old dwarf, or I'd give her better things to do than braid my beard, muhaha...
Grace
Hortense is a very nice bushman. I'm glad he got a chance to be human. We met two very strange people today- one was a guy named Bri, and the other was a man named Raven. Bri is some sort of traveling airship merchant. Raven is a green stone skinned wanderer. A lot of weird things happen in the Nexus, don't they? And yet, each one is weird in a different way, so it's still weird, not just another normal thing.
Julian
I am really not pleased with my beastial side, even though Ansel thinks I should come to terms with it. He's usually right about most things, and I love and respect him very much, but I feel so.. dirty somehow, when I have to eat raw red meat, and stalk through the forest. It's the same kind of dirty I feel when I'm performing... not all the time, but sometimes. Sometimes, when people look at me like "how can any human being do -that- with tigers?" when they look at me like they know... I think that's why I don't want to perform anymore.
I don't know what happened... I felt like something inside of me snapped. I didn't want to exist anymore. I kept thinking about what Novan said... about how I shouldn't exist. I just wanted to make it end. Finn laughed at me... the only friend I have... my best friend.. .the only single person or thing or anything that I love. It hurt so bad... it was like it took all the other hurt and made it so heavy, I couldn't bear it. So I took Finn's pocket knife... and I slashed it across my wrists. I don't know why I did it... I just knew that blood keeps people alive, and if I lost mine, I wouldn't be anymore, and Finn could be with Mekista so he'd be alright, and no one else cared... and then there was pain... and lots of blood. So much blood, and I felt weak.. and tired... so I laid back and watched myelf bleed. But then Finn was there, through the haze... I felt his arms around me, and heard him calling my name. He pressed sheets to my wrists, and stopped the blood flowing... and he was crying. Novan healed me, I think.. and said something that made Finn angry, and left... I had to drink something yucky that made me feel better, though... and Finn held me, which made me feel lots better inside. It made some of the empty go away, though some of it's still there. He made me promise I'd tell him next time, instead of doing this...so I will. Novan came back and apologized, and told me to yell and talk about what made me upset... so I yelled alot. It made my throat hurt, but it kind of felt good to talk about what was bothering me.
Rico
I can't believe Will tried to kill himself. Shawna pointed out that maybe our problems stem from the fact that we're actually normal. I think she has a point there. We're a lot more sane than those around us, after all. So we just have to find saner friends, or stop worrying about it. I guess we'll just stop worrying, eh?
Max
Agh.. girls braiding your beard... mgh. What a night! At least I didn't get all made up like Nef. Pandora's a real sweetheart, she reminds me of my wife when we were young. Such a spirited little thing. Too bad I'm an old dwarf, or I'd give her better things to do than braid my beard, muhaha...
Grace
Hortense is a very nice bushman. I'm glad he got a chance to be human. We met two very strange people today- one was a guy named Bri, and the other was a man named Raven. Bri is some sort of traveling airship merchant. Raven is a green stone skinned wanderer. A lot of weird things happen in the Nexus, don't they? And yet, each one is weird in a different way, so it's still weird, not just another normal thing.
Julian
I am really not pleased with my beastial side, even though Ansel thinks I should come to terms with it. He's usually right about most things, and I love and respect him very much, but I feel so.. dirty somehow, when I have to eat raw red meat, and stalk through the forest. It's the same kind of dirty I feel when I'm performing... not all the time, but sometimes. Sometimes, when people look at me like "how can any human being do -that- with tigers?" when they look at me like they know... I think that's why I don't want to perform anymore.
Hannah
I miss having my sisters here with me. It feels weird to be without them, after we've lived together for so many cycles. As long as I can remember, they've been here, and we've been a family. But now, each of them is off living their own life, and here I am- but not alone, because I'v got Vin. Vin is the greatest. I can't believe he's going to marry me someday- I'm so lucky. And, I found a good person for Isalec, even though Malta doesn't want him anymore. I think he needs someone to love him. I can't believe I used to be afraid of him- he's my good friend now. Today that girl Cherish was sort of looking at me funny in school today... I hope she doesn't try anything.
Belinda
We had such a wonderful day yesterday! All of us down on the beach, and fishing, and having a great time together. Freddy is just the most wonderful guy. I'm really enjoying staying at his place, and all the good meals he's been cooking for me. I like my job a lot, too. I want to learn how to make all the toys. We used to all work there, but now Hannah's going to school, and I think Vin's going to quit too so he can get a job in Fairport and be closer to Hannah during the day. Thats' really sweet.
Malta
Well, things didn't turn out quite how I expected. I was just going to date this Omar guy to make Isalec jealous. But then I met Omar, and it was like, wow. He likes to curse, just like I do. And he likes to make little jokes about things like me, and he likes to say what he's thinking and so do I - we just have all this stuff in common. And he's -- get this -- an honest locksmith's aprentice. Did you know they really existed? I didn't. And he's got money and a house and shit, too. He let me move into his house and everything. A real home... that's what I've always wanted, all my life. I get all fucking teary eyed thinking about shit like that, so let's just suffice it to say, the house is so spiffy. Oh, and he got me a beaty stick. Got to love a guy who's not afraid to get you a stick you might hit him in the nuts with someday.
Terry
Well, my life has definately become more interesting. That's an old dwarven curse, you know. 'May you live in interesting times'. My employers are not happy about my dating Tanya-- but I'm thrilled. She's the most wonderful girl, and we've been having a great time. I thought perhaps this was because she was a created being-- but then the other night, we hung out with some of her friends on the beach. They were all nice.. generously sharing their food, making room for me around their campfire. I do think that the Society For Elven Advancement has the wrong ideas about humans... but... they just won't listen to me. In fact, they threatened me. So... I guess I have to fudge my research, just a bit.
Melody
Well, now, this was a strange night. Hannah introduced me to her friend Isalec. He seems to be a few cycles older than me, and very gentlemanly. He even walked me all the way back to Fairport. I showed him my gardens and my fishtank before he went home, promising to visit again tomorrow. What a nice man he is- I'll have to remember to thank Hannah for the introduction when I see her at lunch.
Dante
Sune... ah, how can I explain how he has changed my life? I never thought that I would consider a man in that way... but he is a very, very pretty elf. I am begining to let go of a lot of pain of my past. We've also got an important mission- we're going to be helping the Goddess's husband, Daron, to become more combat and archery savvy. I am very proud that we have been entrusted with this important duty. We've been camping in the Holy Grove, and enjoying the peace....
Dark
Alex and I -finally- get some vacation! I'm so happy. We're going to have a great time. We already got to see some old friends (Nef, Alex, Elex) and have a bit of adventure. Took a snapshot of the famous Harris Colby, even. Hopefully, we'll find a lot of fun things to do during our stay here. We've been long overdue for time like this.
Will
I must be the most worthless creature on the face of the Nexus... being rejected by Destiny, and then being told that I should be unmade by Novan... I don't know what's good about me. Will, scorned by Destiny. Will, who should have never existed. At least I find some enjoyment in playing cards and music... but will I ever find something I'm good at? Finn says everyone's good at something, but what if I'm not? What if there's nothing ever that I can be good at?
Rico
Being in space is certainly interesting- there's something spiffy about being able to say you've walked on the surface of the moon. It also seems to be doing some good for our relationship to spend quiet time in our cabin, alone, together...
Sari
Have sex much fun- better is than tend bar!
I miss having my sisters here with me. It feels weird to be without them, after we've lived together for so many cycles. As long as I can remember, they've been here, and we've been a family. But now, each of them is off living their own life, and here I am- but not alone, because I'v got Vin. Vin is the greatest. I can't believe he's going to marry me someday- I'm so lucky. And, I found a good person for Isalec, even though Malta doesn't want him anymore. I think he needs someone to love him. I can't believe I used to be afraid of him- he's my good friend now. Today that girl Cherish was sort of looking at me funny in school today... I hope she doesn't try anything.
Belinda
We had such a wonderful day yesterday! All of us down on the beach, and fishing, and having a great time together. Freddy is just the most wonderful guy. I'm really enjoying staying at his place, and all the good meals he's been cooking for me. I like my job a lot, too. I want to learn how to make all the toys. We used to all work there, but now Hannah's going to school, and I think Vin's going to quit too so he can get a job in Fairport and be closer to Hannah during the day. Thats' really sweet.
Malta
Well, things didn't turn out quite how I expected. I was just going to date this Omar guy to make Isalec jealous. But then I met Omar, and it was like, wow. He likes to curse, just like I do. And he likes to make little jokes about things like me, and he likes to say what he's thinking and so do I - we just have all this stuff in common. And he's -- get this -- an honest locksmith's aprentice. Did you know they really existed? I didn't. And he's got money and a house and shit, too. He let me move into his house and everything. A real home... that's what I've always wanted, all my life. I get all fucking teary eyed thinking about shit like that, so let's just suffice it to say, the house is so spiffy. Oh, and he got me a beaty stick. Got to love a guy who's not afraid to get you a stick you might hit him in the nuts with someday.
Terry
Well, my life has definately become more interesting. That's an old dwarven curse, you know. 'May you live in interesting times'. My employers are not happy about my dating Tanya-- but I'm thrilled. She's the most wonderful girl, and we've been having a great time. I thought perhaps this was because she was a created being-- but then the other night, we hung out with some of her friends on the beach. They were all nice.. generously sharing their food, making room for me around their campfire. I do think that the Society For Elven Advancement has the wrong ideas about humans... but... they just won't listen to me. In fact, they threatened me. So... I guess I have to fudge my research, just a bit.
Melody
Well, now, this was a strange night. Hannah introduced me to her friend Isalec. He seems to be a few cycles older than me, and very gentlemanly. He even walked me all the way back to Fairport. I showed him my gardens and my fishtank before he went home, promising to visit again tomorrow. What a nice man he is- I'll have to remember to thank Hannah for the introduction when I see her at lunch.
Dante
Sune... ah, how can I explain how he has changed my life? I never thought that I would consider a man in that way... but he is a very, very pretty elf. I am begining to let go of a lot of pain of my past. We've also got an important mission- we're going to be helping the Goddess's husband, Daron, to become more combat and archery savvy. I am very proud that we have been entrusted with this important duty. We've been camping in the Holy Grove, and enjoying the peace....
Dark
Alex and I -finally- get some vacation! I'm so happy. We're going to have a great time. We already got to see some old friends (Nef, Alex, Elex) and have a bit of adventure. Took a snapshot of the famous Harris Colby, even. Hopefully, we'll find a lot of fun things to do during our stay here. We've been long overdue for time like this.
Will
I must be the most worthless creature on the face of the Nexus... being rejected by Destiny, and then being told that I should be unmade by Novan... I don't know what's good about me. Will, scorned by Destiny. Will, who should have never existed. At least I find some enjoyment in playing cards and music... but will I ever find something I'm good at? Finn says everyone's good at something, but what if I'm not? What if there's nothing ever that I can be good at?
Rico
Being in space is certainly interesting- there's something spiffy about being able to say you've walked on the surface of the moon. It also seems to be doing some good for our relationship to spend quiet time in our cabin, alone, together...
Sari
Have sex much fun- better is than tend bar!
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