I want to talk about it? Only I am not quite sure where to begin!


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If you look at my LJ it’s like 2011 never happened to me, which is sad because I have a terrible memory and love rereading old posts. Not to mention that I miss fandom and all of you, despite all the name changes that are seriously confusing me! In one of my last posts of 2010 I said that it was the worst year of my life, that was mostly because I was floundering and unemployed for most of it and although I am still pretty unsure and directionless now, I can unequivocally say that 2011 has been a much better year. Full time employment, even if far from being my dream job, has been good for me. Apart from that not that much has changed, still living at home, still single, still not actively trying hard to find fulfilling employment. But I am feeling hopeful for what 2012 will bring.

Fandom wise, though I haven’t been writing apart from random Glee snippets when I am really bored at work, I have been reading some fic. Mostly The Social Network (mostly RPF) because lauds kept sending me links. Evil enabler that she is (this morning she asked “Hypothetically… if I were to get a standing ticket for Richard II at the Donmar, would you be interested?”, “Sure,” I said. Turns out, there is nothing hypothetical about it. So I am off to the theatre shortly…) I have also read a bunch of Glee fic, everything with Santana I could find and nothing with Blaine, because shortly after making this post last year, I have realised that I can’t stand his face. What else? Though the figure skating fandom disintegrated, I keep up with Johnny Weir’s life (apparently he is getting married tomorrow!? Good for him, though it’s a bit quick…) and more surprisingly Figure Skating the sport, which I love! Also X-Men, which I loved so much, I actually saw it twice (and I never do that for anything that isn’t Harry Potter) and read all the modern day AUs I could find. I am sure there is more, though I can’t think of… oh there was a short Harry/Draco nostalgia relapse.

TV wise: only new shows I’ve started this season have been Pan Am (it’s bad, but so shiny!) Ringer (it’s bad, but I still want to know what happens, plus SMG!) American Horror Story, (sort of…I really need to catch up on the last 5ish episodes). Oh and I adored The Hour! (OT3!) enjoyed Game of Thrones and Downton Abbey, and really liked most of Skins Gen 3 (Frankie<3)

I guess the problem is that I don’t have a fandom I am super into at the moment, which is probably why I’ve been gone from LJ for this long, I do have a DW, but I don’t know how to make it pretty, and am too lazy to figure it out and move, so I am staying here. If you are leaving LJ and not crossposting, (um but still reading your flist, otherwise you’d never see this…) please tell me!


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I am really sad I missed the Yuletide sign ups this year, was somewhere in the US without a computer at the time, though it means I can enjoy the collection without the stress. Had a supremely lazy Christmas with lots of time for reading, which means a ton of recs are forthcoming. Although, is it me, or does Yuletide feel a lot smaller this year? It doesn’t look like many of you have participated/are reading?

Hello! I'm sitting in a plane in San Francisco airport. A plane which was supposed to be airborne 40 minutes ago... Not the best start of a 10 hour flight.

How are you flist? Consider thus post a postcard to you all! One with picture of a beach and sun and "I wish you were here"/ "Missing you!" written with a large cheesy font on the front! I actually did write some real postcards today, because the last day of my trip seemed like the best time to do that and I wished I didn't have to go back to cold and rainy England or to my job, but sitting on a plane isn't exactly I wish come true!

So much to say, but my phone isn't the best way to do that, will try to make a proper update when I get back! The sentiment of that imaginary postcard is very much true!

So in the last 6 months, I haven’t really been around. It sort of happened by accident, and every time I try to start posting again, I don’t. It’s kinda almost scary coming back, when I am not used to it and I have only managed to read my flist super sporadically the entire time. Still. I figure you’ve got to start from somewhere and this somewhere is Harry Potter. I can’t not make a post about the last movie. I wish I could say I have a lot of feelings, but in fact I have few feelings, which is the problem.

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In other news, I am off to see Rufus Wainwright at the Royal Opera House tonight, feeling super excited! :D 

OMG MY LAYOUT D: D:

I still suck at updating, but I came here to do so today, seeing as the world didn't end and all, and instead of my lovely, wonderful layout, which has kept me happy for years, I am seeing this. It is horrible.

What the fuck, LJ?! This is not on. I can't look at it or even attempt to read my fist looking like this.

And also, it's good that you know about the problem, but the fact that you are not planning on fixing it, is ridiculous. I can't just pick my old one, I don't know what it's called and I had spend ages customising it.

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P.S. I do hope this entry doesn't mean you never respond to my support request. I didn't mean it! Please fix it and all will be forgotten! :D?

I still feel a bit like my LJ Update button needs some serious dusting off, and getting accidentally drunk and posting wasn't how I planned my return, although it was a good way of breaking the ice, I suppose, and that's good, because I can't do a proper update right now as all I really want to do is talk about Glee.

Dude.

GLEE!!!! <333333333333333333333333333

Do any of you still watch it? Because Born this Way exceeded all my expectation and it was glorious and wonderful in so many ways and had everything I want, basically, all the wonderful friendship moments I adore and Kurt and Rachel and Quinn and Lauren and Puck and even Finn were awesome and all the things that could have been ridiculously and overly preachy somehow worked.

ALL the songs were amazing!

But most of all: Santana!!!

Santana Lopez pretty much owns my soul. And then I just listened to [song from next week's episode] and this is me right now: ;__;

So I have a very important question, where is the long (or not so long, I would settle for 'any'!!) canon compliant Brittana, people? I seem unable to find like any! And they must exist, how could they not'? :(

Guys, giys! HELLO! I am alive! I am sorry for going away fo rso long, i even typed up a post a few days ago which was an exp;amation but i dont know where it is right now, and I just really wanted to say something. I hope you are all doing well, I miss you, I didn';t mean to disappear, it just happened.

It is all myjob's fault. It isn't ebem that busy, but it makes me tired and then I fgo home and the day is gne and weekends I go to Londpn. Anuyway. My parents have gone away for a week and I had a friend visit me tonight and we drank a bottle of Sangria and then some Pimms and then some wine and I spiled some of the wine, which was really bad as it is red and on the kitchen wall and she called her boyfriend to come pick her up, as she was too drunk to drive home, which is very responsble.

I feel very pleasant right nowk, but do not want to go to wotk tomorrow, had a bit if an argument wth my manager last week, and he wasn't win today, so I didn't do too much.

I wish I could dance, the house is so creepy when it's empty, like thinks keep breaking, the mirror in the bathroom fell and broke into so many pinces, I still haven't cleaned it up and the toaster broke and there was a black cat, it is all like the beginning of a horror movie.

I think I am going to start posting more reguarly again, I feel really bad for the people who I added just before I disappeared, they are probably wondering, who the hell this is, but I still would like to et to know you
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And also I sshould robably sep now, as it is getting pretty late, so goodnight ansd tomorrow I will make a proper update, updating you about the state of my life, which is good, more or less, nothing too exciting, tell me how youa ll are, I really want to know! Not reading my flist makes me feel worse than the lack of updating does.

Ohfuck I am really goig to regret this tomorrow,

MUCH LOVW! <3

Guys, guys, I am still giddy and it's 2:30 am and I should be sleeping, but before I do I just wanted to say that I love NYC and I never want to go home!

Yesterday I met Johnny Weir, today I met Zachary Quinto and Rufus Wainwright!! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

So, I did the whole crazy waiting list thing all by myself and it was cold today, very very cold, but I made friends in the queue and it was so worth it. Absolutely wonderful production, loved every moment, seriously considering going to see part two tomorrow.

Oh and Rufus Wainwright was in the audience!! I was getting my ticket, when I looked to my left and he was right there!! At this point I pretty much died. And then I told one of my new friends from the waiting list queue and he pretty much died also and so we went to speak to him. Well, he did. I just went along with him and tried to smile and not look insane. I am so terrible when it comes to meeting famous people I love, I freeze and literally shake. I hate myself a little for reacting like that, but I can't help it. :( I wouldn't have approached him, because he deserves to be left alone, when seeing a play with what I'm almost certain was his boyfriend, but my love for him is kind of intense and I would have regretted not saying hello. Plus, there was something about the intimate atmosphere of the theatre that made it easier to do so. So many people seemed to run into friends or made friends throughout the evening. It was really lovely. Rufus is going tomorrow to see part two, though....so I can totally go and try valiantly not to stare.

Waited after in order to get a picture with ZQ, because I would have been annoyed with myself if I'd ran off. But I hate the picture, so I won't be sharing it with the class.

The only way things could get better is if I run into Matt Bomer tomorrow on the street....haha.

Good night, coming back on Sunday so will catch up with comments and all of you then. <3

RL is here:

2010 was easily the worst year of my life, so I am ridiculously glad it's over and very much looking forward to what 2011 brings me. I don't think I will be doing any of the end of year memes, because the sheer emptiness of my year isn't something I want to be revisiting.

In case anyone was wondering, I am still in the UK, changed my flight, so am going to NYC tomorrow. This meant that instead of a lavishly expensive NYE, I had a virtually free, but nonetheless a rather lovely one. London, a group of good friends, delicious mulled wine and cheap champagne, plenty of nostalgia and a lot of laughter. It really was lovely. I woke up at 11:30 and felt worse for wear, but one of my friends and I decided we need fresh air and managed to get completely lost while attempting the brief walk to St Paul's, ate caramelised peanuts while crossing Millennium Bridge and then had lunch in Tate Modern, where we sat across a guy that was the epitome of street style fashion. All in all a rather wonderful beginning to the year.

I came back from Spain on the 30th, the reason for my lack of update is that my laptop suddenly stopped charging and as soon as the battery finished it sadly died. This led to a lot of panicked receipt searching (it's only 10 months old!) and today's trip to the shop revealed the charger isn't working, but they should send me a new one. (or so they said, after a lengthy phone call it was revealed that this isn't exactly the case...) and because I want to take it with me, we bought a ridiculously expensive universal charger, which I am planning to return after I get back.

As for Spain, I was too ill to even leave the house in the first three days, we had no presents, because we are all fond of the last moment, but snow and illness prevented us from utilising it, and my brother's girlfriend ended up joining us, because she couldn't get to France due to the snow, she is nice, but seriously if I have to take another couply picture I am going to kill something. Haha, despite all these, Spain was actually really great! The weather was amazing, sunny every day, doesn't get dark until 6:30 and sooo much warmer than here. We had a beautiful villa in a little village that was sort of in between Seville, Grenada and Malaga and we went on day trips to all of these as well as a couple of other places. And in the days I couldn't go anywhere, there was Sky tv, so I could watch bad Christmas movies and even Doctor Who on Christmas Day! So good! :D

Fandom is here:

Yuletide was really stressful for me this year, because of said fondness for last minute and the fact that I had the flu didn't help matters, but I did finish my story. which can be found here, and which is Chris/Zach! Not something I ever imagined writing again, to be honest, but here it is. I received a rather lovely Bonnie Bennett character study, but unfortunately I haven't had the opportunity to read more than a tiny handful of other fics. Really looking forward to some quiet time with the Yuletide Archive, I guess that won't be happening for a while.

Johnny Weir's book is coming out on the 11th!! And he is doing a signing and I will be in New York then! I really, really want to go. Not sure how I will explain my sudden interest in figure skating to my friend, but never mind that. :D

I finally saw the Social Network! I thought it was a rather mediocre film, to be honest, it starts off okay, but it ends rather abruptly and I wanted to skip all the parts with the twins and Justin Timberlake and also punch Mark in the face a lot. But I freely admit that Andrew Garfield is the most adorable thing EVER and I want ALL THE FIC! Haven't actually read any yet, so very much interested in recs! :D?

...And that's it? I haven't had time to keep up with anything fandomy, or even read my flist in the past week, I am sorry you guys! I will catch up as soon as I can. Um, what else? I really enjoyed the Doctor Who Christmas special? I take it, this isn't a popular opinion?

My flight is tomorrow at 11, so I am going to bed now! :DDDD

-Aww, we have a new wintery LJ header, I like it!

-Just booked my flight to New York, it arrives at 1:15 on the 31st, which gives me plenty of time before midnight, so fingers crossed for no airport closing snow storms. That would suck. Are there still tickets for Angels in America? Probably not, but I have hopes.  Coming back on the 10th, which means that I miss Johnny Weir's book signing by one day, which I realised as soon as I'd paid, but it's probably for the best.

-I am in denial about the imminent death of delicious, because surely someone will buy it? It will be such huge blow to fandom, and such a step back in technology, the lack of any decent alternatives makes me super sad. :((

-The following three interviews are of three of my favourite people and definitely worth watching

1. Chris Colfer has been nominated for all the awards, which makes me so happy for him, and there are a million adorable interviews with him and with Lea Michele, but this one is the best of the bunch, because 4 minutes 40 seconds into his interview she SURPRISE TACKLES HIM! Then they cuddle for a while, it's the cutest thing over and I really hope we get more Kurt and Rachel friendship moments, because those are the best.
2. My new favourite ZQ interview, I love his little hat and there is face licking and a long discussion of his 'dinger' oh and he names a dog CHRIS PINE! :DDDDD
3. My new favourite Johnny Weir Interview. (part 2) This is amazing, really sad at times, really funny at other times, but white witches insanity and all, it's definitely worth watching, he is wonderfully candid as always, and talks about being bullied as well as his heartbreak. :(((

-Misfits. I am so glad there is the Christmas Special still to come, because I would hate for this to be the end. Episode was fantastic as always, more predictable than I am used to, but filled with some really gorgeous scenes.

-My paid account expired, which I didn't even realise, and thought there was something wrong with LJ as it made me view communities and other ljs in their original layout... I am so used to making everything look the same, and all these cluttered community layouts are horrible. Went to renew the payment, and it didn't work. Turns out my credit card has expired two months ago. So much fail, I only use it very rarely, and thought they should send you a new one, before the expiration date, but apparently not. Maybe it got lost in the post. Either way, going down from 187 icons to 6 is a little limiting.

Hello. I feel like I have spend the last couple of months hiding my head in the sand like an ostrich, things in my RL had hit an all time low and as my way of dealing with everything is avoidance, this has meant that while I may have read every Kurt/Blaine fic in existence, I haven't quite been around. This is going to change, because over the past week I have awoken from my misery, or something, and anyway things are looking up.

RL Things That Are Good.

- I have somehow managed to find myself a grown up job. Well, it isn't what I want to be doing, but it has prospects and a salary and it will be challenging, so it may turn out interesting. I don't know yet. Start date is late January, and I will still be living at home for the time being, but you know what, I am pretty pleased. :D
- I have reconnected with a friend, someone I used to be very closed to, and things ended up getting really weird, and I didn't see him for a year, but he is in the country now and I went to visit him last week and it was so lovely. This was something that has been bothering me for ages.
-Going to Spain with family for Christmas, it should be warm, which yay!
-Planning to go to NYC for New Year, this will involve flying on the 31st, as am getting back from Spain on the 30th and will probably mean me spending NYE on an airport, because of delays,  but it's worth it going before I start my job, as I have a friend I can stay with, who has an amazing apartment a few blocks from Times Square.
-I have such awesome friends, both rl and fandom, which made this past weekend absolutely wonderful: chocolate festival with lemniciate, heyhoolou and nahara, followed by pink champagne and Thai food with my oldest school friend, Sunday Christmas lunch with some of my favourite people, nutroast and being told by someone I have only met twice before that I need to have my own reality show, unplanned cinema trip (the Tourist, didn't realise it was a comedy...) after and unsuccessful Christmas shopping (after four hours, came back with 2 xmas cards, 1 calendar and a necklace for myself. Fail.)
-In the next week plans for more Xmas shopping, a boat party, a free photoshoot and hopefully seeing a number of great people. :)))

Fandom Things That Are Good:

- Caught up on the Vampire Diaries. :DDD Where is all the Caroline/Tylor?
-In Glee news, the bird that was given to Kurt a few eps ago now has a twitter, which appears to be run by all the Warblers, Darren Criss included, and it is pretty much the greatest thing ever. With glitter on top. (Seriously, so much glitter!)
-Have you all heard Johnny Weir's song? What, you may ask, is a figure skater doing releasing a song? Well I haven't got an answer to that, and maybe it isn't the most awesome thing I have ever heard, but he is skating and singing, people! SKATING AND SINGING and his costume is amazing, and it is kinda ridiculously catchy. I love him so much.
-In more Johnny news, Skating with the Stars continues to be ridiculous, but also entertaining and his interactions with Dick Button make the whole show worth watching. There is also this whole war between Johnny and one of the contestants, mostly because she is an awful person, who can't skate, but insists that she doesn't give a shit about what the judges think. But the consequences are amazing.
-In less than great, but pretty funny, other Figure Skating news, Evan Lysacek designs a hideous dress and is apparently a groundbreaker in skating fashion, which was a key to his Olympic success. (I wouldn't watch the whole thing, it's super dull, but skip to 1.50, what is this man on?!)
-In actual skating news, I still haven't watched anything from the GPF, apart from Alissa Czisny, I am so happy for her win, she is so beautiful on the ice. Also very happy for Meryl and Charlie and Kanako's bronze. Sad about Rachael and Miki's injury and can't even talk about the men.


Okay, feel free to skip the rest of this super self-indulgent entry, but PAY ATTENTION now, lemniciate is hosting a great friends reccing/friending meme in her LJ, it's like a friending meme, but you rec your friends! (she explains it a lot better than me!) Tell others! It's really fun! (And to those I've just friended from there, hello! I hope this entry doesn't scare you away.)

In a shocking turn of events, this week I liked Gossip Girl and didn't like Glee.

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This season of Merlin has ranged from mediocre to terrible, (Gwaine aside, I looove him!) which is why I haven't said anything about it, but the last two episodes. OH MY GOD. It's like, up till now all development was slower than snail pace and suddenly everything came together all at once and it was so amazing. :DDDD

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Title: The Saturday after and (a bit of) the Tuesday before (Sectionals)
Rating: PG-13 for language
Word Count: ~4500
Summary: In which Brittany is magic, we see the beginning of several beautiful friendships, Blaine mopes and Artie learns that sex isn’t dating.
Characters: Brittany, Artie, Kurt, Rachel, Santana, Mercedes, Sue, Blaine, Wes,
Pairings: current canon ones, working towards Kurt/Blaine and Brittany/Santana
A/N: Special Education missing scenes and aftermath. I consider this canon compliant, though certain parts take canon at face value and firmly away from authorial intention… : ) While this started life as a couple of random scenes, I think I might have to write a sequel, because I would like to see more than hints when it comes to the pairings. I love concrit and please never be afraid to point out mistakes.

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Deathly Hallows!! I absolutely adored it. It was so beautiful, like seriously was it all filmed in the UK? And where are all these spectacular landscapes?
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Glee. My favourite episode EVER. It was everything I had hoped for, but more!
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1. Finally going to see Deathly Hallows tomorrow! At the imax. So excited! I rewatched HBP in preparation, which I really liked when I saw at the cinema, but found almost dull this time round. The viewing experience was however greatly improved by my dad watching it alongside me and asking me questions such as "Does Hogwarts die in this one' and right at the very end, "wait, is that girl [Ginny]. Ron's sister?" :DDDDD It was weird watching footage from the premieres and of the fans that had camped over night etc, I can't quite believe I did that FIVE years ago.

2. And speaking of HP, Darren Criss is my new favourite person! (he went to the premiere all dressed up and seriously watch this vid, it's less than three minutes of joy!!!)  I mean, I watched A Very Potter Musical last year and enjoyed it a lot, but was still not ecstatic when he was cast in Glee (I wanted Sam/Kurt, dammit) and while I am not completely sold on Blaine yet (well, sure Kurt/Blaine is probably the only thing I've read in a few weeks, but fic!Blaine is very different from what we've seen of him in canon so far) but due to Glee publicity there are all these interviews and he is ridiculous and hilarious and I heart him so much. Like this interview is the best thing ever, he is sitting on the pavement and eating his breakfast and talks about flowers with  a random passer by and answers super random questions. And here he sings Teenage Dream life and makes my face like this:  *________*

3. I love Yuletide, I nearly missed the deadline this year, because I had no idea what I wanted. There are the truly rare things I always want fic for (every John Hughes movie ever. Daria.) but also pretty much all the tv shows I've watched this year (Misfits, Nikita, Mad Men, TVD, Hellcats, Lip Service etc) are eligible and there were so many options. At the end I figured, I probably don't need to ask for Nathan/Kelly or Alex/Nikita, or Marti/Savanna, because someone was bound to write it and went for character fic about characters that I love, which don't really get much fic. Pretty pleased with my assignment as well. Also, I love looking at people's Dear Author letters, have even bookmarked a few, which I want to write something for if I have the time.

4. Skating with the Stars is objectively terrible, but I don't even care because I get to see Johnny Weir and Tanith Belbin on my tv computer screen every week. I just wish there was more of Tanith and Johnny was meaner. I like it when the judges are mean in a constructive way, which is probably why Craig is by far my favourite Strictly judge. (I guess DWTS didn't want him, because he is too mean, but I agree with him most of the time and enjoy his face the rest of the time. And this is a tangent, but whatever. I've never in my life voted for a reality show and unless Johnny Weir competes I probably never will, so I guess I shouldn't complain about Ann, but I truly don't understand why people keep voting for her, I mean WHY?)

5. Currently listening to the Burlesque soundtrack, it is so fun! :))) Probably should be ashamed about how excited I am for this movie, even if it's unlikely I'll find someone to see it with me.

Um. Hello. In case anyone noticed, sorry for disappearing for this long. I didn't plan to stop posting or reading my flist, it just sort of happened and then there was so much to catch up on and say that I just didn't. But I have missed you, plus I have a lot of feelings about Glee, which I need to share.

My relationship with Glee is a bit odd, because I am aware of its many flaws, and yet love it so much. The lack of any consistent plot or characterisation and the fact that so much happens behind the scenes in terms of character development, means that there is so much space for fic. And that is awesome! The season so far has had its ups and downs for me, most of the music I have really enjoyed, some of the plot direction less so. And yeah, it's really offensive at times, but there are scenes, such as a lot of the Duets episode and last night's Never Been Kissed, which have brought me so much joy and tears.That is why I am wiling to forgive a lot and explain away the rest with the help of fic. Even if most of the Glee fic out there is really terrible.

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In non Glee related news, I apparently care for Figure Skating outside of Johnny Weir (though I still love him best. So excited about Skating with the Stars!) as have been keeping up with the Grand Prix events. I have never followed a sport in my life before, am getting emotionally invested and everything, it's very new and exciting for me! My excuse is that it's helping me with my Russian, as I always watch the Russian stream. Very useful. :)

Anyway, will try to return to regular posting, now I've broken my hiatus and will try to catch up with you all. Hope all is well? Tell me what I've missed!