jedispyder

It's been awhile, lot of shit has happened.

Grandma passed away day before Thanksgiving...Thanksgiving was a cluster fuck because of that and plus Bob is still a dick towards mom.

Bryan dropped the a-bomb on me that he wanted me to move into Grandma's house, which she willed to him.

So I am! Holy fuck, wasn't expecting that. Me moving out again, hopefully it won't be as fucked up as the first time I did it.

Today I moved the first bunch of things over, a huge ass box of books. It was at least 24 inches tall and 11x9. Filled with books. Fuck was that heavy, lol!

I don't know if I mentioned earlier, but this year I started writing. I submitted 2 stories earlier in the year to Parsec, a writing contest. As expected I didn't place but they gave me positive reviews. I've wanted to write more recently but haven't sat down and done anything yet. I kinda want to write an addition to Philip K Dick's [u]Eye in the Sky[/u] as if I was one of the novels dramatis personas. Would be interesting to write the world as I see it. Porn encounters would happen but nothing would actually happen, lol.

Today I did something else that was really good, I designed 2 icons/avatars/whatever. Now I know I'm not that great anymore, I'm extremely rusty. But it was fun! They'd been dragging around in my head for a bit, I know there is stuff I could have done to make them better but I'm proud of them:


That's it for now. No clue how much longer it'll be before I post again. Then again I'm sure no one's reading, so meh.

So nothing really new. Well, stuff I could describe but it's not really new. Going through a bit of a depression right now, but what surprise is that? I've been battling depression all my life, not even drugs work. So I'm used to it, and have accepted that my death might eventually be because of said depression.

I want to start writing again, I had a lot of fun doing that. I wrote about 5 short stories towards the middle of the year and they were a blast. Might have to work through some stuff that way ^_^

Discovered a new band, Owl City. Not really a band, mainly just one single guy who gets people to help him out. It's pretty cool, all the songs sound a bit alike but I love the lyrics. Reminds me of Fountains of Wayne + Hellogoodbye + Something Corporate.

Who knows how long it'll be before I update again, but then again I'm sure people really aren't reading this anymore so it's just me putting my life out for the public of none...

Yep, it's been awhile since an interesting post. Not really interesting stuff going, just me going through life as usual. Dan enlightened me to the fact that I'm actually not "going through the motions" cause there are no "motions" in my life to go, I'm only staying the same track and being the same guy as always. No progress and no turns = no "going through the motions". Shit.

I'm trying to change....or so I keep telling myself. I just don't think I can, I think I'm stuck in this mode of apathy and self-loathing. Ugh.

Senior Design ends in 2 weeks. Hopefully we pass this hellish class. Still no clue when I'll graduate. Thought it was gonna be in the fall quarter but looks like it'll actually be winter quarter. Damn.

This hot girl at work wrote down a shitload of bands she thought I might like. That was like 3 weeks ago. I've been meaning to create a list for her, but haven't. I always think about it...just never do it. I keep telling myself "I'll do it tomorrow" and tomorrow tell myself the exact same thing. Fuck.

Yep, definitely been awhile since I posted. Not much has been going on besides getting too stressed out at school. I did take a General Chemistry I class at Raymond Walters where there were a shitload of hot girls, I definitely enjoyed that. Sadly next quarter I'm only at my shitty campus with only 1 female in the class, ugh. Plus that class is really fucking up my system, making me stress out too much...

I just want next quarter to be over and done with already, and I haven't even started it yet! When June finally comes around I'll be able to finally relax...

So back in August I posted this:
Star Wars Miniatures Constructed (as of 2008-08-11)
1647 rating -- 78 matches -- 23 events
470 All -- 388 North America -- 340 United States -- 23 US-Ohio -- 14 Cincinnati-Hamilton, OH-KY-IN

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Star Wars Miniatures Limited (as of 2008-08-11)
1619 rating -- 14 matches -- 4 events
319 All -- 258 North America -- 232 United States -- 22 US-Ohio -- 12 Cincinnati-Hamilton, OH-KY-IN


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Skip ahead 7 months and I am now:

Star Wars Miniatures Constructed (as of 2009-03-16)
1706 rating -- 138 matches -- 41 events
243 All -- 204 North America -- 174 United States -- 16 US-Ohio -- 9 Cincinnati-Hamilton, OH-KY-IN

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Star Wars Miniatures Limited (as of 2009-03-16)
1608 rating -- 31 matches -- 9 events
620 All -- 492 North America -- 445 United States -- 33 US-Ohio -- 15 Cincinnati-Hamilton, OH-KY-IN

So...yeah, looks like while I did great in Constructed I did horribly in Limited (in fact I lost points doing Limited even though I did 5 events, lol). It'll be interesting to see how I end up a couple months from now...

So how has everyone been? Its been the usual for me, lol. I refound a message board that I helped "build", aka I was there Day 1 helping out but I didn't actually make the website. I lost the MB a couple years back but I'm glad I found them again, definitely a great bunch of people. No clue if any have a LJ or not, but its fun being back with them again. Dan needs to get his ass back on there, he was right there in the beginning with me.

I have been playing a shitload of Facebook games recently. Mob Wars and the World of Blood series are hella fun! I'm almost done with 1 of the World of Blood games, I could finish it today but the last mission totally kicks my ass...

001. (01/02) P.S. I Love You
002. (01/09) One Missed Call
003. (01/16) Cloverfield
004. (01/18) Mad Money
005. (01/20) 27 Dresses
006. (01/20) Bucket List
007. (01/27) Untraceable
008. (01/27) Meet the Spartans
009. (02/02) Strange Wilderness
010. (02/02) Over Her Dead Body
011. (02/10) Welcome Home, Roscoe Jenkens
012. (02/10) Fool's Gold
013. (02/14) Definitely, Maybe
014. (02/17) The Eye
015. (02/17) The Spiderwick Chronicles
016. (02/20) Jumper
017. (02/24) Be Kind Rewind
018. (02/24) Vantage Point
019. (02/27) Charlie Bartlett
020. (03/01) Semi-Pro
021. (03/16) Never Back Down
022. (03/16) 10,000 B.C.
023. (03/23) Drillbit Taylor
024. (03/23) Doomsday
025. (03/30) 21
026. (03/30) Stop-Loss
027. (04/02) Run, Fat Boy, Run
028. (04/13) Prom Night
029. (04/13) Smart People
030. (04/18) Forgetting Sarah Marshall
031. (04/26) Deception
032. (04/27) Baby Mama
033. (04/27) Harold and Kumar Escape from Guantanamo Bay
034. (05/01) Iron Man
035. (05/03) Forgetting Sarah Marshall
036. (05/07) My Bluberry Nights
037. (05/07) The Life Before Her Eyes
038. (05/17) Made of Honor
039. (05/18) Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian
040. (05/18) What Happens in Vegas
041. (05/21) Indiana Jones and the Kingdom of the Crystal Skull
042. (05/29) Sex and the City
043. (06/08) You Don't Mess with the Zohan
044. (06/08) Kung Fu Panda
045. (06/11) The Strangers
046. (06/12) The Incredible Hulk
047. (06/13) The Happening
048. (06/22) The Love Guru
049. (06/22) Get Smart
050. (06/26) Wanted
051. (07/02) Hancock
052. (07/13) Hellboy 2
053. (07/17) Dark Knight
054. (07/27) X-Files: I Want To Believe
055. (07/27) Step Brothers
056. (08/03) The Mummy: Tomb of the Dragon Emperor
057. (08/03) Swing Vote
058. (08/05) Pineapple Express
059. (08/12) Tropic Thunder
060. (08/16) Star Wars: The Clone Wars
061. (08/20) Star Wars: The Clone Wars
062. (08/27) Hamlet 2
063. (08/31) College
064. (08/31) Babylon A.D. or House Bunny
065. (09/17) Burn After Reading
066. (09/21) My Best Friend's Girl
067. (09/21) House Bunny or Babylon A.D.
068. (09/24) Sex Drive
069. (09/28) Choke
070. (10/05) Nick & Norah's Infinite Playlist
071. (10/05) How to Lose Friends and Alienate People
072. (10/12) Quarantine
073. (10/12) City of Ember
074. (10/19) W
075. (10/26) Saw V
076. (10/31) Zack & Miri Make a Porno
077. (11/07) Role Models
078. (11/13) Quantum of Solace
079. (11/23) Twilight
080. (11/25) Synecdoche, NY
081. (11/25) Rachel Getting Married
082. (11/30) Four Christmases
083. (11/30) Changeling
084. (12/09) Zack & Miri Make a Porno
085. (12/14) Punisher
086. (12/14) The Day the Earth Stood Still

So its been quite awhile since I've updated, lol. As you can see, I totally don't know which week I saw House Bunny or Babylon A.D., lol. That happens when you see as many as I do. I doubt I'll be able to hit 100 before the end of the year, but I know damn sure I'm gonna hit 90 with the next couple days ;)

I realized that I fucking complain too much. Even now I'm complaining about complaining, lol.

So Whitney's b-day was Friday...I tried to make amends by sending her a message through Facebook wishing her happy b-day and trying to re-friend her. They always say "third time's a charm", but evidently when its friending someone for a third time it isn't cause she sure as hell didn't approve, lol ;) But I realize I need to just let it go, forget about her as much as I can. For some reason I can't and wish I could. Fuck, its been 3 years since we met and over 2 years since I left her. We didn't even fucking make it to either of our birthdays, and I just need to man-up and forget her. Its funny, I never remembered her cell # until after I left her...

My life really is stuck in a rut. I still try to mask myself and give the illusion that I'm happy, but truthfully I'm not all that happy. Obviously I'm annoyed that I complain too much, but I'm more annoyed at how alone I feel all the time. Meh, that's life...

One thing I am happy about is that I finally left my pysch. Its been 4-5 months since I had a visit with her and I'm glad to be gone. In the end it was a whole song and dance routine, IMO. I'd bitch about work cause there was nothing else I wanted to talk about cause she just wasn't helping. So I'm at least happy I've got that out of my life...

On a totally random note, one more week until the new Jack's Mannequin cd comes out. Excited!

So I just got back from 4 intense days of gaming at GenCon, lol. I played some 29 Star Wars Minis "official" matches and won about 14 of those. I'm interested to see how my DCI rating changes after GenCon with so many players there, so I'll record what it is now and what it will be when its updated:

Star Wars Miniatures Constructed (as of 2008-08-11)
1647 rating ------ 78 matches ------ 23 events
470 All ------ 388 North America ------ 340 United States ------ 23 US-Ohio ------ 14 Cincinnati-Hamilton, OH-KY-IN

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Star Wars Miniatures Limited (as of 2008-08-11)
1619 rating ------ 14 matches ------ 4 events
319 All ------ 258 North America ------ 232 United States ------ 22 US-Ohio ------ 12 Cincinnati-Hamilton, OH-KY-IN

So, whats new everyone?

I had this really fucked up dream last night, lol. Think it was becuase I got too much sleep, one of those weird ones.

It was a Thursday night and I was off work for some reason, not sure why. I thought it was a Wednesday so that was weird. I ended up going downtown but it ended up a small quant town that kinda sorta reminded me of Romania. I ended up running into this temp from work that is on dayshift that I like and we talked briefly. Or something like that, I know she ended up there eventually. I thought it was weird cause she's usually only off on Fridays. Well ending up I go to this coffeehouse only to find it boarded up. Then I realized the building next to it is where my old-psychiatrist is (yes, I stopped going to my psychiatrist, felt it wasn't working anymore). Then I walk around and somehow get in a small fight with this guy selling stuff and one of us hits the other, can't remember. I end up having to buy something from him and it was Uncanny X-Men 214 with a different cover. I don't think I was happy with having to buy it, but the fucker pissed me off already. I look at my watch and decide to leave. Suddenly the landscape turns into a small college campus. I head to my car and end up walking with the girl I have a crush on. For some reason we have the same car and we can face each other when we get in. Can't remember exactly what happens next, but I do remember thinking I was going to late for Mavericks and I'm never late for Mavericks so I begin to speed. Eventually I run a red light that I try not to, but it was at the last second that I realize there is a light there and I can't stop. This truck then starts coming after me with cop lights. I keep going hoping not to get pulled over but I end up do. But as I'm pulling over to the side all these other cars are pulling over to the side. In fact, the make me go into the grass near a downward hill cause so many people are pulling over. So I'm stuck sitting in my car pissed at getting pulled over when a cop comes up to talk to me. Ending up I wasn't pulled over for speeding, but for some accident that some other lady caused. She said I'd be charged $500 for every something-or-other that the lady gets charged. I walk out with the other people getting charged this and I'm quite pissed. I end up running into a friend from work who got pulled over as well and he's not happy. Then for some reason I look out to see where I am and notice I'm near a bridge and there is a river with fancy buildings across the shore. Someone is (saving, lowering) someone else down off a building so its kinda weird. My friend and I then talk around and somehow there is an ice cream stand across the road. And for some strange reason that ice cream stand also sells equipment to canoe in the river, lol! My friend and I are looking at the ice cream and someone gives me a sample that is the size of a regular scoop. My friend starts talking about some picture they have of him from "way back when" where he was still smoking. Then someone else gives me a sample the size of a scoop of the ice cream I am already still sampling. I'm trying to decide what to get when I realize its Thursday so I'm not gonna be late for Mavericks. Then I totally don't remember the ending.

Fucked up, eh? Best part, of course, was seeing the girl I have a crush on. Everything else was just fucking crazy, heh...