I actually have a long weekend because of veterans day, so I don't have work tomorrow! And I actually have an additional day off because remember how I was saying that work was hassling me to take mandatory leave? Well, they really do want me to take it so I shoved 3 vacation days onto my schedule. I'm taking a day off this Tuesday, then a day off after Thanksgiving, and another day off on Dec 2nd. Taking days off is a foreign concept to me. xP I really rather would work the time and just cash out the leave, but oh well. I do think some time off from work will probably be useful in making me feel less homicidal towards my coworkers.

At least, one can hope. eheh

It started snowing today! Eeeeeh. I was excited that the snow stayed away for so long! We had that early snow in September but it didn't stick around, and it had stayed clear of snow until yesterday. The snow yesterday all melted pretty quickly, so I went to sleep with the ground still bare. I woke up this morning to it snowing... and it kept snowing heavily all day. There's a lot of snow out there now! I have a feeling this is the instant winter that we usually get. I know a lot of people are excited about the snow, but I'm not one of them. I just looked out the window and was like

Now it really is time for me to break out the long johns and stuff for my walks home from work, because I intend to continue to do that.

I've never been a big winter person. It's funny because everywhere I've lived has been wintery, but still. The last few years winter has been the better part of the year for me though, because it felt safe. When spring began to approach, the melting snow was like a physical manifestation of my security melting away. I was talking to Scottie this summer about the fact that this is the longest I'd gone in a very long time where I haven't had to fear for my life! It messes with your head to constantly think: I am going to die for this, but it's not going to be like "At least she died doing something she loved!" it would be "She died doing something she hated, didn't believe in, was opposed to, and had probably told everyone else how ridiculously stupid whatever harebrained scheme going on was but lol nobody listens to me~"

You know this plan of yours is going to get us killed.
Eventually you want to toss yourself into an abyss because at least you have control over that.

I forgot where I was going with this. I do know this isn't what I actually meant to write though. xP I have a migraine and should just go to bed. :P