Disillusionment swaddled around my eyes.
A protective mask to keep the innards in innocence.
Free radicals tiptoe out of my cells, creating fireworks and chaos.
Raining in my heart like sulphur.
I watch you shimmer in all colours.
My headache grey hums and heaves.
A step in your direction, allows this unmistakable feeling of regret,
to wash over me like wasted chances.
I wish I were like you.
I wish I had that jesus energy, vingered will and clarity.
Though faults falter my feet with sticky disregard.
I stumbled into something wonderous.
An electric blue, something new and smothered in deliverance.
My era of self-respect.
An abandonment to self-pity, mortarium’s of paralysed longing.
A revolution rising within, as empires of unloved fall.
Havoc and Consequence 