Tag: trauma
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Visualization With an Alter Who Shows Me the Way
After the events in my previous post about being in crisis with my DID system, I went to my therapist and broke down sobbing as I told them about the previous week and feeling like the way I’m interacting with my system is no longer helpful. I told them I was at a loss about…
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System Crisis a Call for Changes in My Healing Journey
Healing complex PTSD is, well, complex. As complex as the effects of the trauma, maybe more because it’s so difficult to find ways to pull apart the damage and reveal the next steps in the process. For me having Dissociative Identity Disorder and 13 known alters, the journey often feels like an impossible one. I…
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Rage sleeps lightly
My therapist and I have an ongoing conversation about my anger and rage. We’ve worked out that the reason I stuff it is because I learned at an early age it was useless against the nightmare that was my father and often made things worse. I don’t know if one of my alters still feels…
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A letter to my father
I did a thing. A big thing. I wrote a letter to my father. I post it here, with names changed for the sake of anonymity and my children’s genders randomized. I haven’t confronted my father in any way in many, many years. Instead, I have focused all of my available energy on my own…
Handless Maiden's Journey 