eesoo

Since I haven't been posting, this will  be my last post on LiveJournal unfortunately,   Iv'e been stressed recently thinking of making  another LiveJournal account,  I don't why ... but I just want a fresh start and talk about in my new journal

 My self, my thoughts and my surroundings, since In this journal I have been just talking about stories, I want to talk about in my new journal about  my emotions and how am I feeling because, I just think in this Journal I havent really expressed my feelings and I think making another chapter on my new livejournal account with my feelings and I want to change my username too .

I might tell my new LiveJournal account depends if I feel comfortable.

Thank you for listening and for the people who subscribed, thank you.

Something had happened this week, I do not want to talk about it but recently, it  has been so stressful. I had tests which I didn't know, I had to revise last minute  and the people in my school today has been so annoying.

Since Day 1, my dream on LiveJournal is to be on the User ratings like my Brother, When, my Brother was on LiveJournal my Brother in a few days went on the user ratings, I was soooo happy for my Brother so I thought, why don't I be on the user ratings since, my Brother went on the  user ratings and since my Brother did it, I can do it too.

Not gonna lie it took a few weeks which was pretty long lol and today is the day, I finally went on user ratings :D

and today is the day, I am on the user ratings finally it came true,  I never thought Ill be  2878th place on the user ratings  thank you so muchh, I am so grateful :DD

I just want to say thank you so much, this is such a huge achievement for me on LiveJournal  right now and I just want to say, thank you for everyone who supported me in this wonderful, great journey and thank you so much!!! 

I just want to say thank you so much for the people who is subscribed, I am so grateful, I wouldn't be on the user ratings right now, if it wasn't for you thank you :DD

-eesoo

I have been thinking about this for a while...

like really, but since Iv'e been in ups and downs recently, ive been questioning like should I be angry of this ? Why am I feeling like his? like imagine being nice to someone and they throw it back in your face... like, what's the whole point ....

like, this makes me angry when I say this...

I have been talking about it with people and my parents especially my Brother but since I want to talk about it, I want to look back at my journal  and say wow I have really been through a lot and I went through it all.

anyways... There was a birthday party and I didn't want to go but my Brother wanted to go, not gonna lie I said, I didn't want to go but I really wanted to go kinda.. I am not sure mixed emotions??

and I got a message from the Guy who is doing the birthday party yo wanna come and I am like (me) — ofcc sure :DD btw my Brother knows the person who is throwing the birthday party and I knew that guy from year 7 because he is my Brothers friend.

He started saying  wanna go to KFC something across the lines and am like of course, and starting saying do you have money? and I am like yes, and he started saying how much money do you have and I am like I don't feel comfortable, I don't know actually, it felt personal and he starting saying can you pay for the whole food? and starting saying eesoo you are taking a long time type faster so rude.

 But not gonna lie I was shocked and I thought, what's the whole part coming to a birthday party?

 I was so mad and I told my Brother who is friends with the guy who is throwing the birthday party, and I told my Brother everything.

I told my Brother about the money that I have to pay for all of the food and my Brother said no, He never asked me that and ...

Infact, I never did anything to you, this says a lot about a person infact, asked me to pay for the whole money for the food..

I was like wow, the fact that he didn't ask my Brother for his money and he asked to pay for the whole of the food hurts me.

by the way, I didn't went and my Brother turned up just him and the guy who is throwing the birthday party and whats really startles me, he never asked my Brither to pay and by the way asked my Brother to pay and he said its fine but when it comes to me...

lol anyways, I just want to talk about since he is my Brothers friend I always has to see his face....

like imagine going to a birthday party and they asked you to pay for the whole food and never asked your brother or friend...

yeah, that was this year 2026... 

you know, writing this journal.... made me feel better not gonna lie, being this journal helped me a lot.

so thanks livejournal 

I met so much great people kayerox shirebound  includingjnapier  and spikesgirl58 

and thank you for being with with  me in this  wonderful journey :D

Also, I just wanted to say jnapier thank you so much for helping yesterday, It helped me so much and I am so grateful, the comment helped me so much so, thank you :D

including shirebound thank you

I just want to say thanks kayerox and spikesgirl58 for always being there :DD

thank you for reading :D

-eesoo

Since I haven't been posting.... Ill squeeze up an update for you :D

I actually been depressed lately, I don't know why but these past few days, I have been trying so hard revising for the geography test and ngl its been so stressful and soooo tiring and I'm figuring out should I take a break? or am I being lazy.

and I am soooo dry I want to move forms so bad and I do not want to  get foundation... so next week I am gonna revise soooo hard since I literally worked so hard for geography today.

Last week, I have just made my own  YouTube channel and I am figuring out what username should I have hmmm. In my Youtube Short  I have gained 5.5k views on my YouTube short and gained 10 subscribers good start haha but trying to figure out what should be my YouTube video but it has been great, Ive been trying to make an YouTube short but still need editing  ...

I am soooo tired like literally right now, it was soooo chaotic trying to find a seat where someone doesn't have there phone and like you don't want to sit where the distrupters are like suddenly, it happened soooo fast my friend sat In front of me my other friend sat on the right side his face red...

and thats when I had to tell my Brother and My Friend to come here quickly (jic) just incase because my Brother is friends with her :D

-eesoo

Congratulations kayerox for star of the week you deserve it !!!

kayerox Thank you so much for always being there, and always doing the right thing and being kind to me :D

-eesoo-

I have just finished PE, ngl it was so painful I just did athletics... my shoes kept falling off while I was running  and my legs was so much  in pain also, I didn't wear my PE kit too.

I am in the Libary right now with  my brother, kayerox and I am with my friends. While I was running my legs was in pain and I couldn't do another run because I felt so much pain now,when I walk I feel better but I still feel a bit of weight and pressure on my legs. 

 I am doing fine now and while I was on the boys changing room I saw one of my classmates smoke like What the... 

Anyways, yesterday was very good, My Dad did my haircut me and my Brother kayerox  was just watching 2NE1 and Maddision Bailey covers it was amazing, I cant wait when I get home to watch their music videos and revise. and 2NE1 Japan concert so yeah yesterday and my weekend was very amazing and awesome !!:D

right now I am sitting next to kayerox  and my 2 friends are in the Libary! Shoutout to spikesgirl58 

Today at morning, I have just been watching a bunch of Ariana Grande videos lol and making kayerox mad because Kayerox wanted to watch Blackpink and BTS since I am a huggeee Ariana Grande fan! after brushed my teeth and chatted to spikesgirl58 and commented on people entries since I have a lot of free time today because why not ^_^

 Anyways, so glad this week is almost over and having cake from Wing Yip which I am dyinggg for... today was much better than yesterday to be honest, because I gotta spend time with my Family and get to relax and be on LJ :D

bye and I'll try my best to keep updating :DDD

Finally All my lessons are over I am just hanging out with kayerox and my friends Riley and Aanish I haven't spented time with them lately so it has been nice. I am so proud of getting through this whole week I don't know what to do when I get home maybe study for my test anyways what a crazy and dramatic week only lunch and then assembly and home time.