Selfish

I have been thinking about this for a while...

like really, but since Iv'e been in ups and downs recently, ive been questioning like should I be angry of this ? Why am I feeling like his? like imagine being nice to someone and they throw it back in your face... like, what's the whole point ....

like, this makes me angry when I say this...

I have been talking about it with people and my parents especially my Brother but since I want to talk about it, I want to look back at my journal  and say wow I have really been through a lot and I went through it all.

anyways... There was a birthday party and I didn't want to go but my Brother wanted to go, not gonna lie I said, I didn't want to go but I really wanted to go kinda.. I am not sure mixed emotions??

and I got a message from the Guy who is doing the birthday party yo wanna come and I am like (me) — ofcc sure :DD btw my Brother knows the person who is throwing the birthday party and I knew that guy from year 7 because he is my Brothers friend.

He started saying  wanna go to KFC something across the lines and am like of course, and starting saying do you have money? and I am like yes, and he started saying how much money do you have and I am like I don't feel comfortable, I don't know actually, it felt personal and he starting saying can you pay for the whole food? and starting saying eesoo you are taking a long time type faster so rude.

 But not gonna lie I was shocked and I thought, what's the whole part coming to a birthday party?

 I was so mad and I told my Brother who is friends with the guy who is throwing the birthday party, and I told my Brother everything.

I told my Brother about the money that I have to pay for all of the food and my Brother said no, He never asked me that and ...

Infact, I never did anything to you, this says a lot about a person infact, asked me to pay for the whole money for the food..

I was like wow, the fact that he didn't ask my Brother for his money and he asked to pay for the whole of the food hurts me.

by the way, I didn't went and my Brother turned up just him and the guy who is throwing the birthday party and whats really startles me, he never asked my Brither to pay and by the way asked my Brother to pay and he said its fine but when it comes to me...

lol anyways, I just want to talk about since he is my Brothers friend I always has to see his face....

like imagine going to a birthday party and they asked you to pay for the whole food and never asked your brother or friend...

yeah, that was this year 2026... 

you know, writing this journal.... made me feel better not gonna lie, being this journal helped me a lot.

so thanks livejournal 

I met so much great people kayerox shirebound  includingjnapier  and spikesgirl58 

and thank you for being with with  me in this  wonderful journey :D

Also, I just wanted to say jnapier thank you so much for helping yesterday, It helped me so much and I am so grateful, the comment helped me so much so, thank you :D

including shirebound thank you

I just want to say thanks kayerox and spikesgirl58 for always being there :DD

thank you for reading :D

-eesoo