I'm somehow really worried about my Sociology class.
Lately, I don't think I've been doing very well, and it's already the 3rd week!
If I don't push myself to do better, my parents are seriously going to kill me :(!
Well aside from that...I watched "The Pursuit of Happyness" on Friday and it touched my heart to the point that I was thinking about my own life. I wondered how my future was going to be if I had to live through those conditions - taking care of my child, finding a place to sleep, getting a job, working my bones off until I give up. I don't want to be in that situation. But, for me, it might happen. I have almost given up on myself many times before...and I don't want to be back there again.
Life doesn't want me here.
P.S. New LJ -
sourdisaster (go add me now!)
Lately, I don't think I've been doing very well, and it's already the 3rd week!
If I don't push myself to do better, my parents are seriously going to kill me :(!
Well aside from that...I watched "The Pursuit of Happyness" on Friday and it touched my heart to the point that I was thinking about my own life. I wondered how my future was going to be if I had to live through those conditions - taking care of my child, finding a place to sleep, getting a job, working my bones off until I give up. I don't want to be in that situation. But, for me, it might happen. I have almost given up on myself many times before...and I don't want to be back there again.
Life doesn't want me here.
P.S. New LJ -
sourdisaster (go add me now!)Honda Civic Tour - one word: AMAZING!
First off, Melissa dropped us off at around 4:30 PM and me and Bonnie walked to the Honda Center. We actually received free parking for being one of the first 1,000 Hondas there, but it didn't really matter. So anyways, as we're waiting, I see the magnificent Honda Civic decorated in all it's Fall Out Boy glory ~ It was that beautiful! Unfortunately, I don't think I won haha. Then we walk back to the front door and wait. Soon, one of the workers tells us to form a line so we did. Although, after we finally got to the front, she said that everyone who had tickets for the floor section should go around the building to the North East gate. I was pretty pissed 'cause we were almost there, but no! We quickly get there and finally get to the middle of the line. After such a longggg wait, we finally get in and start running to get nice spots on the floor. Yet, a lotta people were already there and up on the barrier D: so we were stuck 5 or 6 rows back! It was pretty good though. My back was really hurting from standing and the sunburns that I got from Raging Waters (went on Melissa's birthday the day before. It still hurts now D:). Suddenly, the lights dimmed and Cobra Starship came out :D They put on a great show! I'm so glad I got to see 'em live twice! At that moment, I realized that my camera was on mute, so the videos that I took of 'em had no sound D: so I deleted them :( ugh. Well, after that, Paul Wall came out and no one was actually excited haha. It was funny seeing how none of us knew the songs except the last one with grillz. He was actually going to give out free grillz but he only gave one to some person :/ lucky (lol I actually wanted one!). So we practically waited a long while until The Academy Is :D oh jeez, they were hella awesome! I was so thrilled to see them for the 1st time and I kept holding up my sign that said "Santi is Almost Here!" (Santi is their new album and Almost Here was their 1st one). I don't think they saw it but I was glad I got to hold it (maybe one of the camera men got a shot of it?! lol). The crowd was going crazy through their set and it was fun :)! Then, +44 was up and they did an amazing job too! I didn't know any of their songs but I was still rocking out to 'em hehe. Their set was long though and I couldn't wait til Fall Out Boy came up! So, me and Bonnie kept biting our lips and shaking nervously, worrying when they were going to show. Finally, the lights dimmed again and the screen lit up with multiple images of the band members :D oh man, you should've seen the crowd! The screaming was so high, bouncing off the walls while everyone was jumping up like crazy! They started off singing "Thriller" and man, it was just beyond amazing! I was so blissfully happy to see Patrick (lol ugh, me and my stupid infatuation D:)! There were many funny pranks going on stage the whole time (like, the guys were running on stage in their underwear during +44's set and in Andy's seat, there was a naked doll on it haha). I practically sang to all the songs except one which I didn't know (I realized it was the song "Nothing Compares 2 U" afterwards...Patrick was doing a cover. Man, it was beautiful :O!). Although, the whole time that I was dancing and singing, there were these stupid girls who kept staring at me :/ one of them even shoved me a bit to get between me and her friend! I wanted to slap her >:/ ugh! I noticed she giggled when she did that...grr). Overall, it was such a fun time :D at the end of the show, confetti blasted out and I was smiling so much when I looked up...I even saved some of it in my backpack lol. I really miss seeing them though :/ I'm hoping to see 'em again next year! Oh yea, I bought a Fall Out Boy tee (Bonnie told me to buy something that they only sell on tour so I got it :D I really wanted the Batmond necklace but they were sold out D: so sad!). Man, I'll never forget that day...so awesome :3!
Cobra Starship:
Yea, Gabe!
Gabe & Vicky-T!
The Academy Is:
+44:
Mark Hoppus!
FALL OUT BOY:
Patrick <3
P33t Wentz :b
Andy doing his drum solo B)
end of show!
One of the pranks they played...many of the band members were running in their underwear during +44's set lol!
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LOL, I like how all my videos are uploaded on different sites...I dunno why :/
anddd I will surely try to upload my other vids and pics but for now, I needa study and crap D:
First off, Melissa dropped us off at around 4:30 PM and me and Bonnie walked to the Honda Center. We actually received free parking for being one of the first 1,000 Hondas there, but it didn't really matter. So anyways, as we're waiting, I see the magnificent Honda Civic decorated in all it's Fall Out Boy glory ~ It was that beautiful! Unfortunately, I don't think I won haha. Then we walk back to the front door and wait. Soon, one of the workers tells us to form a line so we did. Although, after we finally got to the front, she said that everyone who had tickets for the floor section should go around the building to the North East gate. I was pretty pissed 'cause we were almost there, but no! We quickly get there and finally get to the middle of the line. After such a longggg wait, we finally get in and start running to get nice spots on the floor. Yet, a lotta people were already there and up on the barrier D: so we were stuck 5 or 6 rows back! It was pretty good though. My back was really hurting from standing and the sunburns that I got from Raging Waters (went on Melissa's birthday the day before. It still hurts now D:). Suddenly, the lights dimmed and Cobra Starship came out :D They put on a great show! I'm so glad I got to see 'em live twice! At that moment, I realized that my camera was on mute, so the videos that I took of 'em had no sound D: so I deleted them :( ugh. Well, after that, Paul Wall came out and no one was actually excited haha. It was funny seeing how none of us knew the songs except the last one with grillz. He was actually going to give out free grillz but he only gave one to some person :/ lucky (lol I actually wanted one!). So we practically waited a long while until The Academy Is :D oh jeez, they were hella awesome! I was so thrilled to see them for the 1st time and I kept holding up my sign that said "Santi is Almost Here!" (Santi is their new album and Almost Here was their 1st one). I don't think they saw it but I was glad I got to hold it (maybe one of the camera men got a shot of it?! lol). The crowd was going crazy through their set and it was fun :)! Then, +44 was up and they did an amazing job too! I didn't know any of their songs but I was still rocking out to 'em hehe. Their set was long though and I couldn't wait til Fall Out Boy came up! So, me and Bonnie kept biting our lips and shaking nervously, worrying when they were going to show. Finally, the lights dimmed again and the screen lit up with multiple images of the band members :D oh man, you should've seen the crowd! The screaming was so high, bouncing off the walls while everyone was jumping up like crazy! They started off singing "Thriller" and man, it was just beyond amazing! I was so blissfully happy to see Patrick (lol ugh, me and my stupid infatuation D:)! There were many funny pranks going on stage the whole time (like, the guys were running on stage in their underwear during +44's set and in Andy's seat, there was a naked doll on it haha). I practically sang to all the songs except one which I didn't know (I realized it was the song "Nothing Compares 2 U" afterwards...Patrick was doing a cover. Man, it was beautiful :O!). Although, the whole time that I was dancing and singing, there were these stupid girls who kept staring at me :/ one of them even shoved me a bit to get between me and her friend! I wanted to slap her >:/ ugh! I noticed she giggled when she did that...grr). Overall, it was such a fun time :D at the end of the show, confetti blasted out and I was smiling so much when I looked up...I even saved some of it in my backpack lol. I really miss seeing them though :/ I'm hoping to see 'em again next year! Oh yea, I bought a Fall Out Boy tee (Bonnie told me to buy something that they only sell on tour so I got it :D I really wanted the Batmond necklace but they were sold out D: so sad!). Man, I'll never forget that day...so awesome :3!
Cobra Starship:
Yea, Gabe!
Gabe & Vicky-T!
The Academy Is:
+44:
Mark Hoppus!
FALL OUT BOY:
Patrick <3
P33t Wentz :b
Andy doing his drum solo B)
end of show!
One of the pranks they played...many of the band members were running in their underwear during +44's set lol!
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LOL, I like how all my videos are uploaded on different sites...I dunno why :/
anddd I will surely try to upload my other vids and pics but for now, I needa study and crap D:
- Current Mood:
content
Working at mom's office, going out with my sister, trying to meet friends, taking photographs outside, eating a lot, laying around, procrastinating, trying to study for SAT (but can't lol), and photoshopping have made up my summer so far. Oh, and playing with my dog =) gah, he's adorable ♥. Well, today was different :) me and my family went to see the musical, "Wicked" at Pantages! It was so awesome =) I loved the music and the acting! It was highly superb! I thought it was better than "The Phantom of the Opera" in Las Vegas (I want to see the actual Broadway one though :P). I'm hoping my sister can send me the original soundtrack soon :/ ... so yea, today was a good day ^_^. Tomorrow, I really want to go to the beach, but it seems that everyone's tired from today and my other friends haven't called to go. So I wonder what we will be planning for tomorrow :/. Next week, I have summer school at Mt. Sac (taking Sociology, but, I'm going to try to get into Pyschology). Also, Warped Tour and the Honda Civic Tour is coming up :D so excited! I seriously cannot wait! Although, my parents still haven't really confirmed that I can go to Warped yet :/ and Bonnie hasn't asked so we're kinda stuck now. Anddd, my camera lens seriously needs to get fixed before I go because, I really need pictures D:!
- Current Music:Summertime - MAE
- Current Mood:
sleepy
After yesterday, I felt so relieved and greatfully happy.
You cannot believe how joyous I was until that last bell rang and everyone ran out screaming!
I mean, this year went by so quickly, that I didn't even notice how much time I was there.
Summer vacation is here and I don't even know what I want to do right now :/ these days are going to pass by like *that*! Soon, I'll be testing again and planning for my future...how frightening :(! Suddenly, I don't want high school to end :/ but, I know I must move on and take it like a woman! This summer better be good (considering that I might be going to Warped Tour and the Fall Out Boy show is coming up!) I just hope it lasts long enough...
You cannot believe how joyous I was until that last bell rang and everyone ran out screaming!
I mean, this year went by so quickly, that I didn't even notice how much time I was there.
Summer vacation is here and I don't even know what I want to do right now :/ these days are going to pass by like *that*! Soon, I'll be testing again and planning for my future...how frightening :(! Suddenly, I don't want high school to end :/ but, I know I must move on and take it like a woman! This summer better be good (considering that I might be going to Warped Tour and the Fall Out Boy show is coming up!) I just hope it lasts long enough...
- Current Music:Shoot Down The Stars - Gym Class Heroes
- Current Mood:
blah
Well, nothing much has gone on.
3 more weeks of school and I'm out of here!
I seriously can't wait.
But tonight, as I was showering, it finally hit my head that I was gonna be a senior.
It seems so scary now D: I finally realize this and I dunno what to say!
I mean, it's gonna be my last year here and who knows where I'll be headed next.
UCI? UCR? Cal Poly? Maybe even Mt. Sac?!
The pressure is killing me D:
At least I shouldn't be worried...until the fall starts.
I just want summer to begin so I can lift this heavy weight off for 3 months
...and put it back on later.
Ugh, gtg study for those darn SAT Subject Tests (taking it June 2! aah!)
Hopefully if I study hard enough til Friday, I can see Pirates 3 on Saturday =)!
The anticipation!
3 more weeks of school and I'm out of here!
I seriously can't wait.
But tonight, as I was showering, it finally hit my head that I was gonna be a senior.
It seems so scary now D: I finally realize this and I dunno what to say!
I mean, it's gonna be my last year here and who knows where I'll be headed next.
UCI? UCR? Cal Poly? Maybe even Mt. Sac?!
The pressure is killing me D:
At least I shouldn't be worried...until the fall starts.
I just want summer to begin so I can lift this heavy weight off for 3 months
...and put it back on later.
Ugh, gtg study for those darn SAT Subject Tests (taking it June 2! aah!)
Hopefully if I study hard enough til Friday, I can see Pirates 3 on Saturday =)!
The anticipation!
Apparently, my iron level was too low for today's blood drive D: 11.7! It was suppose to be at least 12.5...just 0.8 more! I'm pretty pissed and sad :/
I was one of the 'walk-ins' and I sat down in line from lunch through most of 6th period :/ I seriously wanted to betch slap someone because, I waited so long just to let the doctor tell me I wasn't eligible. First off, they gave out pizza and other food to keep the nutrition going. So I sat by myself while calling my friends who didn't respond =_= then I found Vanessa who delightedly let me sit in front with her :) afterwards, I forgot to get my I.D. so I ran back to get it. Then I stupidly did not read the booklet that was handed out in the beginning so I went back to read it. The doctor came back and started to do the test for my iron level. It hurt so bad when she pricked it :( she had to check twice because she wasn't sure the 1st time. I felt really disheartened since I wanted to donate blood so badly :( well, at least I got to miss 5th and most of 6th period? I was hoping to go through 7th too lol. I'm still mad but at least I know what to eat now...more vegies, fruits, meat, beans, etc.
Hopefully next year I can do it.
Ugh, and my visual communications power point didn't go so well :/ improvised at the end and Mr. Keith looked unhappy.
I was one of the 'walk-ins' and I sat down in line from lunch through most of 6th period :/ I seriously wanted to betch slap someone because, I waited so long just to let the doctor tell me I wasn't eligible. First off, they gave out pizza and other food to keep the nutrition going. So I sat by myself while calling my friends who didn't respond =_= then I found Vanessa who delightedly let me sit in front with her :) afterwards, I forgot to get my I.D. so I ran back to get it. Then I stupidly did not read the booklet that was handed out in the beginning so I went back to read it. The doctor came back and started to do the test for my iron level. It hurt so bad when she pricked it :( she had to check twice because she wasn't sure the 1st time. I felt really disheartened since I wanted to donate blood so badly :( well, at least I got to miss 5th and most of 6th period? I was hoping to go through 7th too lol. I'm still mad but at least I know what to eat now...more vegies, fruits, meat, beans, etc.
Hopefully next year I can do it.
Ugh, and my visual communications power point didn't go so well :/ improvised at the end and Mr. Keith looked unhappy.
- Current Mood:
crappy - Current Music:Thriller - Fall Out Boy
So I basically went icon crazy making here lol. Thanks to 
icon_tutorial and icontutorials and all those other people who need to be credited with their textures, brushes, etc. <3
Here's the ones I made:
Pete :B
My fave one of Patrick so far =)
The Hush Sound!
Very first one I started with...looks kinda wonky :/ especially since part of Andy's head is not showing lol.
I don't really like how the contrast came out on Patrick but everything else looks cool =]
I really like this one of Paramore ^_^
This one's a little bit wonky too but I still love it =)
My funny one of Andy lol.
My friend :D
My other friend ^_^
I guess if you wanna use any of these, you must ask first...and credit! :D Although, obv. you wouldn't wanna use any of my friend ones except if you are one of 'em lol.
icon_tutorial and icontutorials and all those other people who need to be credited with their textures, brushes, etc. <3Here's the ones I made:
Pete :B
My fave one of Patrick so far =)
The Hush Sound!
Very first one I started with...looks kinda wonky :/ especially since part of Andy's head is not showing lol.
I don't really like how the contrast came out on Patrick but everything else looks cool =]
I really like this one of Paramore ^_^
This one's a little bit wonky too but I still love it =)
My funny one of Andy lol.
My friend :D
My other friend ^_^
I guess if you wanna use any of these, you must ask first...and credit! :D Although, obv. you wouldn't wanna use any of my friend ones except if you are one of 'em lol.
New layout made by minty_peach! Thanks =)
Well, Spring Break is sadly over, and STAR testing is starting tomorrow (but luckily, I have no science class this year, meaning, no Science STAR for me :P Get to go to school by 10 AM! :D).
The Virgina Tech school shooting has been all over the news today...it's making me depressed :( so many students died! I cannot believe it...and all for nothing D: I don't understand. Also, my dad told me there was a crazy man at my mom's office today who looked raggedy and homeless and he had no I.D., info, anything D: he started to pound the counter with his fist and acted really wacked out xO my dad said he had to immediately try to calm him down along with the other assistants. I'm so glad the man didn't have a weapon or else he could've just randomly walked in and killed everyone ToT oh how that would be horrible! My life would have been in ruins D:
I'm so glad they're still alive and that everything is okay.
Oh, and Mr. Root 'accidentally' made a discrepency in my grade again by giving me a C+ because, he didn't put the points I earned for the Origins Essay -_- gosh wth. Now I have a B...that's still bad 'cause this is an easy regular class for me and I should be getting an A or at least an A- D: asljdfs;kfj!
minty_peach! Thanks =)Well, Spring Break is sadly over, and STAR testing is starting tomorrow (but luckily, I have no science class this year, meaning, no Science STAR for me :P Get to go to school by 10 AM! :D).
The Virgina Tech school shooting has been all over the news today...it's making me depressed :( so many students died! I cannot believe it...and all for nothing D: I don't understand. Also, my dad told me there was a crazy man at my mom's office today who looked raggedy and homeless and he had no I.D., info, anything D: he started to pound the counter with his fist and acted really wacked out xO my dad said he had to immediately try to calm him down along with the other assistants. I'm so glad the man didn't have a weapon or else he could've just randomly walked in and killed everyone ToT oh how that would be horrible! My life would have been in ruins D:
I'm so glad they're still alive and that everything is okay.
Oh, and Mr. Root 'accidentally' made a discrepency in my grade again by giving me a C+ because, he didn't put the points I earned for the Origins Essay -_- gosh wth. Now I have a B...that's still bad 'cause this is an easy regular class for me and I should be getting an A or at least an A- D: asljdfs;kfj!
- Current Music:Saosin
- Current Mood:
contemplative
Spring Break ends tomorrow and I'm stumped (lol Patrick...ok sorry. overly obsessive I know!).
So, I started SAT class today with the test and I did HORRIBLE. The essay question was supposedly easy but I had no good facts and I used TMNT as one of them (like huge LOLz right there! xD ahaha). Man, I fail at life. Tomorrow I get to see the results (I bet you I got a 1 outta 12 on that essay hah cuz of my stupid facts and I didn't get into my conclusion).
Well, I went shopping afterwards at the Ontario Mills Mall.
I was hoping to buy a studded belt but they were either size small, medium or they were white (I prefer black obv. xD). But they were only $5.99! UGH. My mom's gonna check some at the swap meet lolz. Then, I went to Hot Topic but they didn't have the FOB tee I wanted so I went out. Then I searched for shoes but they were either too small, expensive, or not the color for me (I was actually about to buy a pair of red flats for $14.99 but decided not to :/). a;klsdfsjf. All I got today was guitar strings and picks at Sam Ash Music. Oh and a new black bandana ;D.
I just want summer to come :(
So, I started SAT class today with the test and I did HORRIBLE. The essay question was supposedly easy but I had no good facts and I used TMNT as one of them (like huge LOLz right there! xD ahaha). Man, I fail at life. Tomorrow I get to see the results (I bet you I got a 1 outta 12 on that essay hah cuz of my stupid facts and I didn't get into my conclusion).
Well, I went shopping afterwards at the Ontario Mills Mall.
I was hoping to buy a studded belt but they were either size small, medium or they were white (I prefer black obv. xD). But they were only $5.99! UGH. My mom's gonna check some at the swap meet lolz. Then, I went to Hot Topic but they didn't have the FOB tee I wanted so I went out. Then I searched for shoes but they were either too small, expensive, or not the color for me (I was actually about to buy a pair of red flats for $14.99 but decided not to :/). a;klsdfsjf. All I got today was guitar strings and picks at Sam Ash Music. Oh and a new black bandana ;D.
I just want summer to come :(
- Current Mood: tired
I just noticed today is Friday the 13th. My bad luck has already begun ToT
So I woke up this morning with my butt and arm hurting like CRAZY! I could barely get up and I had to limp everywhere. It hurts like a mofo D: ughhh! I'm not sure how I got it (but I think I know...).
Then, I went to go get one of those icy patches that kinda helps with the muscle pain so I fetch one of those but I accidentally drop it and then when I get up, I bang my head on the cupboard door. Oh, and there's a ladder inside the kitchen (dad's working on the lights on top)
omg, could this get any worse?
Tomorrow and Sunday, I have SAT class which sucks a lot :( right on the end of my Spring Break (I need more shopping!).
adfjsdkfl;akfj;lsjf!!!!!!!11!!1!!
So I woke up this morning with my butt and arm hurting like CRAZY! I could barely get up and I had to limp everywhere. It hurts like a mofo D: ughhh! I'm not sure how I got it (but I think I know...).
Then, I went to go get one of those icy patches that kinda helps with the muscle pain so I fetch one of those but I accidentally drop it and then when I get up, I bang my head on the cupboard door. Oh, and there's a ladder inside the kitchen (dad's working on the lights on top)
omg, could this get any worse?
Tomorrow and Sunday, I have SAT class which sucks a lot :( right on the end of my Spring Break (I need more shopping!).
adfjsdkfl;akfj;lsjf!!!!!!!11!!1!!
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oh thanks :D but I don't think they saw it D: even if I was near the front :/
lol I was wondering about the 3rd animal too xD Idk what it is D: it looks like a bear to me o_o
Work hard for yourself? Good luck?
I have to wonder though, what is that third animal in your icon? Elephant, lion,...hamster?
You breathed the same air as Wentz! Awesome.
And your sign was a cool idea.