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On Friday I had my most important meeting of the last year - and it went good.
Today I had another important appointment, and it went better than anyone could hope.
My parents took me to Blaze Farm for ice cream afterwards, and it was nice to be a family for a bit.
Tonight I actually have at shot a sleep, for the first time since last Sunday.

Just thought I'd let you know that for once, things were actually swinging my way. For all of five minutes.

I don't want anyone to hurt - I don't understand what's happening, and I don't want to comment properly [and privately, in a way that someone might understand] until I do. But I'm sorry for whatever I may have done...

I don't know if anyone relevant will read this. I think I'm past caring.

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'A gentleman wouldn't say.'

'But sugar, you're no gentleman.'

'Fine then; I think I do.'

'Then you have nothing to worry about. You have eyes that break hearts...'

'I don't want to break hearts, I just want to get to know her.'

'And they say chivalry is dead...'

'...babygirl?'

'Yes sweetheart?'

'You do alot more saving then you think you do.'

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Blue skies make me smile. So do cloudy skies, dark skies, stormy skies and starry skies, but that's beside the point.

Cadbury's chocolate buttons taste better in pairs - maybe it's a drumbeatbassline thing?

Classical instruments in modern songs are never bad.

It is entirely possible to spend £80* while waiting for a bus.

Words sound better once they've been written down.

You can make any song sound epic by listening to it while stood under an arched bridge. Try it.

It takes me 25 minutes to walk from Ashford to my house. It takes 10 minutes in a car and it's national all the way. Go figure.

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'It scares me knowing that you won't be here tomorrow, but I will.'

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I like surprises.

I like halo pictures.

I don't like when things end...especially when there's still questions left to answer.

I act how people treat me.

It upsets me to see other people unhappy or hurt.

I'm scared of sirens and thunder, but not of any other loud noises...

I like driving above a town or village in the dark and looking at all the lights.

My favourite place in the world is a rooftop.

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Sometimes I wake up and I think of everyone that I used to know, and it hurts more than I thought possible. Not just mentally, but real physical pain. 'Like mercury rising'. There's such alot that still reminds me of them - I often feel like I may just fall apart. If it wasn't for the people around me I reckon I actually would.
Some people seem to be able to take life in their stride. It affects me way more than that; if I'm going to do something, I'm going to do it right or wrong. May as well put in the effort, if it's going to take the time - if I'm doing this right, there'll be a trail of destruction and art behind me. Rule number one: Don't look back to check. It's better not to know.
Did you ever think that this [all this] might not be about winning or losing? It's just a passing thought, but maybe [just maybe] it's the time between the starters gun and the finishing line that counts. I don't know if this is a metaphor or an analogy or simply meant to be taken as straight words on paper [screen?]. And if I don't know, you sure as hell aren't going to be able to work it out.

Take this as you will.

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Some people [it would seem] see hope in nothing.
I see hope in everything.

How did we get so polarised?

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There's two things I know for sure:
She was sent here from heaven and she's
Daddy's little girl.
As I drop to my knees by her bed at night
She talks to Jesus and I close my eyes and
I thank god for all the joy in my life
Oh, but most of all
For butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer;
sticking little white flowers all up in her
hair; "Walk beside the pony, Daddy, it's my first ride."
"I know the cake looks funny, Daddy, but I sure tried."
In all that I've done wrong I know I must
have done something right to deserve a hug
every morning and butterfly kisses at night.

Sweet 16 today
She's looking like her mama a little more everyday
One part woman, the other part girl.
To perfume and make-up from ribbons and curls
Trying her wings out in a great big world.

But I remember
Butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer; sticking
little white flowers all up in her hair.
"You know how much I love you, Daddy, But if you
don't mind I'm only gonna kiss you on the cheek this time."
With all that I've done wrong I must have done
something right to deserve her love every morning
and butterfly kisses at night.

All the precious time
Like the wind, the years go by.
Precious butterfly.
Spread your wings and fly.

She'll change her name today.
She'll make a promise and I'll give her away.
Standing in the bride-room just staring at her.
She asked me what I'm thinking and I said "I'm not
sure-I just feel like I'm losing my baby girl."
She leaned over...gave me butterfly kisses with her mama there,
Sticking little white flowers all up in her hair
"Walk my down the aisle, Daddy - it's just about time."
"Does my wedding gown look pretty, Daddy? Daddy, don't cry!"

Oh, with all that I've done wrong I must have
done something right.
To deserve your love every morning and butterfly
kisses - I couldn't ask God for more, man this is what love is.

I know I gotta let her go, but I'll always remember
every hug in the morning and butterfly kisses.